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At that time, when I entered the university gate, when I was still an innocent girl, I fell in love with my classmate Fang Jun. After graduating from college, when I was 22 years old, I fell in love with my boyfriend Fang Jun and lived together. That kind of love is so simple! I loved so much that I was in love, the sky was dark, and I was single-minded, and I fell in love for eight years.

Watching us get older, our parents repeatedly urged us to get married, and that's when things changed. Fang Jun, who was originally from the Sea Sworn Mountain Alliance, suddenly became estranged from me, and after a while, Fang Jun walked into the marriage hall with other women.

For the rest of the year, I was immersed in the pain of love and couldn't pull myself together.

I hate Fang Jun.

Eight years, eight whole years, how many eight years are there in life?

How many of the good years from twenty-two to thirty years are eight?

Fang Jun betrayed not only my eight years of love, but also the best youth of my life. But either way, these are already harsh realities.

It was the eight-year love vacuum that made me an older leftover girl.

To be exact, it was Fang Jun who made me today's leftover girl, if I hadn't fallen in love with Fang Jun at the beginning, then my fate would have been different.

The history of my life will definitely be rewritten.

Again and again, I wandered alone in a no-man's land, thinking of many, many things about love, and of course suicide countless times.

On one occasion, I ran away from home alone and went to the East China Sea to relax, hoping to let the waves of the sea wash away my pains and troubles. But the boundless sea made me feel small and helpless, and just when I really wanted to jump into the sea to follow the situation, a young gentleman with great grace and good manners rescued me in time. I was awakened by the words of a young gentleman, whom I never met again. Every time I think of the gratitude I felt for my life-saving benefactor, I realized that I had forgotten to ask my benefactor for his name in a panic. Now I don't know what that person's surname is, I don't know where he is from, where he lives, and I can't express my gratitude to that benefactor in the vast sea of people, and my heart is full of apologies and regrets.

Where is that benefactor? Where are you from? I occasionally have the idea of looking for a benefactor and repaying my benefactor, but I am still tired of the loss and pain of love, how can I have time to find it? It's to find it, and I seem to have more than enough energy and not enough power, and all my energy and time are being consumed by the emotions of distress!

During the year of healing, I quit my job as an editor and became a freelancer with no one at my disposal.

In this way, I can do whatever I want, I can hide at home and cry every day, I can laugh madly, laughing at the ridiculous love in this world; No matter what I did in my own space, no one interfered with her or laughed at me.

Fortunately, I have the savings from my work in the past few years, so I don't have to worry about life for the time being.

Time flies so fast, a year and more than half a year has passed, and in a few months, I will usher in my thirty-two-year-old life, and the pain of love is gradually buried in her heart. My parents were anxious to ask relatives and friends around me to introduce me to someone.

The more I have been hurt in love, the more I am afraid of things related to or even similar to love in my heart. Blind dates don't have to be related to love, but the ending of a blind date will be related to love.

That's why I'm very resistant to blind dates. But he couldn't resist the urging of his parents, and he passively went on blind dates again and again. In the process of blind date, I watched the older men who were not very good on the inside and the outside arrogant, and they were very curious about the older leftover women, and some people's curiosity hid a contemptuous attitude.

Among the blind dates, there are also a few divorced men, and some are quite mature and stable.

But they all have children, and I'm afraid that I will be a stepmother as soon as I get married. Although he is older, he is unmarried, has no experience in family life, and has no experience in educating and taking care of children. People say that it is difficult to be a stepmother, and once there is any carelessness, you will be suspected of being a bad woman. So I don't dare to choose a man with such conditions as a marriage partner.

And those older unmarried men are even more picky, some people will ask: "Why haven't you married yet, I heard that girls are the most afraid of getting old, and they all hate to marry, and all good girls will marry themselves in their twenties." There are very few girls in their thirties who are not married, why? ”

The subtext of that kind of question is to say: "Is it abnormal for a woman in her thirties who has not yet been married?" Or, "Sad old girl in her thirties who has not yet married!"