These days, Mei Ying locked herself in the house, she drank all the wine in Qiangzi's house, she let herself go, Leng Xu's sudden death made her no longer want to cherish her body. From now on, her heart was once again adrift, reminiscing about the past, she was crazy and intoxicated, her body was trapped in Leng Xu's arms that were not far away, trapped in his clear eyes, she felt that she was falling with him, falling into the bottomless night.

Sister Dan and Qiangzi came to accompany her every day and bought her a lot of supplements, but she didn't eat **, she just wanted to pour out the emotions in her body until she collapsed. Leng Xu is gone, she wants to give him all the emotions that still exist in her body, so that he can feel her love in another world. Sister Dan rests on the sofa in the living room every day, because every time she comforts, Mei Ying's heart will surge again. Qiangzi didn't mention those things to her again, he knew that she needed time to calm her heart.

Without Leng Xu's days, the time was always long and tormenting, looking at the calendar on the wall, it had been more than ten days since he left, Mei Ying's heart gradually calmed down, and she began to accept the fact that he left. On this night, she didn't ask for Sister Dan's company, she came to Leng Xu's house downstairs alone, she didn't dare to knock on the door, and she hadn't gone in since she left that night. She saw the flowers planted on the balcony of his house, and on this spring night, those flowers were blooming quietly, and she and Leng Xu also watered those flowers together. Yes, the flowers always take on a new appearance when the season comes, but when he is gone, even the breath that remains in the air is gone, and his flower of life withers as the breath stops. The thoughts about him began to spread again, and he was gone, but the thoughts were crazy......

The moon-white curtains in his bedroom were closed forever, and a faint glimmer of light could be seen, it must have been his parents sitting on the edge of his bed again remembering their only but beloved son, Mei Ying couldn't bear to stay any longer, she was afraid that she would rush upstairs desperately to hug his mother and weep again in sorrow. Slowly returning to Qiangzi's apartment, she stubbornly let Sister Dan go home, she wanted to stay alone. When she returned to the room, she saw the cigarettes that Qiangzi had bought for her, as well as a thick wad of money, neatly placed on her bedside table. Finding a pen and paper, she left a letter for both of them, deciding to leave the sad place forever.

"Qiangzi, I'm leaving, I've figured it out these days, don't blame you for Leng Xu's matter, this is an accident and catastrophe that he can't escape in his life, please forgive me for those rude words, a few of us have never believed in fate, but the cruel truth makes us have to accept our fate, he is gone, and he really left us forever. His short life is like fireworks we set off together on the night of the Chinese New Year's Eve, he splendidly brightened our sky, but he himself fell forever in the cold night, gradually, blown away by the wind, where it fell, we do not know. In the future, when we miss him, let's look up at the night sky together, he will always sense our thoughts.

Qiangzi, I can't go with you for the rest of the years, you always have his figure on you, but you are not him after all! I don't want to live with you every day with a cold face and sorrow, because we are together, the only topic is still him, or the man we all love deeply - Leng Xu, in this life, as long as we are together, his shadow will be everywhere. I don't think I'm going to be emotionally attached to anyone for many years, and even though I've only been with him for a few months, I've been in love with him for six years, yes, it's like I've never been separated from him. His figure has long been engraved in my mind, and I don't know how long it will take to erase it, and maybe, there is no way to erase it!

I know you are good to me, you will always be my respected big brother, thank you for taking care of me these days, I will keep the cigarettes, you can keep the money, I just need to have enough to go home and entangle. From now on, don't try to come to me, I'm going to leave when I get home, you can't find me. Maybe I won't come back in this life, just let me be a ruthless and unrighteous person, don't have the slightest thought about me, just let me and Leng Xu say goodbye to you! I went on the road with his figure, you and Sister Dan have to be well, find a woman who loves you to live, and wish my brother Qiangzi will always be so chic and happy, and a happy life! Also, please forward my letter to Sister Dan to her, and I will not thank her. ”

Put the two letters on the table neatly, lying on the bed, thinking like a tide, in a daze, always feeling that Leng Xu was beside her, yes, this is the first time she came here to spend the first night with him, the warmth of that night is still swimming in her body, she sat up, did not turn on the light, for fear of disturbing his soul, she called him in the endless dark night, every wisp of air in this room was still drifting his breath, she was in tears in this fantasy and real fugue. She really didn't have the strength to cry anymore, and collapsed on the bed.

The sky was bright, Mei Ying was awakened by the white light outside the window, and she forgot to close the curtains last night. It's okay, she has to leave before Qiangzi and Sister Dan arrive. Find out the burial address of Leng Xu given to him by Qiangzi a few days ago, pack everything, put the key on the bedside, pull the door and turn to leave.

Because I was not familiar with the distance of the distance, I had to call a taxi, and the bumpy road finally arrived. Looking at those distant mountains and near the water, Mei Ying was still grateful to Qiangzi for finding a good place for Leng Xu, with lush trees, light streams, and all kinds of dense flowers surrounding this cemetery. At this time, the cemetery was still very quiet, with only a few staff members and a few vendors selling incense wax paper money. Mei Ying's heart began to grieve again, trying to calm herself, she bought a bouquet of flowers and some paper money at the entrance of the cemetery, and slowly walked up.

Seeing him, the handsome photo was pasted on the tombstone, unfortunately, Mei Ying never took a photo with him, because she always kept thinking about their wedding photos, but I didn't expect that in this thought, I could only look at him in memory. There are also a lot of flowers on the cemetery, which are probably placed on it by the people who have been paying their respects to him these days.

Placing the flowers in the middle of his cemetery, wiping the tombstone with a paper towel, lighting a cigarette and placing it in front of the monument, and lighting the incense candles, Mei Ying squatted down and began to tell him about the pain of lovesickness for him these days.

"My dear, you really don't keep your promises, you said you should go home early, but you have disappeared since you left that morning, it turns out that you are lying here, how can I say hello, you are not a playful person, this time, you are too big, you have lost yourself, and my heart has been broken. You said you would love me for the rest of your life, but your life was too short, so short that I didn't have time to reminisce. Your heart is too ruthless, and it used to be six years to say goodbye lightly, but this time...... This time," Mei Ying's voice began to choke.

"You, you also said that you want me to be your shadow, from now on you will be my shadow is almost the same, people don't want you to follow, you always follow me, how can you forget you in the future? If I don't forget you, how will I face it in the days to come? You speak, you ruthless guy, the first time I saw you, I put me in the ice cellar, and the last time I saw you, you were good, lying directly under the ground. Do you remember the "A Fire in Winter" we sang on the street that day, I really wanted a fire to wake you up, you slept for too long, you said you would get up earlier than me every day, the old guy. Don't pay attention to you in the future, bring people back and get lost, nasty ghosts. ”

"Come on, come and take the money, don't work too hard there, and say that you want to support me, I'll raise you is almost the same, and if you don't have money in the future, you will give me a dream, I can't eat and I can't make you hungry, saying that people are thin, and I don't look like a bamboo pole, and I thought I was lonely and seeking defeat, but I didn't expect that I also had a dead hole in my body, don't be so violent down there, get along with everyone well, you dead ghost, do you hear?"

Before the words fell, Mei Ying cried again, burning too much paper money, a little smoky eyes, she stood up and wanted to breathe, and a figure walked from behind her.

"Shadow, why did you run away without saying a word, even if you insist on leaving, will you let me give you a ride?"

I don't know when, Hadron stood behind her.