The sound of the rain came from the window to my ears, through the faint halo of the window, my eyes and Gao Zijian looked at each other for a long time, he looked at me, I also looked at him, both of us seemed to be suppressing the restlessness in our hearts that could not be concealed, the more so, the more afraid I was.

Some words really can't be spoken, but when I hear the sentence "I love you", my heart still can't help but tremble.

"Chen Xiaojia, what are you afraid of?" Gao Zijian opened his mouth, still staring at me tightly, and said, "Is it Sun Yiqing?" ”

I didn't speak, but my expression showed acquiescence.

"I'll take care of his affairs, and I'll take care of it." Gao Zijian let go of my hand, brushed his fingertips over the bangs on the right side of my cheek, and said gently: "From the first time I met you, I knew that it was impossible for you to forget me." ”

I didn't dare answer, dodged his fingers, and hurried towards the bedroom.

The bedroom door was closed, and I leaned against the door, raising my fingers, and my fingertips stayed at the position where Gao Zijian's fingers had just scratched, as if they were still burning.

I knew I might fall, because I couldn't fool myself.

The mountain rain is still falling, listening to the sound of rain outside the window, the surroundings are surprisingly quiet, Gao Zijian's face appeared in front of me over and over again, I thought that I still have a lot of questions before I have time to speak, so we will go our separate ways.

And this time, I still didn't have time to speak.

Douzi had a high fever, at the beginning he just muttered uncomfortable, put his fingers on his forehead, obviously felt that his body temperature had risen a lot, and after taking out the thermometer to test, the high fever actually swept to thirty-eight degrees nine, I hurriedly dressed Douzi, at the moment his cheeks were red, and his spirit was not good.

It must be that the mountain wind blows for too long during the day, and it makes a stinky sweat, and at night it suddenly rains and cools down, and the cold and warm alternate too quickly, and the body can't stand it.

After dressing the beans, I glanced at my phone, and it was half past four in the morning.

"Mom, I'm uncomfortable......" Beanzi lay in my arms and whispered.

"Douzi is good, mom will take you to the hospital." My hand gently stroked Bean's head, put a hat on him and wrapped a scarf around him, and then pushed open the bedroom door, found the poncho, and prepared to go out.

There was a sudden sound on the stairs, and when I turned my head, I saw Gao Zijian standing there with a wooden face, and asked, "What's wrong?" It's still raining outside. ”

"Douzi has a fever and I have to go to the hospital." I hugged the beans tightly and said as I changed my shoes.

Gao Zijian jumped down the stairs directly and walked to the door, without an umbrella, and went straight into the rain.

"Stand here and wait for me, I'll go drive." The tone was a little cold, but there was no doubt about it.

I sighed softly, looked at the beans in my arms, and stood at the door, waiting for Gao Zijian to come back.

There are also hospitals in the scenic area, but they are only small clinics, the medical facilities are simple, and the beans are feverish, but I am still not at ease. The car stopped not far from the door, Gao Zijian's figure was running in the rain, he was fast and fast, and when he got closer, I suddenly found that his hair was half wet.

"The ground is slippery, the beans are held for me, and you follow behind." Gao Zijian raised his head, looked at me, and said very firmly.

I hesitated for a second, then held the beans to Gao Zijian, held up my umbrella, and followed behind them.

In just five minutes, I feel that it is very long, and there are many times when I go out alone, but there is no time when I will have a sense of security at this moment.

The tall back walked in front, and I followed him step by step, as if the next moment, a family of three would come to the end of happiness.

When I got to the car, Gao Zijian asked me to enter the car first, hugged the beans to me, pulled the seat belt casually, turned around the front of the car, and sat in the driver's seat.

On a rainy day, the road was slippery, the speed was moderate, Gao Zijian looked ahead intently, and his cold side face and two big hands holding the steering wheel were deeply imprinted in my mind.

The original one-hour drive, in Gao Zijian's hands, actually took only forty-five minutes, and when he arrived at the gate of the hospital in the town, Gao Zijian took the beans without hesitation and rushed indoors.

At five o'clock in the morning, the rain was still falling, and the white mist obscured the vision ahead, so I raised my feet and followed Gao Zijian in.

Undoubtedly, my heart is moved, I don't care, that's fake, every year, every rainy night, every snow day, I look forward to it, Gao Zijian, he can be by my side.

There was annoyance in anticipation, and after annoyance, there was disappointment, and when I was disappointed, I suddenly had an epiphany, it turned out that I just couldn't let go.

Now, when the man I love shows up when I need it most, the feeling is self-evident.

Half an hour later, the doctor examined the beans, and after the infusion, he hurriedly left. Before leaving, he sighed and said, "It's not easy, it's raining so hard, you can still come over if you live in Yunshui!" ”

Douzi fell asleep in bed, and strangely, all the way, in addition to feeling slightly uneasy about Douzi's situation, he actually felt very relieved all the time.

It's very reassuring because, Gao Zijian, he has always been by his side.

Raised his head and looked at Gao Zijian, his body was still semi-soaked, running back and forth in the hospital just now, and there were still drops of water on his hair, which was distressing to see.

I walked over, took the handkerchief out of my bag, reached out and wiped it on his forehead.

He looked at me with burning eyes, and I coughed lightly and said, "Here you go, wipe it first, and I'll go out and find some dry clothes." ”

Gao Zijian didn't answer, the corners of his mouth were upturned, and he looked at me with a wicked smile, motionless.

"Take it," I bowed my head and didn't look at him, my eyes falling on my handkerchief, flustered.

Gao Zijian finally raised his arm, not to pick up the handkerchief, but to hold me tightly in his arms.

"Chen Xiaojia, four years ago, we had an umbrella on a rainy day, do you remember?" Gao Zijian's voice sounded in my ears, and I was stunned, but the rainy day four years ago appeared clearly in front of me.

"I want to be with you. I've been looking for you for four years. Gao Zijian's voice was flat, but it seemed to reveal a huge magic power, and in an instant, the heart that had frozen me tightly melted in an instant.

When I hurriedly pulled out of the ward, mine was still shaking, what did he say? He's been looking for me for four years?

It's been four years, I've been looking for you - this sentence is swaying back and forth in my ears, Gao Zijian, he, really looking for me all the time?

Is Gao Zijian a magician? Why did I believe it as if I had fallen under a spell when he said that?

He said he was looking for me, but what about him and Liu Shihan? Aren't they married? He said he was looking for me, but why didn't he find me? He said he was looking for me because he had always loved me?

The man I love so much, the man I've been trying to forget, is still in love with me?

When this thought popped up in my mind, my heart instantly fell into a strong fluctuation, this was just my guess, but why, a guess, had already made me, can't help but jump, excited.

All excuses are not excuses, and if he loves me, why should I run away?

After searching for a long time in the market town, I finally found a clothing store, which surprised me, I actually clearly remembered the size of the clothes Gao Zijian was wearing, and the color of his favorite underwear.

Chen Xiaojia, when you were disillusioned, you didn't even have the best to survive, but now just because of his words, you are so happy, you have to admit, Gao Zijian, he will eat you.

There are gains and losses in his heart, but there is affirmation in the negation, which is what he cares about me, and it is also my secret love for him.

When these hit my chest directly, a thought suddenly popped into my mind, Gao Zijian, what have you experienced in the past four years?

In the four years that you and I have not crossed paths at all, you have been alone, what journeys have you experienced?

Walking all the way, thinking all the way, with breakfast in his hand and Gao Zijian's clothes, before he got close to the ward, he heard the voices of Gao Zijian and Douzi.

In an hour and a half, the drip should be over, right?

"Douzi, to be honest, is Uncle Zijian good to you?" Gao Zijian's voice came.

"Uncle Zijian, why do you have to ask these boring questions every day, my mother said, there are some things to keep in your heart." The delicate sound of beans.

"Stinky boy, isn't your mother here?" Gao Zijian's voice suddenly raised, and he continued to deceive, saying: "Uncle Zijian secretly told you that I have a killer feature here, which is super fun, if you answer Uncle Zijian's question, Uncle Zijian will take you to play." ”

"Hmph, I'm not interested." Beans whispered in response.

"Hey, forget it, yesterday Huahua told me that she wanted to learn to skate, so I'll teach her." This Gao Zijian, will he only fool children like this?

"If you teach her, you will teach her," Douzi's voice showed indifference, and I seemed to be able to imagine Gao Zijian's expression at the moment.

Slowly approaching the door and window, through the glass, I saw a scene that surprised me, Gao Zijian had taken off his coat, push-ups pressed on the bed, and Douzi was obediently lying on his back, still holding food in his hands.

On the back of the big body, the beans clinged to him like a koala, well-behaved and calm.

And Gao Zijian, as soon as he exercised, I don't know if it was my illusion, Gao Zijian's whole person was indeed much darker than before. His arms were stronger, and when he exercised, he could still see the tight biceps, and he looked at the beans sideways, not noticing that I was standing in the doorway.

"By the way, Uncle Zijian, are there any hip-hop monkeys in the skates?" The beans obediently stuck on Gao Zijian's back, asked for a bite of food in his hand, and asked calmly.

Only my mother knows, Xiaodouzi, is obviously tempted.

"Of course, Douzi, after a while, you follow your mother back to Uncle Zijian, Uncle Zijian will take you to the store to pick up, what you like, Uncle will buy it all for you."

"Then how can it be done, my mother said, Douzi likes it, and I want Douzi to make money to buy ......" Douzi said angrily: "But what? When Douzi is on his birthday, Uncle Zijian can send a gift to Douzi. ”

"When is the bean's birthday?"

"Oops, today's birthday is over, and we have to wait until next year."

"Bean, honestly, your birthday is last month, right?" Gao Zijian smiled, supported on the bed board with one hand, and hugged the beans tightly with the other hand.

"Uncle Zijian, I'm a kid who can withstand temptation!" Douzi said righteously.

"Okay," Gao Zijian sighed, suddenly turned over, put Douzi on the bed, father and son faced each other, Gao Zijian's expression was very serious, and asked: "Douzi, to be honest, which one do you think is better, Uncle Sun or Uncle Zijian?" ”

I knew that Gao Zijian couldn't put leftover buns in his dog's mouth, he and Douzi had only known each other for a few days, and he was so confident, had he forgotten Douzi's words yesterday?

"Bean, why don't you speak?" Gao Zijian saw that the beans were eating leisurely, and asked anxiously.

Douzi raised his eyes, glanced Gao Zijian up and down, and asked, "Honestly, Uncle Gao, are you trying to chase my mother?" ”

This one!!

I nervously prepared to open the door, but I was curious about Gao Zijian's answer now, staring at his side face, seeing him smiling without saying a word, very obscene.

"I know that there is nothing to do," Douzi nodded thoughtfully, Xiaomiya took a bite on the biscuit, and said: "You can also see that my mother is beautiful, there must be many people who like it, as for your ......" Douzi continued to observe Gao Zijian and said: "It looks black, average, and fiercer than my mother, at most, fifty points." ”

"So little?" Gao Zijian was not calm, his fingers gently pinched Douzi's face, and said, "That...... What about Sun Yiqing? ”

Douzi dodged Gao Zijian's hand and said, "Dad Sun has a good temper and is handsome, but he can't often accompany his mother, so ninety points." ”

"Hey, Xiaodouzi, we can't be so partial, you see you like me a lot, I'll tell you honestly, I'm ...... with your mother"

Gao Zijian was about to open his mouth, and before he could open his mouth, I pushed open the door and walked in.

Douzi's sharp eyes immediately saw me, and he shouted happily: "Mom......"

Gao Zijian looked at me with a depressed face, noticed the clothes in my hand, quickly jumped off the hospital bed, and said, "Bought it for me?" ”

I nodded, reached out and handed the clothes to Gao Zijian's hand, he looked at me with a happy face, pinched the bean's face again, and said, "Look, this is true love!" ”

I coughed softly, quickly avoided Gao Zijian's gaze, and lowered my head to get Bean's shoes.

When I went out, I forgot to bring my mobile phone, used Gao Zijian's phone to ask for leave from the school, and took the beans to measure my temperature.

Before getting into the car, I raised my eyes to look at Gao Zijian, and to my surprise, he actually looked at me and met my eyes, and I thought of what he said in the hospital room. Four years, Gao Zijian, have you really, been looking for me all the time?

(Tianjin)