40. Put it to death and then be born, break out of the cocoon and become a butterfly!
That look in my eyes made me feel as if a layer of ice had formed from my heart, and in an instant it spread to the limbs of hundreds of corpses, freezing me to the core.
"Mu Qing, I'm—"
As soon as I opened my mouth, I saw him shake his head, "Don't say it." ”
"But I-"
He frowned and suddenly roared, "I'll tell you not to say anything!" ”
It was the first time in my memory that he had been so angry at me.
I also finally know that there is a kind of person who can be gentle until your bones are soft, and once you show a fierce face, it can definitely make you creepy.
I was so yelled that I froze in place, not daring to make a sound.
I saw him sigh heavily, his eyes were red, his teeth were clenched, and the green tendons on his neck protruded. Immediately, he lowered his head and snorted. When he looked up at me again, there was only pain in his eyes.
It turns out that there is a kind of punishment, and a look is enough.
I could barely hold back my tears from that look. He tilted his head, took a few breaths, and walked over to me step by step.
I stared at him blankly, wishing he had taken another look at me, and read from me that it was all just a misunderstanding. However, he just silently twisted his head away, and then handed over the box in his hand, and his voice was faint, "Eat it while it's hot." ”
After I took it, he strode away. I kept staring at his resolute back until he completely disappeared at the end of the corridor, and he never looked back.
When I got home, I opened the box and saw a beautifully made sandwich with a warm bottle of New Year's milk next to it. I felt my heart sink and sit down limply.
After coming to the office, I stared at my phone all morning with trepidation. When it was time to leave work, I hesitated for a while, but finally took a document, pretended to be going to discuss the project with him, and gently slammed on his door.
No one answered.
I didn't give up and buckled it again, and the result was still the same. I simply pushed my hands out, and the door creaked open, but there was no one in front of me.
At this time, Secretary Xiao came back and said to me apologetically, "Director Lu, are you looking for Mr. Duan?" He's on a business trip this morning! ”
I was stunned, "On a business trip!" Why haven't you heard of it before? ”
Secretary Xiao shrugged helplessly, "I don't know, I was temporarily arranged this morning, and I was still in a hurry." ”
"That's... How long will it take? ”
Secretary Xiao shook his head, with a painful expression, "Mr. Duan didn't say anything, he just told me that all his calls would be forwarded to the landline, so that I could watch and deal with it." No, I just came back from an errand. I've been his secretary for so long, and I've never seen him disappear with a single sentence like this, there are so many things, but I'm too busy. ”
I nodded thoughtfully, and it seemed that I didn't even dare to make a phone call.
"By the way, Director Lu, do you always have something to do?"
I hurriedly shook my head, "That... It's not a big deal, and I'll deal with it when he comes back. ”
After taking a few steps, I turned around and said to Secretary Xiao, "If Mr. Duan comes back, can you please notify me as soon as possible?" ”
Secretary Xiao blinked dumbly and nodded.
After that, I went to the jewelry store and spent almost the whole afternoon inside. Watching people go back and forth and be busy, I was as confused and sluggish as a walking corpse. I sighed helplessly: This feeling, it's really not a good thing! It can make you feel like heaven in the last second, but it can also make you fall into hell in an instant.
And I, on the other hand, am a person who is easily affected by emotions, and I feel uncomfortable, so I have no way to think about work at all.
In the morning, Xiao He also told me that the people over there had never contacted us again, and according to reliable information, the Far Eastern Group had already begun to send people to contact them.
This project, eighty percent is yellow!
I shook my head in frustration, nothing went well.
At this time, the door was pushed open, and Ni Na was wearing a bohemian dress, full of style. She took off her sunglasses and looked around. Renke stepped forward to say hello to her, and she smiled and nodded.
After that, the two talked for a while, and after asking some questions, she nodded with satisfaction, put on her sunglasses again, and looked like she was about to leave.
When she turned her head to my side, she was stunned, then took off her sunglasses, smiled at me, and walked over.
I got up to greet her, and after the two of them sat down, I was afraid that the atmosphere would be embarrassing, so I casually greeted her, "What have you been busy with lately?" You must be tired of running at both ends of the company and the store, right? ”
"I quit my job at the company, and now I'm focused on the store. It's the first time I've been here today, and it seems that the management is quite good, and the manager is also very suitable, so I'm relieved. In the future, you will have to worry more about this side, and after I arrange it over there, I may have to rest for a long time. ”
"Huh?" I was a little surprised, "You resigned?" ”
She smiled, "It's a matter of time before I resign, and that place is not where I should be." Actually, my major is jewelry design, and after graduation, I really couldn't find a suitable job to go there, who knows......" The corners of her mouth rolled up with a touch of bitterness, "This job I don't like, and once I do it, it will be seven years." ”
I nodded, "Now, you've got your wish." I did what I really loved. ”
She raised her eyebrows, "But isn't it, this person, only by doing something that he doesn't like very much first, can he have the capital to do what he really likes!" ”
I smiled and watched her look out the window at the crowd, and I thought to myself, I might as well not say anything about where she was going to go after a long rest.
Just thinking about this, I saw her change the topic, "What, you quarreled with Duan?" ”
I panicked, "You—How do you know?"
She smiled, "How else can you know, a clear-eyed person can know by looking at your face!" Look at your red face at the ribbon-cutting ceremony that day, and then look at the dejected look you look like now..."She shook her head to herself, "Only a woman in love can be so sad and happy." ”
I smiled bitterly and said thoughtfully, "Sometimes I wish I was a robot, and I wouldn't be moved or heartbroken. Under the pitch-black sunglasses, there are always a pair of unwavering eyes. ”
She didn't speak, just smiled shallowly. After sitting there for a while, I said, "Ni Na, why did you say those things to me that night, do you know something?" ”
She lowered her head, "You know, some men, like fireworks in the night sky, when they are gorgeous, they will be so charming that people are reluctant to close their eyes. But once it is silent, it will never be ignited again. ”
I tilted my head, puzzled.
"The time when a man is really interested in a woman is, in fact, like fireworks in the night sky, just for a short moment. After that, more of them relied on other relationships to sustain themselves. If you don't hold him while he blooms in the night sky for you, then ......," she lowered her head and looked at me steadily, "once he falls silent, you'll soon be a passerby in his life." ”
Seeing that I was stunned and didn't speak, she laughed again, "It's cruel! But this is a man! And in this world, in fact, most men are the same. ”
He paused, then continued, "Including your end." It's just a little different, he's a more real man. You can still feel at least a trace of genuine friendship in him. You know what? Now there are very few such men. ”
I thought about it and thought about it, and finally I mustered up the courage to say the question in my heart, "Why do you know him so well?" You guys... Is it better? ”
I thought that she would be a little angry when she asked such a question, but she still smiled indifferently, "I can tell you clearly that I only have a strong relationship with him in money, and there is no emotional entanglement." Moreover, for a woman to understand a man, it actually has little to do with whether she goes to bed or not. Like you, do you think you know him? ”
Her confession left me speechless for a moment.
"Xiaoxi, sometimes I really feel sorry for you. You're actually quite attractive, but you never know where your charm is, so you don't know how to use it at all. ”
"Charm?"
She nodded, "Not every woman has to arm herself to be as high as a queen in order to be capable. Some women are as gentle as water and have a gentle temperament. But meekness and weakness are not the same! If you look at the water, they never try to change anything, but with their persistence, everything in the world can change. ”
I looked at her with a sudden realization, and she smiled slyly, "Sometimes, a woman who knows how to be soft is more lethal. And you are precisely the kind of woman who is born with a gentle temperament, but unfortunately your past experience may have had a bad influence on you, so that you can stretch yourself up like a frightened bird at any time, and try your best to build a wall for yourself and wrap yourself! Think about it, you yourself have protected yourself so well, how can men protect you to show their majesty? ”
I was stunned.
She continued, "In other words, even if you really have a big revenge, you don't have to make yourself strong, the stronger you are, the more you will scare away the people around you." What you need more is to use your tenderness to conquer the man who can help you. The softer you are, the stronger he will be! The real strength of a woman does not lie in how strong you look, but in whether you can clearly know: what you have, what you want, and then ......"
She looked at me meaningfully, "How to use what you have to fight for what you want!" ”
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