[194] Essence

You and I don't have a father who taught us how to be a man, so we have to figure it out on our own.

- Yuan Ze.

Yun Mu didn't expect that Yuan Ze, a guy full of women, could say such profound words.

The surname Gao Ling brought the surname Gao Wu, and at this moment Yun Mu realized that he was actually very similar to Yuan Ze, or sometimes he was unconsciously influenced by Yuan Ze. In my impression, Yuan Ze will express his feelings every time he says goodbye to a girl, of course, the emotions at that time are not very literary, such as: If God gives me another chance, I will definitely blow up her chrysanthemum and break up...... At that time, everyone thought that Yuan Ze was very vulgar, and his words and deeds were always mixed with vulgarity, vulgarity, and vulgarity. And Yun Mu uses the current perspective that behind the three customs, Yuan Ze is also reflecting.

Through this sentence just now, Yun Mu could understand Yuan Ze's inner feelings.

Yuan Ze's father was a soldier, and father and son rarely saw each other once a year. In 98, when fighting the flood and rescuing the emergency, Yuan's father died honorably. Yuan Ze was ten years old that year, and when he was a child, his father was not around and could not teach him, and when he became a little sensible, his father left forever, and no one taught him how to be a man.

Yuan Ze did not blame his father, but respected his father very much. In his childhood, many little boys had dreams of becoming a member of the People's Liberation Army, and Yuan Ze also had such a dream, and he was proud that his father was a soldier. Whether alive or dead, his father will always be a hero in his mind.

The pain of losing his father was not too difficult for Yuan Ze to accept, and the adults thought that Yuan Ze was only a teenager at that time, and he didn't understand the pain. Yun Mu understood Yuan Ze's thoughts, and Yuan Ze's true feelings can probably be described in a single lyric: The most glorious sacrifice is the fate of a hero.

Therefore, Yuan Ze was not too sad.

Later, an incident happened that was enough to grieve Yuan Ze for many years.

Yuan Ze has been more naughty since he was a child, but there is no big problem. Even after experiencing the catastrophe of losing his father, Yuan Ze has not changed much. The time that really changed him was 2,000 years.

This year, Yuan Ze's mother remarried.

Yuan Ze couldn't understand, how could a hero's wife remarry someone else?

Take 10,000 steps back and say, even if a hero's wife remarries, she should marry a hero, how can she marry Zhu Dachang?

Zhu Dachang turned out to be the director of a private cement factory in the suburbs of Lanjiang, and the factory was about to close down, but when the flood of the 98th was in full swing, the Lanjiang River was surging, and Zhu Dachang made a fortune by selling river sand and cement, and since then he has entered the ranks of the masters.

Almost every successful person in the newspaper has to give back to the society after making a fortune, and Zhu Dachang made donations after the disaster, and personally went door-to-door to send warmth to the families of the martyrs. How can this person send warmth to the families of other martyrs Yuan Ze didn't have time to care, he only knew that after Zhu Dachang arrived at his home, he stared at his mother and refused to turn his eyes.

At that time, Yuan Ze was very angry, people like Zhu Dachang, who were suspected of making a fortune, were in stark contrast to his father, and he didn't understand why the hero died while the villain lived so nourishingly.

At that time, Yuan Ze was also very calm, he witnessed how sad his mother was after his father's death, and he firmly believed that his mother had unswerving feelings for his father. He thinks that a man like Zhu Dachang will never be able to enter his mother's eyes.

And the fact is that two years later, Yuan's mother married Zhu Dachang.

On the day his mother discussed the marriage with him, Yuan Ze felt that the sky was dark.

At that time, Yuan Ze had nothing to say, he didn't know if his views would be too naïve in the eyes of adults, he didn't know if his suggestion could change his mother's choice, and he didn't know why his mother was moved by Zhu Dachang. All in all, he could not accept that the hero's wife was married to a philistine man.

At that time, Yuan Ze had already watched a lot of soap operas and knew that everyone had the right to choose happiness. Since he was a child, his mother raised him almost alone, Yuan Ze knew that it was not easy, and he was not sure if he would break his mother's heart if he strongly opposed the marriage.

In the end, Yuan Ze told Yun Mu what he was thinking, but he didn't tell his biological mother.

Yun Mu still remembers that the first time Yuan Ze drank alcohol and smoked for the first time, it was all in that year.

After Yuan's mother remarried, Yun Mu thought that Yuan Ze would be more rebellious, and even never talked to his stepfather as he played on TV. In fact, Yuan Ze's behavior at home was normal later, and none of the things Yun Mu was worried about happened.

Now Yun Muling's surname is Qigao, and the questions that he felt puzzling back then are now all understood.

Since that year, Yuan Ze's hairstyle has become more and more scratchy, his dress has become more and more scratchy, and the most excessive thing is that his demeanor has become more and more scratchy...... Yuan Ze has just changed a way of catharsis.

He knew that he couldn't hate his mother, and there was a resentment in his heart that had nowhere to vent.

In the end, this resentment was vented to girls of the same age.

Yun Mu began to understand what Yuan Ze had done, and the cause of many ridiculous things in the past stemmed from disappointment and resentment in the group of women. Probably from the day his mother remarried, Yuan Ze no longer trusted his biological mother. He once firmly believed that his mother would be loyal to her deceased husband, but in the end, he was only disappointed.

Touching the scene, Yun Mu thought of himself, and remembered Liu Ya's casual inquiry: "Why do you always have a little distrust of women?" ”

It turned out that he was the same as Yuan Ze.

It's just that regarding Yuan Ze's question, Yun Mu can be a bystander.

And when it comes to himself, the authorities are often obsessed.

Today, hearing the news of Liu Ya's departure, Yun Mu found that he couldn't do anything. What can be done? Since the day they separated, he and Liu Ya have no relationship, what qualifications do they have to do something?

At this time, no matter how high the Ling surname is, it is useless.

Affection not only causes a woman's IQ to drop rapidly, but also makes a man lose his judgment.

The two older boys lay on the grass and were silent for a long time.

No, Yun Mu's feeling is not like this, he feels that now he is more like a young man with a little boy. The difference is that Yuan Ze is already thinking about how to be a man, but he has never thought about this problem.

Some people always think that a boy becomes a man after the first night, which is similar to wearing a set of famous brands and becoming a gentleman, which is more ridiculous. If there is no change within it, then it will never be able to get out of the category of nouveau riche in essence.

Turning his head to look at his childhood friend who had returned to calm after being sad, Yun Mu felt that the level of thinking of this thing was too deep, and he had distanced himself from him. At the very least, in terms of women, Yuan Ze is more experienced than him. In terms of life positioning, Yuan Ze is more long-term than he thinks.

This caused a great touch to Yunmu and also produced an inspiration.

He was thinking that maybe he had thought too much about it in the past, and the issues he was considering were too complicated, which led to the untidy and messy cutting. Yun Mu suddenly felt that Yuan Zezhen was a genius, and this product had found the key.

Yuan Ze only thought about one question: how to grope to become a man?

For a creature with a male surname, as long as this question is thought through, the rest of the problems are not a problem

(To be continued)