"Say you're getting younger and prettier."

I looked at the matchmaker and said with a smile, but now I am lying, I am sorry for my parents, my heart is full of guilt, I am so old, and I want to make them sad and worried, I am an unfilial son.

"Don't be poor, what are you talking about?"

The matchmaker didn't believe it, looked at me and the revolutionary father very seriously, and asked solemnly.

"Old woman, don't you think your son is a little abnormal?"

Before I could say anything, the revolutionary father just spoke.

Hearing the words of the revolutionary father, I was speechless, the revolutionary father saw my abnormality, and now he told the matchmaker's mother, he must be forced to ask me, and I should tell them? I'm still struggling, I actually don't want to tell them, after all, the New Year is coming soon, and I'm telling them now, it's too cruel, this is to make the revolutionary father and the matchmaker go to the New Year with a bad mood, and it won't be a good year.

Now I have wronged Qi Lei, let her act with me, of course, Qi Lei is also willing to act with me, maybe it is unfair to her.

"It's really fine, it's just that I've been busy with business lately, and I'm just a little tired."

I paused for a moment and hurriedly said to my revolutionary father and matchmaker, my lies have never stopped.

"Okay, it's okay, I thought you had something to do again, it's all a habit."

The matchmaker said with a smile.

Soon Qi Lei brought breakfast to the table, our family sat at the dining table, eating happily, but the joy is just the surface, my heart and Qi Lei's heart is not here, what I am thinking about now is Xiaoyan, and Qi Lei I don't know, but I also know.

"Looking at the Chinese New Year, I won't go back to my hometown this year, it's time to prepare New Year's goods, and your father and I will go out to buy some New Year's goods in the afternoon."

The matchmaker's mother, who was eating, said suddenly.

"Mom, I'll take care of the New Year's goods."

I put down the iron spoon and looked at the matchmaker's mother and said.

"Yes, Mom, I'll go buy it with Jiafeng in the afternoon, you and Dad don't go out, after all, it's not spring yet, and it's still a little cold."

Qi Lei hurriedly echoed at this time.

"It's okay, how can the cold here be compared to my hometown, the two of us are not used to being here, we don't usually go out, we are a little aggrieved, I want to go out for a walk, if you are worried, let's go together."

The revolutionary father spoke at this time.

"Okay, I'll accompany you two old men."

I promised, and I understood my parents' feelings, after all, in my hometown, I can go to the door every day, but in the city I can't, but fortunately Tom is not particularly lonely.

After eating in the morning, I went to the company to solve the things that should be solved, but sitting in the office, my thoughts were too much, I thought of Manqing, and wondered if she was doing well at this moment? I also thought of Li Qingshu, she must be having a very difficult time now, I have to help her if possible, and now what worries me the most is Xiaoyan, who is blind, I want to accompany her immediately and take care of her.

This morning is like this, in the afternoon, our family is driving to the market to buy New Year's goods, a family of five, one of the two is very happy walking on the street, buying what needs to be bought, couplets, salutes, fruits, meat and other things, of course, the most important thing is to buy clothes, mainly for Tom and the revolutionary father and matchmaker mother to buy clothes.

Of course, Qi Lei and I also want to buy it, but we buy it for them first, and then we buy it, the matchmaker's mother and the revolutionary father said that they didn't buy anything, saying that they didn't need it, and it was too expensive, but in the end, I finally bought clothes under my soft grinding and hard bubbles, and I also bought clothes for Qi Lei, one piece is a few thousand yuan, maybe I want to compensate her, right? Plus the bag cost a total of more than 20,000 yuan, Qi Lei originally said that it was too expensive and didn't buy it, but I also bought the clothes with soft grinding and hard bubbles, and I was much cheaper, 1,000 yuan to buy a dress, just make it simpler.

The clothes were bought, the New Year's goods were also purchased, the sky was darkened, the sun was no longer hanging high in the sky, we went home, walked all afternoon, everyone was tired, Tom fell asleep directly in the car, the revolutionary father and the matchmaker mother were also strong, and after returning, they went to rest, as for cooking, they were ready to order takeout, and Qi Lei and I moved all the things we bought to the house.

After our busy leisure, Qi Lei was also tired and fell asleep on the sofa, her hair was a little messy, but she looked very beautiful, but looking at my nominal wife, I was helpless in addition to guilt, as if life was a big joke on us, our union seemed to be wrong, but I don't regret it, even a little reluctant, I actually cherish the fate with Qi Lei, Qi Lei is also very touched by my love, I want to come with Qi Lei, but when I know that Xiao Yan is blind, And because I left me because of blindness, it was also to not drag me down, a lonely life, living without faith all day long, and I needed to put this confidence on her body, deeply attached to her heart, so I had to be sorry for Qi Lei, even if I had a reason, there was a reason, but after all, I was sorry for Qi Lei, I feel very guilty when I see her saving now, and then I don't know what to say, I am in such a state now.

"Are you tired? Go to sleep and wait until a while before eating. ”

I looked at her and said gently.

"What about you? Aren't you going to take a break? ”

Qi Lei sat up slowly, looked at me and said with concern, she still cares about me until now, which makes me speechless for a while, but my heart is warm, and then there is some bitterness.

"Well, I'll rest for a while, too."

I thought about it and finally said, and then I just lay down on the couch.

"Don't you sleep in your bedroom? How uncomfortable is it here? ”

Qi Lei continued to ask.

"No, I don't want to move anymore when I'm tired."

Looking at Qi Lei, I said lazily, and then closed my eyes, I try not to communicate with Qi Lei now, or even to see her, I am afraid that my guilt will continue to sprout, and then I will only feel more uncomfortable.

Qilei didn't speak, she didn't move, it seemed that she was going to rest on the sofa, we both slept on the sofa, there was a coffee table in between, the atmosphere was not pleasant and warm, but a heaviness, at this moment it was not quiet, but silence.

But I didn't fall asleep, I just lay on the couch, and the time passed slowly, and soon I sat up, and although I didn't look at the time, I estimated that it had been two hours, and it was time to eat.

I sat up and saw that Qilei was sleeping on the sofa, she was really asleep, but now she was not sleeping peacefully, there was no smile on her face, but full of bitterness.

I stood up and walked over to Qilei, draped my coat over her, took a deep look at her, and walked to the bedroom, ready to order.

When I walked out of the bedroom again, I found that Qilei had woken up, she was sitting on the sofa with her back to me, but at this time, she turned around and looked at me in an instant, and the somewhat ugly face after seeing me was instantly colored, she smiled and said to me, "When did you wake up?" “

I wanted to answer Qilei's question like this, but I didn't sleep all the time, but just felt the silence, but I wanted to answer like this: "You just woke up, are you hungry?" I ordered takeout, and after a while, I went to call my parents and Tom. "

"Well, you can go."

Qilei said gently.

I nodded, then quickly walked out of the room, knocked on my parents' door, and soon the door was opened, and the person who opened the door was the matchmaker, who also seemed to have just woken up.

"Mom, did you just wake up? It's time to eat, is Daddy awake? And Tom. ”

I asked the matchmaker's mother.

"No, Tom is tired, and your dad is about the same, so I'll call them."

The matchmaker replied, then turned and walked into the room, and followed into the room.

Revolutionary dad and Tom were woken up by the matchmaker's mother, and everyone came to my house, just at this time the takeaway was delivered, and I called KFC outside, chicken legs and wings.

When Tom, who was still dozing off, saw the takeout, he was immediately in good spirits and couldn't wait to eat.

After the family happily ate dinner, Qilei cut a lot of apples, and everyone ate apples again, while watching the series, the family talked all over the world, and Qilei and I were also acting, but Qilei didn't feel that she was about to be abandoned, but always smiled, as if she was really happy.

And I don't act well, because my heart is chaotic now, belonging to that extremely chaotic state, I am afraid of such a moment, because I am reluctant to such a moment, because I feel more and more that I can't do without such a family, with Qilei, my parents and children are taken care of, Qilei is really a good wife, an absolute good wife and mother, and I want to abandon her and find her from my heart.

Such moments are especially infectious, I am just infected, now I hang my head, the TV series happens to be an emotional scene, my eyes are full of tears, and finally I still stand up, because I am afraid that my eyes will be rubbed by my parents, and my abnormality cannot be known to my parents.

I walked to the balcony, looked at the starry sky, looked at the moon, was blown by the cold wind, wanted to yell but couldn't, I was in such a state, a state of speechlessness.

But I stood on the balcony for a moment, and my peace was broken, and Qilei stood beside me, but did not speak immediately, but also looked at the starry sky, as silent as me.

Qilei seems to come out to accompany me to look at the stars, but such moments are not pleasant, but a feeling of silence, which is particularly heavy.