That's to be expected.

Today is a day off, and I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

'Witch, how are you doing?' Miss you so much, have so much to say to you! Press these words and wait quietly for the witch's reply.

In my own feelings, I am no longer the original self, and the witch is not the original witch anymore, and there is not much left of the original love and concern that is completely dragged down by things in reality, and the feelings accumulated in the past few years seem to have been exhausted in these experiences.

The sky outside was all dark, and I didn't turn on the lights.

In the dark, I asked myself, without Lin Xi, would I still have the need to live? Could it be that she has lost her like this in this life?

No, I think this qiē should be blamed on these things that happened in the middle, if it weren't for these things, maybe my witch wouldn't have walked away in front of me like this.

However, even if there were no such things, I had already caused a lot of damage to the witch, and although the witch did not do anything because of this, I had changed my appearance in her heart after all.

No matter how she confesses and embellishments, I believe that a woman who has been hurt will change her mentality and logic to re-examine herself, examine this relationship, and examine the so-called future.

In the dark, I can answer myself with certainty that I love her, very much. No without her.

I didn't say sorry to her again, the main reason I think is here, although this is a wolf-hearted psychology, but it is something I must admit and must face.

Too many things have been experienced, and these fortuitous events in the middle seem to create an inevitable result.

For a long time, I still haven't received a reply from the witch.

It was probably the time for dinner, maybe she was having dinner and her phone was not around. Perhaps, it was she who was inconvenient and did not reply. But I couldn't call her rashly, because I had promised her that I couldn't call casually if I didn't get the affirmation in the text message.

So, let's keep waiting.

'Witch, are you still working overtime?' After an hour, there was still no reply, so I couldn't help but send it again.

The witch may be working overtime, and she may not be able to spare her hands or time to reply, right? But it's impossible to say that you don't even have time to go to the toilet for an hour, right?

'Witch, are you still angry with me?' Can you get back to me? At least let me know where you're safe now. Try again in fifteen minutes.

Still no reply.

Some can't help it, fingers on the button back and forth on the number that is so familiar that it can no longer be familiar, press to delete, delete and press again, want to hit but dare not play, do not play and do not worry, tangled to death. I was about to hear my own skull cracking.

The landline is on the coffee table next to it, use the landline to call, such an unfamiliar number may be answered by her. I took off the microphone and pressed the number, and then it was a long tone after it was connected.

It rang all the time, and no one answered.

Slept?

It's not yet 9 o'clock, so even if you sleep, you should be able to hear the ringing for such a long time.

Or just don't pick it up?

Still inconvenient.

Before I could figure out what was going on, there was a blind sound in the earpiece.

All night, groggy and muddy, my phone was on all the time, no calls, no texts.

From time to time, the barking of dogs or other animals outside the window kept me from sleeping, and I woke up and slept until dawn.

I didn't have a good rest all night, and I didn't have energy all morning, so I saved up a lot of work on the desk.

After working hard for several hours, the rough work was explained.

Strangely, the phone didn't move all morning.

But just as I was wondering why, my phone rang.

An old customer is here on a business trip, and it turns out to be a very good kind.

Needless to say, it's definitely time to drink at noon.

Drink it, drink it, I want to indulge myself, I have been entangled by these for a month, and I haven't even smiled.

It is impossible to hide the emaciation, but even more so is all the unhappiness and emaciation after drinking.

I drank too much, so much so that I could barely drive the car back.

'Xiao Luo, let's finish, we have no possibility, there is no point in going on like this, all the qiē that has passed is regarded as a common dream we had, and now the dream should wake up. We all went back to the original track and forgot all about this qiē, leaving no trace. I will do it, forget you jì, forget your qiē jì. Don't look for me anymore, okay? I will thank you. Lin Xi. ’

Before I got home, Lin Xi's long text message was sent to my mobile phone.

Perhaps, this doesn't need to be thought about too much, Lin Xi deliberately didn't reply last night, maybe she made this decision without sleeping all night on the side of her big bed, and then condensed it into these hundred or dozens of words in a hurry and without giving herself any discussion, so engraved in this time and this space.

'Are we really going to put on a realistic version of 'Dream of the Covered Bridge'? Their love lasted only four days, but we have exceeded four years or more. ’

This has to remind me of Robert? James? Waller's classic, too many similarities, too many similarities, also creates a result that does not have much difference, but I want to use it to ask rhetorically.

I said, I'll forget about it, forget it all. Thank you for your success. The witch's reply was short and powerful, crisp and non-negotiable.

I didn't expect it to be like this, the brain after drinking was numb and sluggish, but I used to remember the shadows walking by the river at midnight, the naughty bets in the taste of the rivers and lakes, the constant changes under the street lamp, the sweet and loving old days in the hotel, the time when I worked hard in the billions, and the movie "Painted Skin" in the theater and the scene when the witch stood in front of my car when the moon was in the sky.

Witch, how could you forget jì?

Before you got married, you told me that you didn't want me to leave you;

After we got married, you said that we were going to Inner Mongolia, to the grassland, to Kanas, to Europe, to travel to places where we didn't know us.

Lin Xi, how could you forget jì?

In the hundreds of millions office, you silently and affectionately took care of me.

Under the street lamps of the long street, the confession of true love when we held hands;

In front of the drum washing machine at your house, the moment you close your eyes and hand yourself over to me;

In the moonlight, you stood far in front of my car;

And our rings, our Peninsula tin box.

Witch, how can you forget jì, how can you forget jì?

'Lin Xi, I don't believe you will forget jì, I am the man you really loved, the man who once wanted to entrust everything to me, and the man who once disappointed you to despair, no matter when you are there, you will never forget my name, it will be deeply imprinted in your mind, engraved in the most painful corner of your heart, even if you are 80 years old, you will tremble again with these words of my name, you will not forget jì, never. ’

Tears and all the inhibitions melted into these characters, and although I wanted to say more, I couldn't find how to express it, I couldn't find it.

No longer worrying about others seeing my curiosity when I cried, or worrying that anyone would disturb my catharsis, I cried loudly.

"That's it, I hope you don't look for me again, okay, thank you for doing it." ’

The witch's enthusiasm and indifference were completely proportional, without the slightest discount, and without leaving me with any illusions.

I knew that it was all self-inflicted, that I had hurt her, that it had hurt her heart, that it had hurt her future, that it had hurt her fantasies, and that maybe it was the only choice for her.

As she once said, a person will not have love and hate for no reason, when she loves someone more and hates him, she hates more. In her opinion, this relationship is not as romantic and serious as she hoped, and if she gets it, she will face abandonment.

I don't know if women think like this, and if they get it, they will face abandonment, but the witch's approach is obviously confirming the logic of this woman's unique thinking, and even the mindset.

What should I do, I don't know.

Go to her?

It's impossible, it's impossible for her to see me at this time, and even if she wants to, her family won't agree, but it will bring her unexpected disasters. I already knew that she was staying with Lin Batian tonight.

It didn't help anything but put pressure on her, and it didn't seem to her to mean anything other than to prove that I had seriously considered our future, because she pretended not to know anything about giving me a chance, I missed it, and when I was given a chance again, I squandered it.

The indescribable pain haunted me, and I couldn't figure it out, I couldn't find a reason, or even myself.

Let's put myself in another position, this is a way of thinking that I am used to, and many times I can explain some problems that cannot be explained from my own point of view.

Perhaps, the witch was right to do this, at least from her point of view, and to end this relationship with too many dangers and too many impossibilities, it would make her safe, and she would never have to worry about seeing me and some woman hugging me one day. Besides, there is no need for any reason, it is because I hurt her too deeply, as long as she is doing well, this is better than anything.

Well, I promise you that I won't bother you anymore.

I silently said to her in my heart, but I didn't send them into text messages in the text, but I will wait, I don't believe that you will forget jì, and I don't believe that I will forget jì, I will wait, wait until the day when she is really safe, although I don't know what time it is, but I have to wait, because this is the last true love in my life.

This one reason is enough, and it is enough to support me for the long years when she returns to me again, and I believe that I have the ability and the perseverance to wait.

The only thing that reassures me is that her body can't withstand such a heavy pressure. I still don't know the mind of a woman, or rather, I still don't know the mind of a witch.

Did the witch leave me like this?

For a long time, I didn't dare to let my brain accept and admit this fact.

Isn't that too simplistic?

Years of relationship, is it just such a story that ends in tragedy?

Is it an absurd fate or a doomed end?

I really can't give a precise definition of this experience.

The divorce certificate really showed Lin Xi's attitude......

I found that the boss was so difficult to convince, in my company LIJ ordinary employees have a basic salary on holidays, the first long vacation after the management of Zhenhe, the company decided to take three days off, at the meeting, everyone asked me if the holiday employees have a basic salary, I made a mistake at that time: the company I have stayed in before, there must be here. I forgot to ask the administrative and human resources department to check, Vice President Ma and others knew that there was no, but no one reminded me. So the Ministry of Administration and Human Resources issued a leave notice.

When the salary was calculated, the boss came to me and asked to cancel the basic salary of the employee's holiday, and I asked why, only to know that the ordinary employees of Zhenhe had no basic salary on the previous holiday, and only the managers of the monthly salary system had a salary. Mr. Zhen asked me to cancel, complaining that I didn't inform him, and I thought to myself: I didn't know at first, if I knew that there was no salary, this new application, then I would definitely ask for the company's money first. I didn't agree, the notice of the holiday was written with a basic salary, signed my name, and after a while, I regretted it, and there will be employees who believe the words of the company's senior management in the future? Originally, there was a problem with the credibility of the company's senior management among the employees, and I received several letters in the general manager's mailbox from employees complaining that the company's senior management had not fulfilled their promises. There was no consensus on the first dispute.

A few days later, Mr. Zhen asked me to talk to Chen Zihan about this matter, but I still disagreed, Mr. Zhen asked for this part of the salary to be put into the employee mutual aid fund, which are two different things, and I still do not agree.

A few days later, Mr. Zhen came to me again to talk about this matter, I was annoyed, and said to Mr. Zhen: "This matter, because I did not investigate, based on the previous experience and made a mistake, the responsibility lies with me, in the future related to money, I will definitely understand first, but this time I must be true to my word, if you think that this money must not come out, you can deduct it from my salary, deduct 1,000 or 2,000 per month, until the deduction is finished." ”

Mr. Zhen said: "It's not that I don't want to come out, other companies in our chamber of commerce don't pay basic salaries on holidays." ”

I replied, "The law also stipulates that it should be given, and many companies do it." ”

Mr. Zhen said: "According to the law, Chinese enterprises are closed. ”

I'm silent.

Due to my strong resistance, I finally paid the employee a basic salary for three days in accordance with the provisions of the notice, totaling about 15,000 yuan.

The direct dispute between me and Mr. Zhen was this time, and the subsequent conflicts were basically transformed into contradictions and conflicts between me and the boss because of the conflict between me and Vice President Ma and the boss's wife.

The boss had thought about replacing me when I had the last conflict with the boss's wife, which the boss once said with the strength of three points of wine, and I also saw and felt the boss's thoughts. I later understood the boss's thoughts, and the boss thought that the boss lady had shared ups and downs with him, and no one else was qualified to treat her in such a tone except him, but the thought of replacing me quickly disappeared.

From time to time, the boss would hear some gossip, and then ask me for questions, and someone said to the boss that I didn't talk about any favors and would lose the hearts of the people, so the boss came to persuade me: "Some subordinates have opinions on some of your working methods, and you still have to change them appropriately." "Some people said that I was going to fire all the boss's fellow villagers, etc., and the boss came to me again, I think these people are enough for my mother-in-law: would I be stupid enough to say such a thing? I have to make up a little bit of it. There are a lot of these trivial little reports, and my boss reminds me from time to time, and I don't bother to pay attention to so much.

The boss also interfered a lot in my daily management work, but I was able to communicate and deal with it flexibly. Later, the boss was less interfering.

If the bosses' dialectical thinking ability is used in management, it will bring opportunism into management, and as a result, most people come to exploit loopholes, and management becomes a game of cat and mouse.

The system and process in management are the formal and logical way of reasoning that the experience is solidified in the process.

Therefore, the growth of an enterprise requires dialectical logical thinking and formal logical thinking, otherwise there will be structural defects.

After that, I trained the managers on a course of "The Function and Role of the BOM", which explained to you for two hours with vivid cases on the function, principle, and role of the BOM list, the relationship with MPS, the relationship with inventory information, the relationship with material requirements planning, the relationship with cost accounting, how to prepare, who will prepare, etc., and explained to you for two hours with vivid cases.

But Ma Xiangan, deputy technical manager, objected on the spot in the training, we have a "product list", there is no need to make a BOM list, it is too troublesome and has no effect, and I remember it in my head.

I understand that the BOM list of more than 400 products, this workload is very large, the information of the "product list" is not complete at all, and there is no other material code, unit consumption, material, specification, class, number of days ahead, engineering drawing number, engineering version number, part cost, gross weight, net weight, loss rate, nozzle ratio and so on. Without a BOM, standard costs cannot be calculated, and costing is an empty word.

The root cause is the reluctance to absorb new things, unwilling to get rid of old habits, laziness, I asked Ma Xiangan at the meeting not to do 400 products at one time, can be done in the order of the main production plan, do not produce will not do, to produce a week or two in advance. But Ma Xiangan refused on the grounds of "I'm very busy now, I don't have time", his personality is very irritable, he has been with the boss for ten years, and the boss's personality is as irritable, which reminds me of a sentence from Principal Zhou Hong in "Appreciation Education": Children who grow up in an environment of beating and scolding either obey and do not resist, and lose their temper when they resist. A boss, if he often scolds his subordinates, eventually those who have the ability to assert themselves will leave, and the people who stay are either obedient and don't care how the boss scolds, he doesn't take these scoldings to heart at all, you scold yours, he goes in and out of the left ear and the right ear over there, or he is also a person who is also irritable and rebellious, both of which are two extremes.

Therefore, Ma Xiangan won't listen to me at all, he can do what he wants, he doesn't like to do it, he doesn't do it, except for the boss, he doesn't listen to anyone, there is no BOM, a lot of PMC work is very passive, Nanlin urged Ma Xiangan, Ma Xiangan scolded Nanlin in public, no way, please come out of the boss, it's useless, he just doesn't do it, you can't help him. I had to arrange for Yan Ning to do it, but I occasionally made one, which was very slow and full of mistakes, but it was better to do it than not to do it well, and it was not until Ma Xiangan left that the BOM was slowly made.

The Ministry of Finance has standardized the reimbursement process, the reimbursement of invoices, tickets, etc. must be pasted, the path of the business trip must be written, and the name of the entertainment and dinner must be indicated, which is originally a standardized practice, so that the finance can be well documented. Ma Xiangan was reluctant to do so, which he saw as a distrust of him. The financial manager Ye Shengping asked him to do this, and he scolded Ye Shengping, thinking that it was aimed at him, and said that he would never travel again in the future.

The first time I've seen such a difficult person to communicate with, he refuses to communicate. This is also a typical workshop type of enterprise to create the character of the person, workshop type enterprise, everyone is doing it with experience, everyone is doing their own thing, self-management, from top to bottom are their own management, the boss just gives a task, the following people do it according to experience, today I feel that this is so good, tomorrow I will be inspired to feel that I do it well, lack of standardization of the process, the superior only requires you to do it, how the process is they don't care, in the long run, it will become natural, it will not be constrained.

Therefore, the workshop-style enterprise has become a loose combination with little connection, each individual seems to be very diligent, but no one to straighten out the bottleneck between processes and processes, the bottleneck between departments, logistics and information flow is very inefficient, foreigners criticize the Chinese, one person is a dragon, three people are three worms, in the workshop-style enterprise table xiàn to the fullest, I in Chase and Yongen, often hear subordinates "teach" me like this: "You don't care about my process, I'll give you the result!" ”

Workshop processing is only the result of the process, but the beginning of the transformation to the enterprise, is the result and the process of equal importance, to large and medium-sized enterprises, the process is very standardized, according to this process to do, the result must be right, so it has become only focus on the process.

To transform these people is actually to transform a kind of character, a kind of workshop-style thinking and character that has been formed in a workshop-style factory for many years. Some people with good understanding can be reformed well, and some people can't be transformed at all. In the past year, Li Wei felt that this lack of cooperative spirit, highlighting individual heroism and single-handedness of the corporate culture, from the boss to the employees, are vividly expressed.

Every time, I have to patiently reason with them: "The company's system is not aimed at you, because the system is prescribed, I don't know who will make mistakes, so it can't be aimed at whom, I am a general manager who makes mistakes, and the finance department asks to redo it, then the finance department will definitely not dare to target me, so they are aimed at all people." "How many times, I feel that they are like children, a workshop-style self-management way of thinking, everything starts from the self, lacks the ability to think rationally, I am a person under 30, often do ideological work for a group of people who are older than my teens, it's fun to think about. In addition to Ma Xiang'an, there are many people who think this way, but Cheng dù is not the same, I am training, persuading, criticizing, and encouraging together.

In the first half of the year, in the "struggle" with the director, Vice President Ma and others, to convince Mr. Zhen and a group of others, I often had only one feeling: tired! The reform and all kinds of affairs are busy all day long, so that the body is tired; The "struggle", "debate" and persuasion with workshop thinking and corporate thinking made him tired.

As soon as I get back to the hotel every night, I fall into bed and don't want to get up, I don't even want to take a shower, I don't want to talk, I throw my smelly socks on the sofa and fall asleep without even taking off my clothes. Later, I learned that Chen Zihan, who is an administrator, Manager Ye, who is financial, and even Manager Liu, who is very energetic, all fall into bed every night after work and don't want to move anymore. Management change is a long march that consumes energy, energy, vitality and body. I feel that now as the general manager of Zhenhe, his body and mental consumption are at least 5 times more than when he was the original department manager, it seems that the general manager in the management change must practice health qigong in order to maintain a steady stream of energy. I also heard the following people's discussions: Mr. Yin, are they in love, why are they so energetic? How do they know that this is to gather their spirits during the day, and at night, they are all soft into a mass of mud.

In this process of change, there are those who struggle, those who oppose, those who refuse to carry out, those who watch the excitement, those who point fingers, those who complain, those who complain, those who change, those who support, and people of all stripes. Tired.