In fact, it wasn't a big deal, just a cold with the surname of the virus, Jianjun accompanied me to hang two bottles of water in the hospital, took some medicine and went home.

There is one more person in the family who can help, I feel much more relaxed, I don't have to stand up for every meal to cook for my mother, Jianjun not only cooks, but also cleans up the family that has accumulated for many days, I sit on the bed and drink the white rice porridge that Jianjun brought to me, listening to my mother watching TV peacefully in the living room, my heart is quiet and satisfied, life is okay like this, what else is there to force? If you exchange the current peace for a child, is it worth it?

At night, I quietly put my hand into Jianjun's quilt and grabbed one of his hands, Jianjun held it tightly, leaned over, and I whispered: "Just as I said, let's not have children, just the two of us." ”

"Have you thought about it?"

"Well, I've figured it out."

Jianjun lifted my quilt and got in, put his arm under my neck and hugged me in his arms, hugged me tightly, and he leaned on my ear and said softly, "I'm sorry." ”

"It's enough for me to have you, not so much." I whispered in his ear.

Jianjun went to kiss my face mercilessly, and when his lips touched the blisters on my mouth, I took a breath of pain, and Jianjun stopped.

Jianjun remembered that I was still sick, so he hugged me sideways in his arms, and tightened the quilt behind my back, "I can't be cured anymore, I'm about to collapse in the past few years, I drink Chinese medicine every day, I can't do things when I want to, I can't do things when I don't want to, I am about to become a breeding animal." ”

I lay in Jianjun's arms and listened to him say that he had never said this to me before, and I always thought that I would pay the most for having a child.

"In the past few years, the children have not been able to go to school, and the money has not been saved, why are we suffering? Suffer these sins. ”

I suddenly remembered my mother-in-law and father-in-law, "If your parents knew that we didn't know that we were sick, would they agree?" ”

"They don't care, they don't mumble about you now, do they? I told them it was my business. ”

I was relieved and rested my head on Jianjun's chest. Jianjun said: "In the past few years, seeing that you are reluctant to eat and wear, we will enjoy it if you don't see a doctor in the future, and when you get better, I will go shopping with you, buy what you like, and live like this, let me compensate you well." ”

Jianjun chattered, the more he talked, the more excited he became, I was also very emotional, it turned out that what Jianjun bought for me, in recent years, for the high medical expenses, basically did not buy any clothes, and the two silk dresses that I was most proud of faded and faded, and I couldn't wear them at all.

"We've had a good time." Jianjun put his hand into my clothes and touched the two breasts back and forth, "Don't calculate anything, when will the emotions come, when will you do it, what do you say?" ”

Due to the effect of cold medicine and Jianjun's subtle chatter, I was dizzy, and I was touched by Jianjun for a while, and my body actually reacted.

"I want to." I closed my eyes and said softly.

"Really?"

"Hmm."

"You're still having a fever." Jianjun hesitated.

"I don't care."

I heard Jianjun's breathing slowly and rapidly, he didn't touch my mouth again, but gently helped me take off my clothes, lay on my body, and kissed every inch of my skin thoroughly, and I, all the time with my eyes closed, enjoying everything I had lost for a long time in dizziness, and the surname of losing the burden was so beautiful.

I reconciled with Jianjun as before, a bit like glue, he went on a business trip to socialize and drink, I waited for him to come back at home, listening to the footsteps on the stairs every night to discern whether it was him, like a newlywed couple. My body is also slowly recovering, and I take my mother to and from work every day, and I no longer think about the children.

One morning, I was sealing the packed goods in the store, and when I got up, I felt a sudden heat in my lower body, so I quickly dropped the things in my hand and ran to the toilet to look, and found a large pool of slimy white secretion on my underwear.

I don't know what's going on, and I don't want to go to the gynaecologist, and I hate the countless gynecological checkups I've had in the past because of infertility, and I don't want to go again until I have to. I went to a newsstand not far from the store and found a few books on gynecology and went back to the store to read. The book says that when a woman becomes pregnant, her secretions increase.

I heard the doctor say that infertile couples are generally under great mental pressure, which is easy to cause ovulation disorders, so many couples will have an increased chance of getting pregnant after giving up treatment and not having hope, is this kind of good thing really falling on my head?

I suppressed the ecstasy in my heart and thought about the last menstrual period, as if it had really passed! My heart was pounding and racing, I was pregnant! My hand holding the book shook unconsciously, is that what pregnancy is all about? I'm going to have a baby?

Jianjun went out, my mother sat outside and watched the pedestrians outside, at this time, I was so needed to share my joy with others, my heart couldn't hold it anymore, I threw myself to my mother's side, hugged her arm, and the excited voice trembled a little: "Mom, I have it?" ”

My mother was taken aback by me, and pulled her arm out dissatisfied, frowning: "What are you doing?" ”

"Mom, I have a baby!" I said in a suppressed voice.

My mom looked at me and turned back indifferently.

My mother's coldness couldn't extinguish the enthusiasm in my heart at all, I went back to the office and touched the phone on the desk, wanting to tell Jianjun the news, but at the moment when the phone was connected, I suddenly lost confidence in my heart, is it true? I hesitated and hung up.

I remembered a thing, in the family planning supplies on the counter outside, there was a pregnancy test strip, I opened the counter and pulled out one, took a paper cup to the toilet, in the toilet, I took the urine into the paper cup, and then inserted one end of the test strip in, however, after waiting for a while, the test strip showed a clear red line, and the other red line hidden inside was blurred. I was not at ease, so I took another test, and I was still vaguely unsure.

I thought, maybe the time is too short, the date is just over two days, could it be that it is long enough to show it clearly? However, I can't wait, yes or no, figure it out as soon as possible, according to my understanding of my body, I estimate that ** will not be far from ten.

Just thinking about it, a hot current gushed out from my lower body, and I really couldn't wait. I told my mom that there was a good show on TV today, and that I would go home early to watch TV with her, and my mom was very happy and happily went home with me.

When I got home, I turned on the TV for my mother, locked the door, and rode the old bicycle that Jianjun's sister gave us to go to the hospital quickly.

This time I saw the gynecology department completely different from before, a little bit of a feeling of raising my eyebrows, no need to dodge anymore, I can sit on the row of chairs in the corridor and wait for the call like other women, which feels really good.

The doctor, a woman in her forties, listened to me with professional calmness on her face, and she listened to me and said to me routinely, "Go to the examination bed." ”

I was nervous, thinking to myself, if I got pregnant, would the routine gynecological examination be detrimental to the fetus? I hesitated, and the female doctor's face showed impatience: "What's wrong?" ”

"I'm afraid...... If you get pregnant, you'll be fine, right? Doctor. ”

"Menstruation for a few days doesn't mean anything, let's check first, there are so many people waiting outside."

“…… All right. ”

I stripped off and went to bed, and when I was done, the female doctor still had that look of rejection on her face, and she handed me a plastic tube, and I saw that there was something white in it.

"I'll make a list for you, you go check first."

"Oh."

The female doctor swiped a few strokes and filled out a list, and tore it off for me, I asked her, "Doctor, is it pregnant?" ”

"Is it the first test, a hug, pay the money first and then test."

Before I could say yes, the female doctor rushed to the door: "Next." ”

I followed the instructions of the female doctor, went to the first floor to pay for the test, waited for more than half an hour, it was almost half past eleven, and the results came out.

The female doctor was really changing clothes and getting ready to get off work, I quickly handed her the report, maybe she had already washed her hands and was ready to eat, so she didn't reach out to take it, the report was in my hand, and she glanced at it.

"Gonococcal bacteria are exceeded."

I looked at her hopefully: "Doctor, is it pregnant?" ”

The female doctor looked at me coldly: "It's not pregnancy, it's gonorrhoea, gonorrhea, do you know?" ”

"What is gonorrhea?" I looked at her blankly.

"Surname disease." (To be continued.) )