Monday was fine

It's been a week since the change of seats, and Shaoling and I still haven't spoken to each other. Although we are at the same table, my feeling is that he and I are like two people in parallel worlds, and there is no intersection. It may be frustrating to say that, but I'm not discouraged.

In the past week, Ms. Shinorou and her good friend Sister Maruko have given me a lot of advice, but most of the opinions sound quite unreliable, such as the erotic seduction method mentioned by Sister Maruko, which I can't learn at all. The reason for this may be related to my personality, I was not a lively girl when I was a child, and the more I grew up, the more introverted I became. I know that this is not good for our plan, because it requires an active me, and only by taking the initiative can we resolve his passivity. I understand everything, but I don't know why I can't do it.

Since you can't do it, why should you ask Teacher Xiaorou for help? Instead of twists and turns, it is better to show your heart to the person you like. I have dreamed of Shaoling many times and confessed to him. In my dream, I was like another girl, she was straightforward and bold, she had nothing to say, as if she didn't need to think about the consequences of her actions at all, as if she didn't care about the outcome of winning or losing after showing love.

When I think of this, I feel extremely annoyed, why would I be so cowardly in reality?

Writing and writing, I started to get sleepy again. Am I so eager to enter into dreams, to dream of him, and to tell him my secrets?

Thursday was fine

Today's school is cleaned up, but I have become a chicken in the soup...... Am I so easy to be bullied? Lin Xuemei, you are so ridiculous.

Friday was fine

Didn't like Fridays. I wish it was school day, and sitting next to him, even if I didn't say anything, I would be happy and comfortable.

Saturday is cloudy

The drowsy sky is like a mood that I can't shake up. What is he doing now? I'm thinking about you right now.

It was cloudy on Sunday

Teacher Xiaorou asked me, what type of girl does Shaoling like? This really stumped me, in my impression, he doesn't seem to have a favorite star singer or idol, I have never seen him chase stars, I have never heard him talk about it, and I think everyone is very good. So I don't know what Shaoling's preference for girls is, because you can't see through his mind at all, and he never talks to you.

After I expressed my opinion, Ms. Xiaorou was also depressed. But she said, we can take a step at a time, she asked me to try more other styles of girls, like what cute, ladylike, forest, and savage girlfriend, all kinds of things, make me cry and laugh. It also piqued my interest, and I thought I could give it a try, and I would be willing to become whatever he liked.

Today's clouds are too thick, and I want to see a blue sky. It seems that there is nothing to record, in the absence of him today. So be it.

Monday was cloudy

Today, my image has changed. They said that this was the shape of a young woman in literature and art, but in fact, I didn't know it, I just listened to Teacher Xiaorou's makeover. To my surprise, he took the initiative to talk to me. This must be the first time, right? It made my heart flutter, and Teacher Xiaorou said that my appearance was great, and I looked very calm, but in fact my mood was uneasy. He actually took the initiative to talk to me! How is this possible?! I still find it incredible.

At the end of the day, my nerves were tense, for fear of revealing my stuffing, afraid that I would speak inappropriately and not match my identity as a literary girl, so I was careful in everything. Today's results surprised me and Teacher Xiaorou, but I didn't expect Shaoling to like this type of girl, and I finally understood this. It's great that he can take the initiative to talk to me. Hopefully this is the first time, not the last.

Tuesday was cloudy

I dare not say I like you,

But you have been with my breath.

Don't dare to hug you,

Even if you're a millimeter away from me.

I can only stare at you silently,

Hide your affection secretly.

Or write you into verses,

Thousands of sentences are read in the mouth.

The wind blows the catkins outside the window,

And I'm in a quandary,

Not as poetic as in your eyes.

Later, time flies,

But you are drifting away,

I'm the only one left to stay where I am.

Cherry blossoms fall in seconds,

Thoughts travel at the speed of light,

Loneliness quickly invaded.

Ah, liking you turned out to be a lonely trip.

This poem was written in class today, for today's homework, and tomorrow I will correct each other with my tablemates. I wonder how Shaoling will react when he gets this poem? He could feel it, was this what I wrote to him?

Wednesday was cloudy

There are two pieces of good news for me today.

The first good news is that the annual autumn outing has started again, this time it is said that it is going to the Tyumen Scenic Resort, and the students are very excited.

The second good news is that my poem has received feedback, and Shaoling praised my poem for its beauty, and also said that I am as beautiful as this poem. I couldn't contain my excitement and rolled over on the bed for a long time. At the same time, I also have a question in my heart, and that is, is this a confession? I really don't dare to imagine it, or in other words, I don't dare to be too extravagant, the only thing I want is just hope that Shao Ling can understand my mind.

Seriously, when Mr. Xiaorou told me the news, I really couldn't believe it. After all, Shaoling doesn't look like someone who can say such things. At that time, I would have a feeling of familiarity from afar...... When I was a child, whenever I brought him something delicious, he would praise me and say that the snacks I brought were the best in the world. At that time, Shaoling's mother didn't let him eat sweets because of tooth decay. I secretly brought it all with me. Another time was a dance competition in kindergarten, I didn't play properly and only won second, Shaoling comforted me and said that in his eyes, I was the best dancer, and I was the champion.

Now that I think about it, he was really a warm man when he was a child. Now that I'm older, I don't have much to say, let alone praise it.

Thursday was cloudy with light rain

Oops, I wonder if the weather will be good on Saturday and Sunday.

Friday was cloudy

It's still not sunny today, so let's hope the sun will come out tomorrow! Don't let it rain, I'm looking forward to this trip to the Autumnmen.

Today, Teacher Xiaorou announced the list of groups, and I am in the same group as Shaoling, so I am so happy. Teacher Xiaorou always sent me a lot of opportunities, so that I spent more and more time with Shaoling, hoping that I could work harder, take the initiative, and not disappoint the teacher.

But there are Yang Yu and Yang Xiaoqian in the same group, I don't like these two girls, they always follow Shaoling's back, like a fart, saying a lot of things that make people unclear. However, I can't tell Xiaorou that I don't like them or anything, so I have to settle for it.