She thinks a lot these days and reflects calmly.

only to find that the distance between them was never as far as she imagined, her lack of self-confidence and low self-esteem made her extremely negative, unable to see sunshine and hope.

As Xuanmu said, their current quarrel is the only way for two separate beings who grow up in different environments to rub and merge.

It was she who magnified the pain, so all she saw was exhaustion and disappointment.

In fact, they have always been happy, whether it is a quarrel or a cold war, they have never really thought about giving up.

He won't, and neither will she.

Every time they quarrel, they are very hurt, but they also understand each other in the quarrel, learn to be tolerant, and invisibly smooth their edges and corners for each other.

If you love each other, you should be together, what does it matter if you have less personality and edges.

What did he mean to her?

He is happy, positive, persistent, and able to give her light and hope......

It's sunshine-like storage!

And what about her? …… What kind of person is she?

Before she met Xuanmu, she lived in her own world, closed, dull, negative, lonely, and unwilling to communicate with the outside world just to hide her inner inferiority complex and cowardice.

In this way, she protects herself from harm, and only then can she make a casual home decoration where nothing happens, but she is just deceiving herself.

It was Xuanmu who knocked on the door of her heart little by little, pulled her out of the dark world, gave her sunshine, and let her see the other side of the world, full of sunshine and moving beauty.

In this life, if you don't meet him, it's fine.

If she did, how could she push him away, how could she give up?

In this relationship, she is the one who really has no way to leave, and she is the one who can't afford to lose.

For the sake of Xuanmu, she is willing to gamble everything.

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That day, Grandma Gu called the two sisters Yanran and Yanyu into the house, looked solemn, and took out a box from the cabinet.

It is a round iron box, it has been some years, it has lost its paint, but it has been touched extremely smooth, printed with the smiling face of a round big-headed doll, it is the packaging box used to hold candy and moon cakes a long time ago, and it is the box that Grandma Gu used to store her treasures, which contains the most important things in her life.

The two sisters both remembered this box, and whenever it was late at night, when the grandmother couldn't sleep because of back pain, she would take out the box and turn over the old photos inside, look at it over and over again, occasionally talk to herself, and secretly wipe her tears.

The two sisters nested in the quilt and secretly used the quilt to suck up tears, silent, pretending not to see anything, that was the only thing they could do for their grandmother, giving her only space for herself.

Grandma Gu took the box in her hand and sat face to face with Yan Ran and Yan Yu, with a serious expression.

"Grandma has something to say to you, Yanran, Yanyu, no matter what I said today, you just need to remember one thing, you are two sisters until you die, you must rely on each other and support each other." Grandma Gu clenched her hand holding the iron box, and her voice trembled a little.

Yanran seemed to be able to guess what her grandmother was going to tell her......

Grandma Gu took out a purse from the box, wrapped in three layers inside and three layers outside.

Yan Ran's heart shrank, her eyes were red in pain, she had seen this thing once, the last time Brother Qiang took the people to smash things for the New Year, he threw this thing to the ground, grandma was anxious like something, and she guessed that this thing must be related to her life experience.

It is a black stone, irregularly shaped, not big, it is a pendant, polished smooth, dark and translucent, if you look closely, it will glow dark green in the sun.

Grandma Gu handed it to Yan Ran and said, "You can take this away, maybe...... When will you be able to rely on it to find your biological parents......" Before she finished speaking, Grandma Gu began to wipe her tears, and her voice was choked.

Yanran took it and was silent.

Yan Yu was the same, the whole world became extremely quiet, only Grandma Gu's soft sobs faintly sounded.

Regarding Yan Ran's life experience, it is impossible for Yan Yu not to know, since she can remember, she has often heard her playmates say that her sister is not her own sister, but picked it up, and she is uncomfortable listening to it and has fought with them several times.

For this secret that everyone knows, Yan Yu pretended not to know, and never talked to her sister, because she firmly believed that her sister was her sister, her sister, and it was a fact that it was impossible to change anything at any time.

Or in fact, she fears losing her sister more than anyone else.

"Grandma is old, maybe one day her brain will be confused, I can't remember, I originally wanted to wait until you turn 18 years old to tell you......" Grandma Gu wiped her tears, the corners of her eyes were full of wrinkles, the sun was too tanned, and the deep and shallow wrinkles left too much helplessness and sadness on her face.

Originally, Grandma Gu planned to confess her life experience to Yanran when she was 18 years old.

In fact, before the change of life, Grandma Gu did not say these words until she died, because when Yanran was in her third year of high school, Grandma suddenly died of a cerebral hemorrhage, bringing these words and the stone into the grave.

In this life, something happened to Brother Qiang, and Grandma Gu personally admitted the fact that Yanran was picked up, which became a dead knot in the hearts of the grandparents and grandchildren, and Grandma Gu wanted to say it several times, but she couldn't bear it, afraid of losing Yanran from now on.

Not long ago, Gu Huasheng came back with that look, and Grandma Gu felt sad from her heart, feeling that the world was impermanent, and she had to explain everything she should say and think in advance.

"Yanran, I won't hide it from you, you entered the Gu family when you were three years old, and there was no Yan Yu at that time, I was afraid that the Gu family would have no queen, so I picked you up from the hands of traffickers." Grandma Gu said, there was nothing to hide, just muddy tears poured out the sadness in her heart.

"This thing is the only token on your body, and I have been keeping it for you, and I want to give it to you when you grow up...... If one day I am gone, you can take it and return to your ancestors. ”

Yan Ran held the stone tightly in the palm of her hand, her heart ached, and she finally had to face the topic she didn't want to mention in her life.

Regarding her life experience, Yan Ran is not uncurious.

She didn't understand how ruthless her parents were, so they would sell her when she was only 3 years old.

It was an eternal pain in her heart, she was a life that was not expected, an object to be bought and sold, a child abandoned by her biological parents...... It's a life that shouldn't have been there.

Or, she just lost it, yes! It's just that it was accidentally lost and then fell into the hands of traffickers...... She comforted herself like this, but she inexplicably resisted.

What if you lose it?

She is 16 years old this year, even if she finds her biological parents, even if blood is thicker than water, but 13 years of separation have already turned them into strangers.

They may have a new child and a very happy life, will anyone really be happy when she recognizes her ancestors and returns to her ancestors?

What's more, she didn't want to leave her grandmother and Yan Yu.

In this life, no matter what others think of her, she is grandma's granddaughter, Yanyu's sister, regardless of blood, regardless of DNA, they are relatives, and they are one of the few relatives in this world who can rely on each other for warmth.

So about what Grandma Gu said, recognizing her ancestors and returning to her ancestors, looking for her biological parents, Yanran resisted from the bottom of her heart.

"Grandma...... My surname is Gu. Yanran raised her eyes to look at her elderly grandmother, stretched out her hand, and held her grandmother's withered hand in her hand.

There are no tears, no sorrow, and if you identify one thing, there is less pain in entanglement.

"Silly boy, you don't have to feel sorry for grandma, I'm fine, as long as you and Yanyu are fine, grandma is fine."

Grandma Gu touched a handful of tears, picked up the stone pendant in Yanran's hand, hung it around her neck and continued: "Don't take this thing off, take it with you every day, maybe you can find your real parents one day." How long can grandma stay with you? Watson...... Unreliable! ”

In this life, Grandma Gu only cared about Huasheng's son, and now she has become like that again, she knows that there is no hope, so she just begs him not to drag down the two children of Yanran and Yanyu.

These days, Grandma Gu obviously feels that her body is not as good as before, in case she can't open her eyes one day, what should the two children of Yanran and Yanyu do? What should Gu Huasheng do?

No matter how close the granddaughter is, in the end, she can't kiss the flesh and blood that fell from her belly.

"Watson...... I really can't run, I can't play, you and Yanyu will give him a place to live......" As soon as Gu Huasheng was mentioned, Grandma Gu was sad and new, with tears and snot.

When she died, she died, but Watson was the only surviving son in her life after all, and she gave him the best she could give in her life, and she almost took out her heart to him.

Her son, who loved and cherished him so much, was now lame in one foot, missing a few fingers, missing even his front teeth, penniless, like a beggar...... must have suffered a lot outside, and when she thought of these Grandma Gu, she couldn't sleep in a hurry.

These days, she has been asking for news about Gu Huasheng everywhere, hoping to bring him home.

Crippled, lame, in the end, it is also the son of his own in-laws, broken bones and attached to meat.

Others can leave it alone, but she can't leave it alone.

But I was afraid that she would leave first, leaving only Gu Huasheng alone and helpless, so he opened his mouth to beg Yanran and Yanyu.

Selfish?

Gu Huasheng's virtue will drag down Yan Ran and Yan Yu sooner or later, and when they grow up, they will be disliked and poked in the backbone if they want to find a better person.

If it was really for the sake of the two granddaughters, Grandma Gu should have moved a long time ago, firstly, to avoid the people who collect debts every day, and secondly, to protect the two children from Gu Huasheng's abuse and shadow.

No one in the neighborhood persuaded Grandma Gu to give up Gu Huasheng, cut off with him, and had nothing to do with it, and took the two sisters Yanran and Yanyu to find separate places to live, and they were also willing to help them live again in a new place and give advice.

But in the end, Grandma Gu didn't do that.

The reason for not moving was very simple, she was afraid that Gu Huasheng would not find a home.

I'm afraid that when he really comes to her one day, she won't be there.

I'm afraid that one day he will change his life and want to come back and live a good life, but he won't be able to find his way home.

I'm afraid that when he is old and has nothing to rely on, he is dying, if even this place disappears, how sad he will be.

Everyone thinks that Gu Hua is inferior to pigs and dogs, and hates Grandma Gu for being too soft-hearted and a woman's kindness.

But she is just an ordinary country man, she has never gone to school, and even her name is written crookedly.

She doesn't know much about the truth, but she is simple and kind, willing to contribute, and never feels bitter.

Without her husband, her son is her God.

Yan Ran and Yan Yu are her hope and light, but if you let her give up one, she will be reluctant to give up any of them.

In the final analysis, she is the one who sacrifices the most, and what qualifications do others have to say that she is selfish. R1152