With a warm heartbreak, love is still temporarily left in this great organ, flesh and blood blurred, but still pulsating.

It's just that I clearly know that this pulse will soon be extinguished.

Yin Eunjing sat down again, she took a deep breath, and changed back to what I saw when I first arrived. "I have already told my seniors to ask her to help me apply and transfer to Busan. It seems that I really understand you, and I guessed your answer early in the morning, but it's ridiculous that I stubbornly want to hear you say it in person. Yin Enjing pulled one side of her head behind her ear, revealing her ear like mutton fat and white jade, she lowered her head and said with a smile.

It was this smile that completely crushed me, all the cells in the skull were shattered, and a trance hit the world, and the spoon in my hand fell to the table with a crisp sound. Nine of my fingers were trembling with joy.

"Do you have to go?" I asked her with a bitter mouth. Yin Enjing nodded, firm and abnormal. "I can tolerate the criticism of the fans, but I can't let my parents be hurt." Hearing this, my head hung lower. "How's my uncle and aunt doing now?" I asked. "I've been sent back to my hometown." Yoon Eun-jeong began to play with her fingers.

"I'll let them stay there for the time being, in fact, it's good to let them stay in their hometown, the air is fresh, there are not so many complicated things, and Ouma can still find old friends from many years ago there." Speaking of this, Yin Enjing paused, picked up her coffee cup and took a sip of completely cold coffee.

"I'll sell your house, and if nothing else, I'll be assigned to Ulsan Metropolitan City, on the edge of Busan, where SBS has a small branch. I'll buy a house over there. When the time comes, it depends on where Ou Ma wants to stay in the house, his hometown, or Ulsan. The bitterness of the coffee was still swirling in his mouth, and Yin Eunjing said his future plans flatly. She wants to leave the big stage completely, and when she gets there, there will be no criticism, and her life will change back to a tranquil and quiet appearance.

Sitting in a chair and listening to her, I knew that this qiē was all my fault, I fell into a huge whirlpool, and then pulled her in, people like me are really rotten completely. "When are you leaving?" I picked up the spoon again and asked. "If nothing else, it's the day after tomorrow, as long as the senior's order comes down." Nodding, I didn't say anything I wanted to give her.

Because Cappuccino was so bitter, I added two more spoonfuls of creamer to my cold coffee, drank it up, got up and left, and didn't say goodbye.

Walking out of the coffee shop and looking at the coffee shop bathed in the dusk behind me, I tightened my clothes, and the subway station was waiting for me not far away. As I walked through the flow of people, I began to miss the eyes of those couples in the coffee shop just now, and their eyes only flashed, making me feel that the sun and the moon were long, and the mountains and rivers were unharmed. It turns out that plain is true.

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The sun was shattered by the horizon, and the whole light was gradually fading. Before arriving at the subway station, I came across a barbecue restaurant, and after only drinking one cup of coffee all day, I felt a little hungry, so I walked in. I ordered a mobile rib, the cheapest kind, and then four bottles of Shinro Shochu, no more, no less, just my amount. I don't want to get drunk or cry because I want to pretend to be strong, and I don't want anyone to question me: "You're still not a man!" "Despite all my previous appearances, I am no different from a wreck.

Forget about being ugly, now you don't even have "responsibility". Laughing while drinking. I suddenly felt that it was okay to be separated, a scumbag like me was actually unworthy of anyone.

Everyone will fall out of love sometimes, and those children of empires who have fallen out of love will go for a run, they feel that running can steam the water out of their bodies, so that they will not cry so easily. And the only choice for people like me is to drink, do you know the difference between drinking and drinking water? The wine will get warmer and warmer the more you drink it, and the more you drink it, the colder it will become. If I don't drink, it won't be long before my empty chest freezes. Got a lot of hot energy in the rotisserie, the sun had been completely defeated by the moon, the neon lights were starting to flicker, and I was ready to go home.

Not much away from the subway station, I wrapped myself in clothes, not letting the cold wind sweep away my heat, and walked forward, the alcohol began to rise, and when I fell out of love, did the alcohol get worse? I don't really understand what kind of absurd physical and psychological trait this is. I just felt a little blurry in front of me, and I had the strength to escape from all fours, and I had already hit several pedestrians with my feet unsteady. Riding the subway in an inexplicable disdainful gaze, I hurriedly took out my headphones and put them on.

Alcohol and people

I drank heavily

The world never ends well

The atmosphere was quickly destroyed

Just when I remember, who will I die for

Out of malice, I will kill them all

Parting is a murder with no choice

It is a way to bury living people in memory

Epikhigh's "Happy Ending", the heavy bass in the headphones is released, the eardrums vibrate, and rap and Cho Won-sun's fresh female voice spin high in the pinna. I gripped the tabs of the subway and felt the shaking of the steel wheels against the rails, and my eyelids drooped. In this song, the lead singer tab1o sings repeatedly that parting is a murder with no other choice. In this way, this epikhigh just released the regular eight albums, which is really appropriate, but that happy, has to be changed, for this love, I can't do it lightly, I can't do a happy ending.

When "HappyEnding" ended, I didn't hit the music list anymore and let it randomly rotate to the next one. Then, by coincidence, "After Saying Breakup" made me laugh, pierced the headphones and crashed open the subway door...... Dragged me into the railroad tracks.

It's none other than us, and we change from strangers to lovers

I always have no choice but to love me, but you make me talented

Your moving turned into a recognition, and I was a little tactful

But you reminded me that I understand the possibility of pain

It just forced me to be brave

Because you're gone, I can't leave

The end of the song, the end of being run over by the wheels, got up from the tracks, and the destination has been reached.

I still put my phone in a state of "no signal", and now, I'm not in the mood to answer anyone's calls. After returning to the cramped dormitory, he lit a cigarette without a trace of condensation, and then sat down in a chair, without turning on the computer, without turning on the light, and the darkness in the room became thicker and thicker, except for a little spark wabbling in the air.

At twelve o'clock in the evening, after sitting in a wooden chair with strange patterns for five hours, I got up, took off my black coat, and got into the bed.

Close your eyes, but sleep is far away. Actually, I really wanted to send her off, but I couldn't open my mouth because I couldn't stand the atmosphere on the platform. I always felt that the atmosphere there was no different from that of the crematorium, except that one was sent to the furnace and the other was sent to a far away place.

Ever since I got involved with IDO1, life has become incredibly complicated, and "gaining" and "losing" have always come too quickly. "Suddenly" seems to be a good word, as if a qiē not cherishing and being caught off guard can be blamed for suddenness. I continued to think about it, and stayed up until three o'clock in the morning, and my sleep was still gone, so I got up and lit another cigarette, and then sat back at the table, and since I couldn't sleep in the chaos, I buried myself deep in the professional books I bought. I can't find any other way than to squeeze every drop of my thoughts and keep myself busy, and I can't find any other way to beat the torment of time I'm having right now.

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The trees outside the window had been swayed by the wind for a long time, the sun and the moon had rotated twice, and after fifty-three hours of self-torture, I felt that my body and soul were about to collapse, but the purpose was finally achieved, and during these fifty-three hours, I had no free memories, nor did I remember a single thing related to her, so I did not feel a trace of pain except for tiredness.

Reaching out my hands, holding on to the edge of the table, and standing up with a support, I began to move to the side of the bed, and by this time, I should be able to fall asleep soon. It's just that when I was just lying in bed, a phone call from Yin Eunjing came in.

Seeing the number that I could recite backwards on the screen, 90 milliliters of oxygen-rich blood burst out from the depths of my heart in an instant, and I don't know where a force came from, which made me stand up instantly when I was close to collapse. However, as I figured out the current situation, the energetic blood just now was suddenly consumed by the exhaustion in the limbs. The big ups and downs originally referred to such a state, and when I stood up, my back bent again, sighed, and laboriously moved to the window, and pressed the answer button.

"I'm leaving." There was no greeting, and Yin Eunjing's soft voice came straight from the other end of the phone.

Come to think of it, it's been three days since we met at the coffee shop that day, and living in a self-overdraft way can really make me forget about time.

"What time is the train?" I looked out the window at the night and asked her calmly. At this time, the night is like a demon full of eyes.

"At 7:40, I'm already standing now." Yin Enjing didn't look like a person who was about to go away, and listening to her tone, I thought it was someone else who was leaving.

Taking my phone away from my ear, I looked at the time, and it was already seven o'clock. "Have you eaten dinner?" For some reason, the conversation between the two of us was so pleasant.

"Eat." Yin Eunjing replied in a low voice. Then, a qiē began to fall silent again, and there was no more code except for the subtle beeps of electromagnetic interference and the radio waves that swirled around the two of us.

The silence lasted for a long time, and after seventeen minutes, I finally broke it. "Be careful on the road." These are the only last words I can think of. Yin Eun Jing gave a second tone, and then the phone was hung up, listening to the beeping sound, I stood stiff in place, the wind outside the window flying towards me. Actually, the last thing I want to say is...... Remember to call me when you're sad, even if we're not together.

Looking at the radio waves from Yin Enjing's mobile phone in the air gradually receding, I knew that our connection was completely dissipated. He lowered his head and rubbed his neck, suddenly wanting to drink. He casually put on a coat and a pair of slippers on his feet, took the wallet on the table, and finally stopped at the door. Because I don't have enough money in my wallet now, I'm going to be presumptuous again.

My hands clenched into fists, my sharp nails, which had not been cut for days, pierced the epidermis, and a deep sense of frustration struck me unsteady on my feet. Sighing, I still opened the door and went to the convenience store downstairs to buy five bottles of soju with the only money left, and my wallet was completely clean, this is the last time.

There is still a box of discounted ramen in the dormitory, and there is a bowl of noodles. Five bottles of soju, 2,750 milliliters, entered my stomach within thirty minutes, and before it was completely wild, I entered the bathroom that I had not seen in a long time, took a long bath, and finally slipped into the bed safely. Despite the confusion of my stomach and head, I still fell asleep with light, and now I don't have to worry about hangovers at all, and I want to sleep until what time I have no job.

I thought I would have slept for at least twenty hours, but in fact, I woke up quickly. Because of tossing and turning, most of my body was exposed, my chest was too cold, I woke up from the freeze and opened my eyes and pulled the quilt up, so that my shoulders would not hurt when I got old, and now I have to take care of it.

The alcohol is still working, and I have a splitting headache, so I hammered my head vigorously, took my phone and looked at it, at 22:32, yes, at 22:32, Yoon Eun-jeong has been on the southbound train for a long time, and the green floor tiles on the Busan platform are ready to wait for her. Lying on my back, I opened my eyes and thought. I need to confirm how many kilometers the KTX high-speed train of the new era has pulled the two of us apart by carrying her. I need to borrow a computer to calculate how many light-years I need to run if I want to catch up with her.

The train at 7:40 had been running for almost three hours at 200 kilometers, and she was almost there, and a new quiet life was about to begin. I don't think about her anymore.,I closed my eyes again.,Give my head a command to automatically reinstall the system.,First the indos operation interface goes off.,Then enter the system reinstallation state.,Unlike the usual reinstallation.,I set formatting and repartitioning all storage disks.。 I naively fantasized that when I woke up a few hours later, there were a lot of things I wouldn't remember.

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I have always had a great deal of confusion about "beauty and hope will eventually leave us", and this confusion has tormented me for many years. I think of what Faust said, he said it's beautiful, you stay! At this time, the qiē is all gone. r1152

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