Let my mother watch TV at home alone, I don't worry, I'm afraid that if any tendon moves again, I can't find my way home in my hometown, let alone in this unfamiliar city, lock the door and fear of accidents, under the trade-off, I take my mother to work every day, in order to save costs, I and Jianjun let Aunt Liu, who watched the store, go home, I specialize in watching the store. There is a hospital to ask for goods, after I distribute the goods, call the courier company, they send someone to pick up the goods, so it is more expensive than contacting the bus to pick up the goods, but there is no other way.

When I'm busy, my mom would sit in the open space in front of the store with a maza, and she would look at the pedestrians and cars coming and going, and sometimes people would walk by her, and she would greet people very warmly, usually as: "Comrade, where are you from?" ”

Many times, people who concentrate on walking will be startled by her, the older ones are fine, they look at my mother in surprise, perfunctory, or simply pretend not to hear, when they meet the younger ones, sometimes they will provoke a burst of laughter, my mother does not know that the word comrade has now been given other meanings, my mother is still stuck in the time when she went to the battlefield to fight when she was young, comrades are class brothers and sisters.

I told my mom not to greet strangers casually, it's rude and unsafe. My mother said yes, but when she met someone passing by, she would say, "Comrade, where are you from?" ”

I knew it was useless, so I didn't care about her anymore, let her go, Jianjun sometimes went on a business trip, sometimes went out to socialize, or sometimes went out to drink with friends, basically my mother and I were at noon, I led my mother home to cook and eat, after eating, my mother either watched TV, and slept for a while when she was tired, I boiled medicine for Jianjun in the kitchen, boiled the medicine and served it, it was almost time to go to the store, and then led my mother to the store.

Although the home and the store are not far away, my mother is a handful of old people after all, every day, my mother can't stand it, every night when eating, holding the rice bowl and drowsy, so, it didn't take long for my mother to quit, and when I led her to the store again, my mother pouted and cried aggrievedly: "I'm half buried in the ground, and I run here and there all day long, do you think I'm dying slowly?" ”

"I'm not guilty of you, you send me back!"

Jianjun saw that my mother lost her temper, as a son-in-law, he didn't say anything, either went back to the house or went out to smoke, leaving me and my mother, at the beginning I could still be patient to coax my mother, the number of tantrums was more, my mother became more and more difficult to coax, and the surname was sent by her.

Since I was a child, I have heard and seen countless stories and legends that promote filial piety to my parents, and some of them are outrageously moved, such as cutting meat from my body to feed my mother, referring to these, I think I may be an unfilial daughter, my mother makes a fuss, my patience in my heart will be reduced by one point, and the resentment in my heart will be increased by one point. Sometimes, I can't help but think about the meaning of my own existence, on the one hand, my mother who is surnamed Ren like a child, and on the other hand, Jianjun who drinks medicine every day and does not work, I feel that the two of them are like two walls, sandwiching me in the middle, squeezing more and more tightly.

When I saw that my mother was really tired, I asked her to stay at home, turn on the TV, lock the door, go to the store to watch the store for a while, and run home if she was fine, for fear that my mother would have an accident at home.

Jianjun's illness went through more than two years of treatment, and finally lost confidence, and changed several hospitals in the middle, all of which ended in vain. Finally, one time, when I went to bed at night, I opened the plate covered with the medicine bowl and found that the medicine soup was staying in the bowl without moving, and the resentment that I had accumulated for a long time finally broke out.

"Why didn't you drink the medicine? Do you still know how to cure it? If you don't cure it, say it early! ”

Jianjun went out to drink again at night, and when he came back, he fell asleep on his bed. I walked over with the medicine bowl and raised my leg to kick his calf hanging by the side of the bed, Jianjun opened his eyes, "Huh? What's wrong? ”

I held back my anger and asked him, "Why don't you drink it?" ”

Jianjun glanced at the medicine in my hand, "Oh, forgot. ”

After saying that, he turned over and went to sleep again.

"You've decided to die, haven't you?" I continued to ask him.

"Rule, rule." Jianjun's face was covered in the quilt and he said indistinctly.

"Cure you without medicine! If you don't drink it, you let me boil it every day! Do you want a child for myself? ”

Jianjun lay on the bed without saying a word or moving, as if he was asleep.

The resentment that has accumulated for a long time is blocked in my chest, making me breathless, my mother messes with me every day, I am annoyed enough, you Jianjun is young, you are not ridiculous or stupid, why are you so ignorant? I bear the infamy of not having children for you, and I boil medicine for you every day, and you still don't drink it?

"Smack!" I slammed the medicine bowl in my hand to the ground.

"What are you doing?" Jianjun sat up from the bed.

"What am I doing? What else do I want to ask you? I run back every day to boil medicine, you want to drink it, you can't think of it and don't drink it, so it's a fart to cure the disease! What do you mean? If you don't want to cure it, just say it! ”

Jianjun glared at me and said, "Yes! I don't want to cure! ”

Looking at Jianjun's wolf-hearted appearance, I was so angry that tears welled up, I pounced on him and pushed him, Jianjun was defenseless, and suddenly lay on his back on the bed, lying down, Jianjun closed his eyes like a dog and pretended to sleep.

"Okay, since you don't want your own children, what am I still bothering about Baal doing here, I would have made it clear that everyone was easy." I sneered and looked at Jianjun who was spread out on the bed.

Jianjun remained motionless in bed. I had nowhere to vent my anger, so I bent down and picked up one of Jianjun's slippers on the ground and smashed it Jianjun, "Let you pretend to be a dead dog!" ”

Jianjun was smashed coldly, and when he was angry, one got up and stood up, staring at the red eyes: "What are you doing!" Crazy, isn't it? ”

"Yes! I'm just crazy! I'm a woman who is almost 30 years old and doesn't even have a child, and I have to beg you every day to drink medicine, beg you to do things, and serve you. Every day, like an uncle, I come to reach out for food and open my mouth, I ask you, are you embarrassed? Do you feel a little guilty? What the fuck do I let people say is a chicken that doesn't lay eggs, and you're so at ease? ”

"What's wrong with my long illness, I deserve to die? Should it be lower? ”

"You don't deserve to die, it's me who deserve to die! It's me who is blind, I'm cheap, I've never seen a man, and if it's a man, I'll serve as a master! “

"That's what you do!"

"Su Jianjun! Do you have a conscience? Have you delayed me for so many years, and you haven't even spoken a word? ”

"I'm delaying you? When I found out about the disease, I said I didn't talk about divorce? Who keeps saying it? Now you say that I delayed you, and that was your own fault! ”

"Good!" I looked directly at Jianjun and said word by word: "I asked for it, from today onwards, if I mention having a child again, go out and let the car hit me to death!" It's you, not me! ”

There was a knock on my mother's door, and then I heard my mother walking with Suosuo, and Jianjun and I didn't say anything more, staring at each other silently, our eyes full of anger and hatred. (To be continued.) )