Chapter 12: Turnaround (7)
"I really want to marry Ache." That 'fine' diamond ring was almost ravaged and deformed in Su Yunlie's hands. At this moment, he looked at me with more and more reproach. I had a vague fear in my heart.
In the end, I restrained my fear. I nodded. I don't know if to smile bitterly or what." Mr. Su. I don't want to play this guessing game with you anymore. What the hell do you mean. It's good to make it clear once 'sex'. I'm younger. That doesn't mean I don't understand anything. The word ignorance is still 'quite 'quite' away from me. I know Ache's parents don't like me. It's clear. But. Ah Che he loves me. I don't hate him either. Sometimes human fate is a wonderful thing. Missed it. And there was no more. If this time there is still a possibility between me and Ache. Then I'll think about it. Maybe he'll be a good choice."
"Not annoying. You're just because you don't hate him. So stay with him. There is no emotion to talk about marriage. What do you think of marriage?" Su Yunlie was dissatisfied with my attitude. Yelled at me anxiously. He threw the ring out of the window with a ruthless heart.
"You're crazy. Why did you throw away my diamond ring? Why are you, Su Yunhunting." I saw the ring in a parabolic shape out of my sight. I pushed the man who was too much of a man away. Then he rushed to the windowsill like crazy.
If you lose it, you lose it. Fell from a few stories high. Where can I still see the ring? But I'm not reconciled. The ring was not given by Su Yun. What qualifications does he have to deprive me and Su Yunche of the opportunity to start over. Biting my lip with hatred, I just felt pathetic. I just kind of like this man. But he said he didn't want me anymore. So why did he do this to me? Or is it said. Bullying me makes him happy.
Tears rolled down. I don't want to look back at Su Yunhunt's expression. Now me. I just want to find a place where no one is there and cry properly. It's just half a day's work. But I'm exhausted. Wiped the corners of his eyes. I drooped my head. I went straight in the direction of the door.
"Yan'er. Where are you going?" The voice of the man behind me was hidden with some affection that I couldn't 'penetrate'. I picked my lips, but I couldn't hide my boundless bitterness.
The 'door' was opened, and a cold wind was blowing towards me. My body trembled slightly. Hands 'crossed' rings. I secretly let out a cold cry. The clothes on my body are actually messy and torn. I straightened my clothes. Then you tighten yourself with your coat.
"Yan'er. I'm sorry." There were several stairs to go. I just listened to the apologetic, warm voice playing.
I'm sorry. SU Yunlie. Do you know. These three words. Actually, it doesn't make much sense. Only he lowered his posture and apologized to me. I was polite. Didn't look back. I pretended to be strong and said, "Your apologies. I accepted. But Mr. Su. Please don't call me Yan'er again. Do you like to call Miss Shang or Shang Yan'er. Whatever you want. I won't consider you a friend anymore. I know Ache doesn't like you either. So I won't necessarily call you big brother in the future. Of course. I'm thinking a little far. You are away from home all year round. We shouldn't have much chance to meet in the future."
Xu is really too careless. I stepped on a hole as I walked further down. The whole body threw himself forward. I just said I was stupid. I can't even see the road clearly.
Su Yunlie is still some distance away from me. Plus his 'leg' injury wasn't all right. Of course, he couldn't save me. The knees and arms were rubbed into the skin. Look at the faintly bloodshot bruise on the wrist. I said in my heart: It's good. I finally have a fair reason to cry.
I got up on my own. My hands are dirty right now. My 'legs' also hurt badly. But I have no intention of going back to Su Yunlie's residence. I just cried quietly. Comfort yourself that you fell and hurt but no one cared for you. So you can still cry secretly.
"Yan'er. Why are you so stubborn?" It's funny but also helpless. When Su Yunlie hugged me from behind. I could hear his heart beating. Throbbing more rapidly than I am.
Sit back on the couch. I looked up at the sky in a daze. In fact, I want to control the frequency of tears. Su Yunlie is arrogant, and he doesn't look like a patient at all. Like just now. He grabbed me by the shoulder. I had to follow him back here.
I found a doctor's 'medicine' box. Su Yunche first detoxified my wounds. Then I was bandaged. I think he's making a bit of a big fuss. Watch him crouch in front of me like this. Attentively treating the wounds on my wrists and knees. I don't understand... I don't understand how many sides he has. I don't understand. Which is the real him.
I was kind and reasonable, and people also helped me. I said thank you. After that, I just got up and wanted to go back. Except for men. I still have a job. secretly despised himself for being confused on the issue of men for a while. I 'smoked' the tissue. I didn't shy away the tears from my eyes.
"Yan'er. I'll give you a ring back." I patted the cuffs. When I was thinking about going to the 'door'. Su Yunlie dropped such a bomb violently.
My whole body froze for a moment. However, accidents are only a matter of a short time. Soon I was back to normal. He said give me back a ring. It should be to buy one and pay me for it.. After all, he lost mine. But Su Yunhunting. How could you not understand . I don't understand that the ring is a token of love. You can't just give it. A bare hand tightened. I took a deep breath at the end. Then he said, "No need. Thank you, Mr. Su, for your kindness."
"Yan'er. Are you sure you don't want to be friends with me." Su Yunhunt was suddenly over. Slowly walked to my side. His pair of 'fine' leopard eyes caught the crook of my eyes.
"Yes. I'm not friends with you." Every word jumped out without thinking. I finished talking away from his gaze. Su Yunlie is too good at disguise. I don't want to be deceived by him anymore. I don't want to be swayed by him anymore.
Huo Ran hugged me tightly. Su Yunlie lowered his head. His thin 'lips' took over my 'lip' flap in an instant. I was surprised. Astound. Then there is shame. Trying to bring him down. He took the lead in removing his lips. After that, he said, "Yan'er. I'm sorry. I'm going to retract what I said earlier. You don't want to be friends with me. Then we ...... Be a lover."
'Shameless."' When the word 'lover' came out of Su Yunlie's mouth. I didn't feel half of the pleasure. I just feel that my heart is cold. Lover. A third party. No. It doesn't sound like what he means. Scold. SU Yunlie. What the hell do you think of me?" Mr. Sue, don't be kidding. I'm still young. I can't afford to make such a joke."
deliberately bites the word 'small'. I'm going to tell him. It's her who dislikes me for being small. I don't think I'm qualified to stand by his side. He was the one who said he didn't want me first. I just don't know why. So choking with him on the occasion. It felt like someone had stabbed me in the heart. It hurts to the bone. And I. Even though I gritted my teeth, I couldn't resist the urge to cry uncontrollably.
I'm not really happy to use crying to gain pity. But every time in front of this man. I can't hold back the bitterness in my heart. I want to cry to myself alone. But it can't be done. In front of this man. I want to be strong. I'm trying so hard not to let him look down on me. But I'm still so weak.
"You're still young." Su Yunlie listened to my slightly crying words. It seems to be extremely helpless.
I deliberately 'revealed' a bit of fierceness in my eyes. Then I opened my mouth. Fight back unceremoniously." Oh, yes. Mr. Su. Since you also admit that I am small. Then I'm going to find someone my age to be with. You shouldn't have any objections. No. My thing. It's never your turn. I have to go. I don't think Archer would want to see me show up here."
"Yan'er. Have you ever loved Ache?" I struggled. Thinking about escaping. But he is mighty. Grabbed my hand. He wouldn't let me get anywhere near the door.
"If you don't love it, will you accompany him to 'bed'. SU Yunlie. You're so funny. Can you stop asking me such childish questions. I don't like it. I don't want to answer either." This moment. I'm a venomous hedgehog. I'm a sensitive person. He hurt me like this. Say you don't care about me. I'm a slut to be reluctant to forget him. Not anymore." SU Yunlie. I'm going to strip you out of my world completely. I won't remember you again. Because you said it to me. It's nothing. I'll have a good time with Ache. Marry him and have children. I will take good care of him. Good to him. Like all ordinary and ordinary 'women' in the world. Love my husband so well......"
Speaking of the back, my voice is a little ethereal. These...... Is it really what I want. Why would I feel. All the words. It's so untrue that comes out of my mouth. Is it because I'm not really ready to be with Su Yunche? I'm always going to have to try." Ache......"
muttered the name. I conjure up such a picture in my head... I'm holding a DSLR. Archer first stood in front of his silver 'colored' car. Wait until the moment I press the fast door. Ache suddenly ran towards me. He was still shouting loudly. He shouted: Wife. I love you. Very much love, very loved.
Suddenly, I couldn't help but smile warmly. I was oblivious to the fact that my hand was still being restrained. I thought about covering my lips and letting go of the delicate and dense gentle tentacles in my heart. That's when I realized I couldn't move. Ah Che. Ah Che. I've never wanted to see him more than I do now. I want to meet him. I want to tell him. Ah Che. Yan'er loves you more than she thought. She loves you. More than she could have imagined. She always deliberately forgets. Forgetting that your departure has brought her so much scar and grief. Ah Che. You can stop working so hard. Yan'er wants to be with you. She wants to walk slowly with you. You're tired. Yan'er will be your harbor of docking.
Tilt your head. I think my eyes must have been full of hope at this point. I couldn't help but raise the corners of my 'lips'. I smiled heartily." SU Yunlie. Can you let me go? I'm going to find Ache. I suddenly wanted to see him. I'm going to find him. Then tell him. Tell him a lot, a lot. Yan'er has a lot to say to him. What to do. What to do, Su Yunlie. I was suddenly afraid that I would not be able to finish my words. I'm looking for Ache. I miss him. I really want to. Yan'er didn't want to leave him anymore. Yan'er has a lot of things to say to him. SU Yunlie. You don't have to worry about me. I'll be fine."
Some of them are incoherent. Because Su Yunlie didn't mean to let me go. I'm afraid he doesn't understand what I'm thinking. I had to persuade him flatteringly: "Su Yunshou. Hurry up and let go of my hand. You can rest assured. I'm fine. You don't have to worry about me."
The gaze is becoming more and more determined. I pursed a smile at the corner of my lips. In the end, he couldn't help but smile lightly and said, "Su Yunlie. You don't have to worry about me not growing up. I will be very attentive and very attentive to the long. I'll be fine. There's Ache in. I'll be fine. SU Yunlie. You can marry Miss Lin with confidence. Don't be afraid that I'll be bullied when I'm a kid. Ah Che, he didn't dare to bully me. If he bullies me. I'll bully me back."
I thought I had made it clear. I was even a little nervous with joy. But Su Yunhunt, why didn't he let go of me. Pursed his mouth. I stomped my foot again. I'm a little dissatisfied." SU Yunlie. I said I'd be fine. When are you ......"
I can't finish my sentence. Because Su Yunlie blocked my 'lips' again, I even felt a little difficult to breathe. Vaguely, I heard a deep male voice in my ear, "But you're alright. What am I going to do?"
"Su ...... Ah......" The warm palm of the man in front of me lifted my clothes. Already broken clothes. It's even more hideous now.' The softness of the chest is covered and kneaded. I don't understand...... Why did things turn out like this again.
"Yan'er. I don't want to give you to Ache. You don't like him anymore okay. What you want. I'll try to give it to you. You'll be by my side in the future. Don't leave......" Su Yunlie muttered a few words as he bit my neck.
My heart trembled. But all of a sudden, he pushed him up without hesitation." Not good. Not good. SU Yunlie. Let me go. I don't want to be nice to you. No. I've got Ache. I'm not greedy. I don't...... I want you. What you want to give. It's good to go and give it to others. It's enough for me to have Ache...... Yes. Let go...... Woohoo......"
No, no, no. SU Yunlie. You're lying to me again, aren't you. I don't want to be fooled by you. You big liar. If you treat me well, you will bully me. I don't trust you anymore.
Somehow I was pushed onto the couch again. This time. Su Yunlie didn't give me another chance to escape. My upper body was naked, and I humiliated myself with my hands in front of my breasts. Su Yun's 'legs' suppressed my 'chaotic' two 'legs', and his deep dark eyes stared at me." Yan'er. I figured it out. I'm going to be nice to you. This position around you. I'm going to. I won't give it to anyone else. Yan'er. Don't be angry with me. I'll marry you. Pamper you well and take care of you. I don't want to cringe so much anymore. That's good."
This moment. I saw the unwavering persistence in his eyes. Ke Su Yunlie. Why did you say such a thing to me when I decided to turn around? If you would have said something earlier. How did we get to this point? Closed my eyes. I have some tingling in my throat. The pain in my heart is even deeper.
Pink lips squirmed twice. I pondered for a while. It's finally time to get the words out of the mouth. I'm going to say. I want to tell him: Yun Hunt. I can't stand you letting go again and again. If you don't love me; Then don't give me hope. I'm not smart enough. Especially when it comes to dealing with feelings. I will be brave. But my bravery also has a bottom line. You slap me in the face and give me a candy like that. I don't like it. Not at all.
However, the words were not spoken. Su Yunlie had already covered my lips with his hand, and there were wisps of remorse and bitterness in his eyes. I don't want to see him so depressed. Such a he. It doesn't look like him anymore.
"Yan'er. You don't say it. Don't say anything. It's okay for you to listen to me." There was a pause. After making sure I didn't have any behavior trying to resist. He continued, "Yan'er. Ah Che has been a proud son of heaven who grew up next to his parents since he was a child. In the eyes of outsiders. He sunshine. Optimism. Assertive. Treat people more politely. Such an excellent Ache. How many people don't like it? Yan'er. Before going to my aunt's house that time, I had a little conflict with Ah Che. In fact, over the years, I have always understood that the relationship between our brothers is not so easy to ease. Things from the previous generation. I don't want to worry about it that much. But the two of us really don't look like brothers. This is a fact that I am still powerless to change. A lot of times I tell myself. Ache is my younger brother. Even if there's anything wrong with him. I should also choose to be inclusive. But that day, Ah Che casually said something bad about my mother. Maybe he didn't mean to, but I really can't ignore it. My mother. She couldn't be better. She was also pregnant in October. I was born with hard work. And he died in childbirth. My loved ones."
That's it. Su Yunlie's voice was already a little choked. I looked into his reddened eyes. For the first time, I knew that such a mighty and masculine man would have such a low 'fan' grief.
Maybe the 'female' 'sex' will always have a kind of maternal 'sex' feelings. I don't deny it. Even if I'm already unable to protect myself at this time. I still have a kind of man who wants to hug me. Give him even a little solace in thought.
"Yan'er. It was actually very cold that day. I went to the pool. I also want to let the cold water douse the fire in my heart. But obviously the effect is not very obvious. And the water was nowhere near enough to quench my anger. Later. I met you. When you swam clumsily towards me. All of a sudden, my mood changed for the better. I felt like I was in the snow. I don't expect anyone to pull me along. And yet here you are. Came into my life with such eagerness. I didn't know until later. You're the most beautiful accident of my life. It is also the last mistake that should be made. When I first saw you and Ache together. I'm feeling a little lost in my heart. That's when I thought. Actually, it's good that you're standing next to me. Merely. You're someone else's person after all. I'm also not good at 'meddling'. I knew when you broke up with Ache. But I only thought about looking for you for a moment. We are nothing. I can't find a position to go to you. Yan'er. That's what I told myself. I should have forgotten about you. Completely forget."
It was cold inside the room. In a few moments, my skin was shivering. Su Yunzhen pulled me up when he found out about this. And then he took me tightly into his arms. I don't allow it. He just whispered and persuaded: "Yan'er. Settle some. I don't really want to force you like that. But you're always trying to embarrass me."
The smell on Su Yunlie's body is very good. Different from Su Yunche. His arms. People can't bear to abandon it, but they are also deeply 'obsessed'. All my armaments crumbled in an instant. Don't resist. It's because I know it all too well. My rebellion is pointless. What's more. I know that even if I have a heart in my heart to find Su Yunche. As long as this man shows a little bit that he cares about me. I can't ignore his presence. He gave me a good one. I'm always reluctant to give up.
Silent. I buried my head down. Su Yunlie occasionally brushed my ink hair for me. Itchy hair. It tickles my heart. His warm palms. Gave me a fatal attraction. Clearly...... Nothing should be like this.
"Yan'er. If that time you don't show up in the disaster area. Don't run into the ruins and save me. I think. I'll never 'force' myself to admit it. Admit that I can't give you more than I thought I would. I can't leave you. So at that time I was thinking to myself. If only you could like me. How nice that would be." Su Yunlie spoke like a bitter self-deprecation. Bow your head and 'kiss' a few handfuls of my forehead. The warmth of his breath brushed the tip of my heart. A shudder. I scolded myself for not being emotionally touched by him anymore.
"Yan'er. That time in the hospital. I was particularly impressed by the sight of Acher seeing you. I know. Even though Ache has accepted the family's arrangement. promised to marry Yijing first. He still can't let you go. Also. Where is the emotion that can be buried when buried? At that time he said to let you go to the hotel to find him. Yan'er. Do you understand. I'm really scared you're going to go. I'm afraid...... I'm afraid you'll be his man. It's not because you're so young. It's because I like you. My heart tells me. I want to keep you. Don't want you to go. But what right do I have to do that? You may just be when I'm a friend. It's almost a tool used to stab 'excited' Ache. I'm actually very disgusted with this kind of identity. But there's nothing I can do. Yan'er. I can't force you to like me. But I can't take my affection back." My mind seems to have completely returned to the scene of being in the hospital a month ago. There was a light of remembrance on Su Yunlie's face.