readx; Half a year has passed, Cen Li left, and it has been a year, since I met him in the bar that time, there is still no news, I hope he will come back, but I am paradoxically afraid. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info He should continue his life in Thailand," I scoffed. Will he care about my waiting? I'm afraid not.

Two months ago, a boy of the same grade confessed to me, and I agreed. His name is Hu Dingming, his grades are not good, his character is not good, and his appearance is quite eye-catching, but I am not moved by seeing him, but because he said a word, Cen Li also said it

"You're simple"

He skipped class and went to an Internet café, and I went too, he hid in the corner of the corridor after class and smoked, and I also studied, and he went to the bar at night to drink with his classmates, and I drank too.

Zhuang Le persuaded me not to do this, I smiled and said to her, you haven't experienced it, you don't understand.

She scolded me for being heartless, just like this for a man, how will I live in the future?!

I replied to her, "Yes! I don't have a heart or lungs, what's wrong with me just doing this for a man?! You don't touch the spring water with your ten fingers, what do you know?! ”

She slapped me, and I was a little dazed, my ears were buzzing, and my face was burning with pain. I unconsciously shed tears, I don't know why, probably an excuse for catharsis.

That night, Zhuang Le and I got drunk in the bar, and later Zhuang Mo picked us up.

The relationship between me and Hu Dingming is a bit bland, and we didn't do what we should do between couples, which is quite what I want. The reason why I was with him was just to pass the time. If the witch word falls, I will fall with him. No way, I can't be so high-sounding not to think about him.

On weekends, I would go to the bar with Zhuang Le and Zhuang Mo, and although Zhuang Mo was always busy, every time I called him, he would chat with me for a while. Seems to have a lot of fun. Zhuang Le will always call a group of fox friends and dog friends. Although, I always sit alone in the corner, smoking and drinking.

Zhuang Mo is an artist, and he won't be so unsuccessful every time. I don't care, but Zhuang Le is always scrambling to explain something, I knocked her on the head, "What is the blind explanation?" He's pretty busy, too. "Zhuang Le pouted, as if he finally couldn't bear it anymore, 'Don't you see that my brother likes you?' I shook my head, thinking she was joking, and followed the meaning of her words, "I really don't see it." She rolled her eyes in anger.

"Otherwise, you and that Hu Dingming broke up, right? My brother is pretty good, too. She suddenly became serious again, and I was stunned, "You're not kidding?" She crossed Erlang's legs, "I'll tell you the right thing!" ”

Suddenly, I was stunned, I just regarded Zhuang Mo as a friend, I just thought about Cen Li every day, how could I ever take care of the people around me?

I still explained to Zhuang Le, "You should know, I like Cen Li so much." '

"It's boring!" She raised her head and drank a large glass of beer, "I really don't understand why you keep thinking about that Cen Quercus?!" “

I looked up at the starlight in the distance, and the North Star was shining brightly because of the Arctic snow and ice, right? So far away, yet so dazzling.

Calm is a harbinger of turbulence, and sure enough, I was prepared for it. Although, at the moment everything is calm.

It's been raining heavily these days, and I'm too lazy to count the days with my fingers, I'm not stupid, I'm stupid and don't pull a few places, although I'm always lucky enough to avoid something, but I don't want to miss anything, just do what I have to do. I'm not so great at adding a few strokes to other people's lives, my own life is so bad, to add a few strokes to other people's lives, it's a joke, a complete joke.

I numbed myself with the help of the pain on my skin, tattooed my body, and created a mess of patterns just to spell out two words: "Cen Quercus". I didn't feel any pain, I went to the bar every night to drink, and I didn't feel that the wine was unpleasant.

I don't know how hard it hit him when I saw the witch word in Thailand, but now it seems that it can't be compared with words. I'm still cowardly, and I can't get used to his virtue...... Am I disgusted with him? How?! I'm just afraid I won't be able to hold my nerves.

For me, everything around me can be without scruples, I like the feeling of Cen Li no one knows, and they don't have to point fingers at me, but more, it's scoffing, right?

The nerves have been paralyzed for a long time, causing some confusion in thinking.

I was at the bar that day, and Hu Dingming found me, "Tian Sang, break up." I nodded and said, "Okay." “

"It's been a long time, you really haven't liked me?"

I glanced at him, looking a little angry, but I nodded. He grabbed me by the shoulder, "Forget it, it doesn't matter much, if you break up, can you make up for it?" “

"What?"

"Is it necessary for someone like you to pretend to be pure with me? Are you still a virgin? “

I was completely confused, staring at him with wide eyes, and my unlockable memories reappeared in waves...... No! It's not my memory! Definitely not! My eyes widened in horror, orphans, abuse, humiliation, blood, murder, fleeing...... I yelled at him that it wasn't true, causing everyone in the bar to look at me with a frown. He pulled me out, and in the alley, he said, "You should thank me, I taught you to recognize the facts." ”

Schizophrenia? Dual personality? No, no! It's not me! What about Cen Quercus? What about witch words? That's not a fantasy, is it? I squatted on the ground, biting my lip to death, I was not mentally ill, I pushed Hu Dingming away and ran away.

But once the memories are opened, the waves are turbulent, and I struggle ridiculously, and I don't want to fall. But the truth, that's it, I don't touch it, I don't think about it, I don't want anything, I don't want it......

After that day, I locked myself in my house and straightened my thoughts, wasn't it just a breakup? How did the emotions get out of control? I think. Start laughing at yourself for making a fuss.

At school, I still talk and laugh with Zhuang Le, no different from usual.

I still go to the bar to drink, I still do what I have to do, sometimes I feel that I am very conflicted, but I can't remember the specific contradiction, I can't remember, I don't want to. I consoled myself with this.

Actually, I don't like Cen Li that much, I say I like him, but I just think about it. I didn't do anything for him, and now it's a burden to him, right? Perhaps, right......