Chapter 215: Anger and Doubt
Moreover, from this day on, Qiu Zichuan went home later every day! Not only is it later, but Qiu Zichuan is less silent after returning home every day! Even, sometimes Qiu Zichuan, who came back very late, was a little drunk!
Moreover, when he came back every night, Qiu Zichuan still only went to the study; Moreover, after reading the book every night, Qiu Zichuan still only goes to the guest room to rest!
Qiu Zichuan began to live in the guest room, and Qu Mengmeng was stunned at first on the first night!
Qu Mengmeng, who woke up in the middle of the night, saw that his surroundings were still empty, thinking that Qiu Zichuan was still in the study. Because after Qiu Zichuan came back, he said that he was still looking at some materials and materials. But when he walked out of the bedroom and found that the light in the study was turned off, and then he heard Qiu Zichuan's snoring in the guest room, Qu Mengmeng thought to himself that this was strange, Qiu Zichuan, who had always said that he couldn't sleep well without his own side, what was going on today! But when he opened the door and saw that Qiu Zichuan was already asleep, he thought that Qiu Zichuan might be too late in the study and didn't want to disturb himself anymore, so he went straight to the guest room to rest!
The next day for breakfast, Qu Mengmeng also joked with Qiu Zichuan about this, although Qiu Zichuan seemed to be preoccupied, but also said that if he came back too late outside in the future, or if he had to read things in the study until midnight, he would still go to the guest room to rest, so that both of them could rest well.
Qu Mengmeng hadn't realized Qiu Zichuan's original intention at that time, and still muttered and joked: As long as you are willing!
But then, Qiu Zichuan really came back late every day, sometimes it was like a night of entertainment and drinking a lot, and even if Qu Mengmeng had been waiting, after coming back, Qiu Zichuan would get up early tomorrow on a business trip, or there was a reason why the materials must be studied tonight, etc., or he went directly to the guest room after rinsing, or he must be in the study in the middle of the night.
In short, from that night on, Qiu Zichuan no longer went to the bedroom at home to sleep with Qu Mengmeng!
And in this way, after more than half a month, Qu Mengmeng began to wonder! Qu Mengmeng began to be angry again, and Qu Mengmeng's doubts began to be even bigger in anger!
Qu Mengmeng first began to suspect that Qiu Zichuan must have had an affair with those women or girls he suspected, and the seemingly open-minded conversation that night was just to appease himself, it must have been the next day that he Qiu Zichuan didn't know if he was with the woman or girl in it again, and the other women or girls didn't know what tricks they were playing, or what charms they were showing, which made him Qiu Zichuan feel pleasing and different styles again, which made Qiu Zichuan's heart start to boil again. Therefore, all of a sudden, Qiu Zichuan began to be uninterested in himself, and even disgusted!
Right! It must be disgust, otherwise why wouldn't he want to sleep with him! This has never been the case, even if the two of them were arguing until midnight before, even if they went to bed and slept opposite each other, this has never happened!
But although Qiu Zichuan lives alone in the guest room, as long as he Qiu Zichuan can not participate in the entertainment outside every week, he still goes to his parents' house with him, and he will take himself and his children to Tanchi to see the old mother, and no matter where he is, he still talks and laughs, as if nothing happened. But as soon as I get home, there is some joke at home in addition to the children. If the child doesn't come back, he will still come back late. And even if the child is at home, Qiu Zichuan still sleeps in the guest room every night!
Qu Mengmeng began to be angry, Qu Mengmeng decided to have a good talk with Qiu Zichuan, thinking that if you Qiu Zichuan start to hate yourself, then you can directly say, this person who has the same room and different beds is considered that husband and wife!
But Qiu Zichuan still comes back late every day, even if sometimes he comes back not very late, when Qu Mengmeng tries to talk to Qiu Zichuan, Qiu Zichuan seems to suddenly become impatient! Moreover, Qiu Zichuan went on another business trip during this time, and this trip, Qiu Zichuan went for half a month.
I felt that I couldn't bear it anymore, and after Qiu Zichuan lived alone in the guest room for a month and a half, Qu Mengmeng, who waited until Qiu Zichuan returned home after 12 midnight, finally broke out!
What happened to you Qiu Zichuan? What do you mean by separation? If you like someone, you say it directly, and you don't want to say it directly, then you have a clear attitude, whether to divorce or continue to be together! You're so good-looking, and all of a sudden you're starting to separate, what the hell are you doing here? You have to have a word!
But Qiu Zichuan just said lightly, I will talk to you in the future, and then went straight to the bathroom to take a shower. Then, after taking a bath, Qiu Zichuan went straight to the guest room under the eyes of Qu Mengmeng, who was sitting on the sofa, and at the same time, closed the door casually.
Qiu Zichuan will not talk to Qu Mengmeng, this issue Qiu Zichuan made this decision at the same time when he thought about divorce in the car on the way home that night.
Not only did Qiu Zichuan have no evidence in his hands to support his judgment, but even if he did, Qiu Zichuan would not talk to Qu Mengmeng.
It's not that Qiu Zichuan is not angry. From the time he broke up with Shui Xiaolin, respecting the emotional choices of others, in Qiu Zichuan's view, this should be the most basic mind of a man, praying and pestering are a kind of scoundrel behavior and should be ashamed of men! Qiu Zichuan is angry, but to be precise, Qiu Zichuan's anger is that if you Qu Mengmeng love others, you Qu Mengmeng told me that I, Qiu Zichuan, will never stop me, but you shouldn't deceive me!
And more importantly, if in Qiu Zichuan's eyes, the love affair between himself and Shui Xiaolin is a beauty in the world, then the love between Qu Mengmeng and himself is the holiness of heaven; If Shui Xiaolin is a pretty girl floating in the world, then Qu Mengmeng is a pure angel given to him by God!
Therefore, even in the end, even if Qu Mengmeng had to say the reason why he suddenly and categorically snubbed her that day, or when it was time to break up, Qu Mengmeng only took this as the only condition, or even if it was time for her to come to the end, even if she Qu Mengmeng was no longer her wife at that time, she would only say a hint of something, and she would never be honest and tell the reason for this matter!
Because, in Qiu Zichuan's heart, even if he said one more word, it was a kind of stain on the relationship between himself and Qu Mengmeng!
But in the face of all this, Qu Mengmeng naturally couldn't accept it, Qu Mengmeng felt that he was about to go crazy!
So, the next day, Qu Mengmeng began to tune Qiu Zichuan's call records again. So, Qu Mengmeng saw that there were still Tan Li, Li Xuewei, Pan Xiaolu, Zhao Xiaoqi, and even Zhang Mei of the Tanchi Construction Committee, who had not appeared for a long time. Of course, there are his younger sister Xu Jing and his Qiu Zichuan's secretary Lin Xi are indispensable.
It seems that he hasn't checked his call records for more than half a year, in fact, they have been in contact with him all the time, and Qu Mengmeng is even more indignant in his heart!
Tan Li explained well, she is the leader! But it's not a leader in charge, why does she call him so much! And Zhang Mei has been beaten almost every month, he Qiu Zichuan has been away from Tanchi for many years, what do you want to do Zhang Mei! There are not many Pan Xiaolu, but there are still Qiu Zichuan who called her, why? He, Qiu Zichuan, a boss, has something to do, and he wants to find her directly, an ordinary agency officer! There is also Xu Jing, but none of them were called to her by Qiu Zichuan, and it was all her Xu Jing who called Qiu Zichuan, how can you Xu Jing tell me to say hello! There is also Lin Xi, there are those who work during the day and those who work at night, are they all work? And all of this is not important, the most disturbing thing is Li Xuewei, there are a lot of calls between her and Qiu Zichuan every month, not to mention, the key is that there are nearly half of the calls, and the caller is Qiu Zichuan! And the longest one, the call reached almost 40 minutes!
So, as long as there is a chance, no matter how late it is at night, as soon as Qiu Zichuan enters the house and sits down, Qu Mengmeng bluntly asks Qiu Zichuan, you ignore me, you tell me what these calls are about!
Qu Mengmeng is also very smart, in a word, why do I, as a wife, talk to you far less than you talk to them on the phone!
Then, Qu Mengmeng will say that he doesn't talk about others, only Li Xuewei, are you all talking about work?
At the beginning, when he saw that Qu Mengmeng began to privately check his call records, Qiu Zichuan's face suddenly turned pale, but he still didn't say a word. In the future, no matter how Qu Mengmeng asked, Qiu Zichuan had one sentence at most, but it was still the sentence he had said at the beginning:
I'll talk to you later!
But one day, Qu Mengmeng, who came home at noon, went to the study, she wanted to see what materials and books he read during this time, Qiu Zichuan was in the study almost every day and midnight, and what books he read.
Entering the study, Qu Mengmeng saw Qiu Zichuan's bookshelf, in addition to business books and his favorite literary masterpieces, a copy of "Chinese Buddhist Philosophy". On the desk, it's newly bought!
Qiu Zichuan said that people cannot live without faith, once people lose their faith, they will be lost, and they will give up their restraint on themselves! He also once said that loyalty, righteousness, propriety, wisdom and faith are the basic ethics of life, and once there is no faith, this basic ethics will be gone!
Could it be that he is now believing in Buddhism?
No, it won't! I remember that Qiu Zichuan said that Buddhism can make people see many issues deeply, farther, and more thoroughly, and can make people learn to be generous and tolerant. He will only use the Buddha to cultivate, but he will never take the Buddha as his heart. Because, while it makes you see many things deeper, farther, and more thoroughly, it also makes you look down on some aspirations in life, so Buddhism also has a lot of negative things!
Did some of his practices in the past two years hurt him, and moreover, it hurt very badly! Let him see everything negatively, including himself! Because, only when people are extremely disappointed, can they become negative about life!
Coming out of the study, Qu Mengmeng, who was sitting on the sofa in the living room, began to blame himself!
That's not right! Let's just say that this is separation, but the night before this he talked so much to himself, and he was in a good mood, and then he went downstairs with himself for a walk, and he talked a lot to himself during the walk, which is not like it at all! Besides, he, Qiu Zichuan, is not a person who is easy to have a grudge!
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