During the day, Hibiscus didn't go out, and Shi Yan couldn't force her, so he finally took her to the mall to pass the time and divert her thoughts.

In the evening, the old lady made fresh baked brown bread and sour beef soup, perhaps because she was pregnant, and Mu Hibiscus thought that the sour beef soup made by the old lady was much better than the potato roasted pork ribs she made.

And this night, Hibiscus didn't sleep well, because she had been struggling whether to take a CT scan at the risk that the child in her belly was likely to be teratogenic due to radiation, or really miscarried the child in her belly as Shi Yan said?

The first half of the night has been tossing and turning in bed, in fact, she has always been a rational person, such a thing, if you stand from a rational point of view, it must be done according to what Shi Yan said, drain the child, and then take a CT to see if there is really something in the brain.

But what she struggled with was that if she found that there was nothing in her head after taking a CT scan, it was just a false alarm like the so-called Alzheimer's disease, then wouldn't her child be lost in vain?

But what about taking a CT scan while you are pregnant with a child? Regardless of whether there is anything in the brain, in short, the child will be affected by radiation, and the consequences of radiation, she dare not predict.

She was too tired in the first half of the night, but she hadn't come up with a result, but she was tossing and turning on the bed and affecting Shi Yan beside her, and she couldn't sleep well.

In the second half of the night, she was too sleepy, obviously she was pregnant, she had walked so many ways during the day, not to mention the decline in physical strength, the most important thing was that she was entangled in this matter and her letter was scorched, so she couldn't stay up in the second half of the night and finally fell asleep.

And this sleep slept until noon the next day, and when she woke up, there was no stone rock around her, she couldn't help but touch it with her hand, and there was no temperature left.

She was startled, immediately turned over and sat up, turned her head to look at the little alarm clock on the bedside table, 12 noon, good guy, she can really sleep.

At this time, Shi Yan estimated that she was downstairs making lunch with the landlady, she thought so, so she quickly got up, she missed breakfast, but she didn't want to miss lunch again.

It was when I felt sick to my stomach when I washed up that I remembered that I didn't eat breakfast in the morning, and I not only starved myself, but also the child in my belly.

Thinking of the child, she began to struggle again, last night Shi Yan said to take her to that beratung for psychological counseling today.

She didn't know what kind of institution Beratung was, and why she had to go there for psychological counseling for miscarriages. And you have to issue a certificate or something.

She came downstairs and walked towards the kitchen naturally, thinking that Shi Yan should make lunch in the kitchen.

Because after they came to Germany, he was usually cooking, she rarely went to the kitchen, and even if she did, she was always helping out, she was not the material for the chef at all.

However, there was only one landlady in the kitchen, and she didn't see Shi Yan, she couldn't help but be depressed, it was noon, where did Shi Yan go?

"Auntie, do you know where Dao Shiyan went?" Hibiscus asked in English, but she gestured with a gesture.

The old lady of the landlady, who was already familiar with her, understood that she was asking Shi Yan, so she smiled and told her: Shi Yan went out, as if there was something urgent, let her have lunch with her at noon, and Shi Yan will not come back until the afternoon.

Urgent? Hibiscus couldn't help but be flustered, in Germany, is there something urgent about Shi Yan?

Because he couldn't talk to the landlord, not to mention that if Shi Yan really had something urgent, he probably wouldn't tell the landlord, so Mu Hibiscus stopped asking, and continued to eat the German potato grilled sausage made by the landlord's old lady at noon.

The landlady and Shi Yan learned how to roast pork ribs with potatoes, but Hibiscus thinks that the German potatoes made by the landlady are more delicious, especially the creamy roasted potatoes made by the old lady, Hibiscus likes to eat them the most, and she can eat a lot every time.

In Shi Yan's absence, Hibiscus and the landlady had difficulty communicating with the old lady, and sometimes even if they used hand gestures, they still couldn't talk to her about a topic.

So, after eating the landlady's lunch, she cleaned up the kitchen with the landlady and went upstairs.

Shi Yan was not there, she thought about it and called him, wanting to ask him where he had gone, was there really something urgent to do?

The phone/phone rang several times before it was picked up, and before she could speak, Shi Yan's voice came first: "Ah Mu, are you awake?" ”

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It seems that she was still sleeping when he left, presumably because she was sleeping very deeply, so he didn't wake her up, right?

"Well, I've had lunch with the landlord and aunt," she said truthfully before she asked, "By the way, Auntie said you have something urgent?" What's the urgency? ”

"Hehe, it's my mother who is here," Shi Yan smiled on the phone/phone: "Mom heard yesterday that you were pregnant, so I booked a ticket to Berlin and rushed over, by the way, I will pick up my mother at the airport, the flight is almost here"

Only then did Mu Hibiscus know that it was Wu You who came over, and it was estimated that the call/call that Shi Yan received at noon yesterday was from Wu You, and Shi Yan must have told Wu You about her situation.

She hasn't even thought about it, this mother-in-law has arrived, wait for her Wu You to ask her what she is going to do? How would she answer?

Until Shi Yan brought Wu You in, Mu Hibiscus was still lying on the sofa and didn't come up with a clear answer.

"Wood, what are you doing?" Wu You's voice came from the door, and it was obvious that she saw the hibiscus lying on the sofa at the door.

Mu Hibiscus quickly sat up from the sofa, looked at Wu You who walked in, and deliberately joked: "Ouch, Mom, what a big deal, aren't you pregnant?" Is it worth your rush from Ben to Berlin? That's too much fuss, isn't it? ”

"Isn't that?" Wu You walked over and saw that her expression and state were quite good, so he also smiled and joked: "Originally, I didn't plan to come over, who made you disobedient?" If you're obedient, I'm not going to make a big fuss, look at you, this has helped the airline make a fortune again, hasn't it? And you don't even have a commission. ”

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Hibiscus was directly silent, Wu You is her teacher and mother-in-law, and she is also known for her unforgiving mouth, in terms of eloquence, she is probably not Wu You's opponent.

"Wood, Shi Yan said that this year it has fallen in Germany for 20 years of heavy snowfall, the snow in the north of the Harz Mountains is very thick, this year is the most suitable for skiing, said that it is a rare opportunity in 20 years, such an opportunity is rare to encounter a few times in life, of course we can't miss it, just on the way Shi Yan also told me that our family is going to ski in the Harz Mountains, do you think we set the day in two weeks or three weeks later?"

"I'm pregnant, three weeks later, I'm only ten weeks pregnant, how can I go skiing?" Hibiscus glanced at the two of them: "Have you ever seen a pregnant woman skiing?" I'd better take care of the baby at home. ”

"Wood, the child can be regenerated in the future, right?" Wu You sat down on the side, looked at Mu Hibiscus with a sideways face and said: "If you want to conceive a child, there are several opportunities a year, but this skiing in Harz in the north is a rare time in twenty years."

"What the hell mean I want to strangle the baby in my belly for a skiing?" Mu Hibiscus snatched Wu You's words, looked at her sideways and asked.

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Wu You was a little speechless, she was silent for a while before she said again: "Wood, of course I didn't mean that, your situation Shi Yan told me, I think it's better not to take some risks, even if you want to take risks, we should take risks when we know if there is something in your mind, right?" ”

"I understand the reason," Mu Hibiscus took a deep breath and made a slight gesture of looking up at the ceiling, and then said softly: "Mom, I'm thirty years old, and this is the second pregnancy, I"

Mu Hibiscus couldn't help choking up when he said this, took a deep breath, and stabilized his situation for a half before he said again: "I know that it is dangerous for Lu Dao to take risks, and I also know that it is irrational for Lu Dao to stubbornly not take a CT scan, but——"

"But it's one thing to know the way, it's another thing to really strangle the child in your belly, I've been thinking about it for two days and two nights, and I also know that it's the best way to get rid of the child in the belly, and then go to the CT scan."

When Hibiscus said this, she finally didn't hold back, tears slipped down her cheeks uncontrollably, and she covered her mouth with her hand before she spoke again.

"Mom, knowing the way and doing it seem to be just two different words, but it takes a lot of courage to make that determination, to really do that, and I-"

"I probably don't have that much courage!"

"However, when you are pregnant with a child and wait for birth, you don't go to CT to take a CT and understand your real condition, don't you think it takes a lot of courage?" Wu You looked at the tearful hibiscus beside her, and when she asked this, her voice was actually trembling.

As a woman, she knew how painful it was to make the decision to strangle her own child, not to mention that Hibiscus was no longer young, she would soon be thirty years old.

"I can make a fool of myself, I can tell myself that I'm not sick at all, anyway, if I don't take a CT, I'll be in the dark, so it seems that it has nothing to do with courage, it's just"

"It's just a matter of avoiding medical treatment," Shi Yan took Mu Hibiscus's words on the side, then glanced at her and said, "Ah Mu, you know that you are taking the biggest risk by not taking a CT scan, why are you still so stubborn?" ”

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Hibiscus was silent and no longer gnawed.

"Okay, wood, Shi Yan and I won't force you, we will only accompany you," Wu You sighed while patting Mu Hibiscus on the shoulder: "No matter what decision you make, we will support you, of course, we still hope that you can make a decision that is beneficial to yourself, you should be a little selfish." ”

Hibiscus lowered her head, she should be a little selfish, she has actually been selfish all the time, okay?

"Shi Yan, it's pretty good for you to rent this building, do you have any extra rooms?" Wu You saw that Mu Hibiscus didn't speak, and it was not good to keep worrying about this question, so he quickly changed the topic and asked.

Shi Yan shook his head embarrassedly and said: "No, the old lady of the landlord rented the third floor to us, the first floor is the living room and dining room, the kitchen utility room, etc., the old lady of the second floor lives alone, and the third floor is also a room, next door is a greenhouse, which is full of flowers and plants." ”

"Ah, and the greenhouse?" Wu You heard Shi Yan say this, and immediately stood up and walked next door.

When Shi Yan saw his mother go to the greenhouse to see the flowers, he also got up and hurried over to take his mother to see the various flowers raised by the old lady of the landlady.

In fact, the flowers raised by the landlady are not precious, they are all ordinary flowers, but in this icy and snowy Berlin, in this snowy place everywhere, you can see such vibrant flowers and plants, which makes people feel like they see hope.

"You didn't put a lot of thought into choosing this environment, didn't you?" Wu You stroked the dark green leaves of Nightshade with his hand and asked his son beside him.

Shi Yan's face flushed slightly, and he admitted embarrassedly: "Yes, at that time, I thought she was really suffering from Alzheimer's disease, thinking that she would be depressed because of this disease, and in this place in Germany in winter, except for the snow, it is withered branches and leaves, so I thought about giving her a vibrant environment, so that she can live in spring every day, see red flowers and green leaves every day, and feel the vitality of life." ”

"I could have thought of these countermeasures for her Alzheimer's disease, but why is there nothing she can do now?" Wu You turned around and looked at his son, who was a head taller than him.

"Because," Shi Yan said, because of the two words, he didn't say any more.

In fact, it's not that he is helpless, he really wants to let Mu Hibiscus do an abortion or something, of course he has a way.

The big deal is to give her some milk with sleeping pills, pull her directly into the operating room, give her a general anesthesia, and then let her have this miscarriage before she knows it.

But he didn't do it, and he didn't want to do it, because she was carrying the child of both of them in her womb, and she couldn't bear the child, so why should he be willing?

Strangled her own child, she couldn't make up her mind, how could he make such a determination? It's just that he didn't say it.

"Because you can't bear to have children?" Wu You's words hit his vital point, and then his hand was raised and patted on Shi Yan's shoulder and sighed softly: "No one is reluctant, but you can't hurt the wood because of your reluctance, if there is really a mistake, then you will regret it too late." ”

"Mom, I know what to do," Shi Yan nodded, looked at Wu You and said, "Don't worry, I will persuade her, I will definitely take her to complete the abortion procedures tomorrow, and then"

Shi Yan raised his head slightly when he said this, took a deep breath, and pulled out a smile that was more ugly than crying: "Then I will send her to the hospital, I will give her the best surgery, find the best specialist, and try to minimize the damage to the lightest."

Wu You only felt uncomfortable looking at the smile on Shi Yan's face, her son was very strong, she knew it, but no matter how strong a person was, it would hurt when he talked about how to strangle his child.

Shi Yan took Wu You to the greenhouse to see the flowers and plants, and Mu Hibiscus got up and went to the pantry next to the bathroom, and lay on the sofa for more than two hours.

Originally, she wanted to make a cup of tea for Wu You, but when she opened the tea jar, she found that there was no tea, and then she remembered that the tea they brought was drunk, and she went to the supermarket yesterday and didn't find good Chinese tea.

So, she could only make a cup of instant coffee for Wu You, and the coffee originally had to be brewed by grinding coffee beans to be delicious, but she couldn't make coffee, so she could only use instant coffee.

As soon as she brewed two cups of instant coffee, Wu You and Shi Yan came out of the greenhouse, and she hurriedly took the coffee and walked out.

"Mom, I don't know how to make coffee, it just so happens that the tea leaves are gone, this is instant coffee, you will drink it, and when you go to the mall tomorrow to buy tea and come back, I will help you make tea next time." Mu Hibiscus put the coffee on the coffee table and explained to Wu You softly.

"Yes, it's good to have instant coffee to drink, and I'm not so particular about it," Wu You took a sip of coffee, and then said with a smile: "Well, yes, the instant coffee brewed by wood is better than the coffee brewed by some people." ”

"Mom, that was my first time making coffee," Shi Yan shouted in protest, and then complained: "It's because you said that I didn't cook well the first time, so it discouraged my enthusiasm, and now I'm not interested in making coffee, you are a teacher, don't you know the importance of appreciating education?" ”

"Hehe, you don't know how to make coffee and complain about me?" Wu You stood up after drinking coffee, and then said to Mu Hibiscus with a smile: "Then Mu, I'll go back to the hotel first, and I'll come over early tomorrow morning to accompany you to the hospital." ”

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Mu Hibiscus was speechless, did she say that she was going to the hospital tomorrow?

Besides, what did Wu You do when she accompanied her to the hospital? Let her be pregnant with a pregnancy CT? Or let her drain the baby in her belly?

Shi Yan wanted to leave Wu You here for dinner, but Wu You said that she still had two students in Germany, and Zhilu said that she was coming over and prepared a dust washing banquet for her tonight, so she wouldn't have dinner with them today.

Shi Yan sent Wu You there, and the hotel where Wu You stayed was near their building, a little more than a kilometer, and it was only twenty minutes to walk.

Shi Yan sent Wu You back, and Mu Hibiscus and the landlady had already prepared dinner.

At noon, Hibiscus ate the landlady's boiled potatoes with cream, and she made fruit salad and northern Chinese dumplings to entertain the landlady in the evening.

"Your wife's cooking skills are amazing," said the landlady, who liked to eat hibiscus dumplings, and said to Shi Yan as she ate, "This is the best Chinese food I have ever tasted, and I must learn how to make it." ”

"Okay, then let her teach you another day," Shi Yan agreed, and then translated the words of the old landlady to Hibiscus.

Mu Hibiscus couldn't help but look embarrassed when she heard Shi Yan's words, her cooking skills are still excellent? Come on, she doesn't have cooking skills at all, okay?

Especially this bag of dumplings, she doesn't even know how to roll the dumpling skin herself, or the ready-made skin she bought in the supermarket yesterday, which is actually far from the skin she rolled by hand?

"Mom said she would be waiting for us at the hospital at 10 a.m. tomorrow," Shi Yan said to Hibiscus, who was taking his pajamas and preparing to take a shower in the bathroom.

"So what are we going to do at the hospital tomorrow morning?" Mu Hibiscus stood at the door of the bathroom, holding pajamas in one hand, grasping the door frame with the other, and asked with his back to Shi Yan.

Shi Yan was dumbfounded, what to do in the hospital? What else can she do if she goes to the hospital in such a situation?

Looking at the woman standing at the door of the bathroom, looking at her straight back, he walked over slowly, then reached out and hugged her into his arms from behind.

"Ah Mu, I want to be with you, just the two of us, the simple Shi Yan and An Mu Hibiscus, you can- don't let my little wish be disappointed."

When Shi Yan said this, not only was his voice trembling, but in fact, his whole body was trembling slightly, and he kept using his hands to hold the hibiscus to death, as if this could support his body from trembling too obviously.

Shi Yan's strength was so great, Mu Hibiscus only felt that he had clamped himself too tightly, as if she was going to suffocate, so she struggled hard, trying to break free from his embrace.

"Ah Mu, you don't want to escape, you can't escape," Shi Yan increased his strength again, controlling her struggle, and whispered in her ear with thin lips pleading: "Let's face it together, let us bear it together, let us compromise, weigh and give up together for the maximum happiness of tomorrow!" ”