166 All our lives we have been rampant
I took a sip of green tea from the teacup, Jiang Ciyun coughed lightly, and asked, "I'm going to send my child to kindergarten tomorrow, the best school, the principal I just contacted." ”
I nodded: "It's time for her to go to school, and other people's children are in middle school at this age." "On the one hand, Shang Lin said that kindergarten was useless, and he was better than a kindergarten teacher by teaching a child alone, and on the other hand, he needed a birth certificate and other documents for admission, and I didn't have these things in my hand at that time.
Jiang Ciyun smoked a whole cigarette in a few puffs, he forced the cigarette butt into it, turned sideways and said to me, "Yingying, I miss you very much." ”
I looked at him and didn't answer. After a while, he asked calmly, "Tell me about the events before we separated." When you take me on a trip, you know that Yunshen will have an accident, right, that's why you're so good to me. and Xu Mushen, Qin Feng, Yan Jin, when did they reconcile with you, or are they even cooperating with you in acting? ”
Jiang Ciyun looked a little manic, he reached out to touch the cigarette case again, but the cigarette case was already empty, he threw the empty box into the trash can irritably, and shook his head when he looked at me again.
I was stunned: "So, you know that Shang Lin will definitely attack them, and even your best friends have been calculated by you?" ”
His silence gave me the answer.
I couldn't help laughing, and said lightly: "Jiang Ciyun, you are really a person with special luck, do you know? How many people treat you sincerely, even if they know that they are used by you, they will still reconcile with you in the end. In fact, it's not how important you are, it's just because people have feelings, and they can't let go of the brotherhood with you for a few years to tolerate what you do, and they will stand in your position for your sake. ”
Jiang Ciyun stared at me, he was still silent, but his eyes shrank significantly.
He suddenly reached out and pulled me into his arms, and I tried to shake him off like a virus, his arm was so strong that it didn't give me the slightest chance to roll over.
"Yingying, I miss you so much." Jiang Ciyun didn't defend himself, and repeated his previous words in a low voice.
"Jiang Ciyun, you let me go. We haven't been together for more than three years, and when the time comes, you are the same person who filed for divorce with the court, and we are not husband and wife at all now. ”
Yes, he may have done this to convince Shang Lin that he no longer wanted me, but it was a heavy blow to me. The more he loved me before, the more he spoiled me, the slightest injury would become cruel and fatal, not to mention that it was not a small injury he gave me at all, if there was no Xiaoyan's existence, without the company of Shang Lin, the 'culprit', maybe I would have suffered from depression, or even more serious consequences.
My eyes became sharp, and Jiang Ciyun refused to let go. I was about to speak, but he suddenly kissed me, as if he had his own grievances and the feeling of being forced to eat me.
I bit his lip, and soon the smell of blood came in, and he was unconscious, still kissing me no matter how much I bit his lip.
I was pressed to the couch with my hands clasped above my head, his tears falling into my eyes, and his lips were almost bitten and bloody from me.
His eyes turned red as a rabbit, and he said sullenly, "You really don't want me anymore?" You just have to say yes, Jiang Ciyun will never bother you again! ”
I opened my lips slightly.
It's the same as Yan Jin's words at the beginning.
Yan Jin said this sentence and didn't appear again for a long time, he married another woman and had children......
An endless panic suddenly swept over my brain.
This feeling is terrible, and my heart still throbs, I am afraid, and I am reluctant. But obviously this man has disappeared from my life for so long, and I feel that I am used to not being without him, how can my heart still hurt.
"Speak." My voice was hoarse, adding a bit of magnetism.
I just looked at him, my throat seemed to be pinched by a pair of hands, I couldn't breathe smoothly, I couldn't speak, and I let Jiang Ciyun's tears fall into my eyes every few seconds.
"Why don't you say it? Yes? His brow furrowed, and his voice shattered.
I'm really, speechless.
His face slowly pressed down again, dilating under my eyes until I felt the warmth of his lips again when I lost focus.
He even bit me, but he bit me very lightly, as if he was afraid that I would be hurt, but the feeling of tearing still made me react.
I was disgusted with my own incompetence, and this most honest reaction had come at a bad time, but how could I be so powerless to resist.
His grip on the top of his head seemed to be powerless, and I let go, letting the remarkable kissing technique that had driven me crazy drive away all my pride and sanity.
The kiss with the smell of blood lasted for a long time, and I was completely captured by him and was reluctant to bite him again, because I knew very well that Jiang Ciyun would not stop even if I bit off a piece of meat from his mouth.
Finally, he stood up, looked at me and said, "Hard, is the kiss cool?" ”
Hearing this, I suddenly pushed him away and curled up in the corner of the sofa to fix my hair.
Jiang Ciyun pulled a few tissues from the table and wiped the broken part of his lips. I peeked a few times and saw that there was clearly a small patch of red blood on the snow-white tissue.
He crumpled up the tissue and threw it in the trash, turning his head to look at me.
I quickly looked away, and he quickly sat down next to me.
My jaw was choked by his hand, and his fingertips rubbed against me, probably with his blood on my lips.
He said sullenly, "I haven't been kissed for too long, and it's swollen so quickly." ”
I felt so embarrassed that I wanted to leave, but his arm came in from behind, put his arm around my waist and pulled it back.
I threw him on the lap and his face was pressed against me and I said, "So much time has been wasted, stop arguing." All right? ”
"I just thought you kissed quite comfortably, it didn't make any sense, don't think too much." I tried my best to hide my chaotic breathing.
Jiang Ciyun's face was a little wet, I couldn't tell whether it was sweat or tears just now, he was like an addictive powder, he knew that it was very poisonous, but addicted people wouldn't mind their own poison at all.
After settling down, I turned around and still had to go.
He suddenly said, "Since it doesn't make sense, why didn't you respond to what you asked just now?" Yingying, you still love me, don't fool yourself. ”
A cry of wow, freed me from this whirlpool.
Jiang Ciyun quickly let go of me, and he and I rushed upstairs in unison.
In the room, Xiaoyan sat with tears in her eyes, and when she saw me, she cried even more fiercely, shouting that she wanted to go home.
I didn't know if she was sleepwalking or awake to vent her uneasiness, so I went over and patted her on the back, and after a few moments she closed her eyelids and fell asleep.
I glanced at Jiang Ciyun: "Have you seen it?" This is a strange place for Xiaoyan, I won't forgive you, I won't stop you if you want to make amends to the child, but what you just did to me, I hope there will be no next time. ”
When I say hurtful things, I hurt myself just as deeply.
I pushed Jiang Ciyun out of the door, and when the door slammed shut, I slowly slid down against the door.
It was a heart-wrenching reunion.
The next morning, just after dawn Xiaoyan woke up, I was also woken up because of this movement, I carried her downstairs to get her food, and when I walked to the staircase, I saw a messy wine jar on the coffee table.
He drank again last night.
Jiang Ciyun woke up when I made breakfast, and he looked at the time and said that he had made an appointment with the school and would send her to kindergarten today.
Xiaoyan has no friends of the same age since she was a child, and I originally thought that she would cry when she went to school, but before she entered the school gate, she saw many children, which was very strange. The teacher is a person who seems to be very patient, Jiang Ciyun politely explained a few words, and the teacher said again and again: "Don't worry, leave the child to me, I will take good care of it." ”
"She hasn't been to school before, and her foundation may be a little poor, so help her more." Jiang Ciyun said.
I want to laugh in my heart, Xiaoyan's foundation is probably much better than that of children of the same age. Because Shang Lin took her, she could memorize several Tang poems, and she would do some simple arithmetic, and the best thing was to paint, she was very bold in coloring.
When I got back in the car, I said, "Take me to the hospital." ”
Jiang Ciyun lit a cigarette: "Why are you so good to him?" Are you in love with him? Yes? ”
I turned my head, and there was a faint layer of anger between his eyebrows. Starting
I said, "Who do you care I love?" ”
"You said you wouldn't leave me before, and what you said didn't count? Or did I not kiss enough yesterday? Jiang Ciyun frowned.
"I have a lot of choices now, and I don't have to eat back grass." I turned my head and looked out the window. I said this to Lu Li before, but now when I say it to Jiang Ciyun, I feel completely different.
Suddenly, I was startled, his fist smashed on the steering wheel, and he said fiercely: "Like Shang Lin and Ah Shen?" Yes? ”
I really him off.
Jiang Ciyun showed a very frightening look on his face, and the hot blood seemed to be gushing out of the white of his pupils.
He dared to be fierce to me, and the anger in my heart was about to burst like a balloon.