That year, Mu Dan missed the opportunity to apply for an art school because of her poor family, and sorrow has always enveloped her heart. One Sunday afternoon in early autumn, she stood on the side of the road, looking at the autumn leaves drifting in the wind in front of her, one after another, imagining that this was life crying for her. Suddenly, I felt the urge to reach out and grab a fallen leaf, so I slowly stretched out my hand, and an autumn leaf fell to the palm of my hand. She looked at the autumn leaves carefully, and found that the autumn leaves had been torn apart, and the scars were still clearly left on the leaves. A gust of wind woke her up, and wasn't she in the same situation as it? But it grew tenaciously on the tree until the autumn wind blew it down. Trees, with roots and leaves, are always connected by flesh and blood, although they are separated. The roots continue to deliver nutrients to the leaves, so that the leaves thrive, and the leaves hang high and full of life, and one day they will fall to the ground as nourishment for the roots, giving back the nurturing grace of the roots. The family background is like this, but I always suffer from gains and losses, looking at the classmates who have happy families around me, and blindly feeling the depression of too many unfortunate families. Suddenly I realized that I should cheer up, bring hope to too many unfortunate parents, and take on something for this family for my life, and immediately. Mu Dan thought that his parents might not be able to wait for him to graduate and find a job to make money, and his mood became more and more anxious, and he thought fiercely in his heart, if there is any chance to exchange for his parents' health, even if he gives up his own life. In ancient times, there was a story of selling herself to save her mother, just like a hot-blooded man who was about to go to the battlefield, her spirit became impassioned.

As her spirits perked up, a light flashed in her mind, and an unexpected psychological effect appeared, and the heavy haze that had been pressing on her heart for years was suddenly dispelled, and she experienced a sense of relief that she had never felt before. The way to end suffering is so simple, don't think about it, don't let it occupy your mind, and do whatever you can. Focus her mind on what she can do, and she must do it well, although she doesn't know what she can do or what the standard of doing well is. This is not the best way to achieve self-salvation at the moment. The suffering of parents cannot continue in oneself, and the rescue of one's parents must begin with the rescue of oneself. She suddenly magically felt as if she had been injected with a fresh vitality, and became high-spirited, and she was already very beautiful, and she was cast into a new temperament, just like a budding peony about to bloom into a beautiful flower.

Shiyàn Middle School is just a place where education experts try various educational concepts and methods, but no one has ever thought that the students will emerge with the idea of changing their fate. It is also possible to experiment freely.

Mudan first washed dishes and washed dishes in restaurants around the school, and took home the first month's salary, which became a drop in the bucket, cancer is the devil who devours money, not to mention facing two cancer patients. The song hall she passed by had advertisements for recruiting singers, and she was qualified to apply for an art school, and she walked into the song hall as a singer to accompany the dance, and her fellow sisters praised her as a fairy. After being introduced by her sisters, she walked into the club and became an oil pusher, until she made an embarrassing and cruel choice in the face of money.

An unexpected discovery that made her heart ache. Helped her make a decision.

When she returned home, her parents would always take the trouble to confide in each other about their illness, including their daughter's hard support, when they saw relatives, acquaintances, and old colleagues who came to visit her. Draw sympathy from the listener. She found a deep love complex from her parents' confiding. She suddenly thought of the suffering complex of Chinese literature that Wu Wei once talked about, and even thought of the cultural journey, such a bitter attachment. Can it still inspire efforts to get rid of suffering? Suddenly, she felt a sense of fear, the fear of being in the abyss of misery, and then a strong desire to get rid of it.

After some painful thinking, in the end, Mudan faced with the devil came up with the idea that he could only sacrifice the magic weapon that God had given to women. She also inherited her father's humorous nature, and self-deprecatingly imagined that real yàn middle school should become a place for all kinds of beautiful ideas. Sure enough, the potential that God has given women has been vividly displayed in her, and her experience has made her gradually realize that women's capital, young and beautiful is capital, the value of women, nourishing men's happiness, from men's eager eyes to look at themselves, it can be seen that men especially like to spend money on the women they like, but it also takes courage to make money, and she is gradually full of self-confidence in contact with men, so that she feels curious and fun, has a new self-discovery, and her hand is particularly good. It's like a natural oil pusher, and you can experience a different kind of fun. She imagined that what society regarded as ugly, indecent, low-class, and dishonorable would have a sunny life experience. She worked her skills, humbly sought advice from the sisters who had entered the Tao first, made friends with guests, felt that she had more layers of positive significance, opened up a new world, combined oil pushing with mental health, and finally had a goal and a legitimate reason to do things well, dissipated shame, and aroused a new hope to save her father and mother. She heard some sisters gossiping, since it is difficult to protect their innocence, it is better to sell to someone who knows the goods if they are deceived, let go of their worries will make more money, open up new ways to make money, serve others and be comfortable and get a sense of happiness and accomplishment. She, on the other hand, sees chastity as an artifact of subjugation to the devil. At first, she couldn't take care of her family background too much, and gradually realized the sublimation of self-realization, she saw the eyes of those men looking at her in a daze, and the eyes of her parents who were eager to ask for help inexplicably appeared in her mind, and a noble feeling washed away all kinds of dirty and fearful thoughts that she had in her mind, and also made her gain a kind of spiritual immunity. As long as she took care of them, those men became comfortable and peaceful, as if they had undergone a baptism. Anyone who saw her face for the first time was amazed, saying how such a beautiful woman could come to such a place, and frankly confessing that it was blasphemous to associate with her. Those who threw money at her on the spot, those who promised her a house and a car, and those who generously gave her gold cards, but she refused all of them, she just charged according to the standard, and she became more and more loved by men. She wants to let the men in the world return to their true colors, but she realizes that although her ideas are good, she can save a few people with her delicate body.

When Mudan was going farther and farther on the road of saving himself, his father, his mother, and others, the school intervened strongly. The school's involvement stemmed from a whistleblower letter from an unknown person, which was placed on Principal He's desk. Principal He couldn't help but be furious when he saw it, his school would have such a corrupt girl, which made him lose face. blacked out the school, how could her parents be so indulgent to their daughter, and thought that such a student was in Ah Mei's class again, thinking that Ah Mei would definitely know, and thinking of Ah Mei's concealment, she immediately called someone to call Ah Mei.

Since Ah Mei met Principal He, she had never seen his angry face, and he first pointed to the report letter on the table, you can take a look.

Ah Mei picked up the letter and skimmed it roughly, and couldn't help but be surprised. This Mudan has indeed gone too far, with a complicated expression of self-blame, regret and hatred on his face.

Principal He said hatefully, you go and call her, I will tell her in person, and the school has decided to expel her.

In an instant, Ah Mei's thoughts seemed to be activated.

She made her debut in a hurry, and it was too unfair to treat Mudan like this.

What the? Principal He asked in surprise. Is there really something hidden here?

At this time, Ah Mei had calmed down, and she didn't think there was much need to state too many reasons.

So, she briefly described Mudan's family background. Both parents were laid off, and now they are both suffering from cancer, and the medical expenses have not been settled, and they want to pay medical insurance not only to postpone their enjoyment. Even if he can't afford to pay for medical insurance, Mu Dan is also helpless.

Principal He listened to Ah Mei's statement, his expression changed, and he gradually became solemn.

He interrupted Ah Mei in a tone of reproach. Why didn't she report her family situation earlier?

Ah Mei said, I have already reported to the relevant departments of the school, and I feel helpless in the face of her family background. He also said that there are many such students, and even relief cannot solve the problem, and suggested that I reflect it to the media. I also wrote letters to newspapers and television stations to report her family situation, and the other party replied that she was now in a sensitive period for maintaining stability, and it was inconvenient to touch on such topics as laid-off workers suffering from terminal illnesses.

Next, Ah Mei said the idea of Mu Dan fighting for a girl again.

Principal He listened, pondered for a moment, and said, In this way, she is still the righteous daughter who saved her father and mother, but when she read this letter, she was greedy for the gentle land and could not extricate herself, and she became a person who needed to be rescued.

Ah Mei saw new hope in the change in Principal He's tone, and she said, I don't know if it's appropriate for me to put forward my idea.

Let's talk about it. Principal He said.

Ah Mei said, I will talk to Mu Dan and let her take the initiative to quit, and I will find a way as for family difficulties.

Principal He sighed and had no choice but to give it a try. Suddenly, he had an idea, and when he heard that the government now has a tax credit policy for donations, I immediately asked the relevant parties. After speaking, he picked up the phone and dialed over, and after a few words of greeting with the person who answered, he went straight to the point, but listened to the other party reply, the policy is there, but the implementation is too difficult, you know, our grandmother in this place is not loved by uncle, although the policy is good, there are too many extremely poor students who need to be rescued, and the enterprise itself is still troubled by its own laid-off workers, and its own profitability is poor, so it is better to think of other ways now.

In fact, after the baptism of family hardship, Mu Dan has the experience she has now, and has seen too many naked men who have taken off their various clothes and identities, her heart has undergone surprising changes, and she has also cultivated her fearless courage, she no longer wants to live in any form of darkness. She has a new understanding of civilization, which is like a rain, like a gust of wind, and seems to be nothing. Civilized efforts to try to isolate sex from each other have provoked a stronger desire for sex. Sexual contact can destroy all efforts to divert interest away from sexual aspects so lightly. Why don't you go with the flow? After such a baptism, she will enter and exit the classroom as if nothing happened. The classmates were also surprised by her changes, and at some point, she changed into a romantic temperament, wearing the items she carried with her, which triggered all kinds of speculation and imagination. It was as if she had been enlightened and had a new understanding of school education. The words printed on the textbooks and all the content that comes out of the mouths of the teachers are that they can't wait to fill the brains of the students with all the science and culture that mankind has accumulated in the past, through painstaking condensation and pressurization, like ultra-high-strength compressed food. I thought that such food was extremely nutritious, but I didn't expect it to be boring, which made the students have a strong anorexia reaction. When these foods have just been made by the master scientists, they are like freshly baked bread from the bread oven, and the aroma stimulates people's appetite, but because they have been left for too long, they have become stale and expired foods, and no matter how they are renovated and added, it is difficult to hide the sour and rancid smell. Mudan thought that her one-month club experience was worth how many years she had learned in school. She was also ready to give up her studies, and due to Ah Mei's strong intervention, she chose to return to her studies. Ah Mei went home and told his father first. After hearing this, Wang Chang immediately contacted some entrepreneurs and promised to implement the rescue in the form of tax deductions. Ah Mei discussed with a few classmates, some took 12,000 yuan, and those with good conditions took more, and Nian Fu discussed with Jin Yin'er and took out 100,000 at a time. Mudan said, I will accept all your friendship, but there is one condition, even if I borrow from you, I will write out the IOUs one by one. In the future, I will repay it with principal and interest. Mudan befriended a righteous entrepreneur, and also promised her that there was a place for money.

Mudan won the help of heaven with the heart of self-help and salvation, she believed that sex was originally holy and beautiful, and that female beauty was the mother of beauty, so God attached sex to the female body, but unfortunately it became the reason and basis for seducing men, so that people always had lewd prejudice against her. made her filthy. She even argues that human civilization's efforts to resist sexual temptation are futile, because civilization itself contains paradoxes about sexuality, and she argues that sex should be treated in a way that is natural and natural. She is through guò's own act of holiness, restoring sex to its true nature. So he decided to quit and posted his realizations on the Internet as a farewell declaration of an oil pusher, which attracted countless followers, some of whom were envious. I can't enjoy a moment of rain with her, and some regret why I don't see the video. The peony flower died, and the ghost was also romantic, more of which was admiration for her, saying that she was a bodhisattva, and it was also said that she had fulfilled the wish of the police illusion fairy, and Xueqin under the nine springs could also be pleased, and some even said that she was appointed by God to save those men who fell into lewdness and could not extricate themselves, and purified and washed the dirty and corrupt land.

Ah Mei's class champions are concentrated, and there are many masters, each with its own merits. Different people's brain regions may correspond to different disciplines, which are naturally suitable for a certain type of discipline, some are related to liberal arts, and some are excited to see science, and each has a lot of love. After Mudan wrote that farewell declaration, he was out of control and became a fan of novels, not reading novels, but writing novels himself. She said that reading other people's novels is not enjoyable, and seeing the enjoyment comes to an abrupt end, it makes people feel a sense of loss, not happy, and feel that it is better not to read it, and it is better to read it than to read it yourself, what is it to write your own novels? It's yourself into the novel, you can write how you want, you won't be wronged by yourself, how you can satisfy yourself, you can write how you want, it's full self-satisfaction, you can be good with whoever you want. Her creative talk is, she has learned the trick of writing novels, Fat Yan Zhai re-commented on Dream of Red Mansions, she felt sorry for Fat Yan Zhai, saying that she was so involved in the re-evaluation, why didn't she write it herself, she wanted to make up for the regret that Fat Yan Zhai only commented and didn't write. She believes that she has now encountered the peak of her creation, and she must not miss the precious opportunity of life, those great writers are not educated, but experienced and realized by herself, she would rather go through some suffering, and suffering is the source of great works.

When Mudan and Nan Nan chatted, he said, I was also inspired by the face-to-face advocated by Ah Mei.

Nan Nan Dao, don't be led astray by her, each has its own way, Ah Mei can work, you have to go for fear of losing.

Mu Dan said, to go your own way, you should go as soon as possible, and look at it in a few years, more than ten years, and decades.

Nan Nan Dao, if you don't take the road of ready-made study, you are gambling with your own life

Wide.

Mu Dan said, if you succeed or not, it is always the result of your own choice, and it is your own decision to succeed

Admit the gains and losses, and finally there is no waste.

Nan Nan Dao, no matter what, you can think about it.

Mu Dan said, it's better to think about it than not to think about it.

Nan Nan said, you are comforting yourself.

Mu Dan said that if he can comfort himself, it is the best comfort.

Nan Nan said with a smile, he didn't expect that there would be so many words for comfort.

Mu Dan thought to himself that he didn't have the foundation of those champions, let alone take a super path like Ah Mei, but he could forge his own path, form his own unique advantages, open up his own world, and occupy a place in online literature.

After a short time, Mudan answered a strange phone call.

Who is it?

Although the other party's voice was low, it was difficult to hide the immature male voice who said the name of the most popular literary website in China, and then said, I convey to you the opinion of our boss and want to sign a contract with you.

She was silent for a moment.

The other party seemed to understand what she meant, and took the initiative to say, you are doubting my true identity, there are too many cheats nowadays, making it difficult to distinguish the real from the fake.

She was embarrassed and said, I didn't mean that, I don't know how a website like yours would think of me.

Our website tracks and investigates the information that has reached a certain number of clicks on the post, and found the declaration you sent, which attracted great attention from the senior management of our website, and held a special meeting to study it.

It was written at random, and it deserves your attention.

We have carefully studied your manifesto and believe that you have a noble heart, shining with the light of humanity, subverting people's notions of darkness and light, filth and purity, squalor and cleanliness.

Her heart was hot, and she felt that the suffering and humiliation that had been pressing on her heart during this time were like a puff of green smoke drifting away in the wind, and she suddenly became extremely relaxed and happy.

The other party seemed to see her emotional reaction, and said, This is what our boss said when we decided whether to hire you, and when he said this, of course he would make a final decision, and all those who disagreed had nothing to say.

What do you need me to do?

If you agree with our intentions, we can make an appointment for you to come to the website headquarters for a consultation.

Mudan has experienced all kinds of painful and helpless choices in the face of money, but now it has taken a dramatic turn for her to choose whether to accept money or not.

You can think about it, give us a reply after thinking about it, and hang up the phone after that.

Mudan asked for Ah Mei's opinion with doubts, and Ah Mei only said one sentence that prompted her to make up her mind.

What Ah Mei said was: There will be nothing that will stump you in the future.

Mudan called the other party and asked her to send her ID number to book a plane ticket and pick her up at the airport, and she began to embark on a new journey of hope. (To be continued......)