Today is Yun Zheng's taboo.

One night intermittently, I woke up several times, and every time I woke up, when I opened my eyes, I fell into the darkness, and when I closed my eyes, it was also black. I smiled bitterly to myself, my eyes are now open at night and not open, there is not much difference at all. groped to sit up, and immediately woke up Xiaohong: "Sister, what do you want?" I'll take it for you. ”

"I can't sleep, what time is it?" I rubbed my forehead and whispered.

"It's time." Xiaohong saw me lift the quilt, and quickly took the fox fur to help me put it on, "Sister, you can sleep for a while, the sacrifice will be very tiring today, get up so early, I'm worried that your body can't stand it." ”

I smiled: "I can't sleep anyway, and it's uncomfortable to lie down." I got out of bed, and Xiaohong helped me put on my shoes: "Then I'll serve my sister to freshen up." ”

"Xiaohong, it's good for Ning'er to do these things." There was a faint light in the room, and I thought that Xiaohong had already lit the lamp. I have long regarded Xiaohong as my sister in my heart, the business of Cangdu "Tianjinxiu" and the hot pot restaurant, after I left, she was originally run by her, and after she went to Beijing, I asked An Yuanxi to arrange someone to take over. I don't have any mind to take care of those shops, I just wanted to leave those shops for Xiaohong as a dowry, An Yuanxi will come to report to me once a month about the situation in the store, most of the time, I let Xiaohong listen and get ideas.

"Sister, I'll do it myself to rest assured." Xiaohong helped me sit down in front of the dressing table, and Ning'er and Xin'er also got up when they heard the sound, and hurriedly helped me prepare hot water. After washing, Xiaohong took a comb to help me comb my hair, and after a while, I heard her "ah" softly, and the combing action stopped, and I looked at her from the mirror: "What's wrong?" Surprised? ”

She picked out a hair: "Sister, there is a white hair, I helped you pull it out." As she spoke, her scalp ached slightly, and she had pulled out the hair. Hair? I reached out and touched my hair, and lightly hooked the corners of my lips, there were already gray hairs. It turns out that not only is the heart getting old, but the body is also getting old.

Xiaohong saw me touching my hair, and hurriedly said, "Sister who doesn't have to care, there is only one, and now it's gone." I smiled, who said I cared? Xiaohong helped me simply curl my hair, pinned a simple agarwood hairpin, took out the black mourning clothes from the closet, and served me to put them on. Everything is in order, the sky is already cloudy, Ning'er came in with breakfast, and I said to Xiaohong: "Go and see if Nuo'er is up, and bring him over when you get up." ”

Nuo'er and Huiniang lived in the room next to me, and my eyes were inconvenient and I couldn't take care of Nuo'er by myself at night. Xiaohong brought Nuo'er over, and I fed him rice soup. When No'er was four months old, I began to feed him some rice soup with added ingredients to prevent him from just drinking milk, he was born prematurely, and I was always worried that his nutrition was not enough. After the ceremony, I insisted on weaning Nuo'er from the mother's milk, and in addition to feeding the rice soup, I also asked the kitchen to prepare some milk. I know in some simple common sense in my previous life that the child's nutritional needs have changed after the age of one, and the quality of breast milk is gradually declining, and breastfeeding alone is no longer enough.

changed Nuo'er's mourning clothes and took him to Yun Zheng's cemetery, Yun Zheng's cemetery is in Aoxue Villa, and the garden is full of plums. I was reluctant to let him lie alone on the mountain, and I thought Yun Zheng would also be willing to live at home. The snow has not yet melted, the plum has not withered, and the garden is filled with a pleasant fragrance, and the feet are "creaking" on the snow.

The servants have already placed the offerings on the altar, and the incense and candle ingots have been prepared. I checked it and there were no omissions, just waiting for the old man to go up the mountain, and I could start. I walked to the tomb, gently stroked the tombstone, and whispered: "Yun Zheng......"

His voice and smile came alive in front of my eyes, as if I could reach them, but when I reached out, what touched my fingertips was a cold tombstone. Nuo'er didn't know when, broke free from Huiniang's embrace, and staggered to hold my legs: "Mother's ......"

I crouched down and hugged him gently. Yun Zheng, our Nuo'er can walk, like a clumsy penguin, staggering and moving her calves, silly and cute. Noel broke out of my arms, threw herself on the tombstone, and cried out in a milky voice, "Daddy......"

I was shaken and looked at Noel in a daze, tears immediately welling up in my eyes. My No'er, I never taught him to be called "Daddy", how could he? How did he know it was his dad who was sleeping here? Or was it the mysterious pull between father and son that made him know that it was the one who gave him life who slept here? I hugged Null tightly and couldn't stop crying.

"Mother, don't cry......" Nuo'er stretched out her little hand to help me wipe my tears, but I couldn't stop the tears flowing, Nuo'er was anxious, grinned and cried, I hugged him distressedly: "Good, mother's good baby, don't cry, mother doesn't cry, Nuo'er doesn't cry......"

Xiaohong hurriedly handed over the handkerchief and said softly, "Sister, Master Hou is here." ”

I turned my head and saw a few hazy figures standing not far away, so I quickly took the handkerchief and wiped away my tears. Huiniang hugged Nuo'er over, Xiaohong helped me stand up, and walked in front of the old man: "Grandpa, you are here." ”

"Girl......" The old man patted me lightly on the shoulder. I hooked the corners of my lips and forced a smile: "I'm fine, grandpa......"

The old man came with An Yuanxi, as well as Jin Sha and a few of them. Mr. Fu, along with the Stygian Flame and the Iron Guards, gathered in the cemetery. The sacrifice officially began. I took Nuo'er to kneel in front of the grave, lit incense and put it on Nuo'er's hand, and held his hand: "Nuo'er, kowtow to Daddy!" ”

He was ignorant and understood how to worship Yun Zheng step by step according to my guidance, the incense was on, the paper money ingots were burned, I gave Yun Zheng incense, kowtowed, and stood aside with Nuo'er in his arms, so that An Yuanxi, the old man, the Dark Flame, and Jin Sha took turns to worship one by one, and when the people were almost finished, Yun Yi brought the guests in, I couldn't see the people clearly, but I heard the old man greet him: "General Lonely, General Yan, you are here." ”

"Let's worship Yun Shizi, and the emperor will let us put a pillar of incense on his behalf." Silent clouds. After they finished worshipping, my hand was grabbed: "Sister Ye......" I smiled, it turned out that peace had also come. The old man invited Silent Jingyun and Yan Xiaoxiang to sit in the hall, and I continued to stay in the cemetery, and some people came to worship one after another, and Shen Yu was also among them, and they all left one after another. Ping'an and Xiaohong helped me leave the cemetery, and the two generals said goodbye to the old man, and Ping'an said that he would stay in the villa to accompany me before going back, and Lonely Surprise Cloud also agreed. Seeing that his relatives and friends were almost gone, the old man took An Yuanxi down the mountain and asked me before leaving: "Girl, when will you move back to live?" ”

"I'll have people pack up in two days." After receiving my letter, the old man left satisfied. Nuo'er tossed for a long time, a little tired, I asked Huiniang to carry him back to the room to rest. Ping An went back to the room with me, this girl was quiet as usual, and she didn't say a word for a long time, I was a little surprised: "Ping'an, why didn't I listen to you today?" Got something on your mind? ”

"Huh?" She seemed to have just come back to her senses, and after a while, her voice came in a muffled voice, "It's nothing ......"

"Nothing? Why does the voice sound so unhappy? I smiled, "What's the matter?" Can't you say? ”

"Sister......" Ping'an hesitated, "The emperor is going to be elected, and many families and eunuchs have recently received post-election flowers. ”

I see. I smiled: "It's time for the emperor to be elected, the throne has been vacant for three years, and it will not be a system." "I know very well what Ping An thinks about the emperor. But in a place like the harem, where can peace be able to deal with it? Last year, I learned a song and wanted to sing it at the emperor's birthday banquet, but I didn't expect the emperor to cancel the birthday banquet, causing her to work in vain. After the emperor was elected this time, he was afraid that he would break a piece of the girl's heart.

Ping'an was silent again, for a while, sobbing in my throat, I held her hand: "Ping'an, he is the emperor, you should have thought that there will be such a day." ”

"I know, I just can't figure it out, why don't I have a flower post?" Ping An sobbed, "Sister Su Ling and Sister Xiang'er both received post-election flower posts, why didn't I have them?" ”

I was stunned, it turned out that this was the one who was safe and sad. Silly boy, you don't know, it is not necessarily lucky to receive it, and it is not necessarily unfortunate not to receive it. With the relationship between Lonely Surprise Cloud and the emperor, how could the emperor send the flower post to the woman who has always been regarded as a little niece, presumably, General Lonely may not be willing to enter the palace safely.

I was still pondering, and Ping An had already grabbed my hand: "Sister, help me, the Queen Mother loves you so much, you ask her for a post, and the Queen Mother will definitely give it." ”

I was taken aback: "Safe ......"

"Sister, I like the emperor, I like him very much." Ping An cried and fell on top of me, "I don't want to be a concubine, I want to go into the palace to enjoy the glory and wealth, I just want to see him every day, I just want to be by his side, sister, I really like him......"

That's why you're not fit to enter the palace, peace. If you don't get a single-minded response from a man, you're afraid that you will burn yourself to ashes. I touched Ping'an's long hair and sighed faintly: "Ping'an, does General Lonely know your thoughts?" ”

Ping An nodded: "I begged the second uncle, but he refused to agree." ”

Really. I said softly, "General Silence disagrees, there must be his reasons." Hei'an, life in the harem is not so simple, I believe that General Shan will do the best for you......"

"How can he have time to care what I think, he said that I am just infatuated with the emperor, I know that I am not infatuated with the emperor, I really like him." Ping An said aggrievedly, "He was fascinated by that Sejamen, and his mind was all on her, and he said that he would welcome her through the door in some days." ”

I was stunned: "General Lonely wants to marry Miss Sai?" "What about Shen Shen? Although I don't know much about Secarmen, but when I met her at Shen Chen's house, it was obvious that there was an unusual emotional fluctuation between the two.

"Yes, his heart is full of Secamun now, where is my niece." Ping An raised his face and wiped the tears on his face, "Sister, you help me ask the Queen Mother for a flower post, I am grateful to you for a lifetime." ”

"Peace, I can't." I shook my head, "There are some things that you can't do as you want, it's not difficult to ask for a post, but this is tantamount to going against the will of General Lin and the emperor, peace, you have to learn that you can't impose your will on others." "Even your precious and pure love is nothing in the eyes of those who don't cherish it.

"How do you know that's what the emperor meant? You don't think the emperor will like me, do you? Ping'an's face was a little embarrassed, and he bit his lip and said, "I will make the emperor like me, just like the emperor once liked you." ”

"Ping'an ......" I frowned, and she stood up, "Sister, if you don't help me, I'll figure it out myself, in short, I must enter the palace." I'll go first. ”

"Peace ......" She turned around and ran out so fast that I couldn't pull it. This kid doesn't care about anything when he gets impulsive, and he won't do anything stupid, right? It seems that I am going to inform the silence and make him watch the peace a little closer.

――2007、3、17

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