This night, this Chinese New Year's Eve, our family except Tom is pulling a face, I am like this, so are my parents, so is that the situation that is not as good as I wish will ruin the festive New Year, and let the parents who are full of joy come to see me sad and hopeless.

Almost no one moved at the table, and the TV playing was just a fictitious thing, and my parents turned from anger to silence about what I had done, but I was sitting in front of them, hoping that they could be angry with me, at least then I didn't have to hold it in my heart, silently uncomfortable in my heart, digesting the pain.

The silence of us and the silent night walked together, and finally ushered in the dawn, my parents and I were very silent and tacit did not fall asleep, the sun came out and did not wash our faces or clean up things, maybe we all thought that Xiaoyan would appear and would leave me behind.

And we didn't wake up Tom, who had slept lazily, a dinner table accompanied us all night, and the time I agreed with Xiaoyan finally arrived, but at this time, my heart became more and more nervous, and my eyes were always staring at the clock hanging on the wall.

The matchmaker's mother and the revolutionary father also looked down at the watch they were wearing on their wrists, and they were both waiting for eight o'clock before they heard a knock on the door.

Although I was tired at a glance, I didn't feel sleepy, I was completely in a tense state, and I was looking forward to Xiaoyan's arrival, no matter how desperate I was, I thought that Xiaoyan would still love me as before, brave her, warm her.

And now that the clock has caught up with the second hand, and it has reached a full eight o'clock, my parents and I are holding our breath, stupidly thinking that Xiaoyan will knock on the door at a full eight o'clock, and such a hypothetical idea is destined not to come true.

The second hand slid the clock around again, the minute hand went a notch, and the knock we wanted to hear didn't ring.

I was desperate, because I knew that if Xiaoyan had thought about it all night and had the heart to save me, he would never come to the courtyard on time, but would come back early, and now it was eight o'clock, Xiaoyan did not appear, and I understood that Xiaoyan and I had completely broken off the relationship, and all the qiē had become a cloud of the past.

My eyes were like sand entering my eyes, extremely painful, I couldn't help but shed tears, I got up in despair, sighed heavily, and said to my parents who still didn't give up waiting: "Mom and Dad, let's pack up our things, leave Hangzhou as much as possible, Xiaoyan won't come, don't wait any longer." ”

I held back my tears and said to my parents, and then I was ready to clean up my things, with ~ tears in my eyes and ready to go to the bedroom to wake up Tom.

"Stop, what are you going to do? Don't pack your luggage, you give me to wait outside, don't come back until Xiaoyan appears, these are all your own doings, I can see that Xiaoyan This girl loves you very much, it's all about you all day long. ”

At this time, the revolutionary father slapped the table and ordered me very angrily, at this time I have become his little soldier again, and I must obey his orders.

"Dad, don't you understand? If Xiaoyan wanted to come, she would have come a long time ago, but if she didn't come now, she would have already made a decision, she wouldn't come to keep me, and she wouldn't even want to send me off. ”

I~ simply roared like a collapse, I was not angry with my revolutionary father, but because Xiaoyan gave up on me, I couldn't bear it in my heart and vented, this was the last time I wanted to hope, but Xiaoyan didn't come, and the so-called hope became despair.

"Then you go and ask again, or just keep waiting, wait until Xiaoyan comes, it's hard to find such a good girl and you want to give up, me and you~ Mom don't want to give up, we don't leave, you can do it yourself."

The revolutionary father stood up angrily, and roared at me with a straight face, the determination in the anger made me can't help but be shocked, because I found grief and despair in the seemingly angry look of the revolutionary father, and then I lowered my head to look at the silent matchmaker mother sitting at the dinner table, and found that she was the same, that kind of exhaustion and despair, that kind of appearance of falling into the abyss from the sky, I couldn't help but be sluggish, what should I do if I really don't deserve it at this time? Can't you just keep waiting? Even if he knew that Xiaoyan would not come.

"Okay, then I'll go out and wait, stand in the cold wind and wait until noon, if Xiaoyan still doesn't come at noon, then I have to leave."

I rubbed my eyes that were about to cry, said with emotion, and without waiting for them to say anything, I hurried to the door, opened the door and walked out of the house.

On the second day of the Lunar New Year, the atmosphere of the New Year in the small courtyard has not weakened in the slightest, it is still very heavy, and I rubbed the old wall with my hand along the wall of the corridor, tilting my head and secretly sad, I don't want to cry, I'm afraid I won't be able to stop, my desperate heart is looking forward to Xiaoyan appearing, I don't want Xiaoyan to see my tearful appearance, I want to show a smile to meet her.

The palm rubbing has a pain, the eyes hurt a little, but the heart hurts even more, looking at the distant blue sky, I silently sighed to myself, I love Xiaoyan, really, really love, I can't leave him, I want to get her warmth, I don't want to be hysterical at this time, even if my heart is broken, I walked out of the small courtyard and stood at the gate of the courtyard, and now I am in a position far away from Xiaoyan's home.

I took out my phone and opened Momo, and found that the account named Ryuha was online, and I couldn't help but feel a sense of relief that Xiaoyan hadn't completely erased me from her world.

I clicked on her, wanted to send her a message, but I didn't know where to start, holding the phone, shaking up and standing for a long time, I typed, one by one the words lined up, but I used the delete key to delete one by one, and then continued to type with the pinyin nine keys again, but the face is still deleted.

I always tell myself, yesterday's phone call was the last, Xiaoyan if there was me she would come, if there was no me I wouldn't force it, I just need to continue to wait for her, but at this moment my eyes stayed on the phone screen fiercely, and I saw an extremely important message.

I looked very carefully for nearly a few tens of seconds, and looked around in shock, but I didn't know which way to go.

I thought about it carefully in shock and panic, slapped my head hard, and scolded indignantly: "Liang Jiafeng, you are a stupid." ”

As I spoke, I held my phone and stared at the screen with my eyes, and walked along the road on my right, and after a few steps, I quickly turned around and ran in the opposite direction, while continuing to stare at my phone.

I didn't care about the vehicles coming and going, I only knew how to run and look at my mobile phone, I ran more than a dozen steps, my feelings became more and more nervous, but there was a hint of surprise, my face also had a faint smile, and I felt so warm when the cold wind blew.

I kept running along the road, then looked around, and then looked down at my phone, thinking about it, but when my smile became thicker and heavier, and my feelings became more and more excited, I was stunned when I looked at the phone, and then scolded angrily and anxiously.

"Damn it"

But after I die, when I think about it, this only proves that she is very close to me, and I have to find her, I have to find her, even if I am blind now.