Helpless! Shui Xiaolin finally lay down on the operating table.

……

"If one day we don't be together in college, will you be anxious if you hear that I'm hurt?"

"I won't be in a hurry at that time, I'll find a way to rush over immediately!"

"Really?"

"Really! No matter how far away I will go! ”

"Why?"

"I don't know!"

"I don't know!"

"Hmmm! Just have to go! ”

……

After the operation, Shui Xiaolin lay quietly on the bed in the bedroom at home, yesterday, Qiu Zichuan's concern on the phone, that deep, always lingered in her heart before and after the operation, making her feel a trace of warmth and warmth.

For two days, she still wanted to fight, but what did she fight for? She felt a kind of loneliness! No one in her relatives supported her, although she knew that her relatives were rational.

More importantly, the outcome of this struggle is fraught with unforeseen risks, which even she feels terrifying, what else is she fighting for?

Of course, these are not enough to smooth the frustration and unwillingness in Shui Xiaolin's heart.

What allowed her to resolve the resentment in her heart and restore face was that on the night she came back from Xiao Yujiang's parents' house, Xiao Yujiang returned home early after work in the afternoon and bought a lot of nutritional supplements for Shui Xiaolin.

Xiao Yujiang also told Shui Xiaolin that his mother called him, saying that it was too risky to ask for this child, and asked him to persuade himself. For this reason, Xiao Yujiang went to the hospital again, found experts and made detailed consultations.

What else can Shui Xiaolin say!

But what really made Shui Xiaolin feel relieved and made a decision was the call from Qiu Zichuan as soon as she went to work the next day!

That day, after Shui Xiaolin, Qu Mengmeng, Wu Weidong, and Xu Jing had dinner together, on the way back, Wu Weidong talked to Qu Mengmeng about the risks of getting pregnant, Qu Mengmeng complained about why Wu Weidong didn't tell Shui Xiaolin, Wu Weidong smiled faintly!

Why do you bother?

Qiu Zichuan, who knew the situation, didn't say much on the phone, with anxiety, and opened his mouth like this

In just four words, it's blame! But it's even more worrying, and it's even more distressing! Shui Xiaolin's tears flowed down in one fell swoop! Then even she didn't expect that she would start to choke up and be speechless!

How many years of grievances have I had, and today it seems that someone finally understands; How many years of loneliness have I had, and today it seems that someone is finally paying attention, and this person is Qiu Zichuan who surprised him!

In Shui Xiaolin's eyes, although Qiu Zichuan seems to ignore his past suspicions, he seems to have never looked at himself from the depths of his heart. After the reunion, from the fact that she and Qiu Zichuan did not have too much contact, Shui Xiaolin could feel that Qiu Zichuan's eyes and words were mostly disdainful, but she didn't want to admit it!

As for the pain and happiness, love and resentment of his current life, it seems that it has nothing to do with him Qiu Zichuan, and he has no intention of asking, let alone thinking about it!

But this phone call, Qiu Zichuan's first sentence, instantly made Shui Xiaolin suddenly understand that Qiu Zichuan understood her, Qiu Zichuan's heart understood everything, and she even felt that she was still in Qiu Zichuan's heart, and Qiu Zichuan's heart was still concerned about herself.

"Don't worry! I know! ”

Choked up, Shui Xiaolin sobbed but was more like a very well-behaved appearance, promising Qiu Zichuan!

……

In his thoughts, the scene outside Tanchi City many years ago appeared in his mind again.

It was the next Sunday after Shui Xiaolin and Qiu Zichuan went to Xishan Gumu Temple, that is, the day after Shui Xiaolin and Qiu Zichuan held the pair of pull-back shoes and imagined together. This Westerner's architecture, Shui Xiaolin has never been regarded as uncommon in Shanghai, except for the Bund, there are many large and small Shanghai, but thinking that there is an exotic spire tower on the riverside of the suburbs of a small northern county, it must be a unique style!

The two of them, who had made an appointment the night before, left home in a hurry early in the morning, and as soon as they met on the side of the road outside the south gate of the city, the two ran hand in hand towards the church that could be seen in the field in the distance!

Outside the church, Shui Xiaolin looked at the old stone wall and told Qiu Zichuan why foreigners came all the way here!

In the church, Qiu Zichuan took Shui Xiaolin's hand and climbed the staircase railing, whose wood was decayed and broken. Standing in the tower above, with the stone-framed empty window, Shui Xiaolin looked at the March River, holding Qiu Zichuan's arm with one hand, and cheering happily with the other!

But Shui Xiaolin's joy was soon replaced by the pain of her broken foot.

Out of the church, they ran to the March River, where the riverside water Xiaolin had never been to before, compared to the beautiful and euphemistic river bay in the east of the city, she felt that this place was connected to the empty riverside, which was more full of suburban and exotic atmosphere.

Shui Xiaolin, who was cheering and jumping on the river slope, suddenly found a small little girl in front of her, carrying a wicker basket that was almost bigger than herself, holding a sickle in her hand, and a sheep behind her, and the girl was standing and looking at her. This fairytale-like picture made Shui Xiaolin even more surprised! Accustomed to the people coming and going in the street, the noisy and noisy water Xiaolin on the road, found that the style of this countryside is unique!

Shui Xiaolin was in a hurry to run over, wanting to talk to this little girl like in the picture, she thought this qiē was so wonderful! It's amazing!

But she started a little faster, or she didn't take a good step, and just about to run, she stepped on a small lump of dirt, and fell instantly, of course, because her foot twisted first.

Looking at Shui Xiaolin, who was excitedly greeting herself, but fell down before she could run, Qiu Zichuan, who was not far behind him, suddenly laughed, but then saw Shui Xiaolin who was sitting up and turned her face to look at herself, her expression was very painful!

Suppressing the laughter, Qiu Zichuan hurriedly ran over!

Looking at Shui Xiaolin's tears in pain, she kept oops! Qiu Zichuan, who squatted down, hurriedly reported his grievances to Shui Xiaolin, why didn't he run away without looking at the road! But he didn't know what he was supposed to do! This is the girl's feet, he doesn't know whether to help Shui Xiaolin rub it, or help Shui Xiaolin to relax, his hands want to stretch and shrink, and he looks at a loss!

How many years later, every time she thinks of this scene, Shui Xiaolin will smile and scold in her heart: Fool!

Fortunately, Wei is not too powerful, but fortunately, the young man's muscles and bones are flexible, and Shui Xiaolin soon didn't feel much pain. But as soon as she stood up and walked, her feet stuck to the ground and she worked hard, Shui Xiaolin couldn't help but shiver in pain!

Looking at Shui Xiaolin's painful appearance, Qiu Zichuan was so anxious that he didn't know what to do! Helping Shui Xiaolin to sit down again, I just want to wait a little longer! But Shui Xiaolin sat for a while and said no, it's almost noon now, and it's too late to tell my mother when I go home!

Looking up at the steep landslide, Qiu Zichuan can't care about any boys and girls!

"Come on! I'll carry you! ”

Letting go of the hand holding Shui Xiaolin's arm, Qiu Zichuan turned around and squatted down.

"Are you okay?"

Seeing how steep the river slope is, Shui Xiaolin is worried, but her heart is full of happiness!

"Don't care! Tell you to come up, and you will come up! ”

"Really! Then if you can't hold on, just say it! ”

Although her feet were still painful, Shui Xiaolin smiled at the corner of her mouth, and leaned her body on Qiu Zichuan's back.

But Qiu Zichuan, who was squatting, didn't move again, as if he was hesitating about something! Immediately afterwards, Qiu Zichuan seemed to grit his teeth, stretched out his hands back to hold Shui Xiaolin's legs, and stood up suddenly.

Hehe! Sorry yet! Shui Xiaolin, who was happy, hurriedly hugged Qiu Zichuan's neck tightly with her two arms.

So, there is the dialogue of the previous sentences!

……

"I'll come down!"

"I'll carry you for a while, and you'll get down and walk on the other side of the road ahead, and I'll help you, okay?"

On the river slope, Shui Xiaolin felt that Qiu Zichuan did not let go of his intentions, and she was even happier in her heart! said that he wanted to come down, but his two arms hugged Qiu Zichuan's neck tighter!

Listening to Qiu Zichuan talk about the road ahead and let himself come down, Shui Xiaolin knew that Qiu Zichuan was embarrassed to be afraid that others would see it! If there were no pedestrians, she believed that Qiu Zichuan would have carried herself all the way to the south gate of the city.

A sweet smile was written all over Shui Xiaolin's face, feeling Qiu Zichuan's powerful steps, Shui Xiaolin gently pressed her cheek to Qiu Zichuan's neck, sniffing the gradual smell of sweat on Qiu Zichuan's body, Shui Xiaolin felt that this was the most intoxicating body fragrance!

"Hey! Ask you a question! ”

"Say!" Listening to Qiu Zichuan's voice, it didn't seem to be much heavy on his back.

"If you become a father one day in the future, do you like boys or girls" Shui Xiaolin remembered the little girl just now. But Shui Xiaolin wanted to say that if we get married one day, do you like our children to be boys or girls, but she is naturally embarrassed to say this!

“！” Qiu Zichuan seemed to snort softly!

"Say!" Shui Xiaolin shook Qiu Zichuan's neck.

"Why do you think about this?" Qiu Zichuan seemed to be very embarrassed!

"What are you afraid of! When I saw that little girl just now, I thought it was so cute! Shui Xiaolin shook Qiu Zichuan's arm again!

"I didn't think about it."

"Now I think so."

Qiu Zichuan is silent!

"Yes!" Shui Xiaolin did not relent.

"Girl!"

"Why!"

"I don't know!"

"How could you not know!"

"Girls are like angels, to be cherished! Loved! Just like the little girl just now, leading the sheep, holding a sickle, carrying a basket, although she wears tattered, she is cute! ”

"Hmmm! Her blushing face is so pretty! On the grass by the river, it's like a painting, so cute! Lying on Qiu Zichuan's body, Shui Xiaolin also thought sweetly.

"And!"

"What!"

"I can't see the little girl shed tears!" Qiu Zichuan raised his hand and wiped the sweat on his forehead!

"I'm coming!"

Shui Xiaolin hurriedly freed up one hand, took out a handkerchief from her trouser pocket, turned her face sideways, from her forehead to her cheeks and then to her neck, and wiped Qiu Zichuan's sweat one by one.

"Go on!"

Putting the handkerchief into her trouser pocket, Shui Xiaolin pressed her cheek tightly against Qiu Zichuan and asked.

Qiu Zichuan stopped slightly, and his hands holding Shui Xiaolin pushed up vigorously, like taking a breath. Then walk to pick up the road:

"I think men should take good care of the girls in this world!"

"You're so nice!"

"My mother said that girls are flowers in this world, men are trees when they grow up, and men have to shelter women from the wind and rain!"

"Your mom is so nice!"

"Girl, be good! Girls need to be polite! Innocent and polite girls are loved by everyone! ”

"What about me?"

"You're polite!"

"Huh!"

"You're naïve too!"

"Huh!"

"But you sometimes know to be naughty!"

"Huh! Hehe! ”

……

Alas! It's all gone!

Shui Xiaolin suddenly held back her memories, sighed, and a few tears flowed out of Shui Xiaolin's closed eyes!

He loves girls! He likes girls who are polite and innocent! He also knows that men have to pamper girls! But you can't do it all over again!

Why should I break up with him! Why can't I have a baby with him!

Thinking that Qiu Zichuan likes girls, thinking about how innocent and flawless he was when he was with Qiu Zichuan, and then thinking about his miscarriage, Shui Xiaolin, who was lying on the bed, felt very weak!

My body, my spirit, and even my life are so weak!

As a result, the memories just now and every word in the memories are like knives and salt, plowing and spreading ...... in my weak and still trembling heart, making myself weak and regretting this life!

…… I1387