Auditory hallucinations are illusory perceptions that appear in the auditory organs, and are one of the common symptoms of mental patients, especially in schizophrenia. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

In the early stage of the symptoms of auditory hallucinations in patients with schizophrenia, there will be a small number of monotonous auditory hallucinations, and the patient will begin to be suspicious of the sound that comes out of thin air, but with the aggravation of the disease, the amount of auditory hallucinations gradually increases, and the content of auditory hallucinations is gradually enriched and extremely realistic, the patient will lose a certain degree of self-awareness at this time, he can tell how many people appear in the auditory hallucinations, whether it is a male voice or a female voice, and whether the voice is a familiar person or an unknown person. It is even possible to tell an extremely realistic story based on auditory hallucinations.

In the imperative auditory hallucinations, the patient often says that he hears that so-and-so wants to commit suicide by himself, or that he hears that so-and-so wants to kill someone by himself, and the patient will not be able to distinguish between reality and illusion under long-term auditory hallucinations, and then do things that are incomprehensible.

Li Jiawen knew that he had been under a lot of pressure in the past three years, but he didn't believe that he would become a schizophrenic, that everything couldn't be auditory hallucinations, he was going to Longhu Mountain to find immortals, he told himself that it was not because he was cornered, but because it was all fate.

All the frustration and despair are just that God deliberately forced him into a desperate situation, and a person can only be reborn in a desperate situation.

And the problem now is that he is penniless and has no way to buy a ticket back to Longhu Mountain.

In the past three years, he has used up the trust of his friends, he is in debt, but he can't pay it back, and his once dearest friends are also afraid to pick up his phone, not because the world is cold, but because Li Jiawen is too disappointing.

He looked at the phone book on his phone, wondering who could trust him again, but he couldn't seem to find it.

Those who stayed were his former best friends, these people had never collected debts from him, and even sent him blessings during the New Year's holidays, Li Jiawen had no face to borrow money from them again.

But if he didn't have money, he might have to miss this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, Li Jiawen gritted his teeth and decided to try again, he dialed a number.

The phone rang for a long time, and the person on the other end should have been struggling to answer the phone, but in the end, the phone still went through!

Li Jiawen was subconsciously happy when the phone could get through, but when the words came to his mouth, he couldn't speak.

He sighed and said, "Jiawen, my wife is about to give birth, and I have a salary of more than 3,000 a month, and my wife can't go to work with a strong stomach, and now the rent alone is more than 700, and after deducting other expenses of me and my wife, I can't even save the child's milk powder money." ”

Li Jiawen's heart sank, and he whispered: "Xiaotu, I'm sorry, I didn't even know that your wife was going to give birth." ”

Then a woman's angry voice came from the other end of the phone: "Is that shameless Li Jiawen again?" You ask him, when will the money he owes us be paid? I've borrowed it for more than two years, and if I don't pay it back, I'm really going to live at his house! ”

"Be quiet, Gavin is my buddy, you are not allowed to say that about him!"

"Why should I be quiet, he doesn't do his job and borrows money to speculate in stocks, and he's afraid of people saying it? Why, you still dare to make a face with me? Don't you want to get past it? Doesn't this kid want it anymore? Why am I so miserable to marry such a useless man as you......"

Li Jiawen listened to the noise on the phone, and his heart ached faintly, and then he hurriedly hung up the phone, but he didn't have the courage to make another call.

He smiled self-deprecatingly, remembering a sentence he had often said to his friends in the past few years, I only borrowed five hundred, borrowed not much, and I will pay it back next week, but he borrowed five hundred from all his friends at one time, and then within a few days, he called one by one, and still only borrowed five hundred, borrowed not much, and really repaid it next week.

"I'm such a brute!"

Li Jiawen muttered in a low voice, and he sat under the street lamp with a wry smile.

The dim street lamp shone on his slightly emaciated back, and his fluffy and messy hair was already covering his eyes because he hadn't cut it for a long time.

A cold wind blew, and the city, which was full of high-rise buildings, also lost all its temperature, and could only shiver in the cold winter.

No one abandoned me, only blamed me for doing too much wrong, and what am I doing now, first opportunistic and trying to rely on stock speculation once and for all, and now I am full of absurdity thinking that I can hear the gods speak, I am crazy, I am really crazy.

Li Jiawen hid his face and cried, so cowardly, why am I so cowardly, can't I be stronger?

Go for a job and spend ten, twenty, or even thirty years to pay off the debt, but can this work, in addition to his friend's money, he also borrowed usury, and those people collect debts every day, eager to sell Li Jiawen's organs, how can they give Li Jiawen ten years.

There's no way back, there's really no way back, if it's all just auditory hallucinations, then let me become a madman, maybe become a madman, but I can find a way out.

Li Jiawen gritted his teeth, and then turned out a number he hadn't contacted for a long time.

The owner of the number is called Song Sha'er.

I remember that year, many people had a crush on Song Sha'er, because she was very beautiful, but she was also very powerful, whenever Li Jiawen accidentally saw her eyes, she would feel that she had a sharp knife hidden in her eyes, which made people want to get close but didn't dare to get too close, and the most direct manifestation of her strength was that the male classmates who confessed to her were ruthlessly ridiculed by her, even Li Jiawen's three roommates were no exception, and Xiaotu was also one of them.

Li Jiawen clearly remembers that Song Sha'er ridiculed Xiaotu for having a face that can eat 20 steamed buns in a meal, but he wanted to find a girlfriend who only eats fruit every day, and the fat pig and the snake spirit also want to fall in love, what do you think about making a fantasy movie?

Xiaotu was scolded for going on a hunger strike at that time, and he was reduced from a fat man of more than 200 pounds to a sturdy young man of more than 100 pounds, but even this could not get Song Sha'er's eyes, and at that time, Li Jiawen was the only boy in the class who had not confessed to Song Sha'er.

However, on Li Jiawen's twenty-first birthday, his roommates got Li Jiawen drunk, and Li Jiawen after being drunk and Li Jiawen before he was drunk are completely two people.

And Li Jiawen, who is drunk, will expose the little ambitions in his head, and say at every turn that he wants to become the second old horse before the age of thirty, and the girlfriend he is looking for is either Xiong Dailin or Fan Bingbing, Song Sha'er and the like can only be used as a second wife, and she is only pampered once a week, unless she asks him, otherwise she is ruthless and never nostalgic.

The roommates recorded what Li Jiawen said when he was drunk and posted it to the class WeChat group, which exploded a group of diving. goods, Song Sha'er, waiting for Song Sha'er to come with a wonderful reply.

Sure enough, Song Sha'er said so.

Before drinking, it was a dead dog, and I didn't dare to do it in front of you when I stripped naked, and after I drank it, I was a mad dog, and you dared to leak electricity from the telephone pole, if you dare to come to class tomorrow, I would dare to go to the men's toilet to block you, you little red guy!

After Li Jiawen woke up, he hid in the dormitory like a dead dog for a week.

It seems to be very interesting to play like this, and when it came to Xiaotu's birthday, the three of them took turns to pour Li Jiawen, and one by one their mobile phones had already opened the recording software, waiting for Li Jiawen to make a big show of foreign appearance.

Sure enough, Li Jiawen, who had been drunk for three rounds, roared into his mobile phone: "Song Sha'er, Lao Tzu is now at the door of the Seven Days Chain Hotel outside the school, you can come if you have a kind, Lao Tzu is waiting for you in the open room!" ”

Song Sha'er went with chili water, according to Xiaotu, that night Li Jiawen got started, and he attacked his chest and kissed his mouth, of course, Li Jiawen lay in the hospital for three days after that.

After that, Li Jiawen and Song Sha'er couldn't tell each other, some people said that the two might not know each other and wanted to be together, but the two never admitted it, but after graduation, Li Jiawen and Song Sha'er rented and lived together.

In fact, Li Jiawen can't tell if he is Song Sha'er's boyfriend, just like Song Sha'er said, Li Jiawen was a dead dog before drinking, she stripped naked and stood in front of him, he didn't dare to do it, so he didn't do it, and he didn't admit it verbally, it's just a shared house, so he should only be half a boyfriend.

After Li Jiawen started to speculate in stocks, he was very cold to Song Sha'er, because Song Sha'er kept persuading him, telling him not to fall into the mud, there is no free bread in this world, but at that time, Li Jiawen couldn't listen to it, thinking that Song Sha'er didn't believe that he could do something big, and when Li Jiawen lost nothing, he felt that he had no face to be with Song Sha'er again, so he secretly moved out while Song Sha'er was at work.

After that, Song Shaer kept calling Li Jiawen, but Li Jiawen never answered, so Song Shaer changed to writing text messages, and in the past few years, she still sent a text message to Li Jiawen every few days.

Song Sha'er's character is like this, she can use the most vicious words to mock anyone, but once she identifies someone, she will spend her whole life waiting and guarding, but the more she is like this, the more Li Jiawen feels ashamed of her in his heart, he is already a waste, he doesn't want to involve Song Sha'er.

At that time, Song Sha'er learned from Xiaotu that Li Jiawen was borrowing money everywhere, so she took the initiative to use WeChat to transfer her salary to Li Jiawen, Li Jiawen immediately blocked Song Sha'er's WeChat, and threatened to block her mobile phone number if she did it again, and since then, he has never paid attention to Song Sha'er, and Song Sha'er has been inquiring about Li Jiawen's news from Xiaotu and them.

Li Jiawen knew that as long as he opened his mouth, then Song Sha'er would definitely help him.

"Do you want to make this call?" Li Jiawen held his mobile phone and looked at the night sky melancholy: "Whether you are there or not, even if it is my auditory hallucination, can you give me a hint?" ”

In the dark night sky, I don't know what secrets are hidden in the deepest and darkest distances.

A snowflake fell.

It rarely snows in the city.

In the invisible place, someone walked lightly, and every inch of space he walked through would be covered with heavy snow.

"All people will die, but I will not die, because my heart is as hard as iron and cold as ice."