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My mood has recovered a lot, and I look at the medicine bottle, afraid that I will not be able to do without it for the rest of my life. I didn't have the courage to face that nightmare, at least for now.

When I returned to the villa, my love had already recovered. As soon as I entered the door, I saw Zhang's mother. It's strange that at this time, Mama Zhang should be gone.

"Miss Yuri, you're finally back." Zhang's mother said in such a tone when she saw me, which made me very incomprehensible.

I looked at my watch, and it was only half past nine.

"What's wrong?" I'm a little confused.

"Mr. Jiang is in the room." Zhang's mother meant to tell me that Jiang Zheyu was waiting for me, and she was not in a very good mood.

"I know Mom Zhang." I probably got it in my heart.

"Then I'll go." Zhang's mother seems to have deliberately stayed to wait for me, and she has always been bitter for Zhang's mother.

I bowed my head to signal politeness and watched Mama Zhang leave. Zhang's mother has always been very good to me, of course, she has some mistakes in consciousness.

I came back to my senses and looked upstairs, Jiang Zheyu didn't know what was wrong. This god has been getting angry for no reason lately, which makes me very confused.

I went upstairs to his room, and I knocked on the door as I always did and came straight in. As soon as I entered the door, I saw Jiang Zheyu sitting beside me, I turned to look at Jiang Zheyu and walked over.

"Mr. Jiang." I don't know what to say, but at least something needs to be said.

He suddenly looked up at me. "Where have you been?" His words were questioning.

I knew he knew all my whereabouts, and I didn't even need to say it, and he asked plainly. I didn't say a word, just looked at him.

He looked at my expression and suddenly smiled, his expression was scary enough, like hideous.

This look rarely appears on Jiang Zheyu's face, and I don't know why I want to always challenge his bottom line.

"Do you know what I'm thinking?" He looked at me with a look in his eyes that I couldn't read.

I don't know, of course I don't know what Jiang Zheyu is thinking, if I knew then I wouldn't be so passive.

He looked at me with a smile, but had a terrible feeling. "I'm wondering what you are relying on to be so arrogant in front of me."

His words overwhelmed me, yes, what am I relying on? What am I relying on to be so arrogant in front of Jiang Zheyu. Why do I have no fears?

He looked at me like that, and the smile on his lips was so strong that I wasn't even sure what he meant. He threw a dozen pictures of his body upwards, and the room was littered.

The photo obscured my view with Jiang Zheyu, but I could still feel that Jiang Zheyu's eyes were staring at me, which felt very bad, and I felt that he could look at me with a dead gaze.

The picture was scattered all over the place, and I could see what was on it. It's a photo of me and Jiang Yecheng, and all the qiē was taken this afternoon. My eyes were fixed on the picture of him kissing my forehead, and it looked glaring now.

"Am I so good to you that you forget your identity?" There was too much chill in his tone.

I don't know what to say.

"I remember that I warned you more than once, stay away from Jiang Ye City." I really can't answer his words, it's me who does things myself. People are responsible for what they do.

I was silent and ready to hear him. But I didn't realize that my lack of speech would actually cause Jiang Zheyu's anger even more.

He glared at me with a glaring look, and then suddenly smiled.

"Because of this, you really don't care about yourself. Do you still think I'm going to leave you alone? ”

My silence infuriated him, and he said enough weight to frighten me, that he was going to abandon me. I looked at Jiang Zheyu fiercely as if I was a shell that immediately returned to my senses.

He smiled again, a bloodthirsty smile. Indeed, he was successful enough. I don't want to go back to my old life, I don't want to go back to that humble cause.

If there is a choice, everyone wants to live nobly.

But he was silent and said no more. He kept looking at me like this, smiling but not smiling. I hate the look on his face, obviously manipulating my qiē, but just treating it as a trivial matter.

"Mr. Jiang." I don't have the power to say anything anymore, I don't want to, I don't want to live the life I used to live again.

"You beg me, beg me." He stopped smiling, he should have been cruel when he said this, but why did his eyes reveal a different kind of affection.

I don't have time to think, I don't have the right to think at all. "I beg you." I walked towards Jiang Zheyu and half-squatted in front of Jiang Zheyu. Of course, if it doesn't work, I don't mind kneeling, as long as I can achieve my goal.

How ridiculous it is that the once good cause can become like this. Maybe one day when I look back at the road I used to be, I will realize how ridiculous it was. That kind cause no longer exists, and now it is Yuan Youli Yoli, who has an endless desire.

I am a person driven by desire, and my life will be tragic. But I don't have the right to regret it, and the world with desires will be meaningful. I can't judge the voice of desire, and even if I did, it made sense. I am an ambitious person, and with ambition comes motivation.

But Jiang Zheyu looked at me and smiled, his smile was very far-fetched, as if he was laughing at me for being so humble, but he hated me for being so humble. I don't know what the struggle in his eyes is, I don't know.

Smiling days, does it prove that you are doing well? Sometimes pretending to smile can be more painful than shedding tears. Jiang Zheyu is such a person in my eyes, he and I are both abandoned by God.

He didn't mean to answer me, I was afraid, I was afraid that I would fall down the ladder, I had worked so hard to climb to where I am now, I didn't want to fall down like this, I didn't want to be the cause.

His expression dazed me, and he didn't give me any reply. I need to trade everything I have, but what else do I have? I don't have anything, it's ridiculous. My qiē was given by Jiang Zheyu, what can I exchange? It's ridiculous enough, I don't have anything, so why start all over again.

I, Yuan Yin, have nothing but this crippled body.

An idea popped into my head. I'll give him all my qiē, and maybe almost.

I hugged Jiang Zheyu and kissed Jiang Zheyu's lips.

I felt myself tremble, I didn't have the slightest experience, but my body was still broken. Yes, mutilated.

When I was 16 years old, I was raped, and it was a past that I can't remember. I once had mental problems and was hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital for six months. It's a hell where even normal people can be driven insane. But I was just scared, not depressed, but I was locked up there for six months. Those days were the nightmare of my life.

Jiang Zheyu was a little at a loss and didn't realize it. There was no response, but I was in pain.

I still remember the unbearable moment when I was blindfolded with a black cloth. I'm not afraid of the dark, I'm not afraid of the light, I'm always afraid of the light that comes out of the darkness. It was my memory of the painful times, just the black light, and the brutal pain.

I've had a bit of a fear of men since that time, but not anymore. But I had a deep fear of making love, a lot of fear. Even if it's just a simple kiss, there will be mental disappointment.

I was already thinking back to those unbearable memories in my head, and it made me feel a little lost. I'm already struggling a little mentally and my heart is beating faster.

I don't want to remember, I want to get out of the pain as soon as possible. I stopped kissing, I couldn't do it, I couldn't do it, I couldn't help it, I couldn't control my fears.

Jiang Zheyu felt me stop and grabbed my trembling hand. "What? Feeling embarrassed? "He sarcastically mocked me, sarcastically mocked me.

His words were hard to hear, and they were sarcastic, but I didn't even want to listen to them. My eyes were hollow, and I was lost in unbearable memories