Chapter 203: Disappearing Emotions

The green quilt is a standard double quilt, which is originally prepared for two people, and it can completely wrap the whole body of two people when it comes horizontally.

Thinking that the two of them were going to spend a whole night in the same quilt, Qing Che couldn't help but feel a little nervous, it was not enough to hide in the quilt and put on autumn clothes and pants, and after Li Mengnan went to bed, he put his pillow between the two.

This can not only avoid direct contact between the two people's bodies, but also block the gap in the middle to keep warm, which can be regarded as killing two birds with one stone.

Qing Che's behavior as if he was facing a great enemy made Li Mengnan feel a little funny, now that he is a lonely man and a widow in the same room, if he really has the heart to do something lustful to this little Lori, how much can such a symbolic line of defense play a role?

However, he didn't say it directly - people, the more powerless they are to resist in reality, the more they need a psychological defense line to comfort themselves.

"This pillow of yours reminds me of a very classic joke."

Li Mengnan smiled, of course he was referring to the Internet joke that "crossing the line is a beast".

Qing Che had obviously heard this joke too, and immediately understood the connotation of Li Mengnan's words in seconds, and instantly blushed.

Li Mengnan was going to continue: "Do you want me to be a beast? Or is it better than a beast? But forget it when you think about it, Qingche's little girl's face is too thin, and there was such an embarrassing thing that happened between the two just now, it is really not suitable for making overly popular jokes.

Thinking of this, Li Mengnan instantly diverted the topic as if nothing was happening and asked, "Qingche, what did you want to show me just now?" ”

While speaking, the mobile phone was lit up again by Li Mengnan.

"I didn't ...... It's nothing! ”

One blow of strength, then decline, three and exhaustion.

Qing Che decided to admit to Li Mengnan out of extreme shame and self-blame at that time, but Li Mengnan was interrupted halfway, and all the courage he had accumulated was gone.

She snatched the phone back from Li Mengnan's hand, quickly turned it off and hugged it tightly in her arms, and then breathed a sigh of relief.

Forget it, let's keep it a secret in her heart forever.

The little girl's mind is like the weather in June, and in the blink of an eye, it is a change that makes people unable to figure it out.

Li Mengnan didn't want to spend that brain guessing what Qing Che was thinking at the moment, so he smiled casually, turned his phone to night mode, opened a previously downloaded online novel and read it with relish.

This move made Qing Che next to her feel a lot more at ease, and she was embarrassed to disturb Li Mengnan, sitting there and not knowing what to do, so she simply turned on her mobile phone in the same way.

The dim light from the mobile phone screen faintly illuminated Qingche's beautiful facial contours, and Li Mengnan suddenly found that she frowned from time to time while looking at her mobile phone, and her plump pink lips opened and closed up and down, as if she had a word.

"What are you looking at?" Li Mengnan stretched his head over curiously.

"It's nothing, it's just a school course, and I downloaded the electronic version on my phone, so I can review it anytime and anywhere."

Qing Che deflected the phone screen in the direction of Li Mengnan, and sure enough, it was just a junior high school textbook.

"You really love to learn." It's the first time Li Mengnan has seen someone who has loaded textbooks into his mobile phone, is this the legendary Xueba mode?

"No, my grades are actually very poor." Qing Che scratched his head embarrassedly, and said with a slightly red face: "I'm a stupid person, and I often have to remember things that others can remember once they read it, and I often have to do it three or four times, so I can only use time to pile it up if I don't want to be left far behind by others......"

"Did you have a brain injury when you were a kid? Or have you ever had a serious illness? So far, Li Mengnan has only found that Qingche's reaction is a bit slow, but this should have nothing to do with memory.

And generally speaking, for a girl of her age, memory is at its best, even if there are individual differences, but except for a few gifted children, it should generally fluctuate around a constant value.

Unless, like Lilac Nuan in his father's twins, he suffered brain damage as a child, which may lead to intellectual defects.

"Not really." Qing Che recalled for a moment, shook his head and said: "Actually, I don't know what's going on, I can clearly see a line of words, and I will forget jì in the blink of an eye, even if I read it repeatedly, but once I start to remember, I always feel as if I have remembered it wrongly, and then the memory becomes blurry again......"

Li Mengnan immediately understood that Qingche was not really having a memory problem, her situation was actually a very common mental illness, called obsessive-compulsive neurosis, which is commonly known as obsessive-compulsive disorder.

"Qingche, I'll teach you a method...... Say 'I'm the smartest and prettiest girl in the world' ten times in the mirror, and do it every day in the morning and once in the evening before going to bed, the louder the better, and your situation will soon improve. ”

Judging from Qingche's situation, her obsessive-compulsive disorder is largely due to the pressure caused by her own inferiority, and Li Mengnan's method is actually a kind of subtle self-hypnosis, although it treats the symptoms but not the root cause, but as long as Qingche can persist in doing it, it will have a little effect.

"Will it really work? It feels so humiliating. Qing Che felt that Li Mengnan's statement was like a narcissist.

"What's there to be ashamed of, and I didn't let you shout in the street...... But then again, if you can really go out on the street and shout twice, you'll be cured in three days. ”

Only people with high self-confidence dare to shout such words on the street, if Qing Che can really do this, it is impossible to get obsessive-compulsive disorder.

"That'...... I'll try it. ”

Although Qing Che still felt very embarrassed, thinking about her academic performance that might be hung high with red lanterns at any time, she could only use a dead horse as a live horse doctor.

There were twelve bells faintly outside the window, and it was already early in the morning, and the TV in the bedroom outside was still ringing, but it had changed from a football game to a variety show.

Qingche didn't stay with Li Mengnan as promised, and at about eleven o'clock, the little girl couldn't stay up anymore, and fell asleep holding the mobile phone on Li Mengnan's shoulder.

Li Mengnan confirmed that Qing Che was asleep, so he slowly put her down on the bed, and the pillow between the two of them was also put back under her head, and his body moved to the end of the bed as much as possible, leaving enough space for Qing Che.

Probably feeling very uncomfortable curling his legs, Qing Che suddenly kicked Li Mengnan a few feet in his sleep, and after finding that he still couldn't stretch out, he simply put a pair of hot little feet on Li Mengnan's thighs.

Li Mengnan wanted to take the restless little foot away from between his legs, but as soon as his body moved, he accidentally sat on a hard object, and took it out of the bed and found that it was a clear mobile phone.

Li Mengnan couldn't help but think of the little girl's strange behavior just now, and after a little thought, he turned on the phone, he was very curious about what Qing Che wanted to show him before.

He didn't think that this was peeping at the little girl's **, after all, the other party took the initiative to show him.

As for being snatched back by her later...... This paragraph was selectively ignored.

It's rare to be confused, it's a realm of being a person, it can be called thick black, or it can be called shameless, it depends on which angle you look at.

Li Mengnan opened the album again and quickly flipped through the preview pictures one by one in front of the full screen.

Until he turned to the end, he suddenly found that the preview picture of a text jiàn was obviously different from other text jiàn, and there was a small triangle sign in the middle that represented that it could be played.

It's not strange to have a video in your phone, but if there's only one video, it's quite curious.

After turning the phone down, Li Mengnan clicked on the video casually.

The video recording effect is not bad, although the picture is a little dark, but it can be clearly seen that it is in a bathroom.

A strange sound, apparently moaning, can be heard from the speakers, and then the height of the picture rises suddenly, past the bathroom partition, and condescendingly presents the scene of the next cubicle to the eye.

This is an almost uncontrollable **** picture.

A strong man, a beautiful woman, in the dim bathroom to the fullest catharsis of human beings' most primitive **.

I can't imagine that such a simple little girl as Qingche can actually watch small movies?

Li Mengnan had just flashed this malicious thought in his mind, and suddenly realized that the pair of men and women in the picture who were engaged in selfless intercourse seemed to be very familiar.

I (beep——! Isn't this the time when I and Minnie Mouse were in the KTV bathroom? When was it live-streamed? And how could it still appear in Qingche's little girl's mobile phone?

Pulling the video back to the beginning and checking the shooting angle, Li Mengnan suddenly understood that Qingche did not leave the KTV that day, but hid next door to the bathroom where he was, and also saw the live reality show between him and Minnie Mouse with his own eyes.

But as for why he recorded it with his mobile phone, he couldn't guess it a little.

Although this discovery surprised Li Mengnan, it was the first time to look at himself from someone else's point of view, and it was this kind of restrictive scene, which still made Li Mengnan feel very interesting.

Anyway, he was idle at the moment, so he simply rewatched the whole video from beginning to end.

Just as he and Minnie are fighting at the height of their battle in the video, a sudden white light illuminates the room, and then it falls back into darkness in less than a second.

It's lightning.

Then there was a dull thunder like a roof rolling disc from far and near, and finally turned into a thunderclap and thundered to the ground.

Rumble——!

Li Mengnan just subconsciously turned his head to see if Qing Che had woken up, when he suddenly heard an exclamation from the quilt, and then the pair of little feet on his legs were suddenly put away, and the quilt on his body was instantly dragged away.

Qing Che was wrapped in a quilt and shrunk up on the bed, although Li Mengnan couldn't see her expression at the moment, but he could clearly feel the violent shaking coming from inside when he put his hand on the quilt.

"Qingche? Qingche, are you alright? ”

Li Mengnan cautiously pushed her through the quilt, although many girls are afraid of thunder, but it is still very rare to be afraid of this Cheng dù.

Qing Che seemed to have forgotten that there was another person in the room, and when Li Mengnan's hand was on her through the quilt, her body couldn't help but tremble violently, and then she remembered it again, and suddenly lifted the quilt and threw herself into Li Mengnan's arms, wrapped her hands tightly around his waist, buried her head in his chest and refused to look up.

Outside the window, there was a lot of wind and rain, thunder and lightning.

Every time the thunder sounded, Li Mengnan could clearly feel the Qingche in her arms involuntarily hugging him tightly, the louder the thunder, the harder her arms became.

The violent trembling of her body has not stopped almost from beginning to end, her hands and feet are cold, and her back is faintly covered with sweat.

Obviously, Qing Che was probably frightened quite severely on a night of lightning and thunder in the past, and then did not receive timely psychological counseling, and after years of repeated stimulation of the same scene, it became an extremely strict psychological trauma.

"It's okay, I'm here, don't be afraid."

Li Mengnan picked up Qingche and put her on his lap, wrapped her in his arms like a baby, and gently patted her back.

This kind of psychological trauma that accumulates over time cannot be healed in a short period of time, and the only thing he can do at this moment is to give Qingche a hug that makes her feel safe.

Although it is still a palliative rather than a cure, it cannot be denied that it is effective.

Feeling that his body was tightly surrounded by a pair of powerful arms, and the wide chest that was clinging to it was constantly reassuring warmth, the fear in Qingche's heart finally slowly dissipated, but he still refused to let go of the arms that hugged Li Mengnan.

"Do you feel better now?"

"Hmm."

Qingche whispered softly, such a baby-like intimate embrace made her feel very shy, but she never wanted to let go and face the terrible thunder and lightning alone.

"Monnango, I'...... Isn't it timid? ”

Qing Che buried her head in Li Mengnan's chest, and she suddenly found that the clear and powerful heartbeat in her ears would make her feel very relieved.

"It's nothing, everybody has something to be afraid of and don't want to face." Li Mengnan smiled and touched her head.

"What about you? Monnango, do you have something you're afraid of? Qing Che asked curiously.

"Me?" Li Mengnan was silent for a moment, as if trying to remember, and then shook his head and said, "I don't know, I don't seem to have been afraid of anything. ”

"But didn't you say that everyone has something to be afraid of?"

Although Qing Che just asked casually, he really stopped Li Mengnan.

Indeed, fear is an unavoidable emotion for everyone, as long as it is human, there will inevitably be things that make it fearful, but why has I never seemed to have feared this kind of emotion since I was a child?

Li Mengnan fell into a long silence, perhaps in the eyes of others as a sign of audacity, but he knew very well that this was certainly not a normal phenomenon.

If it weren't for Qing Che, he inadvertently changed his arms for 14.

This is simply a copy of his hypnosis of others, and the only explanation is that the old man probably hypnotized him at a deep level when he was very young, completely hiding his inner fear of something.

It is even possible to directly close the emotion of "fear".

This is not a small project like eating and drinking, even if Li Mengnan himself, he can only hide a certain memory of others at most, and it is impossible to completely close a specific situation.

What is the old man trying to hide from him when he spends so much effort?

"Monnango, you...... What's wrong? Qing Che noticed Li Mengnan's abnormality.

"Oh, it's fine, but I suddenly remembered a little bit from the past."

At this moment, the thunder is getting quieter, and the occasional lightning is not as frequent as just now, Li Mengnan tentatively let go of the hand holding Qingqing, and said with a long breath: "That thunderstorm cloud should have passed, you continue to sleep, don't be afraid, I will sit next to you, you can call me if you have something." ”

Qing Che nodded with difficulty, and seemed to be a little reluctant to let go of his hand and lie back on the pillow.

Li Mengnan picked up his mobile phone and hadn't turned two pages of the novel when he suddenly felt a soft little hand tugging at the corner of his clothes from the quilt.

"Something?" Li Mengnan asked.

"Monnango, do you want to ...... Lie down and sleep. Qing Che tugged at the corners of the quilt, only revealing the upper half of his face, and his two eyes were shining, "Although my bed is not big, it should be able to sleep two people back to back." ”

"This ...... Not quite right? And if that's the case, your line of defense won't work. ”

Qingqing's bed is only a one-meter-wide single bed, and if you want to sleep two people, you have to lean back to back, not to mention pillows, and even putting a thick cardboard is a problem.

"Monnango, I'...... I believe you. ”

Qing Che was able to say that she had almost used up all the courage in her heart, and she didn't dare to say any more, for fear that Li Mengnan would misunderstand her other meaning, so she lay down directly in the direction of the door, leaving half of the bed behind her.

"Little girl, seriously, you feel a lot of pressure when you say that." Li Mengnan leaned down slightly, put his hand on Qingche's shoulder, and said with a smile: "I'm a bad person, I've been emphasizing this point from beginning to end, the so-called good guy is just your wishful thinking...... And once some things start, it's up to you to decide what will happen next, are you sure you want me to sleep next to you? ”

"I ...... I...... I'm sure you wouldn't do that...... Be...... Right? Qing Che was obviously frightened by Li Mengnan's description, but for some reason he still gritted his teeth and held on, but his tone was obviously a little trilled and crying.

"Little girl, tease you, are you really serious?" Li Mengnan tapped her funny index finger on her head, and then dragged the quilt and lay down sideways against her smooth and soft back, "Remember, as long as you feel something is wrong in the future, you can also invalidate it at any time, don't hold it hard, otherwise it will be easy to be taken advantage of by some ill-intentioned people." ”

Qing Che didn't respond as submissively as before.

I don't know how long it took, Li Mengnan suddenly felt Qing Che behind him turn over and gently lean his head on the back of his neck.

"Monnango...... You...... Have you ever thought about it that way? ”