(It's been a little busy lately, so the update is about two days, if you're lucky, it's a day, more than ~)

No longer needed.

I'm getting a little tired of it.

This kind of game doesn't make any sense to me anymore.

Or rather, it was under the stimulus of Yang Nai under the snow that I felt that this kind of game no longer made any sense.

Such a change is very wrong for me.

In itself, they are the existence of two worlds, and forcibly bringing them together can only cause damage and suffering. The two completely extreme individuals want to come into contact, and what they bring can only be abuse and incomprehension. Under the snow is already a woman who is about to become an adult, and it is a bit too overbearing for me to interfere in her future life. This idea is already excessively contemptuous.

Enough is enough. Forget about this kind of life. I might not really be the right person to be a bad person. When I saw how smooth I was really trying to learn under the snow, I was shocked and panicked beyond my expectations.

What exactly did I do? Am I trying to change the course of someone's life? If I were to say what I usually say, I might just say that I don't mind, and what can I do. But when that change does happen in front of you.

I feel like I'm doing something wrong.

No, I've done a lot of things wrong.

What is my position to think of such an arrogant change in the trajectory of a person's life?

At first, it was just out of disapproval, out of annoyance. But what am I doing now? Is it a contemptible revenge? Let this world move with me? It's a little too scary to think like this.

Especially when I actually did that, and it paid off.

Am I helping under the snow? Or are you hurting her? I gave her a life that could be good, but I tied her to greater possibilities. Is it okay to be a pusher, to hide behind as a manipulator? Ah, it's really great than Kiya Hachiman, and he toyed everyone in applause. Is that good?

No, that's not good at all. I seem to be turning into the state I used to be most disgusted. In the name of the so-called enemy, in the name of the so-called help, I am completely destroying the possibility of a person. I do know that.

“…… Sorry, I'll go to the teacher's side first. ”

Saying goodbye to the snow with a somewhat embarrassed face, I quickly walked over to the teacher's office.

I feel that both me and Shizuka-sensei seem to be in a state of extreme arrogance. We are like a chess player, an invisible palm that drives everything forward. Let these things work with your own ideas. But is this really the right thing to do? Looking at the slightly changing snow, I felt that what I had been thinking all along might be wrong.

Is this really the right thing to do? Let her follow the path that I have chosen by Shizuka-sensei Hiratsuka, and follow the future that I have chosen by Ms. Shizuka-sensei Hiratsuka, and what seems to be freedom is actually that all actions are under the control of others.

Isn't this me creating a puppet with flesh and blood but no freedom to speak of?

It's disgusting.

The feeling of this manipulation is really disgusting.

There is nothing more deserving of disgust than this kind of behavior.

"Shizuna-sensei Hiratsuka."

I took a deep breath and calmly opened the door to the teacher's lounge.

Behind the door, the beautiful teacher with a cigarette in her mouth looked at me standing behind the door with some surprise. She seemed to have just enjoyed a pleasant afternoon, taking a few seconds to reflect and then giving me a surprised smile.

"Biqi Valley? Why did you come right over? It's not the time to eat pork chop rice. ”

"No, I wanted to discuss something with you."

"What? Do you want to talk to me as a teacher? I'm sorry I don't have much information to give you. You might as well go back and ask your sister. ”

"It's about the question under the snow."

“…… Under the snow? ”

Shizuna-sensei Hiratsuka, who lit a cigarette, showed a confused expression for the first time.

"Is there something wrong under the snow? Didn't you say that everything is under control? What's wrong with her? Or are you finally in the mood to do something under the snow—"

"It's not that there's something wrong under the snow."

I took a deep breath.

"It's us who has the problem."

The smile on Ms. Hiratsuka's face suddenly froze together.

I looked at the teacher in front of me in silence, waiting for her to reflect on the true meaning of what I said.

That's right, there is no problem with Yukino under the snow, Yui Yui Yubihama without any problems, there is no problem with Yono under the snow, and even Yoshiki Kiza has no problem. Isn't it really the same teacher Shizuka Hiratsuka who now plays people as pawns? The only one who really has to say that there is a problem is only the two of us.

Bringing himself into the role of a god to operate, little by little to promote the development of the so-called 'plot', and binding all the unfolding in the palm of his hand. Because the fun is different, they are divided into two factions and manipulate each other's chess pieces.

The warning under the snow does not mean that I have done to the snow under the snow, but what has happened to me.

I'm changing. The change can be felt clearly.

Not for the better, but for the worst.

Unlike everything that could be manipulated in that dream, I was clearly feeling that I was stepping into the abyss. An abyss called arrogance and complacency. Because of the difference in identity and status, because of the difference in positions and ideas, my thoughts, Hiratsuka's thoughts, everyone's thoughts began to distort in this ministry department.

Began to distort, began to change for pleasure, began to turn for my personal will.

What was supposed to be a community created for goodwill has gradually twisted into what it is now under my own will. Malevolence is pervasive, hypocrisy, and I'm aware of that, I'm aware of that.

"I've realized it, so I have to make a change."

A trace of sweat oozed from his forehead, and he felt creepy at the change in himself.

If it weren't for a little change under the snow, how long would it be before I realized that my position was starting to change?

How long will it take for Hiratsuka-sensei to realize the fact that she is beginning to transform?

What do we need to pay to realize this?

Just thinking about it makes me feel a pang of trepidation.

It may be a sin that we can't pay for in our lifetimes. Just because of homeopathy, just because it's funny, it manipulates a person's thoughts and life like that, and the terrible demon that lives in people's hearts is enough to make my hairs stand on end just a little bloom of the flower of evil.

The ones who really need to be changed should be me and Shizuka-sensei. In youth, those people are right, but we are wrong. Changing the lives of others without authorization and forcing others to choose a life they do not want to live can only be called evil deeds. It is the worst form of coercion.

And we, Hikiya Hachiman and Shizuka Hiratsuka, are the two people who coerce the chess pieces in their hands.

"It's us who really have the problem."