When Jianjun arrived at the hospital, it was already dark, and he came on a motorcycle. I used the basin and towel that Brother Wei Min bought from the service department at the door to scrub my mother, and Brother Wei Min helped me change my mother's clothes. The clothes are very complete from the inside to the outside, the outermost is a lake blue satin cotton jacket, blue cotton pants, and a pair of embroidered cloth shoes on the feet, which are neatly dressed, and finally wrapped tightly with a piece of cloth.

Brother Wei Min called the funeral home, and they said to send a car, and we sat on the chairs at the door and waited.

I had no money on me, and Brother Wei Min said that he would use his bank card to settle the hospital's bill, and I said to wait.

At five o'clock in the morning, Jianjun came.

Jianjun settled the account, and only after a while, the car from the funeral home came, only the driver, the family carried it by themselves, Brother Wei Min and Jianjun carried my mother, and we went down from the elevator. The hospital was quiet in the early morning, there was no one in the corridor, and my mother walked the last part of the road in the world cleanly.

Watching the funeral parlor's car go away, my heart seems to be led away, I am used to worrying about my mother, will I get used to going to a strange place, will I be afraid without me?

Jianjun followed, went to go through the formalities there, Brother Wei Min took me home, in the car, Brother Wei Min told me to contact relatives in my hometown, and said that I wanted to see the cemetery, and I wanted to bury my parents together, I listened silently, a little bit, Brother Wei Min pulled me home, I got out of the car, he said when he left, he said that he would come to pick me up and Jianjun to see the cemetery, and told me to prepare more money, the cemetery is not cheap.

Brother Wei Min left, and I opened the door and went home.

In the yard, it was still the same as when I came back with my mother yesterday, my mother sat on the stone bench and twisted her body nervously as if she was still there, I pushed the door into the house, entered my mother's room, and as soon as I entered the door, the broom I used to sweep the food stamps at the door was still lying on the ground, I didn't bend down to pick it up, I wanted to keep it like this, as if this is the only way to keep my mother's shadow.

On the bed, there was a quilt that my mother had covered and a pillow that my mother had used. I took off the cloth covering the quilt, took out the pillow and quilt that covered the underneath and laid it on the bed, I lay down with my clothes, pillowed on my mother's pillow, covered my mother's quilt, the quilt had a damp smell, I sniffed carefully, looking for the familiar smell of my mother's body, I opened my eyes and looked at the ceiling, I transformed myself into her, and felt everything she had in this room.

Quiet, the yard is quiet, the house is also quiet, when I went to technical school and worked outside, my mother was wrapped in silence every day, alone, I thought that I was the only one who suffered when I went to technical school, and now I am lying on this bed, feeling the loneliness that I never thought of, my mother opens her eyes every day and cooks alone, eats and then goes to work in the garment factory, comes back after a day, cooks and sleeps, or alone. Later, I retired, and I was alone, if I didn't go out, maybe my mother wouldn't be able to say a word a day, and when I came back, my mother gave me a good side, I didn't think about what my mother could do except watch TV?

My young and strong mother has gone through her life like this, if she can still feel it, is she willing? Why did she go there with food stamps?

Those food stamps have been sleeping under my mother's body for so many years, why did my mother keep them? She sleeps in this bed every day, does she think about those food stamps? What else is there to think about? I've paid 300 yuan in party dues, and I've paid it to the public, what is my mother thinking? I opened my eyes and thought, I didn't feel sleepy at all, I couldn't figure it out, what the hell was my mom for?

I suddenly remembered that I hadn't done anything yet, so I got up and came out, locked the door and went to the police station.

I was greeted by a policeman in his thirties, he showed me the reporter's record that day, he said that he also saw the scene, my mother fell from the side of the stairs on the third floor, the building has not yet been built, the stairs inside only have horizontal plates, there are no handrails to block, the horizontal board is also messy with broken bricks and stones, it is easy to slide. There were no traces of pushing and dragging at the scene, and my mother was full of fall injuries, so other possible surnames can be ruled out.

I asked the police for the address of the construction site, and I wanted to see it, but I couldn't understand why my mom was there with a bag of broken food stamps.

I asked for the general location, and when I came out of the police station, I wanted to take a taxi, but I remembered that I had no money on me, so I had to walk.

Although I haven't been back for a long time, the town has changed a lot, but the general direction is still known, I walked along the sidewalk, walking, and suddenly felt wrong.

This road leads to the former commune office compound!

My heart tightened, and I quickened my pace, and I saw the construction site fenced off by blue baffles in the distance, and the rows of buildings with scaffolding and green safety nets installed. I stood in the distance and watched silently, and at that moment, I suddenly understood my mother, who had come to the commune with food stamps to hand in!

My serious and honest mother who always admits death, my dad and Lao Luo have retired her, my mom has finally straightened out after most of her life, she and Guan Da Niang did this private deposit of public funds and food stamps, my mother not only buried my studies, but now also takes her own surname!

I wiped away my tears, calmed down, thinking that my mother came out of the house with a bag of broken food stamps that day, and walked a short distance to the west and turned into the alley to the north, out of the alley, she may be a little unsure, the center of the small town has been rebuilt a lot of old bungalows in recent years, and the road has become wider, my mother will not recognize it, but she will not turn around and go back, her mind has returned to the memory of that time, she knows that Lao Luo was arrested, and a new leader was sent to the commune, and she has to hand over these private food stamps.

My mom doesn't understand why the road she walks every day has become so weird today, like falling into a dream, my mom is not afraid, she has tenacity, even if it's a mess, my mom will figure it out, let alone this road.

My mother was pondering and walking on the road, and the memories she had frozen in her mind surged, and at that time, I was wandering in the opposite direction, in front of Brother Weimin's house.

My mom finally stood outside the construction site of the commune compound, looking at the fenced fence, my mom didn't know what was wrong, she hesitated for a moment and walked in through the opening of the fence.

Looking at the rows of tall buildings draped in green safety nets, my mother thought it was a disguise for war, and she found the location of the commune office building, crawled under the scaffolding and entered the building.

There is nowhere to put feet in the building, my mother doesn't know which room the new leader is working in, and I want to find someone to ask but I don't see anyone, my mother walked up the stairs, the broken bricks on the stairs tripped my mother's feet, and there was no one until the third floor, where did this person go? My mother became impatient, and in a hurry, she forgot about the stumble under her feet, and fell down the stairs without guardrails...... (To be continued.) )