I shook my head helplessly and persuaded: "Haven't you heard that men become bad when they are rich, now you only pay attention to material enjoyment, and you and Yun Heng have no real love at all." Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 info To put it bluntly, your love is just to take what you need, or even a transaction, a marriage without love is unstable and not long-lasting, if Yun Heng changes his mind in the future and abandons you, you will have nothing. ”

Yiqing said calmly: "I know, but who can guarantee that if I marry a rural guy, he will not change his mind." Since whoever I marry is likely to encounter a marriage change, why don't I choose someone who is rich. There is a saying, called 'poor and lowly couples mourn everything', so I don't want to be willing to be poor, besides, the so-called true love must last. Like Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, Jiao Zhongqing and Liu Lanzhi, Jia Baoyu and Lin Daiyu, they all love each other so much, but they all ended up with a tragic ending, how can this be explained? ”

I stared at Yiqing intently, silent, it turned out that Yiqing was really a girl who was greedy for vanity, I didn't blame her, I didn't hate her, she had her choice, I was powerless to save her, it was better to die completely.

Yiqing and I looked at each other for a long time, Yiqing sighed lightly, and said with tears in her eyes: "Lan Ze, I'm sorry, I love you, but I really can't be with you, don't blame me, blame, just blame this society for being too realistic, you, you can't give me what I want." ”

With these words again, my thoughts drifted back to a few months ago, Jia Yao's words were still in my ears, "Who do you think you are, what do you have, do you have a building, do you have a car, what can you give me, the life I want, you can't give it." ”

The pain of the cone, I felt the pain of the cone again, I couldn't give the life that the girl I loved wanted, I could only let go and let her fall into the arms of others.

Thinking of this, I stood up, and my voice was a little choked: "Yiqing, you're right, it's me who is wrong, I'm very wrong, I just say that I'm incompetent, I can't give you the life you want, I can only break up with you." ”

After that, I turned around and wanted to leave, but I got up and hugged me from behind, with my head on my back, and Yiqing cried and said, "Lan Ze, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for you." ”

I didn't break free, I just choked up and said, "It's me who is sorry for you." Yiqing didn't let go, still holding me tightly, and after a while, I forcefully parted Yiqing's clenched arms and walked forward firmly.

Yiqing cried loudly in the back, "Lan Ze, I'm sorry. When I heard this, I couldn't bear it, so I turned around again, looked at her pear blossom with rain expression, couldn't help but return to my footsteps, walked in front of her, met her crystal gaze, and held her in my arms, and there was an irrepressible fire in my heart. At this time, my reason seemed to have been lost, and I kissed Yiqing's lips furiously.

At that moment, I felt that my breath was so hot and hot, and I kissed Yiqing like this.

After the kiss, my consciousness gradually cleared up, oh my God, what am I doing, this girl in front of me, she is the girl who has slept with my best buddy ever, I actually kissed her passionately just now.

Why? Could it be that deep down in my heart, I still don't give up on Yiqing, no, it's not like this, it's just an impulse. Yes, it was just an impulsive act of insanity.

Yiqing and I were a little embarrassed by each other, we hung our heads and said to each other, and after a while, Yiqing said to me: "From now on, you will forget me, and I will forget you, just because we have never known each other." ”

I wanted to say in my heart: after the breakup, we can still be friends. But when I thought about it, what is the use of this sentence, it is just a lie to deceive oneself. What Yiqing said is good, but it's better when we have never known each other, but how easy is it to forget a relationship?

I nodded silently, turned around and strode away, this time, Yiqing didn't keep me anymore, and I didn't look back, just walked forward as always, my mind was full of unforgettable memories.

The past is unbearable, I think of the scene of me and Jia Yao laughing and laughing, the scene of me and Jia Yao breaking up sadly, the scene of Yiqing and me visiting the temple fair, and the scene of Yiqing and Yun Heng together a few days ago......

Love, what a beautiful dream, but also how easily broken. My heart was tangled and wounded, and it turned out that it was always me who was self-inflicted.

I originally thought that as long as I gave enough sincerity, I could get the same sincerity from my girlfriend; I originally thought that love was very simple, just two people who fell in love. However, I was wrong, I was very wrong, and the experience of two failed love made me realize clearly: love without material foundation is just a cloud of smoke, and when the wind blows, it will be dispersed.

I thought: If I have no material foundation, then I can only walk alone to the end of the desert of love, which is the cruel reality.

At the same time, in the past few months, I have thought a lot, I think about how to give myself an accurate position, in other words, what kind of person am I?

In all fairness, I am good-natured, good-looking, and law-abiding. Although I am sometimes prone to being impulsive and frustrated with some social realities, I consider myself a good person.

I don't smoke, I rarely drink, and I've never been in and out of bars, song halls, nightclubs, and other entertainment venues. Outsiders' impression of me is that I am honest and loyal, but I am defeated in the chess game of love.

I feel a deep sorrow that such a good person has fallen into such a fate, and this sorrow is indescribable. I just felt like my life needed to change, and I had to be stronger to have more of what I craved.

Jia Yao and Yi Qing left me one after another, which made me constantly reflect, and at first, I thought that they both abandoned me because of greed and vanity. Later, I thought deeply and decided to find the reason from myself, on the surface, because my family was average, powerless, but actually because I couldn't give them the life they wanted.

What do they want? They want a decent life. What is decency? There is a room to live in, a car to sit in when you go out, you are dressed very fashionably, and the quality of life is high.

And I, why can't I give them the life they want, because I have no money, I have a meager salary, and I am engaged in a career with no future. Think about it, how can a girl marry a workshop worker or a delivery worker have a decent life.

Engaging in such work, as it has been for decades, will not develop much at all. And they can see through my life in the next few decades at a glance, how can they be willing to accompany me to endure hardships and hardships, I can't even give them a glimmer of hope, and I can't guarantee their future at all, so they can only abandon me.

I shook my head and sighed, this is how life is! If you want to blame, you can only blame yourself for being incompetent! (To be continued.) )