I packed a few clothes from the room I rented with Yi Ting, and I walked silently and never looking back. I didn't dare to look back, I knew that Yi Ting must be waiting for me to look back with tears in her eyes. But I gritted my teeth and just didn't turn my head away. I knew that as soon as I turned my head, either she flew up and hugged me, or my legs became weak, and I couldn't leave this once warm nest.

Love is so wonderful! When two people fall in love, they can love like a fascination and love like a dream. It seems that every day is a day when the flowers bloom and the sun warms, and the smoke makes people's hearts melt. Once love encounters a setback, in an instant, it can go to extremes. It became so hateful that he didn't even want to stay for another minute.

Please don't say I'm ruthless, don't say I'm narrow-minded. A man, you are so generous, when you encounter the same experience as me, you can still tolerate it, and you can still never give up. I really admire you. Now, when you haven't encountered such a thing, please shut up and don't say anything about me.

Because, my heart is already messy, my heart is already painful, my heart is already fragile. In that case, just let me go! Let me go out on the street alone and be quiet. Despite the hustle and bustle of the streets. But I know that tonight, the hustle and bustle of the streets is not mine. All I have is heartache - as much as a knife on it!

This kind of pain can make people lose their minds and complain like crazy; This kind of pain can make people depressed and decadent, and they can no longer see the beauty and charm of life; This pain can make a person stumble, and once they fall, they will never be able to get up again. Who can bounce back after such a painful setback?

I walked alone on the street with my bags on my back, the neon lights flashing above my head, and from time to time I passed by groups of people, carrying large bags of love items that I had just bought, with satisfied smiles on their faces, talking happily, hurrying past me. Vehicles are like a constant stream of ants, one after another.

Such a lively street really seems to have nothing to do with me. I couldn't hear the traffic or see the smiles of the people. But there is a feeling of loneliness in my heart. I can't even control myself a little, I want to cry, really, I want to cry out loud! As a man, I actually led my girlfriend to cheat because I failed to give her a sense of security, in addition to wanting to condemn her, in fact, I also feel guilty in my heart!

From an early age, I was taught that as a man, I should carry heavy burdens in life. Whether it is for the family or for the society, I should be strong, and I should protect my family and lover! I also vowed to do this with my ability and will! But when I left school and went out into society, I realized that there were many things that I couldn't do if I had ambitions.

The reality is always so helpless. For example, if I was deferred for three months, do you think I can have a seizure because I was owed three months' wages? How do I know that not receiving my salary for three months will make Yi Ting feel terrified? In the end, she had to come up with this to protect our love?

And what's even more uncomfortable is that the love she protects with this is, in my opinion, so unpity! And even hate! How did I hear her explain this, and instead of thinking that she was worthy of my admiration for making this sacrifice, I hated her ignorance and her deeds!

But if it is really as she said, the small website I work for is bankrupt, and the website cannot pay me the wages owed to me, and Yi Ting does not care if her name is listed in the layoff list for the sake of fame. Then, in the blink of an eye, she and I have no financial resources, and at that time, what are we really going to do?

Sadly, her family and I are ordinary peasant families, and our parents live a life of cultivating a few meager fields. Back then, if it weren't for the student loan, I'm afraid Yi Ting and I wouldn't have been able to finish college! With such a family background, how do you ask me and Yi Ting to bear to ask for help from home?

In addition to feeling aggrieved, I was helpless. Put yourself in your shoes, in fact, Yi Ting is not wrong. She came up with this decision out of a sense of self-preservation. It's just that this kind of strategy makes me hate and makes me uncomfortable. My pain and helplessness made me want to cry all the time, cry happily!

The reason why I want to cry is not entirely because of the loss of my girlfriend, but more because I feel sad and helpless about my incompetence. And this feeling is getting stronger and stronger in my heart. Tears rolled in my eyes so many times that they almost flowed out of my eyes. In the end, I resisted, after all, this is a street with thousands of people!

Although I have a hundred reasons to cry out loud. Who knows my grievances and grievances? Who sympathizes? But I'm not the kind of cream boy that weakness depends on. If you leave me alone and quietly, my feelings will be dissolved. It's one thing to want to cry, but at least on the surface I'm still strong.

So I didn't cry. I wandered the streets alone. I don't know if I'm going to be there tonight, and I don't think about how I'm going to organize myself in the middle of the night. I asked for two bottles of beer and a bag of peanuts at a street store, and walked to the street park in the distance.

I'm going to let the night breeze, I'm going to get drunk with alcohol. Since life has made me live so badly, I will cry when I think about it, and I don't know if it's for the favoritism? Or is it crying over someone else possessing my girlfriend? But the environment made me afraid to cry, but made me more painful. I couldn't vent my tears, so I can always get drunk, right?

I sat down on the stone bench in the park, lifted the cap of the beer I had just bought, and drank to the sky and the wind, until I was so drunk that I wanted to relieve the sorrow that was churning in my heart. But I, who usually don't drink a drop of alcohol, unexpectedly had a lot of them tonight. Two bottles of beer not only made me drunk, but made me feel sad.

That's not going to work. I'm not drunk, which means my heart hurts, it hurts. What do I do when I buy beer at a grocery store? Isn't it just buying drunk? Since two beers don't get me drunk, I'll have to double my drink until I get drunk! So I staggered to my feet and went back to the grocery store to buy alcohol.

I know that I can't be sober, and when I am sober, my heart will inevitably be twisted like a knife, and my heart will hurt, very painful, very painful. And the heartache is so uncomfortable, it makes life worse than death! At the very least, for me tonight, getting drunk is the best way for me to treat my heartache.

This night, I was so drunk that my heart became numb......

In the past, when we shared a house, we also had financial constraints.

But why was it that one time that was able to survive and not this time?

It's a little strange to think about, and it's also a little thought-provoking.

At that time, after I established a relationship with Yi Ting, I quit my job in a real estate company. Of course, this is due to the company's rule that employees are not allowed to fall in love with each other, and there is also the fact that I don't like to ask for a house with a shy face.

In short, if you want to give yourself a reason to resign, why bother without excuses?

But in this way, Yi Ting and I immediately faced the embarrassment of running out of money. Yi Ting is doing house sales in the company, and her salary mainly depends on commissions. She was a newcomer, and she was ashamed to beg for help, so of course she couldn't sell the house.

Seeing that the rent, water and electricity are about to be paid, and the two of us have less than 100 yuan, it is really tormenting!

She was bored with the dozens of dollars, and asked me what to do?

What can I do? Only by reassuring her that she is okay, I will find a job. She curled up in my arms, still a little bewildered and nagging at a loss, and I was afraid that she was so preoccupied with the lack of money that she could hardly find a solution except for unnecessary fear.

In fact, there are many things that must have a road before the car reaches the mountain, and the boat will naturally go straight to the bridge. That kind of excessive worry will only be sad and will not help the economy improve.

Of course, I can't say this to Yi Ting. Otherwise, she'll think I'm making an excuse to escape from reality!

I could only hug Yi Ting, who was already curled up in my arms, and gently kiss her lips, cheeks, and ears. Kiss very seriously, kiss very devotedly.

Like a spring breeze blowing through a late winter evening, like rain moistening a parched grange.

I heard Yi Ting responding softly, and I felt Yi Ting's breathing shortness. She closed her eyes, admiring, appreciating my affection for her.

I know that at this time, the mood is not only heavy, but also difficult to let go. However, the boiling of youthful blood soon fully mobilized the excited nerves. I caressed Yi Ting who was lying in my arms, and sincerely devoted myself to the work of comforting her. As a result, Yi Ting completely forgot about the upsetting lack of money.

She closed her eyes with great enjoyment and said, "Go on, it's so comfortable......"

I laughed happily. As long as she is intoxicated, she will not think about those annoying questions. Afterwards, I also sang wittily: "That night, you didn't refuse me!" That night, I hurt you, that night, you were full of tears......"

But before I finished singing, Yi Ting laughed "poof", pinched my nose, and said angrily: "Salty wet ghost, you didn't hurt me......"

In hindsight, it turned out that my judgment was not wrong. The next day, I landed a job with the website.

At that time, such primitive love was enough for us to get through the difficulties together, but why can't we do it today?

In the final analysis, those who can bear the responsibility, share the joys and sorrows, and keep the loneliness are the lovers of life. And the hardest thing in the world to find is love. Perhaps, on the surface, love is everywhere in the world, but how many loves have gone through ups and downs? And how much love is still rainbow after the storm?

So don't measure love by a uniform standard. In fact, the most difficult thing in the world is love, and the rarest thing is love. But love doesn't have to last forever, so you should give up when you should give up. Doesn't it mean that learning to let go is also a kind of love?