Chapter 109: Memories Always Hurt People
Zhang Ziyan's letter rarely made Wang Shengzhe lose his mind. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ļ½ļ½ļ½Uļ½Eć infoOver the years, in two lifetimes, Wang Shengzhe has seen a lot of things and heard a lot of words, but, rarely, he has lost his mind.
It's just a few words, and even nothing has begun.
It's serious, it sounds exaggerated, a letter, just a few words, as far as it goes? But it's true.
Perhaps, the carrier of letters is destined to have such an effect, right?
To this day, letters still carry the heaviest desires and expectations of people's hearts. Whether it is in the past when boats and letters were extremely slow, or in this disturbed and information-filled society, only the words left by these people on the letter paper can be filled with that affection to the greatest extent.
Letters always carry people's fullest feelings. It's just that the letters carrying those affectionate letters will always arrive one day.
However, those senders or recipients often do not know when, and quietly stay away from here.
Only the letter paper was left, trembling in the hands of people, leaving such and such sighs.
Such a scene, such a mood, how can Wang Shengzhe not be touched?
When holding such a letter in his hand, Wang Shengzhe's mind kept churning -- those past events that he thought he had not remembered, bit by bit, were extremely clear.
So many things that Wang Shengzhe thought he had forgotten returned to Wang Shengzhe's heart, bringing more pain. Wang Shengzhe never thought that he would clearly recall every bit of a person he had. Wang Shengzhe didn't even think about it, although he had already expected Zhang Ziyan to leave, his heart still hurt involuntarily.
This look really made it difficult for him to completely calm down.
However, no matter what, this letter is still to be read. Not only to look at it, but also to look carefully. After trying to calm his mood, Wang Shengzhe continued to look through the letter in his hand.
It's okay not to look at it, Wang Shengzhe, who just looked at the next sentence, almost burst into tears. I don't know why, such a common sentence can hit the softest place in Wang Shengzhe's heart.
"Actually, it's weird. On the day I met you, it would have been the two of us walking on the road at the same time, and then we bumped into each other by such a coincidence. ā
"When you think about it, it's incredible, isn't it?" Isn't it incredible? The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, but he hasn't reached the sad place. Wang Shengzhe felt as if his tears were really about to flow out, and he could only involuntarily close his eyes again.
It's just that when he closed his eyes, he still couldn't help but think of a passage left in Zhang Ziyan's letter in his mind.
"This must be the so-called fate. Although, I never believed that fate was it. Because, if there is such a thing as fate, then why is it so unfair to some people? ā
Wang Shengzhe didn't know what kind of answer he should give in his heart for Zhang Ziyan's seemingly complaining and accusatory words.
How should we answer such a question?
Wang Shengzhe has always insisted that all people are equal, well, Wang Shengzhe finally understands, but on the bright side, this is the case.
But the truth is often that all people are not created equal, isn't it? Isn't there a difference at the beginning of a journey?
Wang Shengzhe, who had his eyes closed, clutched the letter paper in his palm, but he was at a loss in his heart.
Not only because of such a question, but also because Zhang Ziyan doesn't seem to have much resentment between the lines. He didn't expect that at the end of his life, Zhang Ziyan didn't look fluctuating at all, there was no cynical accusation, and there was no self-pity complaining. What she left in the letter was just plain and simple to tell Wang Shengzhe her thoughts.
At this time, if you look at it through the letter, she is a philosopher at all, right?
This is similar to her previous performance, does this mean that Zhang Ziyan must be a relief to make such a decision, right?
Wang Shengzhe could only tell himself that when Zhang Ziyan left, he must have been in a sense of relief, otherwise, Wang Shengzhe would not even be able to pass the hurdle in his heart.
Zhang Ziyan must be in this mood too, right? The Iraqi people are gone, so don't leave too much pain for the living. Otherwise, how could she be so calm?
Wang Shengzhe didn't believe it very much, but only by forcibly hypnotizing himself in this way could Wang Shengzhe make his heart feel better.
Wang Shengzhe vaguely remembered that he had witnessed Zhang Ziyan when he was in the most pain, he struggled to tear his hair, and he also tore Wang Shengzhe who came to persuade him. Wang Shengzhe never thought that a woman who had just woken up would incarnate into such a terrifying existence.
And, all this is just because of a nightmare. What kind of torture do those demons make such a woman look like? Not only was I unable to sleep because I was unaccompanied, but I couldn't sleep at all after barely falling asleep.
At the moment she woke up, Wang Shengzhe clearly found that at that time, she looked at Wang Shengzhe's eyes, as if she regarded Wang Shengzhe as those demons, which was a kind of gloomy eyes that hoped that the person in front of her would disappear immediately in this world.
Wang Shengzhe could clearly feel from her usual eyes and words that she was resentful of those people, but Wang Shengzhe really didn't expect that that resentment could be so deep, and even hoped that she could eat her flesh and drink her blood.
Caught off guard, Wang Shengzhe, who wanted to go up to comfort Zhang Ziyan, was caught off guard by this woman and bit his shoulder unsuspectingly, until the blood seeped down and stained Wang Shengzhe's shoulder and Zhang Ziyan's white teeth red.
Wang Shengzhe couldn't see it at that time, Zhang Ziyan, whose lips were stained with blood, actually had a sense of charm. It's just that Wang Shengzhe at that time didn't know what to do at all, he was like a child who didn't understand anything, and he was so panicked that he didn't even know how to put his hand.
There was no way, Wang Shengzhe at that time could only choose to silently hug her who was crying. He really didn't know what to do, Zhang Ziyan, who was obviously biting him just now, actually seemed to be tired.
She curled up in his arms and cried like a child until she fell into a deep sleep.
Wang Shengzhe looked at the sleeping Zhang Ziyan with a look of pity, and his heart turned back and forth, but he was at a loss. After being silent for a long time, Wang Shengzhe sighed faintly, didn't say anything, just hugged Zhang Ziyan and let her snuggle up for a night.
It's rare for Zhang Ziyan to fall asleep, don't wake her up, Wang Shengzhe knows, I'm afraid that as long as he makes a little move, the other party will be accidentally woken up by himself, right? Her sensitivity is beyond Wang Shengzhe's imagination.
How can such a woman not hate in the end? It's just that Wang Shengzhe deliberately didn't want to think about it.
Zhang Ziyan at that time, her mental state was really scary.
Wang Shengzhe only felt that the other party was becoming more and more strange, and yes, who could not be crazy all the time in that situation?
It's just that even so, Zhang Ziyan is still the Zhang Ziyan who thinks about others.
Wang Shengzhe still remembers very well that when she woke up in his arms, her first sentence was "I'm sorry." ā
Zhang Ziyan clearly remembered the events of that night in her heart.
Hearing such a sentence, Wang Shengzhe, who had been thinking about it all night and sleepless for a long time, didn't even know how he should look at such a woman.
"You don't have to say you're sorry." Although Wang Shengzhe didn't know how he should look at the other party, he still knew what he should say. "If you have to say it......"
Before Wang Shengzhe finished speaking, he found the stop in Zhang Ziyan's eyes. At the same time, Zhang Ziyan's little hand also stretched out and blocked Wang Shengzhe's mouth.
Although he didn't understand why the other party stopped his words, Wang Shengzhe still stopped his words according to the other party's meaning.
"You're not wrong? Thank you. ā
The faint words came from Wang Shengzhe's arms, and Wang Shengzhe suddenly felt a stiffness. He didn't know why Zhang Ziyan suddenly wanted to thank him. It's just that Wang Shengzhe, who came back to his senses, suddenly realized something. Unconsciously, he seemed to be holding Zhang Ziyan all night, right? With this look, facing the crazy Zhang Ziyan last night, Wang Shengzhe may not feel that there is anything wrong. It's just that for the current Zhang Ziyan, if she still holds it like this, isn't it very good?
When Wang Shengzhe made a move and wanted to get out, Zhang Ziyan subconsciously hid in Wang Shengzhe's arms.
Looking at her appearance, it seems that she doesn't want to leave yet.
"Last night was the most restful night I slept on. Let me lean on again, shall you? ā
Wang Shengzhe sighed secretly in his heart. "You're stable, I haven't slept all night, in the future, if you want to sleep peacefully, shouldn't you want me to be a pillow?"
Although he complained so much in his heart, Wang Shengzhe still did not refuse this woman's action after all. Life is too difficult for the woman in front of you. Wang Shengzhe can't do anything for her at all, so it's a good thing to be able to give her a warm embrace, right?
With such thoughts, Wang Shengzhe's eyes gradually closed.
After a while, the person in his arms was surprised to find that Wang Shengzhe actually fell asleep under such circumstances.
A chuckle came through the room, and before long, all that was left of the room was the sound of breathing.
PS: Even if the memory chapter is about to end, the length is really procrastinating.