After quarreling with Jianjun, the next day, he packed his bags and went on a business trip, I didn't even ask him where he went, after he left, I took the casserole pot and the porcelain bowl containing the medicine to the garbage station and broke it, and returned home refreshingly.

My mom seems to feel something, she hasn't lost her temper for a few days, and she doesn't have to rush home to boil Chinese medicine at noon, I'm happy, I take my mom to take a taxi to the restaurant to eat, and life has a kind of ease that I haven't had for a long time.

I know, there is despair in this ease that I don't want to live a broken jar, in recent years, in order to see a doctor for Jianjun, money flows out of the family like flowing water, hard-earned money, in our family just rested and left, and there is no trace left, we still have no children, I once roughly calculated, the money for medical treatment in the past few years adds up, it is more than enough to buy a two-bedroom house, however, we have no children, no house, and even the warmth between Jianjun, I don't know what to doPerhaps divorce is the only way to change, just for the sake of the children? If you get divorced and find a man to marry, children may no longer be a problem, but what about the others? I never thought that there would be other men in my life, and I would have to expose my body to other men, which I would never do, Jianjun is like my father, my brother, is ironclad, the only one, ingrained in my mind.

Also, the real problem is that I have to take my mother with me when I get divorced, I can't go out to find a job, I can only eat her pension with my mother if I don't work, which is unacceptable to me, and self-reliance is my bottom line.

Since the opening of the store, every day I have been in contact with customers in the hospital, I have no close friends, no one to confide in, in my world except for Jianjun, is my mother, at this time I think of Sun Juan more and more frequently, I don't know how she is, if she is in front of her, I will ask her, what should I do.

At night, my mom fell asleep on the couch, I turned off the TV, went over to wake my mom up, and asked her to go to bed in the house.

My mom was in a daze, thinking it was dawn, so I woke her up and asked me, "What did you eat this morning?" ”

I said, "Don't eat, go back to the house and go to bed." ”

"Huh? Still sleeping? Skipping a meal? My mom asked.

"It's not dawn yet? Eat it when it's dawn. ”

"Oh."

Helping my mom to the bed, my mom said, "Pee." ”

I was afraid that she would fall down in a daze, so I helped her to the toilet again, and when I came back from the toilet, my mother quickly fell asleep again.

Looking at my mother's sleeping face, I secretly sighed, if my mother was not confused, knowing that I was thirty years old and had no children, and seeing that I was going to divorce, would she still be able to sleep so soundly?

In the blink of an eye, my mother has been here for two years, and at the beginning she was always clamoring to go back, but now she rarely mentions it, and she probably can't remember it clearly, she only remembers me, remembers my name, she always forgets what Jianjun is called, and always says "that person".

I didn't expect my mother to be so old, my mother who was strong and refused to bow her head easily, the mother who scolded my father all her life, the mother who forced me to come forward to ask for innocence when I was framed, and now she is sleeping soundly in bed like an unfazed baby, she can no longer protect me, but needs me to take care of her. Maybe life is probably like this, you will pay as much as you get, when I was a child, my mother raised me, now I take care of her, when I was a child, I quarreled with my mother and made my mother angry, and now my mother loses her temper every day at me, as if she is destined to pay it back.

Thinking of this, I can't help but think of Jianjun again, maybe Jianjun was too good to me before, and now it's my turn to repay?

In this way, every day, every moment, all kinds of thoughts kept flashing in my mind, the army, children, marriage, in my mind, day or night, whether I was awake or asleep, my balance fell on this end for a while, and then sank on that end, endlessly.

Finally, one day, I collapsed from exhaustion.

That morning, I heard my mom standing next to my bed calling me, "Nan, Nan, what's the meal?" ”

I wanted to open my eyes, but my eyelids seemed to be covered with a thousand pounds of weight, and it was difficult to open them, so I tried my best to open a slit, and I only saw my mother's feet standing on the ground.

"Nan, what's the meal?" My mom continued to ask.

I woke up a little and felt the pain in my joints come over my body, and I realized that I might have a fever, maybe a cold, just find some medicine to eat, and I comforted myself in my heart.

I got up, propped myself up on the bed with my hands, and staggered to the living room to find a few anti-inflammatory pills and swallowed a sip of cold water in a cup, and my mother came over and asked, "Nan, what are you eating?" ”

"Noodles." I opened my mouth to speak, only to realize that my throat was swollen and my voice was hoarse.

"Hurry up." My mom urged me.

I went to the kitchen to get the pot to add water, turned on the gas and boiled, I stood by the pot and waited for the water to boil the noodles, my mom walked around the house, a little irritable, our TV was turned on with the remote control, my mom wouldn't, I went over to turn it on for her, my mom sat on the sofa and settled down.

After the noodles were cooked, I took out a bowl and brought it to my mother, and told her to sit on the sofa and watch TV after eating, and not go anywhere, not to go to work today, and to rest for a day, my mother nodded and agreed.

I found the cold medicine and painkillers at home, took everything according to the maximum dose, went back to the house and covered the quilt and lay down again, dizzy, and fell asleep after a while.

When I woke up again, I saw that it was gloomy outside the window, I thought it was going to rain, and I was shocked when I looked at the alarm clock on the table next to the bed, it was evening, and I slept all day!

I quickly got up and went to the house to look for my mother, my mother didn't eat at noon, I don't know what happened. The TV in the living room was still on, there was no one on the sofa, I went to my mother's room to watch, and I saw my mother sleeping on the bed with the quilt covered, and I was relieved.

I went to the kitchen and found that the noodles left in the pot in the morning were gone, probably at noon my mother was hungry and ate them. I was happy in my heart, my mother knew that I was not feeling well, and did not ask me to cook at noon, in order to let me sleep a little longer, and my mother also knew that it hurt me, indicating that she was not completely confused.

After a day of sleep, I felt a little more strength in my body, and sat down for dinner in the kitchen, my mother was still sleeping, I didn't call her, I scooped a bowl of porridge by myself, drank it on the coffee table in the living room, and found a large handful of medicine to eat.

The next day, there was a circle of large and small blisters on my mouth, and my mother looked at my mouth for a long time and said, "Okay." ”

Jianjun came back in the afternoon, and when he first entered the door, his face was still very vigilant, as if he was facing a great enemy, and when he saw me lying on the bed, he immediately forgot about his previous suspicions.

"What's wrong with your mouth? How? ”

I turned my head away and didn't speak.

Jianjun's hand touched my forehead, "Are you having a fever?" ”

I pulled the quilt up and retracted my head into the quilt to prevent him from touching it.

"Don't sleep, get up and I'll go to the hospital with you."

I didn't move, and after a while, Jianjun put his hand into the quilt and pulled me up, and I sat on the bed and saw Jianjun holding my coat in one hand.

"Here, put it on." Jianjun said and put one sleeve of his coat on me, and then reached behind my back to pull the other sleeve of his coat, and hugged me in his arms, my face was very close to Jianjun, smelling the familiar smell of his body, my heart was sour, and I fell into tears.

"Okay, don't toss, let's go to the hospital first."

Jianjun took me in his arms and patted me on the back. (To be continued.) )