October 28, 2015, cloudy

Mr. Angry, it may be because I see Chu Tianhe as you every day, but when I see him eating takeout every day, I feel a little distressed in my heart. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

I still remember last year, around this time, seeing you eat takeout every day, I was also distressed, and I really wanted to cook it myself and cook a delicious meal for you.

But at that time, I couldn't even scramble an egg, let alone cook a meal for you.

Then, after a year of hard work, my cooking skills have improved a lot, and I can't say how good my cooking is, but at least I can guarantee that you can eat the food without frowning.

It's just that when I can already cook, you ......

Today, I don't know what's wrong, so I got up early in the morning and cooked a few dishes for Chu Tianhe to bring over, wanting him to taste my craftsmanship.

Of course, I didn't tell him that I did it, I just lied to him that I bought it by the way.

His evaluation of the dish is also quite special, he said: "This dish is not particularly delicious, but it is definitely worthy of the word 'home-cooked'." ”

I didn't quite understand what he meant, but seeing that he ate all the dishes, he must still be very satisfied with my cooking.

After returning home, I thought about it carefully, what I did today may really be just because of the regret in my heart.

Mr. Angry, I want you to taste my cooked food, even if it's just a bite!

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November 1, 2015, cloudy

Mr. Angry, now I have developed a habit of getting up early every day to cook vegetables and bring them to Chu Tianhe.

Watching him eat with relish, I will imagine him as you, and then my heart will be very happy.

I feel that this kind of behavior is really naïve!

By imagination, you can be happy like this, so if you really sit there and eat the food I cooked, I can't be crazy with joy?

I like this kind of childish thing, though. Hehe, you understand, right?

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November 3, 2015, rain

Mr. Angry, I'm in a daze again today, I can't remember how many times this is?

Hehe, I feel like I'm almost hopeless.

November 4, 2015, light rain

Angry sir, I'm embarrassed this time.

When I was delivering coffee to Chu Tianhe today, I was in a daze again.

I don't know how long I've been standing there, but when I came back to my senses and was about to hand the cup of coffee in my hand to Chu Tianhe, I found that the cup of coffee had lost a little heat.

I didn't even have time to get the coffee back, and it was already snatched away by that damn Chu Tianhe.

This made me panic all of a sudden, and I hurried out of the study.

I always thought that he should have noticed that I was in a daze, but he didn't say it explicitly.

I'm panicking now, and I don't know how I'm going to defend myself if he asks about it.

November 5, 2015, light rain

Today, I went to work in a panic for a day, always deliberately avoiding Chu Tianhe, afraid that he would ask me questions.

Fortunately, at the end of the day, he didn't ask any strange questions, and still sat in front of the computer and wrote as usual, which made me feel a little more relieved.

Am I too sensitive? Did this Chu Tianhe really not notice the abnormality?

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November 7, 2015, light rain

I feel like I'm being a thief at work for the past two days, and my heart is very empty.

But fortunately, there is no major movement in Chu Tianhe, and the daily life remains the same, it seems that I may really be too sensitive.

However, even at such a sensitive moment, I still can't stop my delirium from wandering, and I still get distracted from time to time, hoping that Chu Tianhe will not find out.

I really want to quit this bad habit, but I just can't. Because every time the mind wanders, it is an instinctive reaction, and reason can't control it at all.

It was as if he was defending himself.

In fact, if you really want to control it, you should be able to control it, but I don't want to control it from the bottom of my heart.

I just like that image, I like to wander my mind and let myself into fantasy, I just like to immerse myself in memories, I just like you, Mr. Angry.

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November 9, 2015, light rain

Angry sir, you know what? Chu Tianhe is really a very strange guy.

When he got up today, his face was very bad, he felt sick, and he had no appetite for eating, so I was worried about whether he was sick.

As a result, instead of letting me accompany him to the hospital, I was asked to accompany him to Nantang Old Street.

The weirdest thing is that he originally looked like a patient, but after eating a box of ash juice balls, he suddenly became refreshed, and he felt like he had eaten some elixir, which was too incredible.

This Chu Tianhe is really a not normal guy.

In addition to being weird, I was also very depressed today, and Chu Tianhe had really found out that I was in a daze.

While drinking coffee in the café, Chu Tianhe asked me about the reason for my mind wandering.

Although I flatly denied it, blocking the question, it was clear that the matter had caught his attention. It seems that the time has come for me to be ruthless and quit this bad habit of wandering.

By the way, Mr. Angry, I also asked Chu Tianhe a question about the inner likeness.

I wanted to ask him a question a long time ago, but I never found a chance, so I asked him for advice because I had a good opportunity today.

His answer is also very simple, people's personality and taste will have an impact on people's living habits and work style, so people with similar personalities and tastes will naturally follow their living habits and work styles.

It sounded reasonable, but I always felt that something was wrong, but I couldn't say what was wrong.

What do you think, Mr. Angry? If it were you, how would you answer?

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November 12, 2015, light rain

Ever since Chu Tianhe found out that I was in a daze, I began to consciously control my behavior.

The results seem to be good, at least there haven't been any more daze-stray things in the past two days. If it does, it must be inadvertently and briefly.

Alas, although it is easy to say, it is actually more difficult than you think.

Every time I see Chu Tianhe working hard there, I will think of you reflexively, and then I will unconsciously see him as you. This whole reaction process has almost developed into my instinct.

Trying to stop this instinct from happening is really hard and painful.

Every time I have to go through a struggle, I feel like I'm wandering between angels and demons.

This kind of mental pressure weighs me down so tired, and I feel like I'm almost out of breath.

Angry sir, what should I do? Where is my path? Where do I go from here?

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