12. Heavy hearts - different hearts, the same heavy hearts

Before you know it, spring is coming.

An Ning Feng pulled Mei Xueyao and ran out. An Ning is smart, cheerful and lively, the person An Ning admires the most is Wu Zetian, and An Ning's biggest ideal is to become a person like Wu Zetian and have his own career.

Walking in the field, looking at the green that is emerging one after another, it is really a response to "the grass color is close but there is nothing". Spring is already here. It came so softly, so kindly, so kindly! Mei Xueyao watched, moved, and touched. An Ning once again opened her two chubby arms: "Ah... I'm Anning... I'm Anning... I'm coming..."

At this time, it is the most suitable time to go green.

Looking for a day when the spring breeze was warm and the sun was shining, I took a bamboo basket and took a shovel, and hunted wild vegetables with my friends. Walking in the wheat field, lying on the wheat seedlings, holding the head in both hands, throwing the bamboo basket aside, looking up at the birds and clouds in the sky, breathing in the fragrance of the wheat field, slowly closing the eyes, flying unfettered by thoughts... Chasing and frolicking with my friends, stepping on the sunset together, and coming back in the clouds...

"Idyllic life is so beautiful and full of wild fun." Mei Xueyao thought, her eyes were full of yearning.

Mei Xueyao remembered the past. In the past, Mei Xueyao liked spring so much, so much. Chanting "Winter is coming, will spring be far away?" "I have read many books, and spring is always so beautiful in the pen of literati in the past." I heard that Daochun had not yet met, and I went to Hanmei to visit the news"; "Flying snow with spring, good court dawn leisure"; "The spring breeze is like wine, and the things are unknown"; There is also "the plan of the year lies in the spring". Mei Xueyao is always looking forward to the breath of spring in winter. But now, looking at the new green on the ground, Mei Xueyao's eyebrows couldn't help revealing something called melancholy. Now it is "Fangshu no one flowers fall, and birds cry all the way to Chunshan"; Now it is "lonely empty courtyard is late in spring, and the pear blossoms are full of doors and do not open the door"; Now it's "flowers and flowers are flying all over the sky, and there is no one to pity the red incense"! "If spring takes away winter, will it also take away the memories of winter?" - If the past between her and Tang Tang is also called memories - Mei Xueyao doesn't care, Mei Xueyao not only stubbornly thinks that those are memories and they are all good memories. What a peculiar thinking! These beautiful memories, Mei Xueyao didn't want to fade away so early and so quickly. Since the night of "Love Strikes" to the present, there has not been much conversation between Mei Xueyao and Tang Tang, but now there is no one. Even if it was such a "business" as sending and receiving homework, Mei Xueyao deliberately avoided colliding with Tang Tang.

Mei Xueyao now knows that beautiful things really come and go in a hurry. You can taste it, and it has already left you like a fish, far away. Don't look back at your sorrows, your pains. Now, who is the decision to Tang Tang's "joy or sadness, joy or the source of pain"?

"Last year, in this door today, the peach blossoms on the human face were red. The face of the person does not know where to go, and the peach blossoms are still smiling in the spring breeze." There are so many things and people, Mei Xueyao sighed leisurely.

"Didn't you say you didn't want him?" An Ning said, his voice soft and beautiful.

Mei Xueyao's tears came again. I started to want to rush out, and my eyes were hot. Mei Xueyao desperately stopped.

On the night of "Love Strikes", Fang Muyang just walked out of the classroom with his front foot, and Mei Xueyao followed with his back foot.

"Teacher Fangβ€”"

"What's wrong with your throat, is it uncomfortable?" Facing his other favorite general, Fang Muyang looked concerned.

"I want to change seats." Mei Xueyao lowered her head and asked.

"Huh?"

"I want to change seats." Mei Xueyao raised her head, not afraid that Fang Muyang would see her moist eyes. "Actually, I've wanted to change since the beginning of school, I..."

"Okay, I agree." Fang Muyang said.

Mei Xueyao moved out that night. Separate from Anning, separate from Tang Tang. Love is coming! This explosive news! Mei Xueyao did not have the calmness she imagined. Mei Xueyao realized that it was so difficult to give her heart to one person. It takes only a second to make a decision, and "I blame myself for not being able to withstand the temptation." Mei Xueyao hated that her tears were worthless, how could she say that they were flowing? Mei Xueyao didn't want to have more embarrassment in Tang Tang, and she didn't want to ask anything painfully. The only thing Mei Xueyao did was to pack up and leave as soon as possible.

"Are you alright?" An Ning looked at Mei Xueyao.

"I'm fine."

"You're nearsighted, and you can see when you sit back?"

"Yes."

There was silence.

"I really don't know how it came to be like this, I didn't expect that. If I had known that things would have turned out like this, I would have not told you, why did you say that I told you those things? I ran to find Wei Yuntao, but Wei Yuntao didn't believe it. Tang Tang, he's not a normal person..."

"It's okay, everything will pass. Nothing else happened, I didn't think about anything, really. ”

An Ning knew that Mei Xueyao was deceiving herself, but she didn't expose her. Mei Xueyao knew that An Ning knew that she was deceiving herself just now, but she pretended not to know.

"It's okay to take it slowly, don't worry." Mei Xueyao said. When she was alone, Mei Xueyao thought about it repeatedly, she couldn't figure out what was wrong with her, after so long, why she couldn't help but think about him when she was alone with An Ning. Is it because peace is the only testimony of her heart? Or is it because of something else? Mei Xueyao couldn't figure it out, but she understood one thing, he was still in her heart.

The two men turned left and right onto the beach. Everything is the same, and the grass has changed from the withered yellow of winter to the light green of today. There are also some people on the other side of the river, who are students of No. 2 Middle School.

"I don't know if he's at school or at home now, what does he usually do at this time?" When An Ning said this, her tone was exceptionally calm. Her eyes looked directly at the group of people on the other side of the river, as if the person in her mouth was in that group.

Mei Xueyao knew who the "he" in An Ning's mouth was. His name is Hao Junwei, and he is a childhood sweetheart who grew up with An Ning, and a young owner who "Hao eats often".

An Ning has been competitive since he was a child, just like a boy, and he has fought with Hao Junwei since he was a child. Gradually, as she grew older, An Ning began to show her rare patience and gentleness in front of Hao Junwei, and Hao Junwei also grew from a little boy who used to fight with An Ning to a little man who must walk on the left side of An Ning when he walks... The personal relationship between An Ning and Hao Junwei is a natural one. When filling in the high school entrance examination, the two of them hesitated for a long time and went to the first middle school together? Go to No. 2 Middle School together? Or, one goes to one and one goes to two? In contrast, at that time, Mei Xueyao was much more relaxed, and it was useless for a second. "I really don't know what to do, I read together, he and I are worried that distractions will affect others, and I am reluctant to separate." In the end, Hao Junwei made the decision and chose the latter. "There's no way around it. However, I said that I would go to the same university in the future. An Ning comforted herself.

"I envy you!" Mei Xueyao said sincerely, "Is he okay in the second middle school?" ”

"It's fine." An Ning thought that according to the current grades of the two, it should not be a problem to be admitted to university. Tranquility feels content and content.

"Only envy mandarin ducks, not immortals." Mei Xueyao thought of Tang Tang again, Mei Xueyao quickly shook her head, wanting to shake Tang Tang away from her mind. Mei Xueyao didn't know what it was like for the two of them to be together. Before "Love Strikes", Mei Xueyao looked at Tang Tang and felt extremely safe. Mei Xueyao thought Tang Tang knew! Mei Xueyao even had a small expectation every day, expecting Tang Tang to say something to her, who knows... Tang Tang's clattering horse's hooves turned out to be his own beautiful mistake. Mei Xueyao was very sad.

"There is actually nothing special about two people being together, it's just a habit. As for the sense of security you mentioned, I'm not sure if the two of us will be together for long. Yaoyao, you know, both of us have strong personalities, and I don't have as good a temper as you. I asked him about this before, and he said that what he liked was my rotten character, and that it was also a kind of beauty. Alas, who knows if what he said is true. What's more, now that everyone is not together, it is difficult to say a word in person. I live in school now, and I don't go home much, and even when I go home, I never run into him. It's no different from being apart when we're together. And in the future, alas, who knows what will happen in the future, now I hope that 'plain is true'! I really miss him, but I'm even more afraid of disturbing him. I also wrote a lot of things I wanted to say to him, but I didn't give him a word. Sometimes I feel that being cruel is right, and sometimes I feel that I am really useless. ”

After so many years of classmates, Mei Xueyao knew for the first time that An Ning also had such a vulnerable side. Mei Xueyao always thought that An Ning belonged to the kind of people who didn't pay attention to feelings, and they could afford to let it go. Mei Xueyao remembered that An Ning often told her, "Only your own career will not deceive people, and everything else is difficult to say", but in front of Hao Junwei, An Ning was not free and easy. Mei Xueyao felt even more sad, "Ask what the world is like, and teach people to live and die", Hao Junwei and An Ning's love turned out to be not easy. Mei Xueyao felt that if there was a chance, Mei Xueyao would definitely not learn from Qin Guan, and she could swear so chicly, "If the love between the two is long, how can it be in the morning and twilight." If it were possible, Mei Xueyao would definitely be willing to be with her loved ones and never be separated. Helplessly, Mei Xueyao's "if" does not exist.

"We don't have to take each other too seriously. If you value him, he will take you lightly. The scenery ahead is perhaps even more beautiful. Mei Xueyao couldn't tell whether her words were used to comfort An Ning or to herself.

The grass full of temptation, Mei Xueyao did not set foot in it again: it is better to be at home on weekends, and it will always be her own haven from the wind.