"I am the one who loves you the most."

This roar silenced the night, which had not been so peaceful, and the smiling gaze moved to mine, and so did Xiaoyan.

I looked at Xiaoyan, there was silence for a moment, I breathed a little heavily, and I yelled and spoke again.

"This is the answer to that riddle, Xiaoyan's riddle is also what I want to talk to you, Xiaoyan, I don't know why you chose to leave me, I don't know what I did wrong? I don't know why this happened between us, I don't know why the night is so beautiful, why we have become so gloomy, is our relationship really broken? Xiaoyan, you sue me, is this the case between us? ”

I looked at Xiaoyan like a child pitifully asking her, my tears flowed out of nowhere, I stood downstairs and looked up at her, I knew that she saw me very clearly, she also changed her expression, but she did turn around and leave, extremely panicked, very flustered, but also saw that this was a kind of decisiveness.

Smile didn't bother to look at me, and hurriedly turned around and helped Xiaoyan back to the room, and disappeared from my eyes in just a moment.

"Wang Xiaoyan, do you see that I don't have a word? Wang Xiaoyan, when you come out, can you not run away, I know that you still have me in your heart, otherwise you won't see me and leave. ”

I yelled so loudly that the whole neighborhood was filled with my weeping voices.

However, the figure that left in a hurry did not appear in front of me, it was gone forever, I roared again, still there was no response, I took a step and ran into the unit door, since I yelled out, now there is nothing to escape, I quickly ran to the door of the smile house, knocked on the door hard, I was so impulsive, by the strength of the wine, but also by seeing the picture of Xiaoyan and smiling together, my torn heart prompted me, let me knock hard, let me stand in front of Xiaoyan, I don't ask for anything now, I just want to be able to talk to Xiaoyan, and say something very calmly and calmly.

My fist pounded the door again and again, the door didn't hurt, my hand hurt, but my hand was not as good as my heart.

"Wang Xiaoyan, what are you hiding from me? What are you hiding from me, can you tell me, I don't want to be buried in the dark like a fool. ”

I knocked on the door and shouted loudly, perhaps the neighbor had already identified it as harassment.

When my love was facing collapse, the door was finally opened, but it was not the person I wanted to see who opened the door, but my love rival smiled, and now looking at this once full of smiles, now it is full of calm, even sad smiles, I have an indescribable feeling.

"You"

"You want to talk to Xiaoyan, don't you? Okay, let's talk about it. ”

I was about to speak, when the smile standing in the doorway spoke coldly.

When I heard his words, I was stunned and was about to push him into the house, but I was stopped by a smile, and he grabbed my arm tightly with his hand and stopped me across the door.

"Get out of the way."

I glared at him and said angrily.

"Xiaoyan only lets you stand at the door, she talks to you at home, you don't want to go in, she doesn't want to see you, if you have any questions, just ask at the door."

He said to me with a smile and an ugly face.

"Why, why won't you let me in, get out of here."

I struggled to break free of him, and was about to enter the door as I spoke.

However, Smile didn't want to satisfy my thoughts, and still held the door like a door god, and yelled at me loudly: "I have already said, Xiaoyan doesn't want to see you, just let you stand at the door and talk to her, if you don't want to talk, just leave quickly, otherwise I will warn you of harassment." ”

"Sue you for being paralyzed, hurry up and get out of the way of Lao Tzu, otherwise Lao Tzu will blow your head, and Lao Tzu's girlfriend won't let Lao Tzu see you?"

I pushed hard with a smile, and I was furious about his tone and refusal to give in.

"Xiaoyan is my girlfriend now, not your girlfriend, don't yell like a madman."

He yelled at me with a smile.

"I ......"

Just as I was about to continue arguing, a very familiar voice came from my home, and I suddenly stopped yelling excitedly, and my movements also stopped, and I just stood sluggish, like a sculpture.

"Liang Jiafeng, don't be so noisy anymore, just say anything outside the door, I don't want to see you, don't you understand?"

Xiaoyan's voice came out, it was so real, but it was full of coldness, at this moment I don't think this is Xiaoyan, because the Xiaoyan in my mind is not like this, she will always be a woman with a warm smile, caring for me, loving me, and thinking about me, because she loves me, but now, no.

Hearing Xiaoyan's words, I didn't fight with the smile anymore, I shook off the smiling palm, stood at the door and looked at the smile, and said loudly: "I know you're lying, you're lying to me, Xiaoyan, tell me, what are you hiding from me?" ”

"You think about it too much, it's very simple, the recording has made it clear to you, I don't love you anymore, it's as simple as that."

Xiaoyan's words quickly came out of the room, as if she hadn't even thought about it, such a quick answer, made me feel that she was deliberately hiding something, and I felt more and more.

Every word of her hit my heart hard, I can't put into words how I feel at this moment, but the conversation between us is not over, Smiling is still standing at the door, as if I am particularly afraid of me breaking into his house, I don't look at him, but look at the crack in the open door, and continue to ask Xiaoyan: "It's definitely not so simple, Xiaoyan, you must have something unspeakable, I believe that the relationship between us is very strong, I believe that you still love me, don't you?" ”

"You think about it too much, this is purely your imagination, I don't love you anymore, that's the case, don't come to entanglement anymore, leave."

Xiaoyan's words were extremely cold and flat, I listened to it very clearly, my body was trembling slightly, my palms were already clenched into fists, and the tears in my eyes kept surging, but they never flowed out, just because of the smile standing in front of me.

"Wang Xiaoyan, don't say these untrustworthy words again, I understand you, you must have something unspeakable, otherwise you won't suddenly say goodbye, leaving only a few minutes of recording, and you won't see me, just talk to me like this, tell me, what is the reason? You say it, let's face it together, Xiaoyan, you have to know that I love you. ”

The more I spoke, the louder I became, I was worried that because of the barrier of the door, Xiaoyan would not be able to hear, and the trembling words came into the house, this time Xiaoyan's answer was also extremely fast, just like the words memorized in advance, clean and neat, without a trace of emotion, everywhere was cold and ruthless, even if I didn't believe it in my mouth, but listening to her desperate words over and over again, my heart was painful, and it was shaken, maybe it had already been shaken.

"The reason why I don't leave a recording without saying goodbye is because I don't want to be entangled by you, and I came to Erhai Lake in Dali because of this, and now it's because of this, I don't want to see you, I don't want to continue to be entangled with you like this, Liang Jiafeng, there are many women in the world, especially around you, there is no shortage of women who love you, so there is no shortage of Wang Xiaoyan."

This time I stopped and continued to speak, because I couldn't digest Xiaoyan's words, especially her last few words, which made me extremely profound, I didn't know what to say for a while, I even felt that no matter how I said it, even if it was said in a messy way, Xiaoyan was the same tone, the same meaning, I didn't seem to see hope, all I could see was the eternal face of the smile, the very melancholy face, it seemed to be sadder than me.

I paused for only a few seconds before speaking again, I must have made it clear to Xiaoyan today.

"Xiaoyan, this is the last time I ask you, do you really not love me? Don't you love me in the slightest? ”

"I don't love anymore, I don't love the slightest, I hope I'll never see you again."

Xiaoyan replied so quickly, answered so ruthlessly, let me murmur unspeakably Okay, glanced at the victor smile, and then turned around and left silently, and the moment I turned around, the tears that had been rolling in my eyes flowed on the face that must have been extremely ugly, and the stairwell without wind was blowing in an instant, which was called breaking love and swept me, blowing my bangs, occupying my face, and the tight clothes could not be avoided, and even penetrated my blood and heart.

"Everything, everything, ......"

I walked a step and muttered a word, as if I had lost my soul, I heard the door closed, I knew that I would not see Xiaoyan again in this life, I knew that I should leave Dali, I would leave tomorrow, I didn't want to stay longer for a moment, I found Xiaoyan, I didn't have time to be happy, and I completely lost her, what an ironic thing.

I left the community softly and slowly, and didn't look back at the home that might still be lit, and the figure walking in the home, maybe they were embracing each other lovingly, maybe they were watching a movie that represented love, and eating popcorn at the same time, of course, sitting on the soft sofa, or maybe they were cooking, maybe they had gone to bed, I had done everything with Xiaoyan, but I was just the person I used to be, no longer the present, let alone the future.

There is no shortage of Wang Xiaoyan, can I really not be lacking? I don't have to think about it, I already have the answer in my heart, this night's dinner is very comfortable, but it seems to me that it is extremely bleak, as if it is the autumn wind, blowing lonely, yes, I am lonely.

The person who loves me has left, the person I love I can't touch, it seems that tomorrow is my birthday, maybe no one will bless this birthday, maybe I want to live alone, first say happy birthday to myself.

"Happy birthday to me."

I yelled loudly into the night sky.