Extra: All memories are what you look like (1)
The flowers in the yard are all blooming, tender white and pink, the wind blows a faint fragrance lingering on the tip of the nose, the light of the sun is getting weaker and weaker, and it slowly falls like a fireball.
It was a not-so-hot evening.
He and Shiratani have been living in a small suburb in the United States for several years, and the house is nice, clean, and has a nice backyard.
Even during the day, it is quiet and unaffected by the outside world, and it is particularly reassuring to be free from the noisy noise of the big city.
Maybe it's not the environment that makes people feel at ease, but the girl in front of him, he never had the luxury of hoping that one day he can sit quietly with her and watch the sunset.
Shi Nan looked at her back for a while before walking over.
Bai Guyu didn't look back, he walked over and reached out and handed her a magazine with just the right thickness. She lowered her eyelashes slightly and reached out to take them, her face was healthy and ruddy, her lips were not covered with the bright lip gloss of the past, and she looked more pure and moving without applying fat powder.
The original flaxen-colored curls are gone, the long straight hair hangs naturally on the sides, the earlobes are round and lovely, and only a silver needle is inserted.
It was as if he had seen the little girl at the age of sixteen again.
Bai Guyu has been beautiful since he was a child, his skin is white and delicate, when he was twelve or thirteen years old, he had already revealed the edges and corners of his beauty, and by the age of sixteen, the whole person was already delicate and slender.
People in the neighborhood often praise her for her beauty over those stars on TV, but they didn't expect that one day she would really become a singer and actress despite her father's objections.
He remembered that he had bought her first album, and then he had followed her to the United States, and he had found time to go back to find it. But the house has been sold by Shen Muhan.
He found the current owner but couldn't find the album anymore.
Shi Nan looked at Bai Guyu's back for a while, and it wasn't until she suddenly turned her head to look at him that he suddenly came back to his senses.
She seemed to frown slightly, her slender willow eyebrows were slightly wrinkled, her eyes were dark and clear, but her eyes were no longer as elegant as before.
It's calm, calm like a lake.
Shi Nan's heart suddenly tightened when she looked at her like this.
Is she going to mention him going back again?
Behind their apparent harmony and warmth is just endless strangeness and coldness, even after so long, he has always insisted on being by her side.
She was still only polite and polite to him.
He actually didn't expect her to accept him and like him. Just let him see her all the time. Taking care of her, he felt that there was nothing to be dissatisfied.
But she had persuaded him to go back more than once.
He has always been the one who insisted.
He gave up once, but this time he didn't want to let go again.
But Bai Guyu just glanced at him lightly, and then she pointed to the chair next to her, her lips moved slightly, and her voice was not loud. "Sit here"
Heather breathed a sigh of relief. As long as you don't let him go, it doesn't matter.
But he couldn't help but smile at the corners of his mouth tilted slightly. Her attitude towards him seems to be a little better than before, is he still a chance.
But she didn't say a word.
Shi Nan quietly glanced at her side face, and felt a little lost in her heart. He has always been an awkward presence in this relationship.
She has liked Shen Muhan more since she was sensible, and when the three of them were together, she always pestered Shen Muhan to talk about things, and the smile on her face was something he had never seen before.
Although Shen Muhan always had a cold face and looked very impatient, he never got angry at her, but was very obedient to her.
Every time he instigated her to go out to catch fish, she always had to pull Shen Muhan up, and before that he didn't have an accurate understanding of how much difference he was between himself and Shen Muhan in her heart.
Until one time they went to catch fish, he and she both jumped into the water, only Shen Muhan stood still on the shore, he jumped ashore and laughed and pushed him down.
There was a big splash.
And her exclamations.
Seeing her frightened face, she rushed over and grabbed Shen Muhan's arm, and anxiously asked several times if there was anything wrong before dragging him ashore.
He was still standing on the shore stunned.
Until she walked up to him wetly, glared at him fiercely, the undisguised hatred in her little eyes, and then reached out and pushed him into the water.
It was summer, but he felt the bitter cold.
He sat dumbfounded, motionless, looking at their departing backs.
She didn't look back at him, lest he drowned, and she thought he deserved it.
However, Shen Muhan glanced back at him, and before he could speak, she pulled his arm, and Shen Muhan withdrew his hand and was dragged back by her.
The two pushed and shoved, and walked away step by step.
She wasn't joking, she was really angry, she really pushed him into the water without hesitation for Shen Muhan.
Just like many times later, she never cared about Shen Muhan's feelings, too, nothing was as good as that person in her heart.
So when she and Shen Muhan came together, he didn't feel too surprised, nor did he feel a lot of sadness, which was very natural.
He thought they were going to get better.
Since then, he has deliberately distanced himself from her, but others can hide from his heart, but he can't, so that he and Shen Muhan are always a little embarrassed.
But then they suddenly separated.
He thought he had a chance to be above board, he thought he could tell her that he liked her for a long, long time, although it was a little unrighteous.
But she ran away from home.
After that, she and he were separated, she was a hot star, he was just an unknown college student, and their worlds seemed to gradually lose their meeting point.
The next few years were very good, except for collecting her first album and watching her first concert, he had almost no contact with her.
He and she were like two intersecting lines, and after that point of coincidence, they were gradually moving away, a distance farther than the parallel lines.
So far away that he gradually seemed to forget what the man looked like.
But as soon as she appeared, all his feelings poured out again, and he found that her appearance became clearer than ever.
That's how he loved her.
Love is so humble, so helpless, so cowardly, so black and white.
Seeing her between Shen Muhan and Lin Shuang, he didn't say anything, knowing that she was wrong, shouldn't be, not good, but he still couldn't say a word of blame from her.
She has Shen Muhan in her heart, not him.
He had long accepted this fact, and he would do whatever he wanted.
As long as she's good, she's happy.
Even if it was murder and arson, he would probably laugh and pretend not to know.
So he gave up his childhood friend for someone who didn't love him, so since then, except for looking for Lin Shuang, Shen Muhan has never taken the initiative to contact him.
Even the second child, Full Moon, did not give him news.
He is to blame.
He sometimes wonders where she is so good that he deserves to do this for her, she is indeed bad, and she has done something wrong, but he just can't help but not look at her and not think about her.
In fact, her biggest bad thing is that she doesn't have him in her heart.
It's ridiculous that he is still excited to see her every day, but he knows that she has never had him in her heart, it was, and it is.
But he hoped that in the future it would not be. (To be continued.) )