The flying snow is her crazy kiss, but she kisses someone else's lips, I am still waiting stupidly in the middle of the night at dusk, and when she, the person who has always loved others in her heart, foolishly believes that she will not break her promise, will come back to make dinner, will have dinner together, will spend Christmas Eve with me, and eat red apples together, but it will not come true.

The scars of the kiss last night and tonight pierced my heart deeply, and the shit was fast, and the 'fuck' came back.

Now I finally understand what it is like for a dream to be consumed by bitterness, weak, bitter, and the blue I loved began to fade like a sting, and became a new color, rotten

Because of the rotten and non-stop tossing, my broken soul rolled back and forth in this snowy night, rolling in pain, maybe my pretended surprise was just a joke, a ridiculous joke

I leaned over and poked my head out to look at the two under the streetlight, they no longer kissed, but turned into hugging, more snuggling, right?

In fact, I should have understood yesterday, through the cold wind that surrounded the surroundings and raged on the snow, I saw the happiness on Li Qingshu's moving face, maybe there was a trace of tears, but it was also tears of happiness, and I secretly hid in the corner, hiding in a place that the snow could not cover, quietly shedding tears, I used to think that my love does not need ambition, nor extravagance, as long as I can see it, no matter when, no matter where.

And now, at this moment, I understand that my love is not so selfless, on the contrary, it is narrow and selfish, my eyes can't look at her happily kissing other men, maybe she is happy, she has belonging, I should sacrifice, or even disappear, completely disappear.

If you want to forget jì, you need to forget jì, how to forget jì

I don't want to watch it, I don't want to watch it, my aching heart is cold, the snow is crying, the wind is laughing, the memorial is crying, the mocking laughter, it's dark, my heart is dark, the heavy black, the painful dark, from the beginning to the present, to tonight, to the wonderful in front of me, all of them are my own fault, I deserve it, and I just make a mistake.

And just as my mind was confused but clear, I heard piercing conversations, and footsteps trampling my heart.

"Thank you, little book."

"Everyone has a hard time, and you are no exception."

"I'll love you so much."

"Yes"

How I believe that the dialogue is not real, and the footsteps are not so real, but in the end, it is still true, every qiē is true, the snow that falls into the bone marrow is real, the wind that blows to my heart is real, this Christmas Eve that will never be forgotten is also real, the kiss is real, the hug is real, she really loves, I really hurt.

"Hey, why is there a bouquet of roses so big on the ground? And there are blood stains, what's going on? ”

I was in a dark corner, trembling and watching Li Qingshu and Ling Chao standing in the place where I had just stayed, seeing the flowers falling from my hands, and seeing the blood that I was shocked by the picture in front of me because of my suppressed emotions, how ridiculous this is, I can't describe the mood at this moment, I hope they leave quickly, disappear in front of my eyes quickly, and let me be buried safely by the snow, quietly buried, stupidly waiting, and excited confession, which has become a thing of the past.

"Whatever, I'm going to buy you a bouquet of 99 roses now, no, 999 is too little, 999 can show my love for you."

Ling Chao said the words very sincerely, which made the corners of my mouth twitch for a while, the frozen purple palms were tightly clenched into fists, the frozen tears were melted by new tears, and I also closed my eyes I can't see their sweetness after all, I am a stingy man.

Li Qingshu and Ling Chao didn't stay in front of the roses for long, and left soon, at this moment, Li Qingshu may have forgotten the so-called soon, the so-called back, I don't blame her, I only blame myself for being too self-conscious, all kinds of 'yin' all day long, no matter how wolf I am, I am to blame.

They left, my frozen eyes could no longer see her figure, I don't know how long I curled up in the corner and sat in the corner, anyway, my body was numb from the cold, I couldn't imagine how I could resist the erosion of the cold wind and the bitter cold with only a thin line of clothing.

Walking alone on the snow-covered road, there was laughter, happiness, and even a snowball fight, and everyone was partying on a peaceful night, but I was indescribably lonely and lonely.

It was as if I didn't belong to this world at all, just two legs that could travel through the void, walking silently, and watching, looking at the series of deep or shallow footprints under my feet, I counted carefully, I hoped that this way would not think about anything else for the time being.

Silently walked a few stop signs, a few streets, the tears in my heart rained non-stop, but this snow made my heart cold ice, I had no enthusiasm, very light yì no enthusiasm, I don't know if this is very light.

After walking so many footprints, I have figured out one thing, I feel that I have to leave Hangzhou for the time being, go to a place where I can relax and depress my mood, forget a qiē, think about it, I think of a movie I have watched, I want to go to that place, wait until the snow stops and leave, I want to use my savings to buy a second-hand car, drive to that place, a place where I can release a qiē.

After all, in this lonely world, lonely dreams will wake up after all, because the road will be bumpy and hard, and after waking up, you will feel powerless, and you will be reluctant, and you will find that the past is so naïve, and now you have tasted the sharp edge of reality, and it hurts to the heart, and you should forget all the qiē and qiē, because my dream woke up.

When I was about to take out my phone and call Ou Kuangda to ask him to take good care of Tom, I found that the damp pockets were deflated, the phone was gone, and I didn't know where I had lost it, maybe it was where I was curled up and crying, or maybe it was near this series of footprints.

I didn't look for it anymore, and I even felt that such a loss was an obvious sign to me, and the snow of the sacrifice was a concept.

I lost my phone, but I also have to call Ou Kuangda, my sudden departure, they will definitely be worried, but even if I disappear suddenly, there is no one in the wheelchair, Li Qingshu will not care after the reunion, right? Her reciprocation, the so-called touching is enough, I think it is enough.

I borrowed the passerby's mobile phone and called Ou Kuangda.

"Kuangda, I'm Liang Jiafeng, happy Christmas Eve, and say happy Christmas Eve to Tom, I'll make a long story short, my leg is better now, I'm going to leave Hangzhou for a while, don't ask why, don't be surprised, don't ask me where I'm going, I'm just going out for a walk, you help me take care of Tom, you must take care of Tom, please, I use someone else's mobile phone, I lost my phone, and I'm ready to change the card, okay, I'll contact you, hang up first, bye."

I spoke very quickly and said the words I had planned in advance, and before Ou Kuangda could say anything, I quickly hung up the phone, but tears welled up in my eyes.

"Thank you."