This matter soon spread in the school, and countless girls were moved by Zhao Qinhan's true feelings for me, and even more moved by his heartfelt confession. ∵ eight ∵ eight ∵ read the ∵ book, .↗.▲o His confession was passed on ten times to hundreds, and for a time it became a specimen of the annual confession, and was recommended by countless boys when they confessed. Everyone gave Zhao Qinhan a resounding title - Z Great Love Saint.

In this atmosphere of rave reviews, Xu Song resigned from the position of president of the student union, so this profession naturally fell to Zhao Qinhan. After Zhao Qinhan became the new president of the student union, under his leadership, the school began to flourish clubs and carry out various social activities, and for a while, countless large and small clubs sprung up like mushrooms after a rain. Campus life is more lively than ever, and I, because I am liked by such a famous person, I have been pushed to the forefront at once.

This matter naturally reached Jin Yan's ears, and since then, the two of them have had countless large and small duels. Than basketball, more than dancing, more than singing, better than billiards, and even better than online games...... Almost every once in a while, you can hear about who they are winning and who is losing. Overall, the two are evenly matched, so neither of them is convinced.

This kind of competition was like a disaster for me, and I couldn't rest down for a whole semester. They all began to be kind to me vigorously, and every day they came up with all kinds of tricks to please me. My desk was often full of snacks and fruits, and from time to time girls in my dorm room came to me with flowers, and I could hear about the efforts they made to pursue me every two days or two...... The original pure and incomparable love has completely changed its flavor in such a comparison and competition between you and me. And all this is not under my control at all.

They didn't care about my feelings, no one cared if they were really happy to do this, I just became a gimmick for them, in fact, what they really cared about later on, was whether they won or lost each other, not me. Knowing this, I was anxious from the beginning, and slowly became calm and calm, I did my things step by step every day, and felt that there were too many disturbances, so I resigned from the student union for some reason, and tried to make myself study quietly, away from this disturbance caused by me.

I found that in the end, I became an outsider.

The second semester passed in this way, Zhao Qinhan was promoted to the president of the student union, and the originally lifeless campus atmosphere was made vibrant, and his great achievements were even appreciated by the school, and he specially formed a debate team, and won the first place in the debate competition for the first time; Jin Yan can overshadow Zhao Qinhan in basketball, football, billiards, dance, etc., but he is not Zhao Qinhan's opponent at all in the field of literature. Jin Yan's former set, mixed in society, with his status as the president's nephew, can indeed flourish, but in the campus where culture is the main field, Jin Yan lost badly, and lost the sense of mystery he once had in everyone's minds.

What I feel most about this incident is the change in people's consciousness. Jin Yan is like the idol that we once fell in love with and blindly followed when we were young boys and girls; And Zhao Qinhan is a powerful faction that we gradually know how to appreciate and admire after maturity. The two mysterious and loud words of "Jin Shao", with our finally lost youth turned into a special symbol of a certain blind obedience period, Jin Yan was pushed off the altar in his last semester of campus career, and Zhao Qinhan, because of the competition with Jin Yan, became a "spiritual leader" with both ability and political integrity in the minds of everyone.

Zhao Qinhan has always taken good care of me, whether it is my studies or my life, he has always cared for me from a distance. He's so good at being a man that I can't talk to him with a straight face, I've told him to give up more than once, but he just smiled and was as nice to me as ever, he always had a high profile in my life, he always told everyone that the love of his life was me, which added more points to his demeanor.

After reading a lot of books, my experience of life has gradually deepened, and my feelings for everyone have become more and more profound. I smelled a hint of politics in his actions. I think he might become a powerful politician like his father. He is like a natural careerist, maintaining a burning ambition and incomparably exuberant vitality for all the things he desires in this world.

Because of the complete loss, Jin Yan seemed to have been hit, and for a long time, he took the initiative to appear in my sight. He is such a proud person, but in this game with Zhao Qinhan, he was defeated in all directions. The skills he is proud of are not the home of life after all. In the home field of life, he collapsed. Perhaps, this is the consequence of not working hard!

Life is not immutable, what we owe must be repaid after all, the innate wealth and identity can not accompany us throughout our lives, we will always meet higher opponents than us on the road of life, and their appearance makes our previous halo eclipsed. One of the harshest realities in the world is that there are people who are not only good but also work harder than you. Life is like a fierce competition, winning at the starting line is only a short-term victory, and winning at the finish line is the most gratifying victory. However, there is no end to life, and every end we think of often becomes a new starting point. I think Jin Yan must have experienced a profound experience in this battle, and perhaps, he was hit hard.

He does not have Zhao Qinhan's strong psychological endurance, although he has been fierce and brave, but he has never gotten rid of the greenhouse, he once despised life and was willing to fall outside the mainstream life, thinking that that kind of life is chic and comfortable, thinking that life is to take an unusual road is a kind of personality, but often this concept will one day be slapped by life. Zhao Qinhan is the slap that fate gave him. I think Jin Yan never thought that he would lose until he thought he had won, but everyone felt that he had lost this day.

Although he spent four years of his college career not doing his job, he still got his diploma because of his family. On the day he graduated, I took the initiative to go to him.

When I found him, he was wearing a black bachelor's gown, sitting unusually quietly in the pavilion on the edge of the small lake in my school, quietly looking at the calm lake in a daze.

In the middle of summer another year, the lotus flowers bloom again, and you can smell the breathtaking fragrance from afar. I searched for a long time before I realized that he was here, so I walked gently to his side.

"Congratulations, I have succeeded in my studies." I pretended to be relaxed and sat down across from him with a smile on my face.

He looked at me with a solemn expression on his face, and he asked me in surprise, "Why are you here?" ”

"I'm here to see you, it's been a long time since I've seen you. Shouldn't I spend a day like today's with you? I said with a smile.

He smiled reluctantly and said lightly, "There's nothing to be happy about." ”

After saying that, he looked at me and said, "You shouldn't be with me." ”

"Why?" I asked, feigned puzzled.

"Because I lost, I don't deserve you, I think he deserves you more." Jin Yan said lightly, turning his back to me, no longer letting me see the expression on his face.

"Feelings are not a game, and I am not a bargaining chip for whoever wins. When you say that, don't you take me too lightly? I laughed dumbly, disappointed by Jin Yan's words.

In the past six months, he has always been busy with the game with Zhao Qinhan, and neglected the warmth I care about the most. I didn't think I was like a bargaining chip in his heart, but now it seems that maybe I'm just a bargaining chip to win or lose.

However, his next answer rejected my idea. With his back to me, his black coat lining his shoulders, he said, "I didn't use you as a bargaining chip, I just wanted to prove that I would be the best of all the men who pursued you." But now, I'm losing. What will I give you happiness with? ”

Only then did I realize that men's thinking patterns are different from women's, and most of what women care about is the careful care and care of ordinary days; What a man cares about is whether he will be the best person among the men who appears next to you and gives you the most happiness.

"With you, I am happy. Those games, those wins and losses, mean nothing to me. If you understand what I want, maybe you won't compare those with Zhao Qinhan. I said calmly.

"He said he was more capable of staying with you, and I felt ashamed at first, and I wanted to frustrate his spirit. But now, I find myself ridiculous. Pan Rushu, am I a man who is good for nothing but playfulness? He still had his back to me, but I could feel the frustration in his words.

"The person I love is not him, and no matter how good he is, it has nothing to do with me." I tapped him on the shoulder and tried to get him to turn his head to look at me, but he remained unmoved.

Then I said, "The difference between you and him is that he worked hard at the age when he should have worked hard, and you didn't." ”

"Yes," he replied thoughtfully, "but I don't know how to work hard, my life is a mess." Pan Rushu, if you are with me, there will be no results, he is right. ”

"What's wrong with you now? How could you be defeated so easily? What about those tempers you used to have? What about the momentum you used to have in the sky? Where are they gone? When I heard him say these depressing words, I felt very uncomfortable, and I couldn't help but provoke him.

I thought that this kind of agitation would make him wake up at once, but unexpectedly, he was not only indifferent, but actually said: "Yes, I have changed, I am no longer the same person I used to be." ”

Then he stood up and disappeared from my sight without looking back. I was amazed and couldn't believe it.

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