701 Guilt
"You finally came here, finally knew Xiaoyan's situation, I don't know if it's good for you to come here, or never come here, when Xiaoyan chose to leave you after losing her eyesight, it was very painful, she was crying all day and all night, my mother and I saw the pain in our eyes, in fact, we wanted to tell you about Xiaoyan's situation, but Xiaoyan didn't want you to know her situation, so we chose to come to Dali, I continued to work in Hangzhou, and Xiaoyan's mother accompanied her in Dali, during this time, Xiaoyan is very calm on the surface, and she is also full of smiles, but her mother and I can really see her heart, and this heart is you, in addition to blindness, I am actually thinking, one day you will come to Dali and meet Xiaoyan, I believe that your fate has not been broken, and now you are finally here, and Xiaoyan cried, proving that she vented the hidden emotions in her heart. ”
Mr. Wang and I came to the living room, and he sat on the sofa and looked at me very seriously.
Now Xiaoyan was taken to the bedroom by her mother, she should be doing mental work, and when I heard Mr. Wang's words, I really understood the situation when Xiaoyan left me and couldn't see the light.
"Uncle, it's my reason, I came to Dali at the beginning, but I misunderstood Xiaoyan, thinking that she was kind to other men, so she abandoned me, and even I used to hate her, if I didn't misunderstand her at that time, carefully greeted and observed her, there would be no future these things, she was lonely, a person sad and cried, and I was lingering in the red dust and couldn't extricate myself, but uncle, I finally know Xiaoyan's situation now, I think the person who accompanies her and takes care of her is me."
I sat opposite Mr. Wang, looked serious, and said resolutely.
"I heard in Hangzhou that you are married, you are also successful in your career now, and your own travel company is also developing well, you are late now, you have your own family, do you want to give up your wife because of Xiaoyan? Your parents won't agree either, because Xiaoyan is a person who can't see the light, even if you don't think Xiaoyan is a burden now, but what about in the future? Not to mention that your parents will definitely think so, they will not agree, things in the world are not as simple as they think. ”
Mr. Wang said to me very rationally and calmly, as if reminding me and admonishing me, as if he didn't want me to take care of Xiaoyan, thinking that I would hurt her after all.
"Uncle, my wife I will talk to her well, as for my parents, I believe they will agree, they used to like Xiaoyan very much, and now that Xiaoyan is blind, they will only feel pity, they will definitely not be so ruthless as you say, this time I met Xiaoyan, maybe it was in the dark, right? Originally, I didn't come to Dali, but because of a feeling I came to Dali, so I also met Xiaoyan and learned about her situation, and I was also with Xiaoyan in the past few days, thinking about all this, I just want to take care of Xiaoyan now, otherwise I will not have a good life in the future, this is the devil in my heart. ”
I said more firmly, I said slowly word by word, just to let Mr. Wang feel my determination, I have been observing Mr. Wang's expression, there has been a slight change in his expression, he is a little surprised, maybe surprised by my decision and determination, right?
"Xiao Liang, I also know you, you are a good boy, but you have to think about it, Xiaoyan can't do anything now, you have to take care of it every day, if you are a normal person, you won't be like you, Xiaoliang, you talk to your uncle, why would you rather abandon your existing life and take care of Xiaoyan?"
Mr. Wang's expression changed, but he still asked me rationally, which is also a kind of verification, right? After all, Xiaoyan is his only daughter, and now it is about his daughter's happiness.
"To tell you the truth, uncle, I feel very guilty about Xiaoyan, I also have mercy and love, so I am willing to take care of her and stay by her side, once when I was difficult, Xiaoyan was by my side without regrets, and now it's my turn."
I didn't hesitate and told Mr. Wang the truth, I don't want to be high-sounding, I just say it from my heart.
"Guilt? Commiseration? Then there is a trace of love, Xiaoliang, you better go back to Hangzhou, you and Xiaoyan have no fate, and since Xiaoyan chose not to tell you the situation and left you, he is destined not to be with you now. ”
Mr. Wang rubbed his hands tightly with each other, lowered his voice slightly, and said to me very firmly, and also told me a decision, maybe he rejected my idea because he didn't have pure love for Xiaoyan, right?
"Uncle, you believe me, I will definitely take care of Xiaoyan, and uncle, you have to believe that Xiaoyan will be fine, and she will see the light again, we all have to have faith, as long as we have faith, Xiaoyan will have confidence."
I still said firmly, I would not change my mind because of his words, and my decision was deliberate.
"Yes, we have to have faith, and I also believe that Xiaoyan will be fine."
Mr. Wang said with emotion, but the bitter look on his face really appeared, I understand Mr. Wang's mood, maybe more painful and desperate than me, right?
"Since I believe that Xiaoyan will be fine, then I will accompany her through the difficult days."
As I spoke, I stood up, and then I was ready to go to the bedroom to talk to Xiaoyan's father, it was time to talk to her mother, and her, I don't know what Xiaoyan thinks now, and what emotions she has, but I need to express my thoughts and emotions, I want to give Xiaoyan that she can see the rising sun and see the sunset and dusk.
I stood at the door of the bedroom and knocked on the door, and soon Xiaoyan's mother opened the door for me, I looked at my mother with tears on her face, and said sincerely: "Auntie, let's talk." ”
"Okay."
My aunt was stunned for a moment, then nodded, just about to come out, but I said again: "Let's be with Xiaoyan." ”
When my aunt heard my words, she looked at me deeply, turned around and walked into the bedroom, and by this time Mr. Wang was already standing by my side.
"Xiao Liang, I know Xiaoyan, she won't, she won't."
Mr. Wang seems to be sighing, and he seems to be sighing, in short, such emotions are helpless and not good.
"I'll make Xiaoyan change her mind."
I said firmly, and then strode into the bedroom, and when I walked into the bedroom, I saw Xiaoyan sitting on the bed, she seemed very uneasy, but not so excited.
"Xiaoyan."
"Let's go, why haven't you left yet?"
Xiaoyan lowered her head and said coldly to me, her indifference did not make me have any emotional fluctuations, but said straight to the point: "Xiaoyan, I have decided, I will accompany you this time, if you can see it, you can completely kick me away, just let me accompany you during this time, okay?" ”
"No, I don't want to hear you, let's go, Mom and Dad, will you let him go?"
Xiaoyan said a little uncalmly, even a little crazy, the crazy appearance made me feel helpless, I looked at Xiaoyan's parents.
My aunt shook her head at me and motioned for me to leave first, while Mr. Wang smiled helplessly at me, seeing their expressions and listening to Xiaoyan's dissatisfaction with me, I secretly thought in my heart: Let Xiaoyan calm down and calm down today, buffer my messy emotions, and I will come to see her tomorrow and come to talk to her again.
"Okay, Xiaoyan, I'll go, I'll go, you calm down."
I said quickly to her, and then I turned around and walked out of the bedroom, I left the hotel and came to the Erhai Lake alone, the cold wind was on my cheeks, my emotions were no longer chaotic, and my mood was the same, my heart was only full of guilt for my choice.
I walked dozens of steps on the shore of Erhai Lake, the mobile phone rang suddenly, I took out the phone and found that it was Qilei calling, I looked at the caller ID, did not immediately connect the phone, but held the mobile phone and kept looking like this, after a while, when the second call came, I finally connected the phone.
"Hey."
I said with a pretense of calm.
"What is Jiafeng doing? When will you be back? ”
Qilei asked me, in a tone of great concern, but I didn't deserve her attention, and I paused for a moment to hear her words, took a deep breath and said to her, "Well, I'll be back the day after tomorrow, how about Tom?" How are your parents? Pretty good, right? ”
"It's good, you don't have to worry, I'll take care of them, you have to take care of yourself, have you had breakfast? How's Dali playing? Is it cold? ”
Qilei said to me with great concern, that strong concern has spread out of the phone, at this moment my heart is trembling, at this moment I can't say what it tastes, at this moment I suddenly feel like a bastard, and my heart has been shaken?
"I've had breakfast, I'm having fun, the weather is not bad, have you had breakfast?"
I was silent for a moment, and replied in a trembling tone, and also asked her rhetorically, I don't know what to say at this time, maybe I can't say anything, right?
"I've eaten it a long time ago, what are you doing now?"
"I'm taking a walk by Erhai Lake."
"Okay, I suddenly want to go too, next year we will go to Erhai together, and then take Tom with me."
Qilei said with longing, but I was in a state of imminent separation, as if my soul had lost its color, Qilei's concern for me, and our expectations for our future life instantly turned into a needle piercing me fiercely.
"Yes, okay."
I replied in a calm mood, just trying to pretend to calm myself, Qilei didn't hear anything, after hanging up the phone, I felt prostration, as if I had gone to work on the floor tiles, I put the phone in my pocket, turned to look at the calm Erhai, but the mood was not calm, the mood changed in an instant.