I reached out to Lin Ran and wiped the tears on her face, Lin Ran took a step back, stopped my next move, and just continued, "Liuliu, when do you say you can understand and cherish the person in front of you?" You don't understand how much I love you, do you? Why are you like this? You've been like this with her for a long time. You obviously know that she likes you too, but if you have me, don't you know how to be satisfied, won't you be decisive? ”

I didn't know what to say, I just remained silent.

"Actually, I hate Xi Yu, why does she always surround my Liuliu, Liuliu is mine, isn't it. Every time I thought she was going to let go, she kept going. Until it drags me down. In the end, she was still good, and in the end, she won. I don't have her big belly, and I can't handle you. For so many years, from the day I first met you, until now, I have not been able to manage you well. ”

I looked at Lin Ran and listened to her words, I don't know why, tears flowed out like that.

"Liuliu, you shed tears, hehe, that's fine, that means, you still have a little conscience, in fact, you can't blame Xiyu, if you were decisive earlier, it wouldn't be like this, Liuliu, you know, I live so big, the happiest time is to take wedding photos with you, although it's just some photos, but I still wear a wedding dress before Xiyu, isn't it? In fact, to be honest, Liuliu, am I uglier than Xi Yu? I just don't have a good personality like her, nothing else, I'm no worse than her, why don't you cherish me, why, you tell me. Even if you give up on me now, can you go with her to the end? Who can say what will happen in the future? You who were lying next to my pillow, holding me in your arms again, and swearing to me. What do you do now? What did you do? You just broke my heart. ”

I was so uncomfortable that I couldn't control my tears. He didn't speak, because he really didn't know what to say.

"Look at you, I want to follow you so desperately, I want to marry you, really. But why are you so cruel, like this again and again, do you say Xi Yu is good? Doesn't she have any eyes at all? No one is stupid, I understand a lot of things, I just don't say it. I always endure again, always endure again. So, when you endure until you have nothing, you don't have to endure it, do you? ”

"Liuliu, I have always thought that you are my everything, every time I have difficulties, or when I am unhappy, I am always the first to think of you, even if my mother and my father divorced, I also stubbornly insisted that I don't care if I get divorced, I have my Liuliu with me, I don't care about anything. In your words, that's not a problem, is it? Lin Ran looked at me, "Liu'er, let me ask you, our relationship for so many years is not worthy of your sincerity, is it." ”

"No, it's not like that, I love you, really."

"Love me?" Lin Ran stood up and smiled, "You were holding another woman in your arms, and then you said you love me?" ”

The first time I was so dazed, the first time I was so overwhelmed "You don't want this, I was wrong, I'm sorry." I'm sorry. I said, holding my head, "I'll change it later." It must be changed. ”

"You can't change it, you were born with such a character, you can't see girls crying, you can't deal with these things, you don't know what rejection is. What is ambiguous. You always say how responsible, responsible, I don't deny it, indeed. But have you ever thought about what good it is if you are unfaithful, no matter how responsible you are? ”

"I'm not being unfaithful, really."

"No?" Lin Ran smiled, "Then tell me, what do you have to do to be considered disloyal." What do you want me to do, and how do you want me to tolerate you. Liuliu, I'm not a fool, you and Xiyu, really have nothing, haven't you ever given birth to anything? ”

I paused for a moment, then looked up at Lin Ran and was silent.

"I slashed you, so I forgive you that night. So I forgive you for those entanglements with Xi Yu, so I keep reminding you, always hinting at you, telling you to stay away from her, I didn't tell you, did I? Or would you never have thought I'd know, would you? Just like today, you wouldn't have thought I'd come, would you? ”

I grabbed my head with both hands, lowered it, and didn't say a word.

Lin Ran sat next to me, picked up a bottle of beer, and opened it. Just drink it.

I turned my head and reached out and grabbed her arm.

"You let go of me, okay. It's not your turn to care about me. ”

"Don't do that."

Lin Ran shook off my arm and took a few sips of beer, "Actually, I can't blame you entirely, it's useless to blame anyone, if you really want to blame, then blame myself." I'm cheap, it's my own problem, I know that you can't be trusted, you don't deserve your trust, but I still comfort myself, I said that Liuliu is a responsible person, and even took wedding photos with me, and we are going to get married in the future. I've always fantasized about our later lives, about your promise to me, and now, I'm alone with what you've done to me. Bearing it alone, my disappointment in fantasy. Fantasy, after all, is fantasy. ”

"I never thought you could change so quickly, so completely. It made me feel helpless. It breaks my heart to be so much. ”

"I didn't. I love you. ”

Lin Ran raised his head, then put his head on the side of my face and kissed the side of my face, "Liuliu, I know you love me, and I love you too, you know." ”

I just wanted to continue talking, but at this time, Lin Ran spoke again, "But I can't stand your behavior like this, I can't stand you treating me like this, think about it, Liuliu, you treat me like this, treat a woman who has been with you for so many years, are you still a person?" ”

"Listen to me, okay?"

"Explain?" Lin Ran smiled, "You still have to explain to me, what a ridiculous thing, in fact, you don't have to explain anything, is it useful to explain?" Sixty-six, between us, so many years, so many entanglements, let's draw an end today. You have a good girl's relationship, without me, you will live a better life, you will have a lot less constraints, do a lot of things, and you can be open, isn't that better. ”

I glanced at Lin Ran. Then he lowered his head again and did not speak.

Lin Ran continued to take a sip of wine, "Actually, the matter of two people, the third person, can never be explained, the reason why we are like this is what we are now, Liu'er, you ask yourself, is it caused by your hands, in fact, I also know that no one is completely inseparable from whom, whoever is gone, can live, the days with you, I am very happy, I am very happy, I like you to play treasure, I like yours this, I like you that." But I don't like your indecision in dealing with the problem of the opposite sex. Actually, I've always wanted to talk to you about this, but I haven't had the chance, but today I have, but unfortunately, it's the last time. ”

"You can't be ambiguous with a lot of women, because you can't marry a lot of women back home, can you? Now that Xiyu has dragged me down, will she be able to go on with you in the future? Lin Ran smiled, "I'm not that great, I won't bless you, and you don't deserve my blessing, Liuliu, you completely ruined me." It's true. ”

I turned my head, looked at Lin Ran, reached out and grabbed her arm, and snatched the beer in her hand, "Don't be like this, okay." ”

"What am I? Shall I not drink alcohol? ”

"I'm sorry, really."

Lin Ran smiled, "These things, there is nothing to be sorry for, right." What's more, I'm sorry to hear you, I've heard enough. Okay, Liuliu, I've been talking to you for so long, so let's leave it at that, okay. ”

"Which one?"

Lin Ran didn't speak, just picked up the thermos pot on the ground again, and then handed it to me, "Liuliu, drink it, clear the lungs, nourish the stomach, the method, remember, if not, I'll write it down for you." ”

"Don't do that."

Lin Ran stopped my urge to continue talking, "I'm so big, it's the first time I've boiled soup for others to drink, my parents raised me so big, I haven't drunk the soup I boiled, my dad has been smoking for 2o years, and I haven't boiled it for him once, I deliberately boiled it today, I'll give you a drink first, give me the person I love the most, give me the most favorite memories, give me the pain I love the most." When Lin Ran said this, tears flowed down again, and then she didn't speak, just took a spoon and fed me one bite at a time.

I leaned numbly on the sand, drank the soup she boiled one by one, looked at Lin Ran's face, and suddenly felt so familiar, so strange, I felt the distance between us for the first time, and I felt for the first time that there was irretrievable between us.

Lin Ran fed me and drank all the soup, and then looked at me, "Liu'er, let's get it clear, okay." In the future, the two do not owe each other. Then Lin Ran wiped his tears, "I won't cry anymore, I'm fine, you can't see girls crying." Save you from feeling uncomfortable. Now you've finished the soup. Alright, let's stop here, it's all over. I won't cry anymore, and we'll go our separate ways. You don't want my life to appear anymore. It's good for you, it's good for me, isn't it. ”

I looked up at Lin Ran and didn't say anything, just took out another cigarette, lit it, smoked, and didn't know what I was thinking about anymore, just kept smoking, smoking.

I think about the girl who has been with me since junior high school, I think about the ups and downs of our years and the experience of so many things, but I have always been with the girl by my side, I think about our relationship for so many years, just like this, little by little. I can't help it, I can't forget it.

I looked up, looked at Lin Ran, and tried to make a final effort, "Give me another chance, okay." In a few days, it will be fine, okay?"

Lin Ran looked at me, shook his head very firmly, and then sighed, "Liu'er, from today onwards, we will have our own destiny." ”