"Yaoyao! You don't have to say a word! If you speak rudely to your sister-in-law again, I'm going to be angry! Zhao Qinhan saw Zhang Yao say this to me, so he said fiercely to Zhang Yao.

"Brother, didn't I say you, I don't know what's going on between you? She was with Jin Yan before, and the two of them were going to have a wedding, and now she suddenly got a certificate with you, and she has a child! Don't you think it's a big deal? Brother, don't blame me for not reminding you, there are a lot of men cuckolding these days! Don't be cuckolded, and raise children! Zhang Yao shouted to Zhao Qinhan.

At that moment, I saw Zhao Qinhan's face darken instantly, and that expression made me palpitate. Zhang Yao was frightened by Zhao Qinhan's expression, and stuck out her tongue stupidly: "Okay, you are responsible for your own affairs, if you are happy to be a father, you will be, it has nothing to do with me." ”

After speaking, she turned her head and looked at me again: "Pan Rushu, others don't know your details, but I know your details very clearly!" I'm warning you! If you dare to ruin our family's reputation and do those things that are immoral, I will not spare you first! ”

Zhang Yao finished speaking quickly, and saw Zhao Qinhan waving his hand at her angrily, and hurriedly opened the door and ran away. After Zhang Yang left, Zhao Qinhan slowly turned around and faced out the window, his heavy back told me that his mood was burdened with a huge and unsolvable shadow because of Zhang Yao's words just now.

I waited for him to say something, this unspeakable embarrassment was suffocating, but in the end, he didn't mention anything, just said lightly: "I bought a villa on the autumn mountain in Hangzhou, the villa is second-hand, the former owner went abroad, the house has not lived at all, and it has not been rented out, the room is very clean, and the decoration is very elegant, I think you will like it." There are birds singing and fragrant, and the environment is elegant, which is suitable for raising a baby. I asked someone to buy you a big bookshelf, and I bought all the books you like to read, and ......"

Before Zhao Qinhan finished speaking, I interrupted him coldly: "Don't be so nice to me, I won't appreciate it." Also, what your sister said is not wrong at all, I really don't understand, why do you insist on marrying me when you know this will happen? You might as well divorce me, I won't mind what kind of sewage you pour on me, why bother if you are like this? ”

"Marriage is for life, little book. Since I plan to get a certificate with you, I have a plan to never divorce. Zhao Qinhan finished speaking lightly, and said softly: "Is there anything you want to eat?" I'll buy it for you. ”

At that moment, the blood in my whole body instantly coagulated, my whole body was trembling, I felt as if my whole body was out of control, and my emotions were about to rush out, but I could only desperately endure and endure, I gritted my teeth with hatred in my heart, but I had to compromise on such a kind of confinement, I can't be angry, I can't be excited, I'm so controlled by others, but I can't resist, I have to be patient.

The next day, I was escorted by Zhao Qinhan to the villa in Qiushan, a huge mountain, and there was only such a villa alone in one place. There is an electrical grid installed around the villa, four security guards are on duty 24 hours a day at the door, and surveillance is installed throughout the room.

Zhao Qinhan told me that this monitoring is to prevent thieves. Hehe, what a far-fetched excuse.

Because I didn't want Aunt Gu to take care of me, Zhao Qinhan specially hired a nanny for me, and all the daily necessities in the room were readily available, and everything was brand new.

When my hand touched the delicate carved bookshelf and the soft and silky carpet, I didn't have a trace of surprise in my heart, I turned my head to look at Zhao Qinhan, and said sarcastically: "Someone else's golden house hides Jiaojiao, at least the hidden woman is eternal, and it is impossible to conceive someone else's child." It's good for you to take such pains for a woman who doesn't belong to you physically and mentally. ”

"Isn't there a saying? It's hard to buy a thousand dollars, and I'm happy. I am willing to do all this for you, I hate to bring you all the good things in the world, I am very satisfied to see you follow me to live such a life, this is my greatest happiness. "Zhao Qinhan disagreed with my words.

"If a man has affection, he will be full of water. If people are ruthless, even if they are gold and silver houses, they are just gorgeous and empty decorations. Zhao Qinhan, you will never understand what I really want. Moreover, it is necessary for me to remind you that with the income of a section chief, it should be difficult for you to bear such an expense, right? ”

"You don't have to worry about money, I naturally have my own way. You just have to live here in peace, I come home every day after work. But don't worry, I will never enter your room without your consent. Zhao Qinhan finished speaking slowly, looked at the watch in his hand, and said with a determined face: "I'm going back to the unit now, you can read a book or watch TV with peace of mind." ”

Zhao Qinhan left like this, and when he left, I looked at everything in this villa, and I had an indescribable feeling in my heart.

This person, he hollowed out all my life, changed all the trajectories of my life, except for the child in my womb, everything else no longer belongs to me.

I looked at the brand-new apple on the table, hesitated, and turned it on. I saw that there were only a few numbers in the address book, among which Zhao Qinhan's note to himself was "husband", I sneered and deleted it directly along with his number.

I called my eldest sister: "Sister, it's me." ”

"Little book, where are you now? Have you been discharged from the hospital? How's your body doing now? The eldest sister asked softly on the phone.

"Sister, how is Jin Yan now? Any news of him? Have you seen him? I hurriedly asked.

"Little book...... It's not good, Jin Yan ...... Not so good. The eldest sister said hesitantly.

As soon as I heard this, I was anxious, "Sister, what's wrong?" Jin Yan, what's wrong with him? ”

"Since he came out there, he's been working hard in the office almost 24 hours a day, drinking when he's not working, staying up all night and not sleeping, and then ...... Seriously ill. The eldest sister said.

When I heard the news, I sat down on the couch, my hand holding the phone as if it was stiff, and I couldn't lift it anymore.

"Little book, little book, are you okay?" The eldest sister shouted anxiously on the other end of the phone.

"I'm fine, big sister." I eased my emotions and hurriedly asked, "Sister, is Jin Yan sick?" What disease? Where, I'm going to see him, I'm going to see him! ”

"It's the same hospital you were staying in, and I was just discharged today, and I'm fine. Zhao Qinhan didn't let me go to see you, saying that you were emotionally unstable, and didn't let me tell you this. Xiaoshu, what is the current situation between you and Zhao Qinhan? If you really make up your mind to be with Zhao Qinhan, for the sake of your own future, don't go to see Jin Yan again, you know? The eldest sister said on the other end of the phone.

What the? Could it be that in the days when I was hospitalized, Jin Yan was in the same place with me? Are we just a few feet away, each lying in a hospital bed dying? How desolate is this world, and how many joys and sorrows of life do Jin Yan and I have to endure?

I couldn't hear what my eldest sister was saying anymore, there was a voice constantly circling in my head, I wanted to see him, I wanted to see him. But...... What's the use of seeing it? Our lives have already undergone a huge fission, we are already on both sides of the other side, even if we meet, what can we do?

Life is no longer beyond my control. My love has long been forcibly broken up. Everything has long been meaningless.

I sat sadly on the couch and listened to the wind outside the window, and finally, I didn't do anything, I saw the neat rows of books on the shelves, and then, I told myself, "When you can't do anything about life, just work silently." As long as you work hard, as long as you are willing to work hard, there will come a day when you can overthrow everything about this cheating father, and you can have enough ability to resist such a fate. ”

Huge grief and pain was desperately suppressed by myself, pressed on the bottom of the heart of the most heart, I picked up a book on the table written by Kawa Yoshiro "Four Seasons Flower Biography", the book of different colors, different utensils of different flower arrangements let my heavy heart derive a little bit of beauty, but also let me successfully resist the huge waves of the heart, restored as quiet as ever.

The time of ten months of pregnancy passed slowly in this strange quiet, and when you choose to take all the suffering or heaviness as a kind of practice in life, you can face people and things calmly.

In the winter, when the plum blossoms first bloom, Hangzhou, which has not snowed for many years, suddenly fell with snow, and when I was lying on the windowsill to watch the snow, my stomach suddenly came with a burst of pain......

In the room, the nanny Xiaoqin was diligently cleaning up the living room, Zhao Qinhan leaned on the stove and held a copy of "The Art of War" and read it with relish, I got up from the chair in a hurry and shouted to Xiaoqin: "Xiaoqin, hurry up and get the delivery bag in the nursery, let's go to the hospital." ”

"What's wrong? Got a reaction? Zhao Qinhan bounced up from the stall and asked me nervously.

"Hmm." I replied lightly.

"There is snow on the mountain road, and the car is not easy to drive." Zhao Qinhan hurriedly took out his phone and prepared to call someone to clear the snow.

"No need, let's go on, there is still a period of time before life, I can bear it." I said lightly.

"Little book!" Zhao Qinhan shouted.

I looked at him calmly, then I picked up the down jacket on the table, calmly put it on, and walked out the door.

My stomach hurt for a while, and it became more and more intense, and I held my big belly with my hand, and my face couldn't help but show a smile of relief.

My darling, he is now happily marching in my belly into this bright world, and every labor ache is his impatience to charge, he is so eager to feel the joys and sorrows of this world, how can he know how much growth his mother has gained because of him, and how much courage he has gained.

Baby, all the quietness is because of you, all the growth is because of you. I'm glad I survived this difficult October. And you, on your way, are desperate to run towards me.