I finished the luxurious pancake fruit, holding the twisted plastic bag in my hand, while Xiaoyan, who was sitting next to me, was eating slowly, extremely calm, as if even if the world was destroyed now, she was so peaceful and calm, I kept looking at her like this after eating the pancake fruit, she didn't know that I was looking at her, she couldn't see anything now, this is a fact I want to change, and it is also a fact that I can't change.

Maybe for us, there are not many such moments, and in this quiet time, I am also thinking, even if I know that Xiaoyan is blind now, and I left me at that time because of blindness, it is not cheating and abandonment at all, what can I do? Did you abandon Qilei because of a sense of guilt? Then I'm really not a man anymore, there are too many helplessness in life, my encounter with Xiaoyan may be the so-called understanding of cause and effect, right? It turns out that God sees it very clearly, and he doesn't want me to live in a misunderstanding, but he wants me to live in the pain of guilt.

Xiaoyan's hair is slightly longer, but it doesn't reach her waist, maybe she did it on purpose, right? Now she must not want to be a burden to anyone, her front bangs are not short, slightly about to cover her eyes, maybe this is also her intention? The wind was everywhere, and even if we dodged from it, it would find a gap, and it would inevitably be a little cool, so I stood up and slowly stood in front of her, shielding her from the raging wind.

Xiaoyan seemed to feel my movements, frowning slightly, but her eyes were still empty.

"I can't eat, what should I do?"

Xiaoyan knew that I was in front of her, so she asked me.

"I can't eat with you, come, I'll take it for you, you don't have anything to do today, right? I'll take you around, I'm here to travel this time, alone, let's be a companion. ”

I took the pancake fruit from Xiaoyan's hand, and then asked her expectantly.

"If there's something at home, you can send me home."

But Xiaoyan didn't even think about it, just said to me.

"Uh."

I was quite helpless, but I also understood the reason why Xiaoyan rejected me, she didn't want to have anything to do with me now, but she still inquired about me.

"Xiaoyan, in fact, you haven't forgotten me all this time? You know that I'm married, why did you leave me if you couldn't let go? This is what makes us who we are. ”

I sighed, and then said helplessly, the wind was raging on my back, beating on my shoulder, my hair fluttered slightly, I shielded her from the cold wind, but it couldn't change her fate.

"Don't talk about that, send me home, please."

Xiaoyan raised her head and said to me calmly, like a prayer but a request, such a picture is unimaginable, every time I see her eyes, my heart is dripping blood, this taste is indescribable.

"I'm done with breakfast, I'll take you somewhere."

As I spoke, I pulled up Xiaoyan's slender palm and forcibly took her away, no matter how Xiaoyan struggled, I didn't feel it, and I didn't hear her words, with her, I stopped a taxi, and then told the driver the destination, sitting in the back seat of the taxi, I held Xiaoyan's hand tightly, and put the so-called moral bottom line aside for the time being, I just want to accompany Xiaoyan now, even if it's only this day.

"Liang Jiafeng, you call this coercion, I have something, do you understand that I want to go home?"

Xiaoyan was forcibly controlled, she didn't struggle, she just denounced me, but I just ignored it, no matter what she said, I just didn't speak, and then Xiaoyan didn't say anything for a while, and it was quiet.

Soon we arrived at our destination, got out of the car, and after walking for a few minutes, I saw a beautiful picture, a beautiful lake, a towering mountain, the lake is closer than the mountain, the lake and the mountain echo each other.

"Xiaoyan, look."

I smiled and said to Xiaoyan, but after saying a few words, I forcibly stopped my words, my subconscious words were wrong, I turned my head to look at Xiaoyan, and found that her expression was very calm, as if she didn't hear what I said, the wind stained with the lake water blew her hair, and soothed her cheeks, at this moment she was very beautiful, but it was just a poignant, I sighed secretly in my heart.

"Xiaoyan, do you know where we are now?"

I turned my head and looked at the lakes and peaks and asked gently.

"Looking at Cangshan by Erhai Lake, I just can't see it."

Xiaoyan didn't think about it, blurted out, I don't understand why she can know, after all, when I talked to the driver, I only used my mobile phone to show him, how did she know that we came to Erhai if she couldn't see it?

"Xiaoyan, you have to believe that you will still see it, you will definitely see the light again, and you will also see this beautiful Erhai Lake, and the snow-white Cangshan Mountain."

I said firmly, holding her hand tighter and tighter, I don't know what caused her blindness, or if she was permanently blind, but I want to give her hope, I want to see her see beautiful pictures, this is the place where we are married, I also hope that this is a place where she can see again, maybe that's why she's here, right? Maybe Xiaoyan wants to see this lake and that mountain every moment, right?

"Don't say it's good, it's impossible, I can't see Cangshan Erhai anymore, although I have some regrets, but I can stay here in my life, come to blow the wind from time to time, and listen to the communication of passers-by, I don't expect anything."

Xiaoyan's words express a very open and casual mood, but it is really not like this, she must be low, and even have no confidence to resist the so-called fate, the more she remains calm at this time, the more sad her heart is, just from the time she once left me, she didn't want to see me, she didn't want to tell me the truth, it reflected her mind that she wanted too much, and now she is like this, a woman who is strong on the surface and fragile on the inside.

"Xiaoyan, if you want to cry, just cry, there is a shoulder here that is not worth leaning on."

I pulled her to sit on the shore of Erhai Lake, Dali is not too cold after all, and the next snow is unavoidable, even so, it did not make Erhai Lake freeze, after all, the weather here has warmed up during the New Year, unlike the north.

"Why am I crying? Whatever is what it is, it's useless to cry, I'm used to a world without light. ”

Xiaoyan sat calmly on the ground I had padded with my coat, still calmly speaking.

Xiaoyan is still pretending to be strong, but her acting skills are not very good, but her acting skills are not so good, I didn't see why she broke up with me and left me suddenly.

"Okay, don't force yourself to be strong, there's no one here but me and a trembling shoulder."

I said helplessly, and at the same time there was a movement, this is the first time we have made such an intimate movement since we separated, I took her in my arms, let her lean on my shoulder, maybe I just want to force her to cry.

Xiaoyan was confused by my sudden movements, but she quickly relieved herself and wanted to break free of my restraints, but how could I let her get her wish, I hugged her tightly, and I now said silently in my heart: Qilei is sorry.

In the end, Xiaoyan lost his strength and stopped struggling, but he still said unrelentingly: "You let go of me, do you know what you are doing?" We broke up, and you also have a wife, do you want me to be a spurned mistress, but this mistress is still a blind man? Is that what you'd like to see? ”

"Xiaoyan, don't think like this, if anyone is wrong, it must be my fault, your blindness will be good, don't worry, you have to believe in me, and you have to believe in yourself."

I held her hand tightly and said firmly.

However, Xiaoyan broke free from my palm, and at the same time broke free from my embrace.

I looked at her, and didn't scratch her hand again, and it was true, as she said, that I had such a bad reputation with her, and for a moment we were silent, and neither of us spoke, and perhaps did not know what to say.

Now the only thing that has any movement or sound is the wind, the wind blows the surface of the lake of Erhai Lake, rippling and rippling, my eyes ripple again, and the lake surface of Erhai Lake is as magnificent, I look up at the Cangshan Mountain shrouded in snow, it is really extraordinarily spectacular, but I am not in the mood to appreciate this magnificence now, I am very irritable, since I know the situation of Xiaoyandong I have been irritable.

I turned my head to look at Xiaoyan, I wanted to speak, but I didn't know what to say, helplessness and irritability enveloped me, in fact, I thought to myself if I chose to accompany her through every day of blindness, what kind of choice would it be? That will hurt Qilei and make my parents angry, but I will return to Hangzhou to live my happy life, can I be at ease?

Maybe I can drag it out for a day now, and I can accompany her for a day, and now I have been in Dali for a week, then I have another week, and I will always accompany Xiaoyan for a week.

"Xiaoyan, why are you blind? Is there still a chance to see it? ”

I finally asked her.

But Xiaoyan didn't answer me, she closed her eyes very calmly, I don't know what she was thinking, but I feel that her blindness is because of me, maybe I know.

"What is Xiaoyan's reason for?"

I pressed her again.

"It's just a simple blindness, it's not for anything, it's so cold, send me home, okay? Then you go back too, and don't see each other again. ”

Xiaoyan is still saying that she wants to go home, let me go back too, and then I won't see each other in the future, she has always been like this, I really don't know how to say it, maybe it's just a few days of damn shame on her face, and then inquire about her eyes, see if there is a chance, now she must be very lonely alone, even if she has parents, but that's different.

"If it's cold, let's go to KTV, have you been singing lately?"