I really want to be my original free and easy self, love if I love, and don't love if I don't love. But the current situation, how can it be explained clearly by just two sentences of love or not, at present, it seems that Sun Yiqing is owed for four years of protection, and similarly, he is also indebted to Gao Zijian, who is reluctant at this time.

It is said that husband and wife do not have an overnight feud, I believe it, a woman with a child, wants to live freely, that must be bullshit. But is this what I chose? Probably not.

Sometimes I wonder if if I hadn't met Gao Zijian, some things would have been a different approach. And my life may be a different way of living.

Gao Zijian thought that she understood me and asked me to rely on him and trust him, but what he wanted was to be together.

What about Sun Yiqing? How should I deal with it?

But any man in the world who can choose can't treat other people's sons as his own sons, and I also have such concerns, first, I feel that I can take care of the beans by myself, and second, I don't trust them if they are not biological, to be honest, I don't trust them.

Some people like to express it with overbearing actions, while some people only prefer to express it with the precipitation of years. Love is easy to get carried away, and it is natural to choose the former, but in fact, as a mother of a child, after these four years of experience, I will choose the latter.

If it weren't for Douzi's call for father's love, maybe in this life, I might have lived alone, I used to choose to love myself, and later, I learned to love others, and finally, in front of everything, I chose to love my children.

I also admit that the deep kiss yesterday made my heart beat faster, and I also admit that when I saw Gao Zijian, I still fantasized that I was an innocent little girl, and I also admitted that I still loved him.

Life has come this far, what is the use of loving him?

Facing the wind, I kept walking forward, looking at the mountains and rivers here, spending spring, summer, autumn and winter, thinking that human beings are just so small, why should they toss and turn on one thing?

I won't hesitate, if so, it will be the most unfair to Sun Yiqing, and it will be unfair to Gao Zijian, I believe.

I made up my mind, lifted my feet, and rushed to the kindergarten.

The red hip-hop monkey is a little dazzling, and what surprised me was that Douzi and Gao Zijian were actually wearing parent-child outfits.

"Mom!" Beans saw me and immediately ran over.

"Douzi......" I stretched out my arm, and suddenly felt less depressed, "What about Mr. Luo?" ”

Beanzi wrapped her arms around my neck and smiled and said, "Mom, I'll tell you a little secret." ”

A very mysterious voice immediately aroused my curiosity, I squatted in front of Douzi, sorted out his clothes, and asked with a smile, "What secret?" ”

Douzi bared his millet teeth, put his index finger to his mouth, made a silent motion, and said, "Mom promised me to keep it a secret for me." ”

I glanced at Gao Zijian suspiciously, and then looked at Douzi, except for the parent-child pretending to be a little strange, I didn't notice any abnormality, so I nodded and said, "Okay, keep it secret." ”

Douzi's little arm wrapped around me and said with a smile, "Mom, Uncle Zijian also has a hip-hop monkey in his bag, which is for you." ”

I was stunned, raised my head and looked at Gao Zijian, only to see him looking at me meaningfully, with deep eyes.

Children also have vanity, and Douzi's vanity is to tell his classmates that he has a father. This was the most important protection that a mother should give him, but I didn't do it.

Now, Beans asked me to put on a parent-child outfit, and I thought about it and did it.

When I came out of the bathroom, Douzi and Gao Zijian also put one hand in their pockets, tilted their heads and looked at me, and the next second, the two clapped their hands together and applauded me.

"Mommy is so beautiful."

"A big beauty."

The father and son sang and harmonized, which purely amused me.

A voice sounded in the distance, it turned out to be Douzi's friend Huahua, Douzi quickly ran over, and Gao Zijian walked towards me.

With one hand in the pocket of his pants, he said with a smile: "Chen Xiaojia, you should go and endorse the brand." ”

I coughed softly and asked, "Are you free at night?" I have something to tell you. ”

"Chen Xiaojia, do you agree?" Gao Zijian stepped forward, instantly took my hand, and said, "I know you ......."

I quickly withdrew my hand and said, "We'll talk about it in the evening." ”

Gao Zijian didn't let me go, one arm stretched out, a smile in his peach blossom eyes, and suddenly, a hand reached out in front of me, covering my chest directly.

“……”

I raised my head in astonishment, but saw Gao Zijian looking at me with a leisurely face, and said, "The head of the hip-hop monkey is really cute......

"Look, the monkey brain looks really good......"

“……”

Outrageous. Why does the heart beat so fast? Why do cheeks get red so quickly? I hurriedly turned around to look for Beans, only to hear Takako's hearty laughter.

Thinking that this might be the last time Douzi and I had such intimate contact with Gao Zijian, I took a deep breath and told myself to cherish it.

The sky is clear, the clouds are not stained, the distant mountains contain daisies, and the wind warms. It's really a good day today.

The breeze was blowing, mixed with the faint fragrance of flowers, laughter, one after another, several parents had already started to act with kites, and Douzi took my hand and walked to Gao Zijian and began to act.

The moment the kite was taken out, I was stunned.

It is a simple tropical fish style, but there are words written on the body of the tropical fish.

"CHEN XIAOJIA, BEANS, ILOVEU!"

Judging from the handwriting, it is Gao Zijian's handwriting.

"Mom, what do you mean by that?" Douzi also noticed the words on the kite, pointed to English and asked me curiously.

"This ......"

"Beans," Gao Zijian took the kite string, stroked the little face of Beans, and said, "It means ......"

"Beans, look there!" I shouted, hurriedly diverted the attention of the bean, Gao Zijian tried to get close to the bean in the past two days, in fact, I could see his intentions.

"Mom, fly so high......" Douzi is a child after all, and his attention immediately shifts.

I glanced at Douzi, my gaze shifted, and I happened to see Gao Zijian, who looked at me a little unwillingly, with one hand on the ground, leaning forward quickly, leaving a shallow kiss on my lips.

He was actually in so many parental occasions......

"Chen Xiaojia, one day, I will let you read it out yourself......" Gao Zijian looked at me with a smile and a strong confidence on his face.

This voice, this intonation, is the same as before.

All afternoon, Gao Zijian was in a state of running, the kite flying field was very large, we were like a real family of three, wearing eye-catching parent-child clothes, running back and forth, the screams and laughter of beans filled my ears, and the little peach blossom eyes stared at Gao Zijian, and the kite in the sky.

Sometimes I wonder, what is true love? It is like a kite, no matter how high it flies, no matter how far it flies, it will always be towed if it has love in hand.

It's a pity that I verified it too late.

At the end, Gao Zijian gave his mobile phone to Huahua's parents, and let our family of three take the first group photo.

I'm smiling at the camera, only I know how unrealistic and precious this moment is.

On the way back, Gao Zijian asked Douzi: "Douzi, do you still want to fly a kite in the future?" ”

Douzi looked at me, pondered for a moment, looked at me and said, "Mom, when will Daddy Sun come back?" ”

I didn't expect Douzi to ask this question at this moment, and I didn't raise my head to look at Gao Zijian's expression at the moment, but I could clearly feel that the atmosphere was much duller.

Douzi and Sun Yiqing also have a deep relationship.

At dinner, Douzi and I sat on one side of the table, Gao Zijian sat on the other side, the beans ate with relish and laughed from time to time, while Gao Zijian only ate a few bites.

His frustration and mine are probably the same.

He was able to show it directly, and I couldn't.

Maybe the basin of cold water that the beans inadvertently squirted out is very hurtful, but Gao Zijian, long pain is better than short pain.

Suddenly, a cold wind blew through the window, and when I turned my face to look, it seemed that it was going to rain.

After dinner, I arranged Douzi to sleep, thinking about what I was going to say when I saw Gao Zijian, and I felt irritable in my heart.

Chen Xiaojia, what are you reluctant to do?

When I came out of the bedroom, I looked up and saw Gao Zijian sitting there with a dejected face. Sensing my gaze, he immediately stood up and walked coldly towards me.

Worried about alarming the beans, I took two steps forward and walked to the bathroom.

Gao Zijian followed closely, and I seemed to be able to hear my own heartbeat.

As soon as the bathroom door was opened, Gao Zijian suddenly rushed over, I reached out to block, his hands and feet moved quickly, his movements were very skillful, as if he was fighting, and pressed me directly against the wall.

"Gao Zijian ......"

I struggled, but I was already very close to Gao Zijian's face.

Outside the window is the sound of rain falling, and next to my ears, is the sound of Gao Zijian's rapid breathing.

"Chen Xiaojia, tell me, do you love me?" Gao Zijian's eyes were dark, like a cheetah ready to hunt in the dark, and his voice was hoarse.

I didn't dare to answer, so I could only remain silent.

"Chen Xiaojia, listen, I, love, you." Gao Zijian looked at me and said word by word.

I avoided his gaze, my arm struggling slightly, but he couldn't move, but his other hand was on the back of my head.

"Chen Xiaojia, will you marry Sun Yiqing?" Gao Zijian saw that I was silent, and asked again. Only this time, the voice did not have the certainty and arrogance of the previous sentence.

I turned my face to look at Gao Zijian and said, "Yes." ”

"Because of the beans?" Gao Zijian looked at me stubbornly and asked again.

I took a soft breath and said, "No, because I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself again." ”