Hearing these words with a hint of helplessness, I walked out of my trance, but I deliberately avoided her gaze, she was right, she knew me very well. ↖，

"Why don't you speak? Isn't it? ”

When I was silent and pretended not to know, Liu Qilei suddenly crossed in front of me, blocking my way, she seemed to be very unhappy, and I immediately stopped my pace, my eyes only stayed on her for a moment, and then I turned my head and walked to a restaurant next to me, and walked up the steps to say quite loudly: "I'm so hungry, let's eat quickly." ”

"You just run away from you and eat you to death."

Liu Qilei's voice resounded behind me, and I could only shake my head and sigh secretly, I had to sigh that my feelings were too messy, and the woman I wanted to be with could only be helplessly separated temporarily, and the woman who has always been with me I have no love, I can't be with her, this may be the most powerless love in the world, right?

We sat at the dinner table face to face, didn't talk much, just ate the meal in a hurry, Tom was like this, and so was I, but Liu Qilei didn't eat much, just looked at me, looked at me very seriously, and made me sigh except for embarrassment.

"Don't you eat? After a while, both of us and father finished eating. ”

I put the braised pork in my mouth and asked her as I chewed.

"It's enough to see you, what else to eat?"

Liu Qilei said with some anger in her tone.

"Uh...... Am I ugly? You can't eat. ”

When I heard her words, I almost spit out the food in my mouth, and I looked at her speechlessly and said to her.

"It's like, it's hard for you to see that I can't even eat, but I don't understand, you're so ugly, why do I still like you so much? God, this is the biggest joke ever played on me. ”

Liu Qilei simply didn't think Tom was by our side, and she just said these words to Tom, but what about me when I heard this? What else can you do but sigh in your heart?

I lowered my head and ate silently again, what I was thinking about now was Qingshu, how to talk about feelings with other women again? Why can't Qi Lei figure it out? What good am I for?

"You must be wondering what's good about you? yes, I don't know, what the hell is good about you? In my eyes, you are a man full of shortcomings, a guy who has no certain advantages, but I like you so much, even if you become someone else's wife, I still think about you cheaply, why is this? Maybe there's no reason at all, right? If I had to find someone who would do it, it would be that I love you, right? ”

Liu Qilei spoke to me very seriously and with emotion, fortunately we were in the box, others couldn't hear it, but now Tom sitting next to me heard all these words, and I couldn't communicate with her, so I put down the chopsticks, got up and walked to Liu Qilei, whose face fluctuated, and took her hand and walked out of the door.

I pulled Liu Qilei out of the box, and then let go of her, we stood in the corridor, I also stared at her, and said to her after a moment of silence: "Qilei give up on me, and women who are too close will be hurt, believe me, don't continue to fall into this meaningless trap." ”

"Any woman who is too close to you will be hurt? I don't think so, right? How do I feel that you are hurt? And even if I fall into the so-called trap, it makes sense because it's something I'm willing to do, you know? As long as I see you, my mood will improve, to be honest, you are now with Li Qingshu like this, let me feel a kind of hope, I still have a chance, these years of depression, sue me for blind cowardice will only give my beloved to others, and I don't let it now, and you have to wait. ”

Liu Qilei's firm appearance and resolute tone made me sigh heavily, and then said: "But I don't want this, we are just friends, we have been friends since college, and now, how many years, I don't want to change, you are divorced, you should find a man who loves you to live well, instead of betting on me, a person who is not worth betting." ”

But no matter how determined and resolute she is, I know that I can't let it continue like this, she must choose to give up, just like Yiyi, to find true happiness, the trap will only go deeper and deeper, and there will be no benefit.

"Betting? Do you bet on love? Okay, since you said so, then I'll bet, even if I bet my whole worth, even my qiē, it's better to lose, I won't regret it, and if I don't bet, maybe I will regret it, right? ”

Liu Qilei smiled bitterly, but still said firmly, as if no matter what I said, she would be like this.

"Okay, you can do whatever you want, I'm going to eat."

Although it is not the first time that we have had such a straightforward conversation, but this time I believe that I can't persuade her, she will definitely be like this, so be it, let this happen, I can't change it, then let it be, who knows what will happen in the future?

As soon as I finished speaking, I turned around and walked into the box, continuing to eat the unfinished meal.

Qingshu left, my workload has increased, I need to work hard, before there were only three travel lines in the grassland, Dali, Sanya, and now I use the money that Qingshu gave me before, I now need to expand my travel agency, I want to make my travel agency become a travel company, and then I expanded three lines, namely Beijing, Lijiang, Zhangjiajie, and the bar I also opened a second store in Hangzhou, still with Ou Kuangda, Liu Qilei together with shares, because the three of them are shares, the funds are also relatively sufficient, I also opened a branch in Ningbo. The popularity of Lock and Key' is also getting higher and higher, before maybe I wanted to open an idealized theme bar, but because of the Qingshu thing, I changed my mind, although it was forced, but I don't feel sorry, I didn't belong to this world, and I need to change now, I want to merge into this world, for the people worthy of me to protect, I want to work hard, the once idealized idea no longer belongs to me, poetry and distance are temporarily away from me, now in my eyes, in my heart, in my head except money is money, no money is nothing, I can only watch my beloved woman being taken away, gritting his teeth and bearing insults and ridicule.

In the blink of an eye, winter has arrived, but the first snow has not yet arrived, every day is blowing with a cold wind, these days I am busy every day, I use work to numb myself, but when eating, I still can't help but think of her, originally thought, after Xiaoyan, I ushered in happiness, it will be an ordinary but happy life lived by Qingshu, but the clear sky finally ushered in a thunderbolt, and now this season that needs warmth the most, we can't be with each other, we can only miss each other from afar, this kind of love is the most uncomfortable, wants to be by each other's side, but because of all kinds of things can only be separated.

And today I still think of her when I eat, sitting alone in a restaurant, the huge glass can not block the largest supermarket in the city, looking at the supermarket, I saw the memories, but the memories are so sharp, because the supermarket we have happened too much, and also because of the supermarket, we can't forget each other, my loneliness was ruthlessly dismantled by the supermarket, I suddenly found that loneliness is so sad that people feel sad, I want her to be able to sit next to me at this moment, accompany me to eat, and talk to me, Seeing her charming smile, offend her, no matter what it does? Then I will not be alone, but I will be happy.

Looking at the supermarket, I saw the life in a corner of Hangzhou, it is now the rush hour after work, many vehicles are crowded together, it is so unabandonable, how many men and women walk on the street hand in hand together, the sun lacks his due light, now the sunset is beautiful, but the food in the mouth is so unpalatable......

I sat in front of the window of the hotel for an hour, but I only ate a little bit, I paid and left, I stood on the street with a cold wind, my neck shrunk slightly, wearing a down jacket, wearing a scarf but I was still cold, I don't know how cold Beijing is now, it should be colder than Hangzhou, right? Is she okay?

I looked at RT-Mart, which was close at hand, and finally walked across the road on the zebra crossing, came to the door of RT-Mart, paused for a moment and finally walked here, this is how many times I have come here, these days almost every day will come, Qingshu is gone, but the supermarket with the atmosphere of Qingshu is still there, I am still like these days, walking into the supermarket and pushing the trolley around, seeing something, take some at will, walking here, sharp memories will cut me, I am in pain, but also smiling.

The huge supermarket will make me walk aimlessly for half an hour, just like that......

Half an hour later, I left RT-Mart with RT-Mart's grocery bag and stopped a taxi to prepare Liu Qilei's home, and now Tom has been picked up by Liu Qilei to her house, let me go to her house for dinner, this situation, I am helpless.

Whenever I am alone, there will always be such a person who will be by my side, how can I be? But even so, the loneliness in my heart is still strong, I hope to see her when the first snow in Hangzhou arrives, when the first snow last winter, I am sad and painful, I don't want the first snow this winter to be the same, I hope I can smile and be happy to meet the first snow this year.

Looking forward to that day......