In those few days, the relationship between Song Yan and Lu Yin has improved a little bit.

Even Song Yan has begun to waver, should he be tolerant, just like Min Jia said, everyone has a past.

And who said that she couldn't, one day, she would take Yan Xieyi's place in Lu Yinchen's heart.

But at that time, Song Yan knew, no, never.

On that day, it was raining heavily in the sky, and Lu Yinchen drove the car in person and talked to her about tomorrow's weekend arrangements.

When he saw the woman in the rain, the expression on Lu Yinchen's face disappeared.

Song Yan had never seen such an expression on Lu Yinchen's face.

Shocked, incredulous, and, flustered.

It was Lu Yinchen, who could be silent in front of Taishan when he collapsed, and at that time, all emotions appeared in front of him like this.

Waiting for such a thing in the heavy rain, Song Yan had also done it, but at that time, what Lu Yinchen did was just ask Yao Fei to tell him to leave.

And now, the first thing Lu Yinchen reacted to was to open the door and get out of the car.

Calm and calm like him, he didn't even play an umbrella.

Song Yan sat in the co-pilot's seat and watched him walk towards her.

The constantly moving wipers clearly reflected the scene in front of him into Song Yan's eyes.

It was he who was ecstatic and took her in his arms.

Yes, ecstatic, such an obvious emotion, Song Yan was not mistaken.

So glaring.

Finally, when the temperature on his body gradually returned, Song Yan slowly raised his hand and opened the car door.

She walked up to them with an umbrella and high heels.

Yan Xieyi's face was pale, and Song Yan felt moved when she saw me, but she just looked at her expressionlessly.

Yan Xie Yi finally reacted, broke free from Lu Yinchen's embrace, and knelt down straight in front of them.

"I beg you...... Save my child! ”

Child......

The first thing Song Yan looked at was Lu Yinchen, and his face was even more obviously shocked.

He looked at Yan Xie Yi fixedly, Yan Xie Yi also looked at him, Song Yan stood beside them with an umbrella, but none of them saw her.

The world, in their eyes, can only see each other.

That's love.

She...... Count a fart.

……

By the time Song Yan reacted, the person was already in the hospital.

Why she is also here, she doesn't know.

After hearing Yan's words, Lu Yinchen immediately hugged her and got into the car, and Song Yan, who was in a daze, also got into the car.

Mu Mu had a high fever, which caused a viral infection, and there seemed to be something wrong with his lungs, Song Yan was standing next to him, but the doctor's words couldn't be listened to much, and all she looked at was Lu Yinchen's face.

On the same day, Yan Xie Yi rejected Song Yan's check, but today, he knelt at the door of their house for the child's medical expenses.

Song Yan didn't know if she did it on purpose.

Because if she asks for money, she can ask Min Jia for it, or she can contact her, no need to ...... This is how it appears.

Song Yan knew that she was selfish and hateful to think like this, but she had promised before, hadn't she?

What she said would never appear in front of Lu Yinchen for the rest of her life.

However, she showed up anyway.

So ...... Caught off guard, but also expected.

Just when Song Yan was thinking about it, Lu Yinchen had already asked people to take care of all the matters, and there were only three of them left in the corridor of the hospital.

Song Yan sat on the chair, among the three people, she was the only one who was dry and calm, and the two of them were embarrassed.

"Is it mine?" Finally, Lu Yinchen spoke.

Song Yan looked at Yan Xie slowly, but she suddenly knelt down in front of her.

"I'm sorry Miss Song, I didn't mean to show up, I really ...... There is no way. ”

Song Yan had always felt that he was smart.

But when she saw this scene, she suddenly realized that she was ...... Stupid can.

Yan Xieyi's move is indeed clever.

Because of Yan Xieyi's words, Lu Yinchen, who had never looked at herself, suddenly looked at her, "You know?!" ”

Yes, she knows, she knows that Yan Jieyi is still alive in this world, she knows that Yan Jieyi gave birth to a child for him, and even used the money to send her away, so that she never wants to appear in front of Lu Yinchen.

She did all of this.

"Yinchen, it's not about Miss Song, she's ...... Knew not so long ago. ”

Yan Xie Yi immediately said, the rain on her body, her pitiful eyes and Song Yan's calm and calm appearance, successfully portrayed Song Yan's image as the most vicious female number two.

Song Yan stood up, looked straight at Lu Yinchen, and replied, "Yes, I know." ”

Lu Yinchen's hands were clenched tightly, and before he could speak, Song Yan looked at Yan Xie first, "Miss Yan, if you promise someone else's things, you should do it, right?" Didn't we say okay, after receiving my money, we should never appear in front of Lu Yinchen? How can you ...... What about backsliding? ”

Yan Xie kept saying sorry, and Lu Yinchen's voice was extremely cold, "You gave her back the money!?" ”

Song Yan's mood was so calm that it was terrifying, she looked at Lu Yinchen and even smiled slightly, and said, "Yes, I gave her money to let her leave, but Miss Yan was very backbone and returned my check, but Miss Yan, who are you pretending to be so pitiful when you kneel in front of us like this?" Since you don't want money, what are you going to do today? ”

"Song Yan!" Lu Yinchen's voice was already furious, and the hand that clasped himself was as if he was going to crush her bones.

Min Jia also arrived, and when she saw this scene, she immediately helped Yan Xie Yi up, and looked at Song Yan with incomprehensible eyes.

Song Yan knew that she had completely ...... Turned into a bad woman.

She wanted to laugh, but the corners of her mouth were stiff, and she could only give up and just look at them, "Am I not right?" Miss Yan, why are you looking for him? You can find me, I can give you as much money as you want! ”

"And then keep it from me forever, won't you?" Lu Yinchen laughed, and the hand that was holding her suddenly let go, "Song Yan, I misjudged you!" ”

Misread ......

Song Yan also laughed and looked at him, "Wrong? Mr. Lu, don't forget, I was a wine accompaniment before, and I finally climbed to Mrs. Lu's position with great effort, and you asked me to give it to others? Sorry, I can't. ”

After saying that, Song Yan's eyes fell on Yan Xieyi's body, "Miss Yan, don't be silent, answer me!" ”

"I'll pay it back!" Yan Xie Yi said, "I won't pester you either, as long as Mu Mu is healed, I will leave!" ”

"It's not you who should be leaving!" Lu Yinchen said loudly.

Song Yan understood the meaning of his words.

Who should leave...... It's her.

It's her......

told herself to endure it, told herself that it was not worth it, told herself that her heart was dead, but at this time, tears still fell uncontrollably from her eyes.

She looked at Lu Yinchen, "Mr. Lu, make it clear, what do you mean...... The one who should go, am I the one who should go? ”

"Song Yan." Min Jia frowned and said, "Now that Mu Mu is seriously ill, can't you calm down first?" ”

Well, Min Jia, she considers herself, best friend.

When I first met her, Song Yan's heart could be described as ecstatic.

But now, she looked at herself incomprehensibly, and what she was holding was also Yan Xiyi.

Because in their opinion, Yan Xie is so pitiful, only himself, who is aggressive here.

Who is pitiful and who is hateful, it is clear at a glance.

Song Yan didn't want to be the one who was pitied.

Like a lone beast, even if she is injured, what she should do is not to seek comfort from her master, but to find a place where there is no one and heal herself.

Because she'...... There is no host.

Even if he dies somewhere, no one will feel distressed.

Song Yan knew and knew it clearly, but at this time, she still looked at Lu Yinchen deadly, waiting for him to give her an answer.

Yan Xie Yi opened his mouth, "I'm sorry Yinchen, I shouldn't have appeared, I know, you're already married......"

"If it weren't for thinking you were dead, I wouldn't be married!"

Finally, he said it.

The heart that Song Yan thought was dead finally squeezed out the last drop of blood.

Then she saw him with a blank face, crushed from above.

Song Yan knows the game of feelings, whoever moves his heart and uses his deep affection is the loser.

She never won.

It's her stupidity, it's her who believes it again and again.

But what if...... If they had already fallen in love, if his heart had already been given to her, why bother...... Why provoke her?

Why bother?

Song Yan wiped the tears from his face and said with a smile, "Lu Yinchen, even if you regret it, it's useless!" Because I said that I will not get divorced, even if I die, I am still Mrs. Lu! ”

While speaking, Song Yan's eyes looked at Yan Xieyi, "As for you, do you want to be a third child?" Let your children become scornful wild seeds? ”

"Song Yan!"

Her eyes saw his raised arm, and she didn't hide from it, but even raised her face.

The imaginary slap did not fall.

Song Yan slowly opened his eyes, "Lu Yinchen, don't you fight?" What are you afraid of, you haven't done it before, didn't you beat me before for Xu Xiangsi? There's a first time, there's a second time, isn't it? ”

"You go." Lu Yinchen moved his lips and spit out two cold words.

Song Yan thought, he might have wanted to say, get out.

However, he didn't.

It's just that this makes no difference to Song Yan.

She laughed, "Go? Of course I will go, don't worry, even if you let me stay, I won't stay! ”

When Song Yan turned around to leave, she happened to meet Min Jia's gaze, and she laughed, "Min Jia, you don't need to look at me with such a gaze, after so many years, everyone will change, right?" Don't forget, I used to be a joker, do you think I'm still the girl in school who doesn't know anything? ”

No, she was wrong about her, too.

She's a vicious woman.

Knowing that Yan Jieyi was still alive, and knowing that she had also given birth to a child for Lu Yinchen, she still wanted to hide it from the world, in order to keep her identity as Mrs. Lu.

In order to...... Mrs. Luk's identity.

……

The rain outside was still falling, Song Yan wrapped his coat tightly and walked in the rain with an umbrella.

She looked so calm, calm and relaxed, and still elegant.

If it weren't for the tears on her face.

Song Yan also stopped in front of a shop window, only to find that his face was already full of tears.

What are you crying about?

Do you want to pay tribute to your dead heart?

Song Yan couldn't help laughing, and his originally straight waist squatted down slowly.

People passing by looked at her a little strangely.

I don't understand what this brightly dressed person is squatting on the ground crying for.

But no one will comfort her, because she has nothing to do with them.

Song Yan said that she was the beast that fought alone, no one cared about her, and no one comforted her.

Finally, a childish voice came, "Sister, are you in pain?" ”

Song Yan slowly raised her head and found that it was a little girl carved in pink, she looked at herself seriously, and before Song Yan could answer, a woman had already pulled the little girl and scolded her in a low voice, "What are you doing?" ”

"But Mom. She cried as if she had lost something important. ”

What's important......

What is it?

Song Yan couldn't remember.

Anything...... Can't remember.

……

Inside the air, there was deafening music and ambiguous smells, and Song Yan was sitting in the corner, and in front of her, there was a whole row of empty beer bottles.

Before, she had been complacent about her good drinking, but today she realized that it was a painful thing.

Even getting drunk, there is no way.

She turned on her phone and tried to find someone to come out, only to find that she didn't have any friends.

There is no family either.

It turned out that she had nothing.

Song Yan looked at it, couldn't help but laugh softly, took a sip of wine, she looked at the bartender opposite, "Another dozen beers." ”

The bartender gave her the wine with a blank face.

Song Yan was still drinking by himself.

Soon, someone came over again, "Miss, alone?" ”

Song Yan raised his head with a smile, "Yes, together?" ”

The man was very happy and sat down next to her, "Okay, I'll invite you." ”

"Thank you." Song Yan was also not polite, and drank the wine glass he handed over.

"It's so late, why don't you go somewhere else with me?" The closer the man got closer, Song Yan still smiled, "Do you know why I'm drinking here alone?" ”

"I fell out of love, and my boyfriend heard that I was sick and ran away!" Song Yan said seriously, "Do you know, what disease I have? ”

The man looked her up and down and shook his head.

Song Yan put his lips to his ear and whispered, "AIDS." ”

The man's face changed suddenly, and Song Yan grabbed his hand and didn't let go, "Actually, it's okay, we just need to wear a condom, and there is still an incubation period for this disease!" It's okay......"

Before Song Yan's words were finished, the man had already broken free of her hand and ran away.

Song Yan looked at the bartender with a smile, "Look at it, in this world, where does true love come from?" That's all a lie, what fool is there...... I'm going to really love you......"

Song Yan said, laughing himself, "It's really funny, I feel like I'm alive as if it's a joke, a ...... Big joke ......"

"Miss, you're drunk, I'll call you a friend." The bartender was used to such a situation, and when he was about to take Song Yan's mobile phone, Song Yan picked up the mobile phone and sank it directly into the wine glass.

The bartender was dumbfounded.

Song Yan smiled eating, "No one will come." ”

With that, she turned and left.

Her back still looked calm and calm, and the bartender thought that what he thought she was drunk was completely his own delusion.

And her mobile phone was left in the wine glass.

From beginning to end, there was no ringing.

Song Yan didn't know where he was supposed to go.

The driver in front took her around, circled around Haicheng, and finally said impatiently, "Miss, where are you going?" ”

Song Yan's head rested on the glass window, "Okay...... Going to Jiangcheng? ”

"That's not going to work, but I can take you to the train station."

"Then ...... Let's go to the train station. ”

……

Although there is no one of her relatives there, apart from there, Song Yan no longer knows where else she can go.

When the train arrived, it was early in the morning, and Song Yan couldn't call the car, so he walked alone on the road.

She was extremely embarrassed, there was no rain in Jiangcheng, the whole sky was gray and white, and she was accompanied only by the cleaners on the side of the road.

They all looked at her strangely.

Song Yan ignored it, the high heels on her feet were a little grinding, she simply took them off and threw them into the trash.

When his feet stepped on the ground, he quickly grinded out blood, and Song Yan didn't feel the pain, so he only walked slowly.

By the time we got to the cemetery, the sun had already risen very high.

The tomb keeper was taken aback when he saw Song Yan, but he didn't say anything, there are more people who come here in such a state.

Song Yan soon found Song Yi's grave.

She looked at the photo above, and she could even laugh, "Brother, I'm coming to see you." ”

"I'm sorry, I promised you...... To live well, but for now...... I can't seem to hold on, what should I do, what should I do, brother......"

Song Yan's tears seemed to have opened the floodgates, she couldn't hold them, she knelt down and hugged Song Yi's grave, "In the past, you said big things, you were there, but you are also gone, you are all gone." I'm left alone, alone, don't be okay...... Don't leave me alone......"

The only thing that answered Song Yan was the cold grave.

Song Yan knew that he couldn't answer.

Can't give yourself comfort.

She should know that the only person she can rely on is herself.

Only...... Herself.

……

Song Yan fell asleep in front of the grave, her body curled up in front of the grave, her feet were dripping with blood, the sun dried the clothes on her body, and it was her heart that could not be warmed.

Song Yan didn't know how long she had been asleep, and when she opened her eyes, she was still in the cemetery.

There was no one around.

The head is groggy.

She struggled to stand up, looked at Song Yi's photo, and said softly, "I'm sorry brother, next time I come, I'll try to smile and show you." ”

……

When she took a taxi back, Song Yan's whole head looked like it was about to explode, and the driver looked at her, "Miss, are you okay?" Do you want to go to the hospital? ”

Song Yan shook his head, "No need." ”

"But your face looks ugly."

Song Yan didn't say anything more, and the driver didn't say anything more, and left directly after sending her to the hotel.

Song Yan lay in the hotel for a day and a night, and finally the cleaner who came in to clean found her and notified the hotel administrator before sending Song Yan to the hospital.

Song Yan only learned when he woke up that he had a fever of forty degrees.

When the nurse was talking to herself, Song Yan only smiled, "Wow, then I'm still quite good." ”

The nurse had never seen such a person, and looked at her in surprise, "Miss, do you need me to help you inform your family?" Because you don't have a cell phone on you, we don't know your family's contact information. ”

"I don't have family, I don't have friends." Song Yan said directly, "Thank you for your concern, please take care of me." ”

The nurse gave her a sympathetic look and nodded.

Song Yan closed his eyes.

Counting it, nearly three days have passed, stations, hotels, hospitals, any place, as long as Lu Yinchen wants to, he can find himself soon.

However, he really didn't show up yet.

But also, his child is sick, his lover is back from the dead, and any one thing is enough for him to spare time.

It's like last time, Xu Xiangsi could let him throw himself on the wedding, and he didn't ask for a day and a night.

What's more, now it's his true love.

Of course...... It's more important than her.

And Song Yan still clearly remembered that when he left, he looked disappointed, and he said that he had mistaken her.

Oh, yes...... Misread.

The inside of her eyes had dried up, and Song Yan couldn't shed a single tear, but with such an emotion, her eyes were still red when she saw so many people in front of the bed next door.

The nurse was a woman in her forties, and after looking at her like this, she immediately said, "Miss Song, you should have a family, right?" Would you like to give them a call? They should be worried about you! ”

Song Yan smiled, "It's okay, I'm just ...... Alone. ”

It always has been.

……

After the high fever subsided, Song Yan's body had no major problems, and after he could leave the hospital bed, Song Yan basked in the sun in the hospital garden by himself.

Many of the people next to her are elderly, perhaps alone, or accompanied by family members.

"Song Yan?"

When he heard the voice, Song Yan couldn't help but pause and looked over.

Rowling was looking at her in surprise, "Is it really you?" What happened to you? ”

Her caring appearance really made Song Yan a little unaccustomed, Song Yan smiled and said, "It's okay, a little illness, what about you?" ”

Rowling smiled happily, "I'm pregnant!" ”

Song Yan's eyes slowly fell on her stomach, which was not obvious, and said, "Really? Congratulations. ”

Rowling simply put away her smile, "What about Mr. Lu?" Not with you? ”

Song Yan shook his head.

Rowling quickly sensed something, squinted her eyes and said, "You're not going to quarrel, are you?" ”

Song Yan replied with a smile, "You seem to care about me very much?" ”

Rowling snorted coldly, "I was just a little surprised to see how good you seemed to be that day." ”

Song Yan nodded, "Yes, we quarreled, and I came here alone, how about it?" ”

Rowling looked at her complicatedly, "Forget it, I'm not here to quarrel with you, I still have something to do, so I'll go first." ”

"Wait." Song Yan's voice came from behind.

Rowling's footsteps stopped, and when she turned her head, Song Yan stretched out her hand to her, "Lend me your phone." ”

Rowling frowned, but didn't refuse, placing the phone in her hand.

Song Yan entered a number, and it was quickly picked up over there, "Hello." ”

"Allure, I'm in the People's Hospital in Jiangcheng, you come...... Pick me up. ”

……

When she saw Rowling, Song Yan suddenly remembered something.

Why...... She's going to make room for them.

Since it is said that there is no regression, it should not be regressed.

Even if she is disgusted by everyone, even if she is opposed by everyone, she will not let go.

She's still ...... Mrs. Lu!

When he saw Song Yan's appearance, Allure's tears suddenly fell, and even if it was Allure, his eyes were red at this time.

"Miss Song, why didn't you inform us before? We all thought you ......"

Allure's voice choked, and Song Yan looked at her, "Then why...... Won't you look for me? ”

Allure wanted to say something, but when the words came to her mouth, she quickly swallowed them back.

Song Yan looked at it and immediately understood, "He didn't let you look for it, right?" ”

"Miss Song, you must have quarreled with Mr. Lu again, it doesn't matter, as long as you say a few good words to him, you can definitely reconcile."

Made......

Song Yan couldn't help but smile lightly, this time...... I'm afraid I can't.

His disgust and disgust were so obvious.

They can no longer ...... There will be no reconciliation.

……

When Song Yan went back, she knew that Lu Yinchen hadn't come back for a few days, and the room still kept the appearance of Song Yan leaving, and she still clearly remembered that the night before leaving, he hugged herself to sleep, and his temperature still seemed to be imprinted on her body and could not be erased.

Song Yan went to see Song Chenchen.

At that moment, she really wanted him to grow up quickly and take care of himself, like this...... She really didn't have to worry about it.

Song Yan didn't eat dinner, and after washing, she lay down on the bed directly, and when she got up from sleep, she was pulled up directly from the bed.

The dazzling light in the room made Song Yan stretch out her hand to block it, and then, she saw the face of the man in front of her clearly.

His eyes were bloodshot, and he looked embarrassed and exhausted like he had never seen before.

Song Yan wanted to break free of his hand, but she didn't succeed, she could only give up, looking at him calmly with her eyes, "Mr. Lu, it hurts, can you let go?" ”

"Don't you think you should give me an explanation?" Lu Yinchen gritted his teeth and said.

Interpretation?

Song Yan thought it was funny, but he really laughed.

She looked at him, "What do you want to hear?" ”

"Why didn't you tell me? Why hide it from me? ”

Song Yan knew.

She smiled, "No, because she's the woman you love, and if you knew she wasn't dead, you'd definitely want to be with her, wouldn't you?" In this way, wouldn't my Mrs. Lu's position be lost? Why am I telling you? ”

The gloom in Lu Yinchen's eyes became more and more obvious.

Song Yan continued, "It's really a pity, why didn't she die? And also gave you a baby. Of course I want her to leave, far away, but she is a woman who is really thoughtful enough, and she promised me to leave on the surface, and she appeared in front of you in a blink of an eye, and she really played a good hand......"

Before Song Yan's words were finished, the whole person had been thrown away by Lu Yinchen, and he said, "What qualifications do you have to say about her?" Song Yan, why didn't I find out before, you are really a vicious woman? ”

His strength was so great that Song Yan almost fell straight off the bed, her hands tightly gripping the sheets, but her face was still so light and light.

She turned to look at him, "Yes, I know, I'm not qualified, am I?" Didn't you find out before? That's because you misjudged me, I was originally a wine girl, and I finally climbed into your bed to become your Mrs. Lu, how could I let other women snatch it away? ”

Song Yan could even laugh out loud as he spoke, looking at him calmly with his eyes.

Lu Yinchen's hands were clenched, and the appearance of the green muscles bursting out made Song Yan wonder if he wanted to strangle himself.

However, he didn't.

He only smiled a little, "Don't worry. I won't snatch Mrs. Lu's identity, it's always yours! ”

After saying that, he was already walking towards her, Song Yan knew what he was going to do, but he didn't struggle, but obediently hugged his neck.

He lowered his head and kissed it, sweeping everything, as if he was going to swallow Song Yan directly.

Song Yan responded to him, and the two of them were on the bed, doing the same as the last, death-defying entanglement.

"Since I know that I am Mrs. Lu, don't play missing anymore, from today onwards, I won't look for you anymore, and I won't care about you!"

These were the last words he said as he left, and then he slammed the door shut.

Song Yan hugged his body tightly and closed his eyes.

There was still his breath in the room, but his people could leave happily like this.

Without a hint of dwelling.

Song Yan found that the tighter he hugged his body, the colder he felt on his body, and that feeling was like ...... The scorching heart is getting cold inch by inch.

At that time, Song Yan saw something very clearly.

She lost, completely ...... lost.

……

Song Yan went back to the days of going to the café.

She still has a smile on her face, and occasionally when she sees a handsome guy, she will make a joke.

As for Lu Yinchen, she rarely saw him, and occasionally when he came back, he just grabbed her and had endless sex.

From start to finish, he could say nothing, and he never stayed.

This kind of relationship seems to have returned to the beginning, when Song Yan was his lover.

The only connection between them is sex.

The day Lu Yinhao came, it was also a rainy day.

Song Yan was bored watching the TV series, and Lu Yinhao sat down directly in front of her, "Sister-in-law, I found you, it's really interesting." ”

Song Yan looked at him.

"Brother blatantly raised a woman outside, you know?"