I've always been domineering in love, Jieyu said to me, whoever marries me is really blind, what man is willing to sleep with a tomboy in his arms every night?!

I now understand that the reason why my short time with Hu Xiaodong suffered from gains and losses was not only because I lacked a sense of security, but also because I understood too late.

Before this, I never understood why Hu Xiaodong's temper was always extremely irritable, he lost his temper with me every once in a while, he always looked at the opposite sex around me unpleasantly, he would punch others when he was idle, and he was always angry for no reason. If I had understood that these expressions were all extreme displays of affection from him, I would not have asked him to hold her hand.

I finally understood, and it didn't hurt so much to remember, but I finally lost it

In my brief time with him, my mouth was turning over and over his name, both good and bad.

Xiao Ke told me that one person's mouth repeatedly recited another person's name, and the subtext was nothing more than one: I love TA.

It's like Zhang Ailing fell in love with Hu Lancheng, and once said: When she saw him, she became very low, low to the dust, but she was happy in her heart, and flowers bloomed from the dust.

We all used to think that this kind of love was pure. But we only noticed the beginning and didn't pay attention to the end, and in the end, the love between Zhang Ailing and Hu Lancheng ended miserably under Hu Lancheng's betrayal, and Zhang Ailing's writing career came to an abrupt end.

The story of these two people is like a description of each other.

It's just that she stopped writing at the end of love, and I became a poet at the end of love.

I finally have a better understanding of life, the so-called life, is to lose while growing.

I decided to write a novel, a novel in which Hu Xiaodong participated.

If I had understood at the time, I would never have given up to Hu Xiaodong at his engagement ceremony.

If I had understood at the time, I would have taken his hand and walked well.

If I had understood at the time, I would not have allowed him to fall in love with someone else.

If I had understood at the time, I would have been a little bird, and I would never continue to be cold.

I finally figured it out and understood, but in the end, I ended up not even seeing his identity anymore.

Looking back on the growth process after marriage, it seems that Gong Xiaoyi coped with the sentence: A bad man will make a woman grow.

But Hu Xiaodong let me understand.

In fact, in the past eight years, Gong Xiaoyi has been accustomed to seeing me, from the inside out, from top to bottom, I am transparent in Gong Xiaoyi's eyes and heart, even if I am a little careful, he will see through it, perhaps, because he understands me too well. He understands my strengths and weaknesses, and the more people who understand you, the more they understand where that knife is deadly.

I used to be stupid in Gong Xiaoyi's world, my no makeup, yawning, clumsiness, pillow saliva, stupid expression, and daily life of committing two crimes, all of which he could see.

He said I was the cutest woman in the world. I was laid out in front of him.

Later, it was this person who understood me best, the person who made me feel the most appropriate, who turned me into the most independent person.

Since I came back from Tibet, I have started a journey of coding words day and night.

I can't drown in love like Xiao Ke and Jie Yu, and I have no other way to vent than express my memories.

The next time I saw my dad was at the breakfast shop next street to the neighborhood.

It was this serendipity that determined my life.

In my memory, my dad has always been the most invincible man in the world, he is the person I love the most, the person I respect. He is a wealthy businessman with a net worth of billions, a model admired by everyone, he is the most competent father in the world, and he is a philanthropist who donates money to help poor mountainous areas every year.

Since my mother died, he is my only relative in this world, and he regards Xiao Xuan'er as his life.

No matter what happened to our family, no matter how much I didn't understand, no matter what he did wrong, he was my only father in this world after all, and he was my father.

When I saw him again after three months, his gray hair was unbridled, and it seemed that the old man hadn't dyed his hair for a long time.

He wears coarse cloth and coarse clothes, and he doesn't have the style of a chairman, especially the way he orders a meal, he is a mediocre old man.

I stood in the distance and quietly watched him. Distressed.

I looked around and didn't find his car, so I was sure he should have walked to the breakfast shop.

Tears rolled down my eyes, what did this old man go through in just a few months? What happened in the days without me? Did he really quit with carte blanche out? How will he support himself in the future?

I'm worried, I'm upset, I'm distressed.

Because of this old man, I have lived in a privileged environment since I was a child.

I am his hope, and he loves me so much that anyone is jealous.

In the eyes of others, I am a princess who was born with a luxury car and a mansion, but in my heart, my dad is just my dad, even if everyone looks at him with their heads held high, but I can still make all the demands on him, I like my dad the most and say: "Buy whatever you like!" Just buy! ”

When I was young, I could sit on his shoulder, hold hands with him, watch TV on his belly, and compete with him for channels without fear.

He didn't allow me to get hurt a little bit, he didn't allow his daughter to have no quality of life. In his concept, every one of his qiē is mine.

And I could only stand and watch him out of sight.

This qiē is even faster, and I have not woken up from the failure of love to accept the change of family affection. What is a qiē that has ever happened? I want to ask my little mom.

When the old man married his little mother and entered the door, my heart refused, but I hope that the old man will be taken care of, and I respect all the old man's choices.

In my heart, my dad was a god, and he never failed. In my mind, he is an executive who can control the fate of others. But today, he is like this, I am very distressed, I dare not imagine that a high-ranking chairman is sitting on the side of the road eating buns alone at the moment, whether his heart is tumbling.

I want to go over and sue him. "Dad, come with me, and I'll raise you from now on." But I'm afraid he will refuse. He has always been too good-looking. Even every time I give him a gift, he will pay me back a hundredfold and a thousand times.

I quietly turned around. Let's go, what else can I do?

I always dropped the chain at the critical moment, and even my mind began to jam when I was most helpless. How I wish I had a close friend by my side at this moment, even if they are dumber than me, at least they can have a shoulder at this moment.

But I didn't.

Xiao Ke and Jie Yu are addicted to love and can't extricate themselves, and they don't even answer my phone, let alone see a person.

Before going to bed, Xiao Xuan'er asked me, "Mommy, when are we going to grandma's house?" I miss my grandfather. ”

I turned around, tears quietly soaking the pillow towel, and I tried to steady my feelings before I spoke. "From tomorrow onwards, I will raise you. It won't be long before I get a bigger house. In the big house live Xiao Xuan'er, Xiao Xuan'er's mother and Xiao Xuan'er's grandfather."

"What about Grandma?"

I was silent for a long time, and before Xiao Xuan'er fell asleep, I said, "Of course there must be a grandmother." When Mom has enough ability, we will have a good day, just like in a fairy tale."

Since then, I have been stuck in a long road, and once I have a goal, I am closer to hope.

In addition to picking up Xiao Xuan'er to school, I prepare three meals a day at home, and the rest of the time, I use all the codewords.

Zhou Xiaoshuai called me many times to praise me, and praised me unashamedly. "Look at the stories you write, and I can smell the smell of money."

Half a year later, I went to the company with the finished work, and Zhou Xiaoshuai told me: "Our company has been in a recession recently, and I'm afraid I don't have the ability to complete your work." ”

"When I signed the contract, I signed the full version, and you said that there was no financial condition to shoot the work, which is too irresponsible for me."

"Xiao Dai, when you signed it, we monopolized your copyright with a one-time appraisal and paid you a lot. As for whether to shoot or not, it depends on the current market. You know, it's been a very quiet year for the Marché du Film this year."

"I said I had to shoot it!" I interrupted Zhou Xiaoshuai mercilessly.

"Then you go and invest!" Zhou Xiaoshuai leaned calmly on the corner of the sofa, with a look of letting me fend for myself.

I angrily waved the plan in my hand and walked out of our company building.

As the saying goes, blessing and misfortune are not a single line, and I can accurately sit down for this.

The benches across the road really attracted me, and my tired body needed a place to settle down at the moment. I can't wait, and the exhaustion in my heart at this moment is really not worth mentioning compared to the exhaustion of my body. has been repeatedly frustrated, and these four words are simply left by future generations for me.

There is a dawn on the other side that beckons me, and when there is no hope, even the light from the lightbox will resemble the glowing giggling circle on the head of an angel.

I stepped out of my foot full of joy, and as a result, the heel of my 'click' shoe broke, and I was just about to rejoice that I still had one foot to jump on, but when I jumped, I ran out barefoot, and the shoe was still in place, and when I looked back, even the only shoe I had left was about to be forced to stop.

Even the humble wish to rest across the road was shattered, so I could only walk barefoot on the road with my shoes on my face and face in disgrace, and I couldn't even see a taxi in the middle of the night.

The empty streets, the hideous darkness of the night, the more you go forward, the more empty you feel, the more you think about it, the more you feel that you can sing and cry, your marriage fails, your love fails, and even the script company that signed in advance has no money to invest. Now that I think back to the time when I used the words of comfort to others, I couldn't even compare to the effect of a fart, and other people's farts could also affect the air index.

The further I walked, the heavier I felt, and I always felt that it was because of the load on one of the parts on my body, and I groped around for a while, and finally my eyes fell on the shoes in my hand. It's stupid, the shoes are broken, the feet are bare, but the shoes are not willing to be lost. It's really ironic, the wry smile at this moment is all to set off his own persistence, and it is stupid to say that it is ugly.

I threw out my shoes with all my strength, "whoosh" and "bang" just hit the whistling Lamborghini, and with my winning rate, why didn't you give me a little good.

I froze in an instant, and the Lamborghini I hit slammed on the brakes. I guess it was because the owner saw that I didn't have the slightest remorse and hung up. The owner of the car quickly reversed, and retreated to my side with a "whoosh".

I hurriedly walked around this-yellow Lamborghini to see its injuries, stroking the body while thinking about what to do for a while, what if this owner is unscrupulous and does not ask for compensation but only asks me to dedicate himself, this night in the dead of night, I am a weak woman who is powerless

"Sister-in-law! It turned out to be you! ”

I looked frustrated and terrified. "Why are you?"

"That's right! Is it me? How are you barefoot? What about your shoes? "The guy sat in the car and stared at my feet.

I was like eating a piece of bread with sticky, and while I was lucky enough to have a free meal, I regretted why I ate it.

It's like the wolf howl that startles me now. "You're not with Brother Xiaodong? I thought he was quitting to see you! ”

Is there any logic in this world?

On this night when I would rather die than give in, I opened my bloody mouth and told him: "I tell you, my mother is single!" Not close to men! Who are you talking about Xiaodong, your uncle?! ”

But in my heart, it's not what I say, I'm just thinking that Hu Xiaodong is also in Beijing.