A herd of cattle and sheep are running on the grassland not far away, unusually cheerful, excitedly screaming, happily eating grass, the huge grassland completely belongs to their world.

I finally knew the true ~ phase a moment ago, and my forbidden area was finally opened, but when I knew the true ~ phase, how heavy my heart was.

Yiyi had a fire at home during the holiday, her parents were all buried in the fire, she was lucky to survive but completely disfigured her face, and when she woke up, she found that her face had completely changed, and now she is all fake, completely made the day after tomorrow, the bridge of the nose, the mouth, etc., are all fake, and the textbook-like face turned out to be plastic surgery.

"How miserable should you have been at that time? Yiyi I'm sorry, I wasn't by your side when you were most in danger and helpless, I was just a bastard, not only was I not by your side, but I also had resentment towards you in my heart, and I was resentful for a long time, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. ”

Yiyi hid in my arms, hugged me tightly, and cried very loudly, as if at this moment she had burst out all the qiē she had endured recently, and the depression in her heart, the heavy stone that had collapsed from her was finally put down, as if the huge grassland had been smashed into a big pit.

My belated apology did not let Yiyi relieve her feelings, but cried more violently, I could only pat her back with dull and remorseful feelings, very light and light, every time the fall of the palm came from my pity for Yiyi, how will she live these years without father's love and mother's love? I am now squatting on the grass and remembering what Ou Kuangda did to me before, she has lived alone all these years, she is also a person when she is admitted to college, she is also a person with expensive tuition fees, and she is also a person when she is admitted to a master's degree and doctorate, so that she has always lived in a dormitory building, and every reunion festival is a person, and the most important thing is that she has been alone like this, and has not found a man who can give her happiness, I am not stupid~ Zi, she is because of me, because she has never abandoned me, It's just that fate has played tricks on her and me.

Now I can't think too much, only one thought is that Yiyi is too pitiful, she has suffered too much, really too much, when a woman has completely lost her family, lost herself, that kind of unaccompanied, that kind of makeover, and even changed her name, how painful will she be? At that time, she must have been pale in her mind, a pale in the dark.

"Yiyi, then why did you change your name? Why didn't you come to me when you were healed? ”

I continued to pat her on the back and asked Yiyi, who was crying, in a trembling voice, which was also the doubt in my heart.

"I've become this strange look, and what face do I have to look for you? At that time, I felt that you must not like me, at that time I still had scars on my face, and I was adopted by a kind man's grandfather, I also changed my name, because I wanted to live again, but when I graduated from high school, the grandfather died, leaving me alone, and then I came to Hangzhou alone, and I stayed for several years, I thought about you every day in the past few years, and I also wanted to forget you, but I didn't have the courage to go to you, although I wanted to see you, this ambivalence made me more and more crazy, So much so that I keep going for plastic surgery, wanting to make myself beautiful, erasing the ugly scars on my face, and wanting to give you a bright feeling after seeing you, even if this completely acquired face is fake and can no longer be fake. ”

Yiyi choked in my arms, very slowly, very slowly, the trembling tone has never been met, and I have never felt it, I just maintained a posture, listening to her words, her every word made my heart ache once, as if I was in the desert, the appearance of my heart fell off like yellow sand, I am a sensual person, looking at Yiyi's appearance, listening to Yiyi's voice, I can no longer be indifferent, and even calmly stay out of the matter, even if it is someone else, suddenly know that my first love has suffered such a hardship, Only people with a heart will touch their hearts and feel pity for Yiyi, I don't know what kind of feelings I have for Yiyi now, sympathy? Love? Or what?

"Yiyi, why are you so stupid? How could I not like you? If you had looked for me at that time, I wouldn't be in the current situation, and I wouldn't be in the current situation, hey, this is a kind of life, time, life. ”

I patted her on the back, looked at the world behind her, watched the cattle and sheep run happily, watched the wind roll up the grass, and my feelings were very low and almost collapsed.

I don't know what kind of behavior I am now? Will I be sorry for Xiaoyan if I do this? Am I doing the right thing?

"You're right, I regret it, I really regret it, if I had plucked up the courage to go to you at that time, I wouldn't have seen you propose to other women, and I wouldn't have been so heartbroken, Feng, is it too late for me to regret it? I know I'm very selfish like this, and I also know that you love that Xiaoyan very much, you have reached the point of getting married, but love is selfish, I only know that I love you, I don't want to see you marry another woman, I hope you can be with me, you won't care about my plastic face, you won't dislike me for being unrelated, Feng"

Yiyi finally let go of me, grabbed my shoulders tightly with both hands~ and said very excitedly, her cheeks were full of traces of tears, without a trace of blood, and her completely pale face, looking at her at this time, listening to her excited but pleading inquiry to me, I was speechless for a while, now I am really messed up, I don't know what to do?

Yiyi stared at me with tearful eyes, and her palms were a little harder, just waiting for my answer to her, but looking at her expectant and extremely lonely look, I knew that she had no hope.

"Me"

I couldn't speak, if I really stabbed myself with a knife now, I think I made a sin in my last life, and it is also that kind of extremely heavy love debt, otherwise God would not play me like this, the situation I am facing may not be met by many people in the country, the woman who has been by my side is the first love, and I don't know, if I see her to save her, who she is? Will I still be with Xiaoyan? Will I still chase Li Qingshu shamelessly?

Maybe I don't blame God, but I blame my eyes on the back of my head, even my first love stood in front of me, talking to myself, and even made actions very similar to my first love, I didn't know, even if I doubted, but I didn't dare to be sure, and even stupidly ~ forced to exclude, and also let my former brother sleep, I didn't think of these just now, and now I think about it, I feel that I'm too sorry for Yiyi, but if I'm willing to give Yiyi a chance, give her protection and warmth, then where will my unmarried wife belong? This is an unimaginable question, and the more I think about it, the more irritated I become, so I slowly took Yiyi's hand away and stood up under Yiyi's nervous gaze

Then he fell directly on the grass, completely without protecting himself.