The moment I stepped into the hospital, I saw the stretcher being pushed into the elevator in a hurry, and the people who hid their faces and cried bitterly, but in fact, what I saw the most was the anxious faces.

Xiao Xuan'er leaned on my shoulder, looking frightened.

"Mommy, are they going to die?" When passing by the rescue room, Xiao Xuan'er asked me.

"Definitely not! Every life is protected by God. ”

No matter how stubborn I may be, comfort is nothing more than a disguise of kindness, because we all know very well that someone will die when someone comes in this world.

In the occasional long corridor that bustles like a street market, you can vaguely hear someone sighing and angry in a deliberately evasive tone: "No matter how reasonable you say about the distribution of the inheritance, it will be pale and powerless in front of the posthumous writing." Have the ability to ask the old man to write your name on the suicide note! ”

Then there was a pause for a few seconds, and another voice was raised. "Say it as if you have a way!"

"Shhhh The third voice seemed to be nervous.

As we slowly approached to make out the interlocutor's appearance, I stumbled upon the man standing on the other side of the room, listening to the conversation of the three men with his head down, and I saw that he looked about sixty years old.

He sighed and looked up, just in time to see me. The originally disappointed look instantly changed to embarrassment.

At this time, a nurse came up and called out the name of a patient, and then said in the direction of the three men, "His family please come and pay the hospitalization fee." ”

The three people who were originally whispering first looked at each other for a second, and then you pushed me and prevaricated for a long time.

"I'm not going! You're the boss, you go! ”

The man who smoked the cigarette threw it away so hard that he stomped it out on his tiptoes. "I'm not going either!"

Xiao Xuan'er tugged at my clothes and asked me in a low voice, "Is that grandfather hiding inside their father?" ”

"It should be!"

"Mommy, I will never become like them in the future, I will always love you."

Turning the hallway, I quietly handed my wallet to Ke. "Please run again, Ke."

"The two of us thought of going to Sister Xiao Dai together."

Death may want to kiss everyone, but God will favor the good. Our starting points may be different, but the intention of doing so is to hope that this old man can go on well with our modest help.

Coming out of the orthopedic department, Xiao Xuan'er has been emphasizing in my ear with bad intentions. "Did you hear that, Uncle Doctor said don't force me to walk, you must wait until I feel okay before letting me try to walk, so please trouble Mommy to continue to carry me on."

"But I don't think I was the one who asked for the plaster cast to be removed!"

"It's me! But after removing it, I always feel like my feet are not mine, Mommy! ”

"Is the foot on your body someone else's?"

"You talk!" She covered my mouth with all her might.

"What's the difference between this and when it wasn't demolished?! Oh my God! "Oh my God, I feel like the universe is getting dark. I lost to a little girl who was still in kindergarten, which made my IQ face the great me.

"Don't you feel a lot lighter?"

I glared at her, and she pretended not to see and warned me with a very tugging look. "You! Table! Want! Speak! Then she quickly covered my mouth, and no matter how hard I struggled, she would cover my mouth tightly. In fact, to be honest, I was close to breaking down at that time.

During the time I walked to the gate of the hospital with the heavy little Xuan'er in my arms, a lot of memories flashed in my mind, and it seemed that since I said goodbye to Hu Xiaodong, I seemed to have become sloppy, and my dress and makeup became casual.

It seems that he can no longer find the head held high and the appearance of triumph.

I walked out of the outpatient building with difficulty, and Xiao Ke ran over in a hurry, as if she was about to collapse, and before I could ask her if she had gone to the wrong floor and just came out of the morgue, she said to me with a slap on her face. "I'll tell you, I didn't spend a penny on the hospitalization fee!"

"No flowers? The old man is not hospitalized, huh? ”

"Didn't we hear the nurse call the old man's name when we were passing by?"

"Yes! Is your name Jin Jianhao? ”

"Yes! But that's not the crux of the matter. The point is that the money was paid before I went!"

"The old man's son doesn't look like a man who compromises easily! Did you just look away? "I was surprised.

"I heard it was paid by a woman of our age!"

"Forget it, this matter is settled anyway, let's go back!"

On the way, I asked Xiao Ke if this happened to our parents or if it happened to me decades later, would he be as indifferent as the old man.

Xiao Ke replied to me, having money is king, you can pay for it yourself when you are sick, you can buy what you want, and you can spend money to hire people if you can't do it.

My sorrow instantly boiled, and after a moment of silence, I muttered to myself, even if I had everything, if it was really to the point where the children cared about what they could get instead of themselves, then they would definitely feel that they had lived in vain. I have dedicated my life to my children."

Ke turned his face to look at me. "That kind of thing doesn't happen in our lives."

My daughter asked me very sadly, "Mommy, I don't want to grow up, I don't want to see your gray hair." If I don't grow up, you won't grow old. If I don't grow up, you won't make me sad like that grandpa, will you? ”

Hearing Xiao Xuan'er say this to me, looking at her innocent and melancholy look, I actually laughed out loud.

That old man used to be like me now, as long as the child grows up healthy and healthy, even if the passage of time is not what he wants. After all, it's all about dedicating your life.

More memories of my dad poured out in my mind, the way he was angry at me, the way he laughed at me, the way he always asked his mother to pass on the word, the way he worried about me, the way he felt sorry for me, and the way he doted on me.

Although, I grew up and he got older, the memories never left, and his love for me never stopped.

When I was younger, I always fantasized about growing up. I told my dad a lot about my ideals, but I never told him, all my ideals were to wait for him to get old, I could accompany him to listen to his favorite Peking Opera, buy his favorite water chestnut cakes, and take him to all the places he wanted to go.

But after a long time, I turned out to be "treacherous" because I violated my ultimate ideals.

I don't know when I became so carried away, I always felt that I was too dragged, and I had countless hours to do what I liked, take the money I earned to go where I wanted, buy what I wanted to buy, give myself the best life, buy my favorite car, and give my daughter the best life so I could.

How busy I am, when I go home for a meal, I don't spend as much time talking to my parents as I do when I buy a luxury bag.

How busy am I, it has been more than 20 years in a blink of an eye, and I can fly far away just to eat a nostalgic Western meal, I can go to a luxury store and win hundreds of thousands of bags without blinking, and I have never used the tip of the iceberg of these times to go home to talk to my parents. My dad tried his best to give me the best life and raised me in the palm of his hand. But what about me? What did I do. I did, as long as I fell in love, I would indulge in forgetting myself, and as long as I had money, I would forget what my surname was.

What did I do? I have time to go shopping with my friends, I have time to sit in a café for a few hours, I have time to complain to my friends, but I don't have time to stop and listen to my parents finish the phone.

Isn't my love for my daughter and my desire for my daughter exactly the emotional sustenance of my parents?

I didn't even ask my daughter what to do to me in the future, I just asked her to go the way she needed to go happily in her own life.

But didn't my parents have the same feelings for me?

How narrow my heart is, either I don't care about the front and the back, or I pick the peach and lose the watermelon.

But who stipulates that when you care about your children, you don't have time to care about your parents, and when you care about your parents, you don't care about work?

Yes, we always have a lot of excuses, but when you are in your spare time, can you take out a cigarette and make a phone call, send a text message to your parents, and say, Mom, Mom, I miss you. Can you take your children out for a big meal?

Everyone may understand these truths, and many people may know that this can be done, but the conditions do not allow it.

I don't know if all parents can give their children all the emotions, I only know that my hope for my child is that as long as she grows up healthy and healthy, I don't ask her to be better than anyone, and I don't ask her to support me in a hundred years. I also know that my parents treated me the same!

I finally understood, a trip to the hospital was like walking through a ghost gate, and I suddenly realized it. The parting of life and death is a sword and a shadow in our lives, and my brain and mind are unimpeded in my lifetime.

I quietly took out my mobile phone and sent the same message to my parents: I will go home in three or two days, and I will eat the chicken made by my mother and the steamed buns made by my father. I love you the most.

My dad was still reluctant to reply to my messages, but my mom didn't drag on as much as she used to, and I assumed she was taking a nap, but she said she was tidying up my clothes left at home. There is another sentence at the end of the message: do what you want while you are young. You just need to remember that home is your safe haven, and your dad and I are your strong backers, let go and do what you want to do!

Encouraged by my mother, I felt like someone had been forced to give a Dope shot.

When the car was about to drive out of this area, I shouted at the driver, "Master turn around and take us back to the hospital!" ”

The driver, who spoke with a northeastern accent, turned around and said, "Where you say we're going!" As long as it's not bad for money! ”

I don't want to figure out the source of my heart, although I am just a strange outsider, and at best I have a friendship with an old man. Even in his eyes, I might be the strange nervous woman who sincerely wants to make a fuss and is self-righteous. But I can't care so much, the old man is about the same age as my father, and whenever I think of his lost eyes, I always pull him out and compare him.

I just can't get used to life and death, especially in the face of gray-haired elders, and I don't deliberately exaggerate my kindness.

No matter what they have done wrong, or what glory they have had, they have the right to be forgiven and respected once.

I was abandoned by the so-called love, but I was reborn in loss.

Running through the wide corridors, it was as if there was a light ahead of me, and I felt that I only needed to take one more step before I could plunge into the whirlpool of light that had given me back to what it used to be.

When Ella was still there, Wen Jing didn't have a partner, we were bullied in my uncle's bar, and at that time I didn't have the courage to imitate someone's appearance and say that my dad was Li Gang.

At that time, we were all seventeen or eighteen years old, and we always felt that the four words of strategizing were describing ourselves, and we didn't know what our future would look like, but we felt that our fate was tightly held in the palm of our hands.

A bunch of gangster men failed to beat me and Wen Jing, we seemed to be merged by King Kong at the time, one wine bottle was put down the other, Ella was sandwiched between me and Wen Jing, and every time we put down one of them, we would hear Ella's piercing screams.

We never imagined our future to be what it is now

However, drowning in the days that I can never go back, I gradually found the shadow of my past, and frustration taught me to be myself.

I came back to the hospital, striding to the corridor where I had first met the elderly, and I said to myself, even if this incident went to the police station, I would teach them a lesson.

As a result, there was no one in the hallway.

I swallowed the indignation in my heart and looked at the empty hospital room.

"What about the people in this ward?" I asked the nurse who had just walked out of the next room.

"What about people? I want to ask you! You are a relative of the patient, can you hurry up and let the patient go back to the ward when it is time for the injection? ”

I thought it was just a missed opportunity to teach those three unfilial sons, but I didn't know that I was caught in a deep opportunity

Time jumped to our last night in Sanya, and we were already relieved of the nosy mood, of course, God only gave us the mind to meddle but did not arrange the process for us to play.

Now I think that it would be the best arrangement for God to return to the empty ward that day, otherwise even if I fully released my unhappiness, I would have been nothing more than a fool who was messing around and unreasonable.