Qi Lei's sincere words made my guilt even stronger, and at this moment, my firm heart seemed to be shaken again, but the shaking was only for a moment, and I quickly corrected the slightly chaotic mood.

"Then you can love it, but I tell you again, I don't love you."

I said to her very solemnly, and at the same time looked at her coldly, this moment is not a choice, but a ruthless choice, to take care of Xiaoyan, accompany Xiaoyan, I am imperative.

I wanted to drink now, but Qilei said to me, "Your love is extravagant for me, but I'm used to it, so no matter what you do to me, even if you hate me, I will rely on you." ”

Qilei's face was full of determination, and I knew that no matter how ruthless or angry I was, she would not change her mind.

"I'm going to the bar, are you going to follow?"

I said indifferently to Qilei.

"Are you going to drink?"

Qilei asked me.

"Yes."

I replied.

"I'm going too, I'm going to drink too."

Qilei said with a smile, as if she wasn't sad.

I had to take Qilei to the bar, I didn't want to do anything this night, I just wanted to drink, drink happily, get drunk, I didn't know anything, that's what I wanted.

The two of us didn't drink anything else, just whiskey, but before I could drink it, Qilei just picked up the bottle and poured herself a big glass, it was so crazy that of course she needed to vent.

After she poured a glass of wine, she drank wildly, and I also poured myself a glass of wine, but I drank it slowly, and the song resounded slowly, which was sad, as if penetrating my heart, and also expressing my emotions.

I sat in the corner of the bar with Qilei and didn't say anything, just drank, and soon we were almost drunk, and obviously I was even more drunk, and I was already on the table, and Qilei was supporting me to go home.

We wandered along the road, the wind was blowing, and we were staggering, and I was so drunk that I was about to fall to the ground.

"Feng, are you really willing to abandon me?"

Qilei said to me drunkenly.

"I'm sorry, not because I don't like you, it's just because I have to go to her, and now she needs me, you know?"

I didn't think about it, I just replied to her.

"I know that you don't love me, but because of your kindness, you are looking at Wang Xiaoyan who is blind and pitiful, so you made such a decision, I know that you are also very difficult, it doesn't show that you are so ruthless, right?"

Qilei said to me loudly, I don't know if I was hallucinating, I heard Qilei's tone seem to be pleasant, but also crying.

But I couldn't continue to express my words, I felt like I was going to fall into a deep sleep, and now I was tired and tired, as if I would never get up again after this sleep.

I don't know how long it took me to get up, I had a splitting headache, I slept on a soft bed, and I was next to Qilei, I looked at her, no movement, just thinking about the dream I had, it was a long dream, I dreamed that I was married to Manqing, Tom did not appear, in the countryside I was the village director, although only deputy, but very fulfilling, Manqing and I were also very happy, and Manqing was pregnant, but the dream suddenly changed, it was also suspended, and then I dreamed that after I came to Hangzhou from the countryside, I did not meet Li Qingshu, I didn't go to jail, I just worked as an ordinary clerk, and then I met an ordinary girl, we fell in love, and we were about to get married, but when we were about to get a marriage certificate, the dream stopped, and then the picture changed, I went back to the time when Tom first came to Hangzhou, I met Li Qingshu, but we met for the first time, there was no previous contradiction, this time I came to a hero to save the beauty, Li Qingshu can't taekwondo, just a weak woman, I saved her, and then we got to know each other beautifully, She filled my wounded heart, and she is not the so-called supermarket boss, but very beautiful, we are not much distance, we soon fell in love, but also when we are about to enter the marriage hall, the picture disappears again, and the next picture appears, it is such a dream, Xiaoyan and I slept on the bed of a hotel, and the hotel is located in Erhai Lake, Dali, we belong to ***, Xiaoyandong's personality is not warm, but grinning, what to say, others *** after the strange, And we fell in love after ***, after I proposed to her, when I was ready to get married, the picture disappeared again, when the picture appeared again, it was such a dream, I stood in the grove of the university, in front of me was Qilei, and Luo Meng was next to me, and I and Luo Meng reversed roles, Luo Meng helped me cheer up, I confessed to Qilei, but Qilei did not promise me, and Luo Meng scolded, but I was not discouraged, I have always loved Qilei, and I have been confessing to her, finally after a few years, Qilei agreed, and in the end I was going to get married, but when we were going to get married, I woke up from a dream.

It was an epic dream, I felt very tired, in the dream I seemed to have lived several lifetimes, but each life was not perfect, and it always stopped when I got married.

This dream has made me understand a lot, but the most important truth is that life is ever-changing, no one knows what to do next, what will be smashed on your head, whether it is a steamed bun or a pie, or a stone, and when you encounter all kinds of life, you must face it calmly and strive not to make mistakes yourself.

I borrowed the dream to compare my own life, my life is more colorful than any of my own lives in the dream, everywhere is choice, all pain, and now am I happy or painful?

I looked at Qilei and silently shed tears, which inevitably fell on her moving cheeks, and then I hurriedly wiped away the tears for her, and then gently stroked her messy hair, silently muttering: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." ”

However, just as I was stroking her hair, she suddenly opened her eyes and looked at me with a cute face, and then she was sluggish, without words, without movement, just lying beside me and looking at me stupidly.

I didn't speak, I looked at her silently, looking at her apologetically.

However, even during the silence, a smile appeared on her face, and there was joy and bitterness in her smile, and I don't know if she is happy or sad now.

"Are you awake? I'm going to make breakfast. ”

When I speak, I'm ready to talk.

"Wait."

But Qilei stopped me.

"What's wrong?"

I asked as I looked at her quizzically.

However, Qilei didn't speak, just hugged me suddenly, and then kissed me, Qilei's movements shocked me, I wanted to break free, but Qilei obviously used all her strength to hold me, and my early morning was also aroused, and then I began to respond, I knew that what I was doing at this moment was legal, but it was wrong, and I was full of guilt.

After a while, I just got out of bed and ran away, in the name of making breakfast, of course.

I was busy in the kitchen for a while, and Qilei was also up to make breakfast with me, and she was always smiling, and she was not even so pale, but I didn't know what kind of mood I was, should I be happy or sad?

Breakfast was quickly ready, I went next door to inform my parents, they brought Tom with them, and our family had breakfast happily again.

However, during the meal, the matchmaker's mother actually talked about me and Qilei having a child again, and she was extremely enthusiastic, and I was instantly sweaty.

After breakfast, my parents went out for a walk, and Tom was going to let me play a game with him, and then Tom and I were playing with a gamepad and racing, and Qilei cut fruit for us, and then sat next to us and watched us both play games, and we laughed, and she laughed too, and laughed very happily.

In fact, at that moment, I told myself, Liang Jiafeng, you just need this kind of life, you want this kind of life.

However, this moment of trance quickly disappeared, I no longer became cloudy, and my mind was clear.

We played games all morning, and the three of us didn't seem to hide our smiles, and it was extremely rare for me to be able to play games with Tom for a while, and Qilei on the side acted as both a young girl and a beautiful wife.

The morning was spent in the game, laughter and laughter, and then lunch began, Qilei and the matchmaker prepared lunch, and I sat with the revolutionary father to play chess, a game of Tom cute cheering, but the person cheering was his grandfather.

"You've lost again, do you have something on your mind? Judging from your chess path, your mind is still very serious, tell me, what happened? ”

The revolutionary father asked me solemnly, as if he could see through my heart, I was in a trance for a while, I knew what my heart was, I can't tell the revolutionary father now, the New Year is coming soon, I hope that the two of them can have a good year.

"It's okay, it's just no longer in state, come again, this time I will definitely win you."

I paused for a moment and replied, and as I spoke, I was playing chess.

However, the revolutionary father suddenly grabbed my hand, looked at me and said very seriously: "You were raised by me, I can see you lying blindly, tell me, what happened?" I can also give you something to think about. ”

Looking at the revolutionary father with a serious expression, I was speechless for a while, not knowing what to say, and I was asking myself whether I should tell the truth or tell them the truth at the right time.

"What do you two say? See you're so serious? ”

At this time, the matchmaker suddenly came out of the kitchen with the dishes and asked me and the revolutionary father.

The matchmaker and mother seemed very happy.