"Xiaoshu, I'll help you, the road is full of snow, it's very dangerous." Zhao Qinhan rushed out and stretched out his hand to support me.

I didn't say no, and it was probably the only closest contact we've had in 10 months.

The sky is still snowing, the asphalt road is indeed a little slippery, I walk a few steps, my body is spasmed because of labor pain, I endure this pain, not a word is said, every step I take a particularly steady step, that feeling, not only to welcome the baby's new life, but also to welcome my new life.

I walked smoothly to the bottom of the mountain under the pain after pain, the driver's car had stopped on the side of the road, Zhao Qinhan helped me into the car, the car was speeding all the way, I reached out and stroked my stomach, the baby moved in the stomach, as if to tell me that he was still safe......

"It hurts, doesn't it?" Zhao Qinhan looked at me with a distressed face.

I didn't look at him, I was fantasizing about my words, fantasizing about him sitting next to me, holding my hand tightly, looking at me with a distressed face, comforting me softly, telling me not to be afraid. I love him so much, and we are so looking forward to the arrival of this child, but at this moment...... Where will he be?

If Jin Yan was here, I would lie coquettishly in his arms, I would put my hands around his neck tightly, I would let him put his hands on my stomach, I would keep crying out for pain, and then just in exchange for his gentle comfort.

However, at this moment, I leaned on the edge of the back seat without saying a word, keeping a distance of at least 20 centimeters from Zhao Qinhan, I didn't want him to have any physical contact with me, I didn't want to hear anything he said, I refused to show him a trace of vulnerability, obviously it hurt, but told him: "It doesn't hurt, it's okay, thank you for your concern." ”

Zhao Qinhan stretched out his hand in the air, it was stiff like that, he looked at me so distressed and helpless, and then yelled at the driver: "Go faster!" ”

I am very grateful to Zhao Qinhan for providing me with priority, the best hospital, the best doctor, the best delivery room, everything is sending a message to me: all of this is because he gives it, and I deserve it.

The doctor and the nurse were very attentive to me, asking me how I was doing almost every minute, and the nurse chatted with me throughout the whole process, constantly wiping the sweat from my face...... I was extremely cooperative, praying infinitely, praying that the little one in my belly would come into this world safely.

"Five fingers, you can enter the delivery room!" The nurse shouted, and several medical staff came and helped me to the delivery room.

At 6:10 p.m., a day I will never forget, my baby was born safely, and let out an extremely loud cry, his voice was so crisp, as if to announce loudly to the world: I am coming!

"You're welcome, little one." I collapsed on the bed exhausted, feeling like I was collapsed.

"7 pounds and 6 taels, a big fat boy, now, my sister Gu should be happy! Look at this child, how stiff his nose is, he looks white and clean, and his skin is still like you, not as dark as Qin Han! "Aunt Wang came to me with the child in her arms and nagged vigorously.

I tried my best to raise my eyelids and glanced at the child, and at a glance, I felt that the child's eyebrows, eyes, and demeanor were so similar to Jin Yan!

From the beginning to the end from waiting to give birth to him, I didn't shout a word or say anything, at that moment, I could no longer suppress the tears, I choked and shouted out a sentence "baby", just this sentence, I have burst into tears, I feel that my body is constantly sinking, suddenly, there seems to be something in the body flowing out of a steady stream, my consciousness is blurred, I can no longer wake up, as if I have fallen into chaos......

"Maternal hemorrhage, oops! Hurry up and rescue! Fast! Get into the operating room! ”

In a trance, there seemed to be a lot of people around me, as if everyone was panicking, as if I had been moved somewhere, and then, as soon as the lights came on, my body seemed to be injected with anesthetics, and I fell asleep......

I don't know how long it took, I woke up leisurely, only to know that I had once again survived a life and death catastrophe, escaped death, life was still the same as it was, I looked up, the house was full of bunches of flowers......

Zhao Qinhan was in the small hall outside the ward, accepting congratulations and congratulations from others, as if he was really a father, and he couldn't even hide the great joy in his voice.

"Child, where's my child?" Suddenly, I thought of my baby, and I hadn't even taken a good look at him.

"The child was sent to the senior nursery room, and there has been no breast milk for the past few days, and my husband is afraid of accidents, so he has been taken care of by professional nurses." Xiaoqin said on the side, and hurriedly shouted outside the door: "Sir, Miss is awake." ”

Zhao Qinhan hurriedly walked in, with a look of joy on his face that couldn't be concealed: "Xiaoshu, are you awake?" Are you feeling okay? ”

"I want to see the baby." I struggled to get out of bed.

"The baby is fine, the nurse just fed him, he is asleep now, the little one is very well-behaved." Zhao Qinhan said with a smile.

I looked at the joy on his face, and I always felt that this joy was too hypocritical, but looking at his eyes, it seemed so sincere.

"You had a heavy postpartum hemorrhage, but Aunt Wang was skilled, so it was okay and she passed it safely. Now your body is very weak, you must do it well this month, otherwise there will be big problems in the future. You can rest assured that your baby will be taken care of by a dedicated person. Zhao Qinhan said.

"You're not going to let me see my kids, are you?" I couldn't control my emotions and asked excitedly.

"How can you not let you see the child, is that you have just woken up now, and I am worried about your body. That's good, wait for the nurse to hold the baby in the bath, and after the bath, I'll let them carry it over and put it next to you, so you can rest assured, right? Zhao Qinhan hurriedly comforted.

On the afternoon of the day I woke up, the baby was finally carried in front of me by the nurse, and when I watched the little one sleep very sweetly in the swaddling clothes, my heart finally settled down.

I reached out and took the child from the nurse's hand, trembling and holding it in my arms, looking at the child's clean face and neat eyebrows, my hand touched a small, soft, warm body, he opened his eyes, and cried with a small mouth, the cry was so clear and thorough, but I had not laughed for a long time, and laughed out loud.

"He's very beautiful, and his facial features are very similar to yours." Zhao Qinhan said on the side.

I looked up at him, and when I saw the smile on his face, the smile suddenly turned cold. The more he did that, the more it scared me.

He saw my fear in my eyes, he told everyone in the room to leave, then closed the door and said to me, "Have you seen "Jin Yong"? ”

"Which one?" I don't know why he suddenly brought this up.

He sat down and said, "In the Legend of the Condor Heroes, it is recorded that in the early years when Temujin was still young, his wife was taken captive by other tribal leaders, and when she was rescued, she was pregnant. I understand your concerns, you don't believe I'm so open-minded, so you're wary of me, and think I'm unreasonable. The reason why I tell you this story is to tell you that although I am not as good as Temujin, I can at least try to be a man with a big heart. I will be responsible for you, with the children. You can rest assured. ”

"Hehe, if a person is too perfect and flawless, it can only mean two things, one is that this person is a saint, and the other is that this person is too good at packaging himself. Obviously, you're not the former. I said with a blank face.

He saw that I didn't buy it, so he smiled helplessly: "Xiaoshu, you always criticize me decently, and I always have no way at all." It's just that what I want to tell you is that if you want to be a decent person and live in this world, you need to package yourself in a timely manner. It's good to be real, but it's easy to hurt if it's too real. ”

"I don't care what you think or think, I don't know if you are really good to the child or if you have other intentions, I just want to state two points, first, the child will not have your surname; Second, I won't let my child call you Daddy. I said firmly.

When I said this, Zhao Qinhan looked at me in shock, and he muttered, "Why? I know he doesn't have my blood in him, but how can you be so selfish? My child doesn't have my last name, how can I explain it to my family in the future? ”

"Zhao Qinhan!" I shouted heavily, and I said, "It's someone else's business that others don't understand, but you know exactly what things are, and you still have to choose to blind your own heart, I have nothing to say!" I will not compromise on these two points! ”

Because of this incident, I was in a cold war with Zhao Qinhan all month long, I didn't say a word to him, I completely treated him as air, and I would never allow him to enter my ward for half a step, every time he crossed the line slightly, I yelled, he was such a face-conscious person, so in the end, he finally compromised.

I give my child's big name is Pan Jinxun, my nickname is Qiuqiu, I do everything for him personally, I take care of my child in every detail, and give him infinite care and care as much as possible. It was only when I saw that puffy little face that my heart was infinitely peaceful. I know that I have a very big mission on my shoulders, and I know what awaits me next.

In the blink of an eye, the child reached the 100th day. Zhao Qinhan's parents, who did not know what was going on, held a 100-day banquet, and at my strong request, only a few relatives and friends were invited to hold a banquet in the best hotel in the city. When I finally finished the banquet and came out early on the grounds that the children were small and easy to catch a cold, the moment I got in the car, I saw Jin Yan getting out of a car for the first time, and we inadvertently looked at each other.