There was a violent tremor, and she fell out of the clouds again, very noisy, with the crying of Sister Dan, the clamor of the doctor scolding the nurse, and the noise of men and women watching the excitement on both sides of the aisle. She still felt like she was flying, but this time it was definitely not heaven, could it be hell?

I don't know when I woke up, I don't know what happened in the meantime, I only felt a pain and coldness in my lower body as if I had been cut by a knife, and it turned out that I was already lying on the operating table. Suddenly remembered the feeling of flying just now, and suddenly realized that she should have been pushed by a group of doctors and nurses on a stretcher car. The noise just now is still ringing in my ears, buzzing in my ears. Several doctors and nurses wearing masks surrounded her, she couldn't see their faces clearly, only heard them say some terms to themselves that she didn't understand, and although she was weak, she could finally open her eyes. Feeling the cool liquid seeping into her body in her right hand, she didn't bother to care what tricks they were doing on her, her consciousness was gradually clear, she knew that she was alive, and the burden in her body was gone.

After a while, a woman in a white lab coat walked up to her, holding a dead baby in her hand, "Girl, do you want to see, it's a boy." ”

Mei Ying tried to stand up and look at the child, but she was so weak that she felt like she had become a dried corpse, and there was no more fresh blood in her body, and her blood had dried up in the night. I can only lie on the operating table and stare at it, the child has been formed, even the hair is there, fluffy, soft, there is an urge to touch him, his face is wrinkled and full of folds, but suddenly he feels that he is so ugly, looking at it, there is a soft surge in her heart, she scolded herself in the bottom of her heart, and actually killed her own child with her own hands! In a few months, he will be born, and she, how cruel! Destroyed a life that should have been alive! The body began to tremble again, her eyes were full of tears of remorse, she couldn't bear to look at it anymore, the more she looked at it, the more creepy she became, and the more she looked at it, the more she felt that this child would be the biggest nightmare of her life! She's an executioner! She is no longer qualified to be a mother!

"Girl, do you think you should bury it yourself or we will bury it for you? There's a vacant lot behind the hospital that you can bury there, and if we bury it for you, you'll have to pay eight dollars. The white coat was asking her again.

Money money, money, money, there is no one in this world who can live without money, and everyone has died once, but when she wakes up, she has to face people to talk about money with her, so that her heart can't be at peace for a moment. If money could also die, wouldn't human beings have a lot less troubles?

"You guys buried it for me, I don't want to look at it anymore, take it away, thank you!" Her children...... She buried the child for only eight dollars. There were no tombstones, no flowers, not even incense, candles, and paper money, just the umbilical cord they had once been connected to, and her thoughts were more than tears of sorrow. She turned her head, she tried to erase all memories of the child, and in another bouting pain, she muttered, "I will never have another child in my life!" She fainted again because of the blood loss.

It's been a long day, and when she woke up again, she was glad that she was still alive, and she didn't know if she was blessed after the great calamity, and she didn't want to think about what would happen in the future, after all, tomorrow was too far away for her, not to mention, she was no longer qualified to imagine tomorrow.

A bitter pain that did not belong to the body tore through her whole body, and for eighteen years she had lived so rashly that she had lost her virginity without even knowing what love was. Is it curiosity? Do you want to explore the original truth of male and female love, or is it just to watch a man's **? She didn't know that she had completely lost the ability to discern as a normal person. The pain of losing her virginity had not yet dissipated, and she was pregnant again, and the difference between the red virgin blood and the blood of the night was all drained, and there was a fishy smell. Too rushed! She flew over one character after another at a speed of 100 meters, but after standing firm, she found that there was not even a solid footprint on the way, let alone a pleasant scenery, and all that accompanied her along the way was a few scattered sand grains and light dust, and a gust of wind passed by and disappeared without a trace.

I don't know what time it was when I was pushed back to the ward, but the hallway was unusually quiet, as dead as a morgue. Sister Dan has been waiting for her, holding her hand and crying for her rebirth. Neither of them spoke, and Sister Dan knew she was too tired. The rain that had been expected in the afternoon was still falling, with thunder and lightning, the broken window lattices rattling in the wind and rain, the faded curtains fluttering up and down with the wind pouring in, and occasionally one or two lightning bolts dancing their long tongues on the window panes with a mournful blue light. The spring rain will not only flutter gracefully, but will also pour down this night, rushing to the earth in a furious manner.

"Sister Dan, what time is it today?" , she asked leisurely.

"It's supposed to be the twentieth, what's wrong, Shadow? It's not like you're going to keep a diary today, are you? ”

Sister Dan knows that she has the habit of writing a diary, and she is very concerned about whether she has ever written about her.

"Oh no, I just want to remember this day, I hate it! Incomparably hateful!! After saying the last hateful word, she bit her lip tightly and looked at the ceiling with a strange and hideous face.

This day is the martyrdom day of her life and a new starting point in her life.

On this day - April 20, 19** A.D. Mei Ying engraved this day in the deepest heart, and she will never forget it, unless she dies!

"Sister Dan, let's get out of the hospital, I don't want to stay in this place any longer, and I don't want to spend that useless money, I can rest when I go back to the dormitory."

"Shadow, are you crazy? Women have to recuperate for at least a month after this kind of surgery, and even if they have to go back to recuperate, you can live enough for these few days. I have asked for leave to accompany you, I told the head teacher that there is an urgent matter at home that needs to go back, and I will lie down and raise it for a few days, and we will leave again in three days, okay? ”

Mei Ying knew that this operation fee was a huge expense for them, and the blood transfusion and infusion just now must have cost Sister Dan a lot, and she must have borrowed money from others for her. Damn hemorrhage, damn irresponsible nurses, doctors without medical ethics.

No longer speaking, she moved her still painful body vigorously, trying to free up a piece of land for Sister Dan to sleep well, just now the nurse said hello not to sleep on the empty bed, saying that it was necessary to arrange for the patient to come in early in the morning. When she patted the bed and asked Sister Dan to come up to sleep, Sister Dan smiled and told her, "You are stupid, didn't you come in the morning, what if you slept tonight, anyway, no one came to check the night, and it was as soon as the day dawned." ”

As soon as the words fell, Sister Dan fell down and fell asleep, and after a while, she snored, she was tired, her body was tired, and her heart was even more tired.

The sound of the rain gradually became less violent, and Mei Ying pulled out the lamp rope hanging by the bed, and fell into a deep sleep like this dark night.

"Nurse, is this the bed?" A man's voice, the standard Beijing accent, she listened to a lot of southern and northern accents in school, and she still loves the Beijing accent, there is a Beijing boy in their class who speaks like this, she sometimes comes to the boy to listen to him talk about the mountains, many times she doesn't care what people say, just blindly use the table as the piano, take the pen as the strings, and pluck the melodious and pleasant sound with her fingertips. She likes the crisp and rich voices of northern men, very gentlemanly! It's very good for her!

When I was in high school, on the way home on a bicycle, I suddenly heard a charming voice behind me, and then I went around to inquire about the origin of the sound source, and it turned out that it was a boy from a neighboring school, and in the following days, she waited for that voice at the intersection every day, but before she could confess, she was rejected, and she was reprimanded sternly. That time, Mei Ying felt too embarrassed, in front of so many classmates, she was embarrassed, she was too failed. It's also wrong to like a voice, it's ridiculous.

Obviously, the voice I just heard was more attractive. His voice is like a huge magnetic field absorbing all around, and the sound exudes the smell of mature men, unlike the little children in their school who think they have read countless people. Mei Ying thought she was dreaming, but the white light outside the window woke her up.

I opened my eyes in a daze and saw that a man was facing away from her on the bed opposite her with flower sheets that did not belong to the hospital, and a woman with a big belly was looking sideways at the door.

The man finally made the bed and turned around, and saw that Mei Ying had opened her eyes, as if she was a little sorry to disturb her. "Hello! Is it disturbing your rest? ”

This charming voice again, this time with a little warmth, did not dare to look at his appearance closely, and tried to suppress a trace of strange stupidity brought to her by this voice, although her fascination with men's voices was a little abnormal, but it was the first time in her life that she had such a strong feeling. Human beings are really complex species, and it is indeed a little strange that a single sound can fascinate people.

"It's okay, it's okay, you're getting busy, I should have gotten up for breakfast."

While she was talking, Sister Dan came in with a lunch box. "Shadow, get up and drink it while it's hot, stew a chicken in the small cafeteria of the hospital, drink these first, it's not enough for me to serve it." Sister Dan carefully brought the soup to her in front of the bed.

Mei Ying felt that words like gratitude were meaningless to both her and Sister Dan, they were like sisters, taking care of each other and pitying each other. She sat up, the corner of her eye was meeting the man opposite, she still didn't dare to turn her head to look at him, only faintly heard him muttering to himself, "Shadow ......", maybe he thought this name was quite interesting.