While eating breakfast, I thought that today's Manqing seems to be a little different from before, I seem to see the dawn coming, I feel that Manqing is about to quit drugs, about to get rid of the shroud of drugs, she is going to really be herself.

I really did too much effort for the arrival of this day, I don't know how many nights I didn't sleep, I don't know how many times I cried in the corner, Manqing is really pitiful, maybe it's really like her, I'm like this to her, it's because of the so-called pity, of course, pity is pity, as long as she can live well, I don't care what kind of mood I have for her.

"Liang Jiafeng, you and I have been here for more than ten days, and you have never gone out at all, and you have always stayed by my side, don't you feel irritable?"

Man Qing wiped the corners of her mouth with a napkin, asked me the question in my heart, I heard her words, quickly ate the remaining fritters, and then wiped my mouth indiscriminately and said to Man Qing: "I don't want anything now, I just want you to be able to quit drugs, even if I stay here with you for a month, I won't be irritable for two months, I also hope you can have confidence and don't let my hard work go to waste." ”

I looked at Man Qing with great sincerity and seriousness, and the desire in my heart was more intense than it appeared on the surface, because I was a little impatient to find Xiaoyan now, and of course I was anxious to hope that Man Qing would no longer be tortured, because I really couldn't stand it, not because of irritability, but because my heart really hurt.

"I'm going to quit, I won't let you down, but if you're going to leave when I quit drugs?"

Manqing asked me a question that I didn't know how to answer.

Should I tell the truth or a lie? I didn't have an answer, I just looked away, and was silent for a while, and Manqing was not in a hurry to ask me, so she picked up the soy milk again and started to drink it, but she just wiped her mouth.

I understood that she was very irritable now, and I seemed to have guessed a little about her thoughts, so I thought about it and finally said to her: "You have quit drugs, you will have your own life, and it is not okay for me to stay by your side all the time?" ”

"You should have your own life directly, your appearance has disturbed me, you left me ruthlessly, and you didn't even accept a child, you deserve to end up like this, right?"

Man 8 ≯ 8 ≯ 8 ≯ 8 ≯ ,m.●.c△omstyle_tt; Qing stood up suddenly, looking at me very seriously, her face was no longer calm, full of so-called bitterness, I could completely understand why Man Qing was like this, she would think like this, her experience made her think like this.

"Man Qing, I don't think so, I only feel heartache for what you have suffered, I can't wait to smash that bastard's head out of the flower now, yes, you didn't accept a child before, and you left in another man's car, and gave me back the ring, but I don't hate you, I can understand the love between us, the reason why we left each other is because we don't love enough, can you understand? You left me at the beginning, not because of money, not because of children, but because your love for me is not pure enough, and it is not righteous enough, even if you get married, you will get divorced, long pain is better than short pain Sometimes it's really good, don't keep this matter in your heart, I won't hate you, so don't hate yourself. ”

My speech speed is not fast, as if I am drinking a glass of boiled water, very calm to Manqing, every sentence is very clear, every sentence is sincere.

Man Qing was silent, and the action of drinking soy milk frantically stopped, such silence stopped for a moment, and then Man Qing suddenly laughed, it was an inexplicable laugh, and the smile was very bitter.

"Don't make excuses for me, at that time I just disliked the child, and I also wanted someone to be able to drive me for a ride, and I wanted to go to the big city to live, but I lived in a building, in fact, I was a little hesitant on the day of my wedding, because the child suddenly found that your departure made my last insistence broken, maybe not broken, but there is a reason to leave you, you can sit in the so-called 200,000 cars, you can live in a building of more than 100 square meters, you can live in a big city, away from the remote and poor countryside, That's what I thought, and I was unusually relaxed, really, really, very relaxed. ”

Man Qing was trembling with every word, that's why she laughed, she wasn't laughing at me, she was laughing at herself, laughing at the decision she made, what did the path she chose get in exchange?

In fact, Manqing's thoughts, too many people in the world are like this, everyone wants to live a good life, wants to live in a big city, no one wants to live in a remote countryside, Manqing's cooking is not wrong, but no one will let go at that time, and now I am relieved, I also think about her, I really let go.

"Don't say good things anymore, scold if you want, you just look at my wolf bèi downcast now, and I can't bear to vent the anger in my heart, Liang Jiafeng, if you are a man, you will scold me fiercely, scold me shamelessly, scold me for deserving it, and even slap me, so that I can feel better, and you can also feel better."

Man Qing took my sincere words as a wording for fear of hurting her, and I was a little helpless, so I had to take a sip of hot water, pause for a moment and murmur to the ceiling: "I don't have such a heart, what has passed is in the past, don't you think about it too much, do you still want to play chess?" I'll play chess with you. ”

"Liang Jiafeng, do you know? I hate you, I really hate you. ”

Man Qing said suddenly, and then walked into the bedroom with angry steps, leaving a confused person looking at the door that had been slammed shut in a daze.

……

In the blink of an eye, half a month has passed, with my efforts, of course, Manqing himself is working hard, Manqing's drug addiction finally quit, she didn't have a seizure yesterday, and today it's been two and a half afternoons, she didn't have a drug addiction seizure, I am still calm on the surface, but I am already excited in my heart, I am really happy now, but Manqing is a little silent, sitting on the bed alone and looking outside, because it is raining now, the rain outside the window is not bad, but I understand that Manqing is not enjoying the rain at all, Instead, they were listening to the sound of tears falling from the sky.

"Sometimes people can really lose to time."

Man Qing sat on the bed and said suddenly, very inexplicable.

"Yes, time is invincible, and it is impossible for people to overcome, but people can do something meaningful in a limited time, and live happily and happily in the time that passes quickly, instead of frowning all day long, there will be wrinkles, and then the hair will be gray."

I stood at the door, and said solemnly to Man Qing who was sitting on the bed, her physical condition is much better now, not as thin as when she saw her, but her current mood is much worse than her previous physical condition, since she got up, she has been sitting on the bed in a daze, and she has not eaten lunch, when I am excited and happy, it is also full of heaviness, but this heaviness, I can't change it, drug addiction can be eliminated, but what she thinks in her heart is difficult to change, I can't do anything.

"Is it just to be happy? Who wants to frown tightly all the time, who doesn't want to keep the so-called smile on the outline, but there is always a voice that I don't want to hear pierced my ears, just like the sound of zero rain outside the window now, in fact, this is not rain, but tears in the sky, and this sky is my sky. ”

Manqing's silhouette had a smile, but it was bitter, and this bitterness had lingered deeply.

"Of course it's not at the beginning, but from the heart, as for the brow, even if I'm happy, there will be deep wrinkles, if the sound of the rain outside your window is bitter and zero, but I think it's wonderful and ethereal, I like to listen to the sound of the rain, in my heart it is the tears of the sky, but it doesn't cry and fall, but laughs, Manqing, you are almost quitting poison now, don't put your troubles in your heart.

My persuasion is still the same, although I know that it is useless for me to come out of this, because I know what Manqing has in mind.

The room fell silent for a while, and I could only hear the sound of rain outside the window, this moment of silence was very oppressive, and I felt that the rain outside was tears in the sky, but I quickly suppressed this thought.

"I'm fine, you're leaving, in fact, my troubles are useless, this kind of guessable ending, what else do I have to worry about? Liang Jiafeng, thank you, this is the last time to thank you, you go, I want to be alone and quiet. ”

Man Qing was silent for a moment, and said to me with the rain, very seriously, without half a joke.

I suddenly don't know what to do at this time? I wanted to leave but didn't want to go, but I still watched Manqing slowly turn around, ready to leave, Manqing's drug addiction was gone, and I should do what I needed to do the most, this matter has been delayed for too long.

I quietly walked out of the bedroom, closed the door gently, and then looked around the living room for a moment, I stayed here for more than a month, completely derailed from reality, and now I want to go, I don't know what kind of love I am, anyway, it's not good, the so-called ease is only theoretical.

As I walked slowly to the door, about to reach out and grab the doorknob to open the door, I suddenly heard the door open, and then I heard very real footsteps, very messy, very urgent, I was a little confused, but also some not confused, but when I was in the middle of doubting or not doubting, I was hugged......

"Liang Jiafeng, I was wrong, please don't leave me, please......"

Manqing's voice resounded, with such a crying, extremely heavy and trembling voice resounded miserably in the room, full of pleading to make me lose my mind for a while.

"I can't live without you, I don't understand what love is until now, what is love......"